Jude's mouth fell somewhat agape at Tommy's statement. He was right and she knew it. She always accused him of hurting her emotionally but she was the one who hurt herself.
Jude pushed her thoughts aside for now and focused in on Tommy. "Don't you think I know that?" Jude bit back. She may be crying but she was still angry about their situation and she was going to let him know, even if it meant confessing some things she wasn't ready too. "Don't you think I know I'm the reason why were not together? It hurts me just as much as it does you! I know it's my fault and I know that I can't take the past three years back. But damn it Tommy, I want too!"
At that confession, Tommy wanted to do nothing more than kiss her like it was his last time. But being the helpless romantic that he is, he didn't. He needed for their first kiss in three years be something that the two wanted, not some forced act. So instead, he let her continue on her angry yet confessing rant.
"This situation is what keeps me up at night; it makes me feel like the biggest jerk in the world because I'm not just doing this to myself, I'm doing it to you too."
"You're not a jerk, Jude. You're the farthest thing from being one." Jude shook her head at Tommy's statement, not wanting to continue with their conversation. She pushed him aside and headed for the door.
"No!" Tommy screamed forcefully. He turned around and grabbed Jude's arm in his hand. "I get that you don't want to be here Jude, but don't leave yet." His voice fell soft as he found himself becoming defeated. "You can't leave without getting your presents." Jude smiled slightly; he always got her something for her birthday. Even during the years where they didn't speak, he always got her a gift for her birthday and this year was no exception.
"Make it quick," Jude stated as she spun around to face him. She may be taking the gifts but she still wasn't willing to continue their conversation. That may have made her a bad person at that moment in time but she just didn't care.
Tommy smiled slightly and reached in his jacket pocket. He pulled out both gifts and held them in his hands.
"This one is my first gift to you," Tommy stated as he handed Jude the jewel cased CD. "There's a long note inside; I wrote it last night. It should clear things up if the CD doesn't."
Jude took the jewel case and noticed the paper on the inside. It was folded up into a square that fit perfectly into the case and the words, 'Dreaming of You,' were written in Tommy's messy scrawl. She looked up at him for a moment but tore her gaze away quickly. Tommy just pushed it aside and continued with the gift giving process.
"And this one you have to open up right now," Tommy stated as he handed her the medium sized jewelry box. Jude knitted her brow in confusion at his demand but did so anyway. She slowly flipped open the box to reveal a silver charm bracelet. The links were heart-shaped and encrusted with diamonds. The bracelet only had four charms on it; one was a small guitar with a single diamond in the middle. The second was a musical note with two small diamonds on the bottom; the third was the number '21' but the final one was what caught Jude's attention. As she slowly ran her index finger around the bracelet, she stopped at the small half-piece of a broken heart. She noticed the rigid edges on the inside of the charm and couldn't help but stare at it.
"I have the other half," Tommy began knowing exactly what her expression meant. He reached into his pants pocket and pulled out the other half as it dangled from the loose silver chain it was on. He slipped it around his neck and continued. "Maybe one day we can put them together." Tommy smiled at Jude sadly then left studio a. Once outside, he turned back around to take one last look at Jude before leaving the party all together…