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What if Ah
Chapter Fourteen – Curiosity
Kate laughed once more as she stepped out the limo onto the hard ground of the driveway outside the mansion. Remy held out his hand and helped her stand up.
"Gawd ah hate these shoes! Who ever came up with the idea that woman should wear these should be shot!" She stated as she nearly fell into Remy as she stood up, luckily he had caught her and now she was partly leaning on his chest and partly on her own feet.
Remy laughed and helped her stand up on her own, he shut the door of the limo and watched as it started to move and leave the mansion.
"Remy think, dat de person already be long dead an' gone, mon chere." He replied. He looked at Kate, who was smoothing out her red dress. Remy's eyes travelled over the curves of it, starting with her feet, and the shoes she had cursed to a damnation in hell just before they got out of the limo, up her covered legs, his eyes playing with the cream swirls, following them up until they disappeared and only red was left. He looked at her flat smooth stomach and up to her breasts and then where the dress stopped he trailed the lines of her collar bones and up her neck. He realised that she was looking at him and quickly he started to walk towards the door, still holding Kate's hand.
"Nah, it was most likely a man ah'm guessing. No woman would make millions suffer lahke this." She said, before pouting. Remy laughed and Kate looked up at him, his strong features were enhanced by the night as most of his face was shadowed and they stuck out. When they reached the door, Remy went to open it, but he felt Kate's hand resting on his, stopping him. He looked up and watched as she reached up and began to stroke his check, he looked down at her, his eyes burning, his other hand came up to her face and cupped it and slowly their faces came closer together until her mouth and his were less then an inch away.
She sucked in a breath and then tip toed up so her lips touched him, suddenly she felt Remy's other hand on her hip and her other hand around the back of his neck and running through his hair. She opened her mouth and moved against him, he kept kissing her and he dipped his head lower so his hair fell against her face, tickling her gently.
Slowly they pulled away from each other and Remy saw her with a dazzled smile on her face, and he knew he had one that matched on hers. They kept smiling at each other and Kate blinked a couple times, gathering herself together.
"Thank ya Remy. This was nahce."
"Oui, it was, I really enjoyed it surprisingly." He took hold of the door handle again and heard Kate giggle, "What?"
"Ya said, Ah, not Remy, ya said Ah."
Remy looked shocked and turned to face her as he opened the door and they both began to walk in.
"Remy did not!" he said, offended.
"Yes ya did! Ah heard it, ya can't deny it! Ah know what ah heard." She called out to him. When she got inside she looked up at Tante Mattie who had just walked out of the kitchen. She held a look of grief and sadness on her face.
"Alright, Remy admit it, but it was a slip, never gunna happen again." He too turned and saw the pained expression on Mattie's face. He raised an eye brow and suddenly Merci and Bella came out of the kitchen too and quickly ran up to Kate and both gave her a massive hug. Both girls looked like they were about to cry and Kate go suddenly worried.
"What's the matter?" she asked them as they let go of her.
Both looked at their hands and neither answered the question. She panicked and looked over at Mattie, who was still standing in the door way of the kitchen.
"Betsy came down 'while ago, some.." she paused, looking for the right words to say next. "People have come ta see yo'."
Kate's eyes widened and she turned to look at Remy, who looked like he was fuming, she looked back at the other women with an expression of shock and panic. "What? Meh?"
Merci took hold of one of Kate's hands and genltly held it in hers. "They says," she said the words with some hint of spite, "that they know yo', from before."
Kate nodded and took her hand out of Merci's she didn't mean it as an angry action, but it came out that way, Merci just stepped back and Kate's face suddenly hardened. Remy suddenly burst, "Non! Dey can't take 'er!" His voice was heated and Kate turned to him and saw how his eyes were burning, and she took a small step towards him and took hold of Remy's hand and held his head with her other hand so he looked down into her eyes.
"Ah'm not goin' anywhere." Betsy walked down the stairs then, she was running a hand across her forehead as if wiping the sweat off it. She had a look of exhaustion and exasperation and when she saw Kate in Remy's arms she bit her lip.
Kate looked up at her and got the message, she took one last look at Remy and everyone, then walked away to where Betsy was. She followed her up the stairs and when she was out of sight to the ones downstairs she stopped.
Betsy noticed this and turned to look at the frozen girl, she walked over to her and rested a hand on her bare shoulder, Kate looked up into her purple blazed eyes and Betsy gave her a small smile.
"Don't worry, they won't take you away unless you want to go, luv. These people are nice, bald ones telepath; use your blocks, one controls weather, so that's a key into her emotions. And the other heals, bed attitude though." Giving her friendly advice, Kate nodded and looked down at her hands, she was wringing them out and realised she was doing it; she pulled her hands from each other and clenched them.
"An' these people knew meh, before……" Betsy nodded slightly.
Kate grimaced and stood up straight, and they started to continue walking down the hall. Before they reached the door she gave Betsy an awkward hug and was about to whisper something into her ear but found there was nothing to say. Everything, sense and awareness had both completely gone from her mind. All she could think was that behind this door were the people who she used to know, who used to know her. What would she do if given the choice to stay here, with the people who she knew, or go with the people who knew her?
Betsy gave Kate a small nod and opened the door. Betsy walked in first, sending Jean-Luc a telepathic thought before stepping aside to let Kate enter.
Jean-Luc looked over to the door, then over to Xavier, he lifted his head and spoke, "Kate is here, please, do not stress her too much, this will be very….overwhelming for her." And with that last comment his gaze to the door and everyone else's followed as Kate walked in.
Kate was just thinking about how strange she must look, wearing a fancy dress and her hair done up all nicely, with makeup up whilst everyone else were just wearing their own normal clothes. She began to smooth out her dress and touch her hair just to make sure it was still nice and neat.
She looked at Jean-Luc and smiled, and she turned her head so she could finally see the people who she once knew. She felt someone try and penetrate her mind and quickly put her shields up. She opened her eyes and saw the man in the wheel chair first, he was looking deep into her eyes, and she knew that he must be the telepath, if not from Betsy telling her, then because of the look of confusion and shock written on his features. He seemed nice and smart, and there was something familiar about him, like she had seen him before. His face was kind, and it held a sense of joy yet concern. She wondered if he was kind of an uncle or grandfather figure to her, he seemed like the type.
Then her gaze looked over his shoulder, to the right and saw a gentle woman, who had very tan skin and stark white hair. It was short and she guessed it was newly cut, because the woman seemed to run her hand through it as if it was usually longer. It also had small black highlights in it and Kate thought about how nice it looked and how it made the woman look like a goddess.
The woman had a kind smile which held so much excitement that Kate worried if she would let her down and she could tell she was holding herself back.
Kate gave her a reassuring smile and the woman stood up, she was only an inch or two taller then her, and walked over to Kate briskly and hugged her. Kate was shocked and slowly hugged the woman back.
As the woman let go of her, she had a massive smile on her face and looked as if she was about to cry.
Then she saw the man, leaning against the wall next to the open door so he was hidden. The memory of something popped up and she gasped. This man was huge, he wore a white t-shirt and a shirt over it, you could see his muscles bulking out and he had a gruff look to him that reminded her of a cuddly bear.
She stood back, the man seemed pissed off, yet his face was softening by the second. She still was kind of overwhelmed by the presence of the man, the other two seemed easier to cope with, but he seemed a bit too much.
She glanced over to Betsy who was sitting on a sofa, on the other side of the room; Kate walked over and sat next to her, they exchanged a couple of thoughts and Kate smirked at Betsy's overlook of the colossal man.
The man in the wheelchair started talking, and Kate instantly realised she had seen the man on TV, the news she remembered.
"I'm Charles Xavier, I run a school for gifted youngsters, and these are two of my teachers, Ororo Munroe and Logan." Kate looked at both of the people again, her first thought was that the man didn't seem like much of a teacher to her. Nodding Kate listened as he continued, "You were a student of ours, you joined nearly four years ago, the same time as Logan." She looked over at the man again.
"An' ya want meh to come back with ya'll?" She spoke out for the first time. Her voice was colder then she thought it would have been.
Charles smiled lightly and continued, "No, we are not forcing you to do anything you don't want to, we are only here to let you know that we are here and if you ever need or want to find anything about your life before Jean-Luc here found you, then we are here for you."
Kate nodded but didn't seem convinced at his answer, "'Kay. An' ya'll knew ah'm a mutant?"
Xavier nodded, "Yes, we were trying to work on your control over your powers."
"Ah have control now." She said, she really didn't know what to say to these people, should she just start talking about normal things or run into there arms? Xavier seemed shocked and leaned forward in his chair slightly. "Ah'm not makin' things float anymore, ah've got control over the fire an' ah can use mah telepathy just fine. It's just mah absorbin' powers that are a bit…..strange right now."
The three people on the other side of the room all were shocked at what she said. Xavier looked over at everyone else in the room before talking again, checking that none of them were lying or anything. "You have telepathy? And telekinesis?"
"Yeah, an' the fire, ah don't know what that's called."
"Pyrokinesis, what about your absorbing powers? How are they acting strange?" He asked curiously, he sent a quick glance to the woman, Ororo and the other man.
Kate felt slightly uncomfortable talking about her powers to people she didn't know, but she felt Betsy take her hand in hers and give it a light squeeze and she knew the man stood up for mutants and helped them, so he actually cared about her. "Ah…ah don't know. Ah don't have them at the moment. But a couple tahmes ah touch someone an' they feel drained an' ah get the things they were just thinkin'."
Xavier seemed a bit shocked by this information and Rogue wondered if she had said something wrong.
The African woman leaned forward and asked her kindly, "So you can control them?"
Kate shook her head and continued, "Well ah can control all the others, but mah absorbin' never seemed lahke much of a problem, Betsy helped meh with that." She turned at looked at Betsy, she suddenly had a thought flash behind her eyes, what if these people were here to take her away?
"Betsy?" The man in to corner spoke up for the first time, Kate looked over to him. His voice was gruff and even though his question showed he was curious about Betsy, his voice held no sign of it, it sounded like he didn't really give a damn about anything. Kate scowled as she held her head high to look at him. She scanned his mind quickly and found instantly that he had no powers that allowed him to block or even notice she was looking around his head.
She took down all the basic fact, they were the easiest to find along with the current thoughts and memories. She smirked as she slipped out of his mind and covered her smirk with a sickly sweet smile.
"Yeah, Betsy," she turned her body slightly towards the purple haired woman next to her. "She's a telepath lahke meh, a really strong one, focuses more on control of powers an' how ta build them so there all strong an' stuff."
Kate looked over to the obvious leader of the group, the disabled bald man, she stood up and walked over to him. "Ah'd lahke ta thank ya, an' if ya don't mind, ah'd lahke ya ta leave." She held out her hand to shake his but the white haired woman who sat just behind him sat forward and asked the question she knew was coming.
"Leave?"
Kate turned to her and smiled, she really didn't want to fight, or talk. She just wanted to go back to her room and sleep, she began to feel like a teenager and wondered if that was too much to ask for, it had been a really long night. Kate didn't want to be mean so she spoke slowly and softly, not wanting people to yell.
"Yeah, ah know ya'll knew meh, or who ever ah was, but ah got a good thing goin' here, ah don't care about who ah was, cause ah'm happy here, with who ah am now. Ah hope ya'll can respect that 'cause ah'm not gunna change mah mind any time soon." She was still standing there in front of them when she felt the man leaning against the wall step forward and take her by the shoulders. He seemed to be searching for something, she glared up to him, he was looking for a trace of who he knew. "Let meh go." She spoke slowly and carefully, she knew she could take him but she didn't want to, it took energy, energy she didn't have right now.
"Logan! Let her go!" she heard the woman tell him sternly next to her.
Kate just looked into his eyes, challenging him almost. She hear everyone stand up, well not the guy in the wheelchair, that would be a miracle she thought sarcastically.
The man just pulled her closer to himself and kept looking in her eyes. "Come on Marie." He muttered to himself.
Kate got a sudden burst of anger and she felt herself black out but she didn't feel herself falling, she just opened her eyes and found Logan held up against the wall of Jean-Luc's office.
"Ah'm not Marie, ah'm Kate, and ah just want ta go ta bed, ya'll can stay til tomorrow if Jean-Luc lets ya, an' we can all play happy families, but right now, ah just wanna go ta bed and maybe talk ta my family first." She watched as the man's eyes widened and she had a feeling that she had never done this to him, or even if he knew that she could do this, and by the looks on Xavier's and Ororo's faces, they were pretty shocked too.
Kate looked down at her shoulder and saw Betsy's hand on it, she looked up and saw Betsy's warm face, it had a stern look on it, but also calm and warm. "Let him go. Go to bed, I'll sort this out."
Those were the words Kate was longing to hear, Kate lifted her hand to her head and walked out the room slowly, closing the door behind her, Logan fell to the floor in a heap before standing up and growling very loudly.
Betsy gave him a warm smile and sat back down on her chair again. She was putting on a brave face on, but she knew it would be hard to convince these people to leave the person they once called their team mate. Her smile faltered briefly as she looked up at the three people watching her, she quickly glanced at Jean-Luc and started talking.
"She's a bit tired. It's been a long night."
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When the morning came round, Kate woke up with a groan and turned over in her bed to find herself smack up against the wall next to her bed. She cursed and turned the other way until she opened her eyes and met a pair of deep red ones that glowed in the darkness of her room that the closed curtains and switched off lights provided.
"Remy." Kate smiled and reached out for him. Remy smiled lightly and took Kate's hand.
"Mornin' Kate." Remy whispered to her, bringing her hand up to his lips and pressing it to them lightly.
"Last night was crazy huh?" Kate smiled up at him, a little laugh escaped her mouth.
"Oui, us, de theatre, Henri an' Merci, dose people." Remy listed off.
Kate sat up a bit resting on one of her elbows. "Henri an' Merci?"
"Oui, yo' don't know yet, he proposed to 'er. Finally!"
"Ah knew it! Ah- Ah knew it!" She said her smile widening and eyes gleaming.
"Only 'cause 'e told yo' 'bout it." He teased, poking her in the side.
"Meh.. .. Ah still won the bet." Sticking her tongue out at him she laid back down and pulled the covers over her again.
"Kate, dose people…..dey be downstairs, watin' fo' yo'." Remy's voice was sad, but it held something in it that made Kate sit up in her bed and pull her hand from out of his.
"Ya think ah should go."
Remy sighed and ran a hand though his hair. "Non, Remy just think yo' shouldn't shut out yo' past."
"But ah gota new life, here. With ya."
"Remy knows, but he don't think dese people are gunna leave unless yo' talk to dem."
Kate got up and walked over to her dressed, resting her hands on the side of it, he back to him. Her eyes focusing on the things on it in the darkness. "Look, if ya don't want meh ah understand, but -"
"Non!" She heard he get up and walk behind her, he wrapped his arms around her and spun her round. "Non." He said much more calmly this time. "Remy want yo' here. Like I said last night."
Kate smiled and leaned in and gave him a light kiss on the mouth. "Good, cause ya stuck with meh. Ah'm not goin' anywhere, ya got that?"
Remy nodded and smiled against her mouth. "Oui."
Pushing him away lightly, Kate looked down at herself. "Well ah better get dressed an' ready ta meet mah old family."
Remy smirked and shielded his eyes before flicking on the light switch. He slowly took his hand away and watched as Kate ran a brush though her hair, when she had finished brushing her hair so it was soft and lying gently down her back and over her shoulders she turned around and rested her hands on the back of the dressing table.
"Ya can't watch meh get dressed ya know."
Remy let out a very childish groan and Kate smirked at his actions before shooing him out of her room and shutting the door behind him.
Whilst she got dressed she couldn't help but smile.
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When she reached the kitchen she walked through the door and froze, the people from last night were all sitting in the room. The man in the wheelchair was talking to Elf and Betsy, Elf was currently eating an orange and nodding along with what he was saying and Betsy was just sitting, legs folded and listening to their conversation. Ororo, the woman with white and black streaked hair was sitting nest to Tante Mattie, talking quietly, and Kate took into mind that Mattie seemed to be very comfortable talking to her, excited almost, like they knew each other.
She walked to the table and noticed that everyone had stopped talking and were watching her, she rolled her eyes and picked up an apple from the fruit bowl on the counter. She bought it up to her mouth and spotted Logan, the man was leaning on the counter by the sink, and he had a mug of coffee in his hand whist staring at her intensely. She took a bite out of the apple and walked around the table to stand next to him, she realised how big he actually was when she stood near him, and she looked up at him, feeling suddenly really small and innocent.
"Mr Logan?" She asked him, he just moved his body around so he faced her fully, she sucked in a light breath of air and tucked a stray piece of hair behind her ear before continuing. "How are ya this mornin'?" She didn't have any other questions for him, she didn't want to know about her past, she didn't see how that would help her at all. She just wanted to start a nice conversation with him, get to know him a bit better, seeing as he seemed to know her so well.
Logan raised an eyebrow at the girl in front of him, he didn't know what to say, he knew everyone was watching them but he also knew that no one had ever asked him how he was, ever. He set his mug down on the counter behind him and replied to her.
"I'm awake, kind of."
"Cool, well at least everyone's stopped looking at us now." Kate smiled up at him before looking around the room, everyone was talking again and she took another bite from her apple.
"So, Kate," He said, stressing her name, "What's it like around here?"
"It's.. .. never boring." Kate said, laughing at some memories of things that have happened whist she's been there.
"Sounds like the mansion."
"Mansion?"
"Yeah, Xavier's. Just a mansion full of hundreds of mutant kids. Never a dull or quite moment." Kate laughed at Logan's growl when he spoke of the mansion, but she could tell he didn't hate it.
"Sound's nahce." Kate said taking another bite from her apple and wiping some of the apple juice from her mouth as Jean-Luc walked into the room. She stood up a bit straighter at the presence he bought in with him, and waited for him to say something, everyone else seemed to be doing the same as they had all stopped talking again and were looking at him.
"Should we all go outside? It such lovely weather this morning."
Kate nodded, "Can we just wait for Remy, Merci an' Herni?"
Nodding, Jean-Luc walked over to the counter in the corner and poured himself a cup of coffee and took a sip of it black. Kate smiled and turned to window to look out at the sky, but as she turned she saw a fatherly, concerned look on Logan's face. She wondered why he had this strange look on his face, a thought ran through her mind that maybe he was her father or a family member, but was discouraged by the thought because Xavier would have said before if he was.
Remy later walked in and walked over to Kate first, dipping down and giving her a light kiss on her cheek, picking up a bagel on the counter behind her as he did. Kate smiled broadly as he stood up straight and looked down at her. "Hey, yo' look donc beau."
Even though Kate didn't know much French, but she knew that what ever he said must have been a good thing because her attention was soon bought to Merci and Henri who just walked through the door into the kitchen, arms around each other and Merci was 'aww'ing at what Remy had just said.
"Aww, in couple years it could be Remy an' yo' engaged too."
Kate laughed and rushed over to Merci and hugged her, "Congratulations!" She said to both of them, and after embracing Merci she hugged Henri. Letting go of him she rubbed his bald head and said, "Ah knew ya had it in ya!"
"Oi, leave my fiancée alone, or I'll 'ave to be taken dis ring off an' givin' it back to 'im." Merci said jokingly and showed Kate the ring on her finger.
Kate took her hand and peered at it, twinkling in the sunlight that streamed though the windows. "Oh mah gawd, it looks even more beautiful on ya hand!"
"Yo' knew?"
"Yeah." Kate said sheepishly, but that didn't stop the grin that was still graced her face. Both girls hugged again but were broken apart when they heard someone coughing. Turning around she saw Jean-Luc and Xavier standing next to each other.
"I think it be time to retire to de patio." Kate nodded and followed Merci and Henri who were already walking down the hall towards the stairs and the doors to the patio.
Remy walked a couple people behind Kate, watching her as she and Merci laugh and talk about things, which Remy could safely guess were things about the wedding or engagement. He watched as she pushed her hair over her shoulder and smile widely at Merci, showing her teeth and causing her eyes to crinkle up a bit around the edges.
Feeling a nudge in his arm he turned to meet Ororo's gaze, he smirked lopsidedly at her and she gave him a tight smile in return. She didn't need to say anything because Remy could read he so well, he knew that she saw him looking at Kate, and she could tell that his feelings were more then people expected from him. Remy nodded slightly at her silent question and she seemed happy with the response and Remy raised an eyebrow at his own, unspoken question.
Ororo gave a small smile, and nodded her head a little. Remy glanced over to Logan and pointed at him as they walked silently down the hall. Ororo just gasped and dropped her jaw, and mouthed the words "Oh goodness no!" Remy chuckled and nudged her like she had him as they walked though the massive glass doors that lead to the patio outside.
There was a light breeze and the warm sun graced his skin, he shielded his eyes briefly as his eyes tried to get use to the new brightness and after a couple seconds he removed his arm and walked over to the glass patio table and sat on one of the chairs, the one next to Kate. As he leaned back in his chair, he took hold of one of Kate's and smiled over to her.
As everyone sat down around the table, it seemed that all of the guild were on one side, with Kate in the middle of them, and Logan, Xavier and Ororo were on the other with Xavier in the middle. Kate looked around and spotted Betsy sit down next to Logan, and winking at her. Kate smirked and saw Betsy cross her legs under the glass table and purposely brush her legs against his. Shaking her head she saw that Mattie was next to Ororo, talking about the flowers and trees all around them.
When everyone quieted down and sat comfortable, Kate sat forward and thought it be best that she should start talking, "Ah know ya'll came here ta see meh, an' that's great, ah don't want ya ta be worried 'bout meh or who ah was, not knowin' where ah am or how ah am. But ah need ya ta know, that ah'm happy here."
Xavier nodded and Kate knew that he respected her statement and wasn't going to pressure her. "Yes, I understand Kate, but there are things you need to know about your previous life to be able to survive in this world, like birth certificates, dates, names, identification, medical records."
Kate nodded and gave a brief smirk to Remy and felt him squeeze her hand under the table when he mentioned birth certificates and names. "Ah know. Ah already have a lot of them sorted out, just the medical records ah don't know."
"What about your name? What about your birthday? Don't you care? Don't you wanna know your own name?" Logan spoke up, his voice was gruff and Kate knew that it was bothering him that she didn't.
"Ah have a name, ah have a birthday, they may not be the same ones as the person ya knew were, but there mine now an' ah'm content with them." Kate said calmly, she knew this man was strong, you can just see the muscle and force coming off him so she didn't want to anger him but she was finding it hard, to him she must seem like someone had possessed or changed the person he had known, and she didn't think he was too happy about that.
"But they're not your real name, not your really birth date. This isn't you. You're not Kate!" Logan was getting even more angry, but he wasn't raising his voice, if anything it was getting lower and deeper and she could hear him growling. Knowing there was nothing she could say that would convince him, she decided that she was just going to stare him down.
"Ah'm sorry Logan that ah'm not lahke the person ya knew, but maybe if ya told meh what ah was lahke that would be nahce." Her voice was soft and she was pressing on her southern accent so to make her seem more innocent and make him less likely to hate or hurt her.
"For starters your names not Kate." Logan muttered to himself.
"Logan!" Ororo called out at him, her voice a mixture of shock and firmness.
"What's mah name then?" Kate asked politely, not offended or showing any sign of shock at his pervious words.
"Marie. Marie D'Ancanto, but you preferred Rogue."
Kate nodded to herself and smiled to herself, at her choice of nickname. "Rogue." She said the name, she found it rolled off her tongue easily and instantly knew he wasn't lying. "How old am ah?"
Logan crinkled up his brow and reached for a cigar, taking one out of his pocket he started talking again, "Well when I meet you for the first time you were just seventeen, that was about four years ago, yet to me I never saw you as anything different then seventeen."
Xavier took this moment to start speaking again, telling Kate the real facts, "You were technically twenty one this April. April the twenty ninth."
Betsy spoke up with a question she had been curious about for awhile now, "Kate has many powers but I don't think they're all hers, originally. Inside her mind it clearly shows her main power is absorbtion by my knowledge and what I saw, but she had three other powers stationed in her mind. I saw the last moments of Kate's life before she.. ..well she died. And when she was reborn these powers stayed with her, along with a force, called the Phoenix. Am I right to assume that she absorbed this being and powers from another person?"
Xavier pressed his fingers together and rested his chin on them, "Yes you are right. The Phoenix is an unconscious part of one of the teachers minds at the mansion, when she was younger her powers had to be repressed, she knows, and she understands, but this being inside her mind grew, taking on everything that this teacher wasn't, wanting power, lusting after everything, full of rage and instinct. I blocked this alternate personality from Jean's mind, but I see now you must have absorbed this ego out of her, along with her powers."
Kate nodded, understanding why she found it so hard to control these powers before, mainly because she didn't know, she didn't have any experience with them before, whether she remembered it or not.
Licking her drying lips, she sat back in her chair as everyone started asking their own questions about Kate. Like how she even got to be in the bottom of Alkali lake, how powerful she was. And finally, Remy, who had been glaring at Logan the whole time though the conversation, feeling protectiveness over Kate, and not liking the way Logan was looking at her, or talking about her. Remy rested his other arm, the one not under the table, clutching Kate's hand, on the table and looked Logan straight in the eyes.
"Do yo' want to take Kate with yo'?"
Kate's eyes widened and she turned to him, shock written over her face, "Remy." She said, warningly.
Xavier chuckled and spoke up to the young man's question, "No, we do not want to take Kate away from here. If she wants to stay, we are not going to abduct her."
Remy's eyes flickered to Xavier's before returning back to Logan, "Non, Remy asked dis homme if he wanted to take Kate back with him, not if he was."
Logan raised his chin to Remy, he could tell this boy had feelings for Kate, and the fact he could see them holding hands under the table just proved it. "Yes, I do want Kate to come back with us. She belongs with us. She has people there that love her, people who have known her for longer and know more about her."
Remy's eyes burnt up and Kate could feel the heat, along with his grip now tightening around her hand. She bit her lip to try and not focus on the pain that his grip was causing. "Who says she don't 'ave people 'ere dat care fo' 'er? Dat love 'er?" Kate saw his hand start glowing on the table and her eyes widened a little bit at the sight of this pink glowing fire consuming his hand. "Who are yo' to think dat yo' are better fo' 'er den we are?"
"Remy, calm down." She heard Merci say to him, and she say Betsy leaning forward to where Remy was slowly.
"Remy, please, ya hurtin' meh." She said quietly to him, not wanting anyone else to hear what she had said, or bring attention to the fact his grip was bruising her hand. But as silent as she said it, Logan heard and stood up, unleashing his claws and pointing them right at Remy's neck.
"You heard her, bub. Let go."
Remy did, and Kate could feel his guilt coming off him in waves. He turned to Kate and took her hand in his, checking it for any broken bones or damage. "Ah'm fahne. Ya know ah'm not goin' anywhere." Remy frowned and uncharged his hand, he leaned forward and pressed his forehead against hers. She felt that his brow was moist and she lifted her other hand to stroke his hand lightly. She stood up after that, and faced Xavier. "Look, ah know ya know Marie. But ah'm not her, ah don't care about mah past, cause right now ah lahke it here, and ah'm not gunna leave, but ah think ya'll should."
Xavier sat up a bit straighter and so did Ororo, "Kate, we do not want to cause any problems, we just wanted to know that you are alright, and I must admit, we hoped you would consider coming back to the mansion, but only because we love you, and there are people there that love you as well. You are right, I think it is time we leave, but please remember that you can always ring us, write to us or come visit us because you will always be welcome." Kate smiled at the man, he was extremely kind and she had the feeling it wasn't just to her, she guessed that he was like a father or an uncle to everyone he knows. "If you want, we will send you all of your clothes, records and personal belongings."
"That would be nahce. Thank ya." Kate said, everyone seemed to sense that this was the time to stand up so they all did.
Kate smiled at each of them, she pushed her chair back and heard the slight grating noise as it brushed against the harsh stone floor. She walked around the table slowly and walked up to Logan and took him by the hand. She blushed when she realised everyone was staring at her, but she just pulled at his arm as a signal to follow her, and he did.
They walked away from the patio and along the grassy gardens until they reached the trees and the people back at the mansion were small and almost unrecognizable. She let go of his hand which dropped heavily to his side and looked up at him, a calm look of determination on her face.
"Durin' mah tahme here, ah've been gettin' some memories," She saw Logan's face light up but held her hand up to him, "There not really memories, it's lahke…." She looked over his shoulder and looked up into the clear sky, trying to find the right word. "Flashes. Of words, sentences, little side comments on things."
She looked back to Logan, he had a look of acceptance, yet dejection. She knew that she had caused this, telling him something he wanted to hear, however taking that hope away by revealing that it wasn't exactly as he wished it to be.
"What do you mean? What kind of things?" His voice was trying to be nice and sympathetic yet it wasn't, she smiled lightly at him, knowing for some reason that this was the way he was.
"Well mah eyes for one thing." She lifted two fingers up and waved them, pointing at her eyes, "There green, but ah know, for some reason that their meant ta be brown. Does that make sense?"
Nodding, Logan said, "Yeah, your eyes were brown, that's one thing I was wondering 'bout. I just thought it was all these new contact lenses and things, I dunno."
Kate felt a wave of achievement and accomplishment for some reason, maybe it was because Mattie had seemed a bit weary when she told her, but now she knew it was true, that she wasn't insane and that her feelings were right. Taking in a deep breath, she continued with a list of things she had come up with of things she had remembered.
"Well when ah first saw mah self, ah heard a voice say 'Ah in the wrong body', but ah guess that was this Phoenix thing. But another, one that's come up twice actually, this man, icy blue eyes but That's all ah can seem ta remember 'bout him. Ya know who that might be?" Kate looked up at him, optimism in her eyes.
Logan coughed and looked down at her, she could see that he was pondering something, and she wondered what, but he interrupted her thoughts.
"Yeah, Bobby, he was your…boyfriend, at the mansion."
Guilt rushed over her and her eyes widened, she never even thought about a boyfriend in her old life, she assumed that because no one had turned up and claimed they were her boyfriend or partner that she didn't have one. "Oh Gawd. Is he….is he okay?" Feeling rather lame at her question, of all the things to ask….she thought to herself, mentally hitting herself.
"He was a bit rough, but someone helping him."
"Oh." Feeling disappointed for some reason she ran her hand over her hair, it was smooth, yet hot from standing in the sun razes. After an awkward moment, she shifted her weight from foot to foot. "Ah remember ya, ya know. Ya name, someone growled, an' it reminded meh of ya."
She could tell that this was something he wanted to hear, needed to hear, she smiled warmly and had a feeling she did that so many times, smiling, then letting it fall, before smiling again, not because of her own enjoyment but most of the time to comfort others in a weird way. Logan smiled back, hoarsely as it was, it was still warm, she reach her arms out and hugged him, wrapping her arms around his neck.
"You even need me, kid, I'll come runnin' you got me. Where ever you are, who ever you want me to kill…." Kate smiled into his hair and laughed at his joke, but knew it wasn't just a joke and that he meant it. Kate found she liked the awareness of having people that didn't live with her, that would be there for her.
"Ah know." Unwrapping her arms from his neck, she dropped back to the ground just in front of him, "Thank ya."
After a couple minutes of just looking at each other, taking in that they felt so close even though she had only known him, or known of him for twelve hours, and he must of felt the same because he spoke again, taking her hand as they started walking back toward the mansion.
"Your still my Marie, no matter what name you call yourself, your still that little girl who saved my life."
"Ah saved ya life?" She asked curiously, her voice held a hint of excitement and disbelief. She smiled up at him, her eyes wide at the thought of her, small and fragile, saving the life of a man three times her size and ten times as strong.
"No you didn't." He was smiling, his tone made his words meaningless. She saw Logan laugh and she wondered why, she could tell he was reliving a memory himself and wondered if it included her, feeling guilty that she didn't really remember any of them, she let go of his hand gently and smiled to him, they stood in silence for a few moments before Logan reached out and took a strand of her white hair that had fallen from behind her ear in between two of him fingers, he scoffed at himself.
Kate looked up at him, eyes flickering from his own and the lock of her hair in his hands. "Ah always wondered 'bout it, but ah kind of lahke it."
"Maybe it's a story you will live better without knowin'," He let it go, and looked down at his feet for a second but raised his head as quickly as he lowered it. "Bye Kate." He said, saying her name for the first time without it being sarcastically or teasing which make Kate smile widely, from that moment she felt like they could actually be friends without him constantly comparing her to who she used to be. She took his hand in her own and shook it slightly, his grip was loose yet she could sense his concern about hurting her already hurt hand.
"Bye Logan."
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Well I hope you enjoyed this chapter, and please review because I'm still unsure about this chapter. Anyway, thank you and I will try and update again soon.
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