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Secrets of the Youngest

Sam has secrets he knew things, things he didn't want to know.

Sam Winchester had Secrets. Secrets he shared with no one. He couldn't tell his father. He couldn't tell his brother. They wouldn't listen even if he told them. So he waited. He watched, and he hoped. But he knew. And it scared him.

Sam wanted a normal life. But he couldn't have one. He wanted his family safe. But they would not be safe. He wanted to live life the way it was meant to be. Happy and fun, full of love and joy. But he couldn't because his family needed him. And it scared him.

Sam Winchester knew things. Things he shouldn't know. He didn't know how he knew them. He just did. And it scared him

Sam knew that Jessica was going to die. He didn't want to know, but he did. She was his love. He needed to be with her. He knew she would die as his mother had died. He ignored the knowledge and she died. She was his responsibility. He didn't protect her; she died. And it scared him.

Sam knew his father was going to die. He didn't want to know, but he did. His father was safe while he hid from his sons. But they needed him. Dean needed him. He knew his father would give up his life to protect his brother. If he ignored the knowledge his father would die. If he acted on the knowledge his brother would die. He couldn't protect them both. And it scared him.

Sam knew his brother was going to die. He didn't want to know, but he did. His brother was safe while he was gone. It's the reason he left. The reason he stayed away. He knew his brother would give up his life to protect him. But his brother needed him to find their father. He ignored the knowledge. And it scared him.

Sam knew his mother had to protect him. He didn't want to know, but he did. He knew the demon came for him that night. He knew if he had never been born they would be safe. All of them, his mother, his father, his brother, his love, they would die because he was born to this world. He couldn't protect them, none of them. And it scared him.

Sam knew he was going to die. He didn't want to know, but he did. He knew in the end he would die. He knew it would be a horrible and painful death. But he ignored the knowledge. Because he would take the demon with him. It was why he was born. And it scared him.

Sam Winchester was tired of being scared.

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