Control

"Azarath… Metrion… Zilthos…" I dimly stare at Raven… fifteen minutes, and Beastboy and the others will come… until then…

"Azarath… Metrion… Zilthos…" Think of something to say.

"…Uh" She opens one eyes. The charka on her head flickers a brief red… I wonder if that's bad…

"…What?"

I open my mouth, hoping for inspiration. "Umm… why are you meditating anyways?" Which doesn't come.

She raises an eyebrow. "To keep control of my powers." That flickers a small interest.

"You seem to be in control."

"Because I meditated."

"Oh…" I left it there. Talking to Raven is not the easiest thing in the world.

"…You should try it."

"Uh, what?... Why?"

"You know… when we last met you weren't in that much of control, either."

"What?... That was last time! I'm better now!"

"……I'm sure you are…" My heart rate is up. I'm tense and defensive. Sensitive topic. Don't ask. You don't what to know…

"……" To top it off, she's staring at me.

"……" Extremely annoying.

"…What?" She shakes her head, slowly.

"…There's something about you Terra… Makrov…" I start at my last name. My heart speeds up again.

"How do you know my last name?" Did I see a twitch of the lips? Or was it just the shadows?

"I know a lot of things…" Okay…I'm having a heart attack, right now. A lot of things! What things!

I manage to keep my voice level. Tougher than it sounds. "Like what?"

Again that shake of the head. Dismissive. Frightening. "…… There's something about you Terra… something I can't place…"

"……" She levitates towards me, I cringe.

"Something you're hiding…"

"Funny. Secrets are more up league…" She smiles… and I can tell you this, there is something about that smile…… something that disturbs me. It's so… knowing…

Maybe that's how an Ice Queen smiles.

"I only you knew…" She settles down, in the lotus position. The tension diffuses, I start breathing again.

"So… when did you start meditating?" Can't help it. My mouth has a mind of it's own.

"Since I was born."

"Why?"

"That is a question I can't answer."
"……Why?"

"……"

"……"

"…. Why are you doing this?"

"Uh?"

"Doing this?" See makes a vague gesture. "Fighting crime… being one of us?" that takes me by surprise. I half want to say: Because I want to steal all your secrets so Slade and I can destroy you. But… no.

"Why shouldn't I?"
"Why shouldn't you be a member of the Hive? A villain? Or even with Slade?" I jolt upright.

"Don't you trust me?" I hiss.

"Trust has nothing to do with it."

"But do you?"

"…no."

"Why? I'm one of you."

"That doesn't mean I'll trust you. You will have to win my trust… I'm watching you, Terra."

I bark out a laugh. She raises an eyebrow.

"What?"
"Beastboy's right… you are the Ice Queen…"

"……"

"……"

I leave the room, for the second time in so many minutes, I force myself to Breath."