You Don't Know
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Rippon
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Summary:
Itachi Character Study- (Because being a prodigy means that he's no longer a person- but a goal)… Son to Father.
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Onyx eyes, warped into black holes through time, stared blankly at the steel in front of him.
Is that good? Did I do it right?
It was cool, sharp, and refreshingly clean.
Am I good enough now? Are you proud of me now?
He liked clean.
Am I enough for you? Am I ever enough?
It kept him from remembering. Anything.
Do I make you proud?
Remembering his hate.
You don't know how much I want that.
Remembering his pain.
You don't know how much your approval means to me.
Remembering his life- before he began to live.
Are you ashamed of me, or are you pleased with my skill?
Still, he could not forget everything.
Do you care about me as Itachi, or as Uchiha?
He could not forget his little brother tugging onto his sleeve, asking, begging for some attention from his older brother; from him.
Do you care at all?
Nor could he forget those days when his father was out on missions, and he was given a moment alone. Those precious moments when he could take a walk along side the river, skip rocks if he pleased, and do anything he felt like, were held close to his heart.
Or am I just a tool- to be used and thrown away when something better comes along?
He could never force those memories away, no matter whom he killed, and what he destroyed.
Is that it? It that all I am to you?
They stayed. And for that, he was grateful. Insanity was near enough without them.
…It is then. The truth. I could never be good enough.
Or perhaps, they simply made it all the worse.
No, not if you weren't even watching. You looked but your eyes-
No matter, they were what they were. Memories. All he had left.
-your eyes see right through me. They see beyond what I am, and to what I can't ever be.
"Itachi."
You don't know how it feels to know it's true.
"Time to go."
Do you love me? As your son?
"We better hurry; we're behind as it is."
As a person? As a tool? As a ninja?
"C'mon, I'm hungry for some blood."
As anything?
"Hn."
You don't what it means to me. You don't know how much I want your love.
"I'll take that as a yes. Hn, finally."
You don't know.
He liked clean things.
Because they kept him from remembering how he had massacred his own family.
All in the name of a few words.
You don't know-
Me.
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Hehe, all done! Ita-kun is my fave character (after Lee-kun of course). So I had to do something for him. This is what happens when I can't sleep. Love yall!
-Rip
PS-Bis is still on Hiatus, so gimme time. -o-! Hehe, byes.