Secrets untold

The Marauders and Lily left the dorms behind them. "Okay, I give. How did you get Madame Pomfrey to let you out this early." Lily asked.

"Well I didn't exactly" James fidgeted.

"You snuck out"

"Kinda, yeah"

"James Potter how could you. What if you get suddenly had a relapse? What if you run into Serveus and you're not fully prepared." Lily sputtered off accusations. In fact, unbeknownst to her Snape was currently lying unconscious in a hallway.

"Aw, are you actually concerned about me Evans?" James cockily replied.

"No, I just don't want to have to handle all of the Heads' responsibilities by myself." came the response. Lily was currently turning bright red, cursing silently to herself for showing any emotion other then hate towards Potter.

"Well be assured that I will not be having any relapses soon." James replied. "So here we are." he stated unexpectedly. Lily turned and looked. In front of her was a wall…? She looked questioningly at Potter. The confusion must have showed on her face because Potter started to elaborate. "What type of room do you want? Your wish is its command." Lily still looked confused. "It is the Room of Requirements" Sirius said, joining the conversation for the first time. "Prongs insisted that we show it to you even though you'll know our hideout from now on…" He trailed off. "What he means is," Remus explained, "Is that what ever you need this room will turn into it if you walk by it three times." "Okay," Lily said, finally unconfused. She closed her eyes and walked back and forth. She opened them and looked, amazed. A door had suddenly appeared in the wall. Lily stepped forward and put her hand on the doorknob. She opened the room and to her amazement there was exactly what she wanted. A room full of books. James looked over her shoulder. That was quite easily done since he was 6' 4'' to her 5' 6''. "Only you" he muttered. He put his hand over hers, which was still on the doorknob, and Lily flinched and drew her hand back. James had a hurt look on his but quickly regained his composure. He closed the door and turned to Sirius, "Mate would you like to do the honours?" "Who else?" Sirius replied cockily. He jogged up and down the hallway and stopped. This time Remus was the firs one to open the door. "Perfect" he said stepping inside. The others hastened to follow.

"Wow Lily said, stepping inside. "Way better than a pile of books, huh." James said. Lily hit him on the back of the head on the same place where Sirius had hit him before. "Ah, I'm hurt Evans. I thought we had something special. This time Lily just turned away. Inside of the room were four chairs, a table, and a mountain of candy. The walls were decorated with different Quidditch teams. "Wait four chairs," it dawned on Lily" What happened to Peter.

"Oh, you just realized, he got scared of the dark and disappeared about 15 minutes ago." Remus said in a bored voice.

"Does that happen a lot?"

"Only about every other night. That boy is afraid of his own shadow."

"Just like a rat." Lily observed. Remus started to panic. He looked at James with a scared expression. "I assume that is where Wormtail came from." Lily continued. Remus relaxed. "Exactly." "So what are we supposed to do?" Lily asked. "That's easy." Sirius said, "Truth or Dare." All four of them sat down in the chairs. Lily sat down first while James quickly moved to sit down next to her. Sirius sat on her other side. "Okay Padfoot, your idea you ask first." "Okay"

"Prongs, truth or dare?"

"Dare obviously"

"I dare you to kiss Lily" James started to stand up. Lily objected. "No way!" "Now Lilyikens he has to fulfil his dare" Sirius said in a innocent sing-song voice. "In that case." Lily held out her hand. "He never said where you have to kiss me." "Touché." James replied. He leaned down and kissed Lily's hand. He then sat back down. Sirius sat there, sulking because Lily had found a way out.

"Okay Evans, truth or dare." James turned to look at Lily.

"After that I think I'm going to go with truth."

"Okay, you ever been on a date?"

"No," came the reply. Lily spoke in an embarrassed, shy voice. She was afraid that they would find out why.

"And why not."

This time Lily's voice was stronger. "You only get one question. Sirius truth or dare."

"I, I unlike you, will not wimp out. Dare."

"I dare you to kiss Potter, on the lips." Lily smiled glad that she had gotten her revenge. Sirius jumped up and ran over to James. All of a sudden he stopped dead in his tracks. James had performed a freezing curse. He turned to look at Lily. "That is just sick." he spat out. "I will unfreeze him when you will give him a different dare. It is not fair to get innocent bystanders involved in your revenge. I refuse to be par-" He stopped. Lily had just performed the counter curse to the freezing charm. "Ewwwww!" James shouted. He wiped his hand over his lips. Remus sat there, laughing so hard that tears were streaming down his face. Sirius sat back down, looking like nothing unusual had happened.

"Okay Moony, truth or dare?"

"Truth"

"What girl do you like"

"Aimee" Remus whispered, his face turning bright red. Now it was Lily's turn to laugh. Remus shot Sirius a dirty glare and turned to James.

"Truth or dare?"

"Truth."

"How long have you liked Lily"

"Don't make me answer this," he pleaded. Remus showed no mercy. About 4 minutes later he had still not relented and Lily had joined in the asking. Sirius, of course, was the loudest of all.

"Fine," he muttered, "Since the first time I asked her out"

"Since second year?..!" Lily stared in disbelief. She turned bright red. The colour of her face almost rivalled James's. For the next hour they continued to play. The questions getting more and more embarrassing. The only face that had not turned red several times was Sirius's. Finally James remembered the first question that he had asked Lily. "Why haven't you ever been on a date"

"It's a long painful story that I really don't feel like telling." Lily ran out of the room. James ran after her. Sirius and Remus just sat there, instinctively knowing that they should not interfere. James found Lily 20 minutes later, crying in the astronomy tower. "Tell me Lily" Perhaps it was the use of her first name, or the fact that he had opened up to her the night that his parents had died, or maybe even because she had just had one of the enjoyable, exciting nights of her life. Most likely it was because Lily needed to tell someone. It had been just over four years and she still had not told someone.

"I was just about to start my third year." she began "My mother had just gotten a new boyfriend. My father had died years ago. I liked him, the new boyfriend, I mean. His name was Jesse. He made my mom happy. And for that I liked him. It was the first time I had seen her happy since the accident. The accident in which my father died. He was trying to save me. I was only four, Petunia was two. I was standing in the middle of the road and a semi was coming. He pushed me out of the way. The driver never even saw him. I doubt he knew that my father had died. My mother always blamed herself for the accident. For years she went around saying if only she had been taking care of me and paying more attention, that he wouldn't have died. And Jesse, the boyfriend, he made her smile for the first time. He seemed trust worthy. Like a decent guy. Only he wasn't. He had a whole other life that I just recently found out. It happened on the night before third year. My mom was out with Petunia. They were spending some quality time together. My mom had been favouring me since she found out about magic. Petunia was feeling left out so they went to Paris for the weekend. They were going to return the next day. Jesse came over that night. I told him that my mom was gone. I thought it was strange that he was there. I thought that he knew that she wasn't there." By that time Lily was crying. James put an arm around her shoulder and Lily leaned against him. "It's okay," he whispered. "He isn't here now." James thought that he knew what was coming next and he was scared. He didn't want Lily to have to have gone through that. "You don't have to continue if you don't want to." He said softly. "I have to James. I have to tell someone." she started again, knowing that if she stopped again she would never start. "He just looked at me and smiled when I told him. I could smell the beer on his breath from where I stood. I just wanted him to go away. But he didn't. He just kept walking towards me with that smile. I told to stop but he didn't. He grabbed my arms and then he, he raped me. He held his hand over my mouth so I wouldn't scream. I wanted to kill him. But I couldn't. He had made my mom smile. He told me never to tell anyone or he would kill her. He would kill the woman who he claimed to love. So I never told anyone. He is still there. He moved in with us about a year ago. I avoid going back there as much as I can. I lie to Aimee and Sarah about what I do in the summer. They think I go to various places across the world. I really spend the entire summer avoiding him. I go stay at a relative's or get a summer job. Just to avoid him, I lie." By this time Lily was crying to hard to continue. She just sat there crying, her head on James's shoulder. James didn't know what to do. He jus sat there wondering how he couldn't see what had happened to her before.

They sat there not moving for half an hour until Lily started to speak again. "You asked me why I never went on a date. The truth is I can't stand to have guys touch me. Every time they do I see his face and I flinch and pull away. I can't stand guys and it is all because of him." She turned to look at James. Her eyes were red from crying. He was crying too. "You can trust me Lily. I would never do anything to hurt you. Let me show you that I can be a decent guy. Let me change your mind." She nodded. She lay against James until she fell asleep 20 minutes later. James carried back to her room. He was overcome with hatred. How could a guy do this to Lily? He would help her. He would also get Jesse out of her life for good.