Chapter Three
Its was first year of high school and I was so exited! I got to meet new people and start over a new slate from jr. high. I was very proud of my-self. I walked into my first class (theatre) and I saw my friend Darin sitting in a chair across the room so I went to go sit by her. We talked up till the bell rang then announcements were over and Mr. Carr did attendance and had us do these games to get to no each other and to build trust. Sense it was a Theatre class and we would have to have trust in each other for little skits we would do for class. I new a couple of the guys from around my Neighborhood. So we talked for a bit and got well equated then the bell rang again it wasn't till 7th hour
I freaked! It was choir class and I loved choir. So when I entered the cafeteria I recognized a girl from my 1st hour class and we talked for a little bit then Mrs. Light our choir teacher told us to go in our voice areas Alto, Soprano ,Soprano 2 and so on. So I went over by the Sopranos and sat in front so I would be able to see. I sat by Leann, Alison, Colleen, and Kelly. We all very Quickly became friends. AS the Year went by I was doing great in all of my classes. Then our December concert came and we were all doing posters and Leann had her friend Robby do posters with Alison and I.
I went over to Leann's the day we were suppose to meet Alison never showed so it was just Leann, Robby and I doing the posters. Robby and I flirted a little and by the time we had to go gave each other our numbers a week later we stared dating.
I was so Happy! He was so nice and very cute. Then people started telling me things about him like I am one of the few girls he hasn't dated in the school. That he's a major man-hoe. So I then realized I didn't want to be involved in that so a week later I dumped him. He called me and we talked and he explained everything and why people said stuff. Then we talked about us so we could get to no each other and our past relationships and our families etc. A couple weeks later we were dating again. It was basically like that for 7 months! He would get Jealous I would get mad because he would try to control me and I felt restricted mind you I was the one breaking up with him all the time. He broke up with me twice. One was because he found out another guy liked me and heard I would break up with him which wasn't true! Then the last time we broke up he broke up with me because he "Didn't feel it anymore" in other word he was afraid I would break up with him again! I wasn't going to that time either! That was s the sad part. I was sad for days then I realized I was wasting my time on not only him but dating in general! I always get hurt and it tends to be my fault so if I don't put myself in the situation then I wont get hurt. So I'm taking a break from dating!
Which brings you up to date because I made that choice a week ago and I am fine. Its when school starts I might have a problem. I see him at school plus a hundred other guys! I no if I see him with another girl I will want to cry so I have to avoid him as much as possible. That way I don't get hurt, but the problem is I want him in my life but if he's my friend I hurt because I'll watch him date other girls and I'll wish it was me. If I don't have him in my life I'll just keep wishing he is and still see him waling around with a his new girl friends and want to cry. So I'll have to grid me teeth and bare it either way because either way I don't win.
I want him to be happy but I want to be happy too! The reason why I hate him so much right now is because when he told his friends what I was saying he made it sound like I was obsessed and I'm not! Then he called me obsessed! On the phone! He wants to be my friend well I'll tell you what is said. I told him that if he wants to be my friend then he better call me when he can talk and treat me like a friend till then I'm not calling or talking to him and I will erase his number from my phone how's that for obsessed! Then I hung up I have talked to him in two weeks so I'm never talking to him he can suck it up and talk to me! Between me and you I never erased him number from my phone just so I no its him when he calls! I cant wait till the day he realizes he still wants me and I've moved on! I will laugh at him when that day comes! So he Knows how it feels to be laughed at and so he knows what its like to want what you cant have. What its like to know that its his fault I got away, and that he cant have me! I cant wait for that day.