yo,
i am one of the many voices in skylars head...i am his boyfriend and am sad to say that somethig terrable has happened over the corse of the weekend...i wont tell you the deatails but i will tell you that i will be takeing over his account and finish his fics for him. oh...by the way my name is malikai and with the the help of skylar and our frien seimei i bring you the second chapeter of I Dont Want To Fade Away
Disclamer: i do not in anyway shape or form own the naruto characters...neither does seimei...i do how ever own the voice in sasuke-kuns head.
Warning: blood, swearing, and...other stuff too...
Chapter 2
Big Brother
...why wont the pounding stop?
"...how is he...is he...doctor?"
who. who's voice is that? where am i?
Thoughts are going through my head so fast it feels like i'm drowning. " Open your eyes, moron." I hear a voice tell me. The same voice as before...the one that told me to do 'it'. Slowly i open my eyes and I am greeted with the sight of a white tiled ceiling. As my eyes adjust i turn my head slightly and to my horror I find myself hooked up to a hearts monitor, and a needle in my arm. As surprise and fear sink into my skin my body shoots up from the bed and I start to tear at the iv needle imbeded in my skin. With one last violent tug ithe needle is pulled out of my bandaged arm. As the blood starts to fall from the hole were the needle used to be i hear something on the other side of the door. Slowly and very quietly I get up from the cold starchy hospital bed and as the hospital gown slowly slides down one of my pale shoulders revealing more crisp white bandages I make my way to the other side of the room and slowly I open the door and to my horror I find that there are at least three security gaurdes outside of my room. I shut the door and quietly make my way to my bed.
As I pull back the covers of the bed a thought hits me. what happened? My mind is blanck as I try to recall what has happened, and why I am here. It's not like any one actually care's about me anyway. It's a known fact. Everyone at school either hates me or dosnt know that I'm even alive. I'm dead to them and I'm cold inside. Always cold inside. It'll never ever go away...I want to be dead...I want everyone to remember me. I wan them all to know what they did to me... are doing to me. I want o know why I'm here. Why am I here if all I'm going to do is suffer? Is that my fate? Is it my destiny to be lost and alone... to feel all this undenied hatred directed all at me for my pitiful worthless existance?
I wrap the blanket tighter and tighter around my cold shivering body as the tears that I have been holding in for so longare finally ready to fall. Soaking my pillow and my face. Trough my tear blurred eyes I see the cold steel colored door slowly creek open to reveal a tired and fateiged doctor. As he walks his stringy moonlight colored hair falls into his face and into his tired sea green eyes. Eyes that have seen more thatn any man ever thought he would. Eyes that are filled to the brim with wisdom. A rustle of cloth as he reaches out to push back the hairs that have gone astray.
" Hello there son. My name is Dr.Ferouski. Do you know why you are here?"he asks with something aken to kindness or concern in his voice. I shake my head and look at him like he is the insane one... I'd tell him...but then he would win. Prove that he's better than me when he's not. No. No, no one is better than me...or... You dont sound to sure of yourself. Whats wrong? Lose your 'confidense'? Hmm. he laughs as I struggle with something to say that wont give away to much. Instead of saying anything i just wrap the covers tighter around my small fragile form. As i shake with my silent sobbing I try to will the doctor away from me. Away from the room...far far away.
Finally he gets up and leaves saying a silent good night. And as my eyes begin to close and my mind begins to darken i wonder what i'm going to do...
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A
living nightmare, asleep but still aware.
The endless torture.
The
painless pleasure.
I grasp myself
How ironic. i tell myself as I finally deside to come back to the world of the living. That song is perfect. It explains my life almost perfectly...almost. I sigh as i sit up and turn the diskman off. Slowley i pull the covers off of me and put my feet on the ice cold floor. che. this is stupid! why not just get out of here? run away or sumthing... i think im starting to put my trust in a voice...thats in my head...whatever i say to myself as i make my way to the washroom. Opening the door i step up to the sink and up on to a stole conveinently placed by the sink. sighing i look into the mirror. I jump as im greeted with blood shot eyes, messy hair that is covered in sweat and is sticking to my pale face, chole black eyes surrounded by dark circles from lack of sleep, and a huge bruse on the left side of my face just under the eye. what the hell happened to me? i scream to myself as my fist darts out and hits the mirror dead in the center. I start screaming...screaming for no reason. i fall to the floor holding my hand with glass shards sticking out of it i start pounding on the floor.
I suddenly stop as I hear foot steps aproaching my door and muffled voices of the nurses and doctor. I continue pounding on the floor untill the bathroom door is slamed open to reveal...
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:p cliff hanger. please leave a review...it will make my day...hell it would make my year! any way i would like to leave you with a poem i wrote fro my dear dear skylar. its tittled "gone forever"
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moolight falls on your soft silver hair
as i stare hopelessly into your blank blood red orbs
slowley sorrow filled tears fall from your eyes
you smill that goofy smile...it never leaves you face...
dose it?
"i guess i wont...be a able to say...happy birthday..."
my eyes snap shut as tears start to fall
slowley i open my eyes and look at your small cherub face
my fingers running threw your hair slow to a stop
your so cold...your face...stone cold...like ice
you smile...forever ingraved in my mind
screaming...some ones screaming?
why does my throat hurt? am i the one screaming?
i wince as i crane my neck to look around
people are gathering...why do they just stand there with their mouths hanging open?
cant they see we need help?
im screaming again...what? im not sure
it dosnt matter...
...your gone...
...not coming back...
...never...
...im all alone...
...forever...
i will never love another...no one but you...
i love you skylar
xxxxxx
anyway thats all. i hoped you enjoyed this chapter.
buh bye minna-san!