High School Functions
I hate school events! Everything always goes wrong ! All I wanted to do was talk to him but no Rachel had to get involved and it all exploded! I wanted to talk that's all Its not something I can explain. That's why I didn't want to talk to him anymore! I'd rather have friendship then nothing at all! I love him and he doesn't get it. . .he wont understand he never will! Guys drive me nuts! Now I'm really not dating! It's not worth the pain and energy! I'm never going to a school function again! I am sick of everyone getting into my bossiness I've never done anything to them so why get involved in everything when its just making it worse! I hate school! I hate guys! I hate life! I might change schools because this is the third year this has happened to me! People are saying stuff about stuff they don't know about! I've never done anything to them! So why do it to me! Did you think I would tell anyone ? Well I didn't someone heard someone saw and told that I was in trouble then I freaked out! You cant speak for yourself so someone does it for you? Are you to little to speak for yourself? The drama of high school drives me nuts! I don't disserve this and you don't disserve me there fore this friendship of ours isn't a friendship anymore! I cant deal with this anymore no more not today it ends today!
I am sick of being the party favor and I am sick of everything and everyone around me who criticizes me when they don't even no who I am! They think they do but they don't, and they never will because they wont take the chance to try. I am nothing to them and that's how I will shall always be till the say they realize how self absorbed and idiotic they really are. Till that day they shall remain snotty and unliked because they think they are better because they have money and are popular but money and fake friends wont make you happy in life love and a guy who loves you for you and not your label that's what makes you happy that's why we live. If none of us have that it doesn't make us less loved we still have our friends and family who would do anything to see us happy and do anything to see us smile, but what if you cant? What if you cant smile knowing that something inside has to come out there is something you have to do but cant because you no you'll just have your heart ripped out and torn to threads right in front of you and he will stand there and do nothing to help because without knowing it he's the one with the shedder in his hands. Guys are stupid and oblivious to there surroundings and need to start paying attention and realizing that a girl cant get over a guy as quickly when they feel strongly for them. They'd rather act like nothings wrong ,when in fact everything is, just so they can be friends and so they can have them in there life so they no what's really going on with them. How do I no this? I've done and am doing this right now! Yes my life is going down the tubes and he didn't no till tonight when every thing crashed and burned at our schools first home football game! At every school function something has gone wrong its my curse that's why I am taking a long break no more I cant take it and my friends are going to have to deal with it because I have to.