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Chapter 6: Pain

God, Padfoot is an idiotic wanker, James thought, sighing at his friend's idiocy as he ran full speed to where Sirius had gone to. He'd seen the map before Sirius had. He knew where he was going. Coming to an abrupt halt at a rusty metal door, he looked around to make sure noone was watching, and grabbed the half broken handle. Hold on, was that moaning coming from in there? Maybe Moony was still alive!

Although, the person moaning in there didn't sound in pain at all. In fact, the person sounded quite happy. James threw open the door and rushed inside. He blanched. Well, apparently Remus was just fine. Was that Sirius' tongue in his mouth? Suddenly, something inside James snapped, and he felt a wave of revolting nausea at what his friends were doing. It was just...just...wrong!

"Oi! Think you two could breath for a minute!" He shouted, recoiling in disgust.

He heard Remus yelp and Sirius groan in frustration, burying his head in Remus' neck. This, the two of them, it was just too much.

"Having fun were you?" He sneered.

Sirius lifted his head to glare at him. The boy's hair looked a tinge wild, as though someone had run their fingers through it, which they had, and his full lips were puffy and red.

"Yes, actually I was. I would appreciate it if you could leave so I could get on with my fun."

Remus looked confused. He turned his pale blue eyes to James, eyebrows furrowed.

"So..so you're okay with this?"

James thought about it. No, he wanted to yell out, It's bloody disturbing! And..and..wrong! Instead, he looked once more at them, Sirius pushing down on Remus, laying on him. He didn't think he could handle his friends being together, snogging in front of him. The thought made him shiver in disgust.

"No," he snarled. And then he walked away, footsteps echoing eerily in the cold dungeons.

Remus blanched and stared after one of his best friends in shock, blue eyes wide and hurt. One of his best friends hated him. Sirius was staring at him, concerned.

"He doesn't matter," Sirius whispered soothingly, a slight edge apparent in his voice,

"We can still be together. I'm not going to leave."

Right then, Remus felt a wave of self-hate consume him, because he knew what he had to do. He wouldn't let Sirius live without his best friend. He couldn't do that to him. Sirius deserved to have James as a friend, and it killed him to have to say what he did next.

"We can't be together." His voice sounded strange to his ears, tight and strained.

"What!" Sirius yelled, surprise and hurt flashing in his dark onyx eyes.

Remus looked down, unable to look at Sirius. If he did, he might loose his courage.

"I...I..said we can't be together."

"Why? Just because that bloody git thinks so!" Sirius was shouting, and Remus felt like sobbing and never letting Sirius go. But he knew he had to. Sirius probably didn't love him that much anyways. Maybe he was just a fling. God, it hurt to think that.

"I can't," his voice broke, on the verge of hysteria, "I can't be with you. I...," Remus didn't think he could bare what he was going to say next. He couldn't do it! He was a coward! And then, somewhere inside of him, he remembered reason, and he said it. A deep numbness washed over him, and he didn't feel anything. "I don't love you."

Sirius gasped. He grabbed the paper on the floor and shoved it in Remus' face.

"What about this letter? What about that kiss! Did it mean nothing to you!"

Remus was numb, the only feeling left was pain, waves and waves of pain.

"Nothing."

Sirius gaped at him.

"Nothing?" His voice came as a whisper, so soft and sad that Remus almost died right there.

"No. Just leave. Go!"

Remus turned away from him, unable to look at that enticingly handsome face when it was so contorted with pain.

Pain that he had caused.

Sirius reached out to touch Remus' cheek softly, thought the better of it, and walked out of the cold dark room, shoulders drooping in utter defeat. He didn't feel the newfound warm air embrace him as he walked out of the room reeking of death. He didn't feel anything. His soul had died, and there was nothing, nothing at all, left to feel.

Well, maybe one thing. A thing he didn't want to feel, but it slowly consumed him, and he fell to the floor, sobbing.

Pain.

Remus rolled over and curled into a fetal position around the warm spot where Sirius had just been.

Oh God, what have I done, he thought miserably, What have I done?

Tears slid silently down his pale cheeks, rivers of pain and sadness.

The wolf in him was angry, furious. It wanted him to run after Sirius, the wolf knew he was his mate, and beg Sirius to forgive him. To tell him that he loves him. Wants him. Needs him.

He'd seen how torn Sirius had looked when James rejected the idea of them being together. How hurt. And he'd seen need too. The need to run after James. To tell him that it was a joke.

And it had hurt Remus more than any words ever could.

Remus wanted Sirius, needed him. Sirius had saved him this time, but maybe he wouldn't be so lucky the second.

Sure, Sirius hadn't said he'd rejected him, but it was that look. That two-second flash of regret at what James had said. The, maybe I shouldn't be with Remus after all.

Slowly, Remus managed to push himself off the floor. He was going to die again. Or, well, he hadn't the first time. Obviously. But werewolves died without there mate beside them, and Sirius was anywhere but close. Remus drew a shaky breath, almost collapsing, but he managed to hold himself up. And he would continue to.

He wouldn't burden his friends with his death. During the whole painful process, he would act fine, so that nothing was expected. And then, when the pain suddenly became to much, he would fall and never give up again. After that, he wouldn't ever have to feel the horrible mind numbing pain he felt now. Why hadn't Sirius been more forceful. More persistent. Maybe he never really loved him at all. Maybe he'd lied. Just to make Remus feel better. Yes, that was it.

And Remus' heart broke all over again. God, he didn't want to leave Sirius! Fuck, he wanted Sirius back now. Remus groaned in pain and frustration. Painstakingly slow, he began to walk out of that cold dank room to warmer place, with cheer and an enveloping sense of home. But, as the warmth purged his body of the cold pain and horror, one place was never reached, not even with a little flicker.

His heart was still frozen solid.

Ok, so, I know, it's a horrible ending to the chapter but...yeah. I had to do it. Lol.

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