A/N: I'm totally sorry for flaking out on you guys. I know it's been a while since I updated this but I was busy trying to finish it on another site and life just kicks you when you're down.
Anywho, on the story. Here's the next part. It's rather long but it still isn't completely finished. I know how I want the party night to go but I just cant seem to get there. I'll have to work on that. But anywho, here you go and I hope you like it.
Setting: Inside G Major; Jude's party had begun.
Tommy watched Jude from afar and admired how beautiful she looked in her dress as she mingled with her guests. He took a small sip of his water and continued to watch her. He watched her bring smiles to the faces of those who she accompanied; how she made everyone feel relaxed when they were in her presence. To them, she wasn't Jude Harrison, Instant Star. She was just plain old Jude Harrison, the girl who loved music and hated math more than anything.
Tommy on the other hand, didn't feel at ease or anywhere near as relaxed as everyone else when Jude was around. He felt the complete opposite; butterflies filled his stomach, palms became sweaty, lumps formed in his throat. He soon found out his ability to make any form of communication with her was shot to hell. And that's part of the reason why he was disappointed Jude didn't talk to him. Their separation made Tommy realize that the butterflies he felt were childish and he was determined to make her see that; he was determined to show Jude that he's not as afraid to take things to the next step like she is. And that is exactly what he planned on doing…
Jude allowed her guests to mingle amongst themselves so she could take the time to talk to Sadie. Her and Sadie walked into studio a and took their seats on the sofa. Sadie took note of the façade Jude put on but let it slide…for now.
"So what do you think of the party so far?" Sadie pushed a few strands of her naturally curly blonde hair behind her ear and focused in on her sister.
"It's pretty good. I'm usually not one to mingle but everyone here seems to be pretty interesting." Jude put her head down as she took her gaze away from Sadie. She tried to hide the thoughts of Tommy from surfacing but knew that it was no use. Now was the time for Sadie to tell Jude the harsh truth; after some sisterly conversation.
"What's wrong, Jude?" Sadie dipped her head in Jude's line of vision almost willing her to look up at her but she wasn't successful.
"Nothing, I'm fine." Jude sniffled quickly, willing the tears to become subsided but knew that they would fall soon.
"Don't lie to me," Sadie said consolingly. "Whatever it is you know you can tell me." Sadie enjoyed the closeness of their relationship now. After everything with their parents, the two just had each other and they knew they had to make it work that way.
Suddenly, Jude said what she had been meaning to say for a long time. "I hate it." Sadie knitted her brow in confusion at first but as soon as the meaning of the three worded statement sunk in, her expression softened. "Oh, Jude." Sadie scooted over closer to Jude and placed her arms around her sister's frame, enwrapping her in a hug.
"I absolutely hate it, Sadie. I hate how I feel when I'm asleep; I hate how I feel his arms around me because I know it's just my imagination. I hate that I can still feel his lips on mine. I hate the fact that he's right there, directly in front of me all the time, and I just watch him walk away from me. I hate how he still gets to me like he always has. But most of all, I hate that I'm doing this to him." As Jude finished her last sentence, the tears began to slowly fall down her face.
"Then why do let yourself feel like that? It's unnecessary, Jude." Sadie began to slowly rock with Jude side to side in an effort to calm her nerves.
"I shouldn't be crying, it's stupid; I cry over him every night. You'd think I'd be all cried out by now."
"Jude, it's not stupid to cry over someone you care about. It's common nature; it just lets you know that what you feel is real." At Sadie's statement, Jude allowed the tears to flow faster down her pink cheeks. "Shh, Jude, it'll be okay." Sadie paused for a moment and then continued with the harsh truth. "Jude, I know you're feeling like crap right now but in all honesty, you did this to yourself."
Sadie felt Jude jerk out of her arms and she knew that this was going to go exactly how she knew it would. "If you just let him be there for you when he wanted to, none of this would be happening. He wanted you Jude and he still does. The only thing that's stopping the progression of things is you."
"I know!" Jude screamed back at Sadie. If it was one thing she knew it was that her loneliness was all her fault.
"I'm going to go, Jude. I'll leave you alone for a little while if that's what you want." Sadie stood up from the sofa and walked out of studio a leaving Jude alone, for the time being…
Tommy noticed Sadie leaving studio a with a cocky smile on her face from his stance at the bar. He looked through the glass wall of the studio and noticed Jude's frame shaking slightly as she cried. With every exhale of tears from Jude, his heart broke a little more. He looked at her frame sadly and was about to go into deep thought about their situation but they were interrupted by Sadie popping up in his line of vision.
"She'll be okay, Tom. She just needs a little time."
"What if I'm sick of giving her time?" Tommy looked at Sadie with pain evident on his handsome features. "What if I'm sick of waiting for her to make up her mind?"
Sadie gave Tommy a quick hug then copied his stance as she leaned up against the bar with him. "Then I'd say you're human. I know you're sick of waiting and I know she's sick of pushing you away. The only thing I don't know is why you're standing here next to me instead of being in there with her."
Tommy gave Sadie a sideways glance and noticed her mischievous smile plastered to her lips. "Go to her, Tom. She'll probably push you away again, but I guarantee you before the night is over, she'll come to you."
Tommy smiled at Sadie and enjoyed the renewed sense of hope he had for him and Jude. He kicked himself off of the bar with his foot and headed towards studio a…
Tommy looked at Jude from his position by the door of studio a; her demeanor alone was enough to make him cry. She sat with her knees as close to her chest as possible, due to the way the fabric of the dress rested against her body, and she was crying; full out sobs escaping her throat, her semi-curled blonde hair hanging loosely by her face and on her back. Tommy exhaled heavily and walked completely into studio a, taking the empty seat on the sofa beside her.
At first, Tommy was going to go with his instincts and wrap her into an embrace he never wanted to get out of. But just like always, he thought of how she would feel first. So instead, he just nervously fidgeted with his thumbs, not quite sure what to do in order to console her. He sat by her side and just listened to her cry; not knowing what else there was for him to do at that moment.
After a few more moments of listening to Jude cry, Tommy broke. He quickly leaned back and extended his arms for Jude, taking her in them lovingly. "Shh," he began. "Don't cry, Jude." But no matter what Tommy said, the tears still fell, for only reasons she knew. So instead of using words to console her, he just sat there on the sofa and held her while she cried, knowing that the sobs would soon subside.
Before the duo realized it, they were holding their embrace for a half an hour. It was no longer an embrace to console Jude; it was now an embrace to slowly mend their broken relationship. Jude wiped the remaining tears from her face then pulled away from Tommy, taking her previous position on the sofa. Tommy thought about giving her the time she needed to think things over but he wanted answers, ones in which he felt he deserved.
"Jude, I know this is the last thing you want to talk about right now, but I just need to know." Jude studied his facial expression for a few moments, trying to figure out what it was he was quickly getting at.
"Um, okay," Jude replied slowly in between sniffles.
"Why…Why did you push me away? I just wanted to be with you, to actually have you as my own and you pushed me away. Why?" Jude looked at Tommy and noticed the pain radiating from his eyes; pain in which she was the sole cause of.
"You're right, Tommy," Jude began to stay confidently. "I don't want to talk about this." She stood up from the sofa and was about to leave when Tommy's stern voice stopped her.
"Well that's just too damn bad for you because we are going to talk about this." Jude spun around and seen Tommy looking up at her from his seat on the sofa. "So why don't you walk yourself back over here so we can finally get this out of the way and you can go and enjoy your party." Jude thought about it for a moment then obeyed. She reluctantly went back to her seat on the sofa and waited what came next.
Silence…silence was what greeted them after Jude took her seat. They both had tons of things to say to each other but neither wanted to be the one to initiate the conversation. Tommy's questions still had gone unanswered and that was the sole purpose of him going into the biggest studio of the company. So he decided to finally seek the answers he deserved.
"Jude, I don't understand." He tore his gaze away from the carpeted floor and to Jude's magical blue pools. Whenever he looked into them he knew he could see into her soul. "I don't understand why you did those things to me."
Jude sighed in aggravation and got up to leave once again. Tommy noticed and wasn't about to let it happen.
"Damn it, Jude!" He snapped as he stood up to stop her from leaving the studio. He jumped in front of her path to stop her from progressing and continued. "Stop walking away from me! Stop making me feel like I did something wrong!"
"You did do something wrong, Tommy! Why is it so hard for you to see that!" Jude knitted her brow in anger as she felt their confrontation about to grow.
"What did I do to you that was so bad? Huh?" Tommy raised his voice with this statement but lowered it when he began his next one. "The only thing you can every accuse me of is loving you. That's all I've ever done, Jude. You're just too damn stubborn to realize it."