My Heart Beats Where

Chapter 1

What is tomorrow?

"Ari don't leave me." Kanata held cold lifeless hands on his. His tears' flowing freely as his heart was shattering uncontrollably. So what's next? Nothing... he'll spend the next couple of days accepting that Ari couldn't be there with him anymore though he knew it'll take him some years to do that stuff. He sat there leaning on the wall like a child who lost its mother. He moved his head backward hitting the wall and a soft thud could be heard which was followed by another and another until he was continuously banging his head.

"Don't do that" Kanata ignored him and continued what he was doing. "don't you realize that she could be seeing this miserable scene?" Kanata stopped and looked at the young boy.

"I know someone like you. But the only reason why she does that is to wake up and remind her that this is real." The young boy said, satisfied, he started to walk at the opposite side of the room.

"real..." Kanata remembered the young boy as the student with the teacher moments ago. Everything he said was true although the admittance is still hard; the fact that reality is thiswas true.

"Ari..." Then again, he broke down, not minding if he looked like some baby who didn't know where to find his mother.

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Miyu reclined on her bed and stared at her surroundings. She was inside a hospital alright, but what was she doing there? She hated this place, and now she's back. How many times does she have to go through with it? She was just here, few days ago and now, she's here again. Just then, she noticed a young boy who was sleeping, seated a few meters away.

"Yuki?" The boy's head fell down which woke him up. "Oh, Miyu, you're awake." He said while standing up to sit right next to her. "Yep, what am I doing here... again?"

"Well, as usual, you fainted while we were practicing."

"Oh... sorry for being a bother, you're always being caught with this situation ever since we met." Miyu said as she looked at the young chestnut haired boy beside her. "No problem, I insist on it anyways."

"Where's sensei?"

"He's downstairs trying to contact your parents, but the same thing happened. They're in the middle of an experiment and couldn't be bothered... even if it's a life and death matter." He looked at Miyu who had her face down. He pitied Miyu for having the busiest parents in the world. They were never there for her, 16 contests and 5 graduations, all those times, he never saw Miyu's parents. "Just the usual them, anyways, am I allowed to go home tomorrow?"

"I don't know Miyu, but I heard that you're going to have a heart transplant. Isn't that promising?"

"Yeah I guess."

"Of course it is, we don't want you ending up like the girl on the opposite door." He said. "Why, did she die?"

"Uh-huh, and I think that was her boyfriend who was crying outside. You know, he looks miserable. Its like he's the one who died and not the girl." He explained while Miyu just nods her head. "You little rat; you don't want them getting mad at us for sniffing at their personal lives."

"I didn't mean to... he just looks so awful a while ago. But you should've seen him, he's really handsome and I think I saw him once in the television." Yuki said, excited. He was just a little boy after all. "Really, so you talked with him?"

"Nah, he was ignoring me though I think he listened to what I said. You see, he was banging his head like mad and I remembered what you told me the time you were banging your head too."

"Really, but I think you should've let him do what he wants to do for now. He lost someone special, and you know what people like him does."

"You know Miyu, why do you sound so kind inside the hospital while outside, you're completely the opposite of what you are now." With that, he received a smack on the head from Miyu.

"Hey!"

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"Kanata, come... let's take you home."

"No... I think I should just go home by myself. Thanks anyways." Kanata left the couple inside the hospital while the security escorted him outside until he entered a cab. He stared at the window and at the water droplets on it.

"it looks stupid."

"You know, it's better than doing nothing."

"You think you could count everything? We'll eventually get out of this cab you know." Kanata said towards a very beautiful girl by his side who just keeps smiling at him. "I know." He just sighed. He's lucky having a cat to talk than having Ari agree with him.

He chuckled as he placed his hand on the window. The old driver looked at him through the mirror and smiled. "You know young man; it isn't really nice to keep those feelings of yours for a long time." Kanata stared at the mirror and stared at the old man's laughing eyes strangely. "What do you know... you don't know how I feel."

"I don't think so... what you are going through right now is really evident, how much you've wanted to hide it but still, you can't... cause it's there." The old man said before focusing his attention on the road, leaving Kanata pondering on what he said. 'so, hiding your feelings is stupid? What do I know...? I don't have anything such as that anyways.

"Alright young man... we're here." The cab came to a stop in front of a very huge building with a very elegant foyer with different students going in and out. Kanata handed the man 50 bucks before he exited the cab. On his way there, a guy at his age approached him and placed his hand on his shoulder. "Kanata... how's she?"

"gone?" He said in a sarcastic manner. Santa was taken aback by this for he never heard Kanata speak like this. "Kanata..."

"Just... leave me alone." He shoved his 'best friend' away like he was some beggar insisting on giving him more money. Santa backed off and walked away, passing by a girl who didn't look too happy. Kanata did the same to everyone... he just pushed them away and most of this everyone were his friends who seemed to have met someone profound... not the Kanata they've always knew but a Kanata they never wanted to know.

He slammed the door to his room and sat on the edge of his bed. He leaned on his hand and stared at the floor then at the picture of Ari by his window. He stood up and picked it... "Tell me what I will do now..." He stared at Ari's picture and it seemed to stare back. "Please tell me..." He was at the verge of crying as he slid down his wall and began to cry.

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"I didn't want to have a transplant anyways."

"Miyu, don't talk like that."

"Yeah Miyu, if you really don't want to be a bother then stop acting like you want to be one." Yuki was like an older person; by the way he acts, thinks and talks. He seems to be so much older than Miyu. "Fine alright... I just can't imagine having another heart placed in here."

"It would be fun I guess."

"Miyu, don't worry about it. You'll be fine than ever... just look on the bright side; you won't have to go to the hospital every now and then." Jin said; her professor. Suddenly, there came a knock on the door in the middle of their conversation.

"Mr. Komo?" A doctor appeared by the door holding a paper and a pen. "Yes?"

"We have confirmed Ms. Mizuki's heart transplant and the donor have been agreed upon." Jin's face lit up after hearing the good news. Yuki, as well, was glad after hearing the news but Miyu seemed trouble. There are a lot of things going on inside her head at the sound of this said transplant.

"She could have the transplant anytime she wants and by four days, she's free to go."

"I'll have it tomorrow." Her answer was abrupt which surprised everyone. She really wanted to go through with this torture and this was her chance. The doctor nodded and left the three of them inside. Jin was reading a paper as he sat beside Miyu. "So who's the donor teach?" Jin handed the paper to her and Miyu scanned it.

"She's beautiful..."

"What's her name?"

"Akira? They didn't state her full name though"

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"Ari... please come back" Kanata's face was full of pain yet expressionless... he seems awfully empty although he had stopped crying but his heart wouldn't. He thoroughly ignored the continuous bangs on his door and focused on Ari's picture.

"Santa... just give him time. I'm sure he'll get it over with." Nanami said... sadness held in her eyes too. "You expect him to move on that easy? If you do... you're crazy" Santa was really mad that time... for some reason he didn't know. He just feels like punching Kanata until he woke up. "Maybe not now... but he will. You'll see."

It was gloom day in Hyureka University... The most popular international university... but right now, it was nothing. Most students didn't seem too happy nor would they? And who believes that the famous Kanata Saionji would fall in love again even after the only person he'll ever love is gone.

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'till then... I hope to update soon. Pls. Read and review.