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Chapter 4 * * *
It was late in the evening when Kagome had awoken to find Inuyasha sleeping peacefully on the side of her as they both lay in her bed. She did not even remember being placed there. Inuyasha had tucked her in while his arm lay across her waist. He was sleeping so peacefully. She could not ever remember him sleeping so peacefully except the time that she had first laid eyes on him. But he was under a spell then, so technically this was the first time that she had ever seen him sleep peaceful.
She took this time to truly study him. When she had tried to study him before he would always notice her staring at him and she would quickly look away, blushing profusely. But now he was so close to her. So close that she wanted to reach out and trace the outline of his lips with her own. So close that she wanted to place kisses on his beautiful closed amber eyes. So close that she wanted to show him just how much she truly loved him.
She felt her heart beat rapidly in her chest at the prospect of doing exactly that when his eyes came open suddenly and locked with her own. She was so startled that she wanted to look away but could not. He held her captive in his golden glaze and no matter how much she tried to look off she could not.
Inuyasha had known the moment that Kagome had woken up. His ears were attuned to her heartbeat or any changes in it. He had heard her heart speed up and knew that she was awake. He let her study him for awhile. He always felt her studying him. He would not let her study him for too long because it did things to him. Things that made him want to claim her for his own right then and there. His only defense would be to yell at her and make her mad.
He would have let her continue to stare but her heart beat begun to beat more rapidly and her scent changed. It was then that he had to stop her. When her scent changed Kagome smelt like heaven. His demon side only wanted to ravish her until she was unconsciousness, but his human side made him wait until she was ready. Wait until the jewel was completed and Naraku was destroyed.
Inuyasha opened his eyes to make a gruff remark to her when he was captured in the bluish gray depths. He could not look away and any words that he wished to say died in his throat before they could reach his lips. Kagome's eyes shown with so much love, desire and something much more. Was that fear he saw in her depths as well? Was she afraid that she had fallen in love with someone who did not return her love?
Kagome finally had enough strength to break free and look away. Usually Inuyasha would yell at her for staring at him but he did not. Instead he just looked at her in a way that he had never done before. It scared her at first. Was that love she saw in his depths? Did he think she was Kikiyo?
Kagome swallowed the lump in her throat and stared at the pink blanket that covered her bed. She didn't have enough courage to look back at Inuyasha.
"Kagome, we have to talk?"
Kagome closed her eyes and sighed. She did not want to discuss the reason why she took the potion from the witch. Not know. Not with him so close.
"Do we have to talk about that right now?" She asked still staring at the blanket unable to meet his eyes.
"Yes," he said with no more than a whisper.
"Ok," she said on the verge of tears.
Inuyasha smelled salt water and knew that she was crying. Should they talk about this right now? He hated to see her cry. He hated to see any woman cry, but they needed to discuss what happened.
"Kagome, look at me."
She shook her head as tears rolled down her cheek in the opposite direction since her head rested on the pillow and landed on the covers.
Inuyasha placed a clawed hand on her chin careful not to scratch her as he lifted her face up to his.
Kagome closed her eyes, afraid to face him. Afraid to hear what he would say. Afraid to see the pity in his eyes as she had once before. Her mind flashed back to the day in which she had come across him and Kikiyo in the forest and the pity look that he had given her which let her know that he and she could never be.
She remembered the way in which her heart broke and how it hurt like hell. She had never hurt so much before. It felt like someone was squeezing her heart the pain was so unbearable. Every time that they would come across Kikiyo, she would feel an excruciating pain in her chest.
"Kagome?" Inuyasha asked again when she would still not open her eyes.
He sighed then and decided that he would do all of the talking and when she was ready she would answer him.
"Kagome, I know why you took the potion from that witch. I also know that I am responsible for that. It was your feelings for me that caused you to do so and it was your feelings for me that almost. that almost killed you. I wish that I could leave you here, in your world, but to be truthful Kagome the time that I tried to keep you here by placing that tree in the well, I thought about you every day and every night. My heart felt as if it was shot through with an arrow again. I need you. I need your friendship and your strength." Kagome held her breathe as Inuyasha continued. She still would not open up eyes afraid that she was dreaming. Was Inuyasha really saying all this to her?
"Kagome, I am so different from the person that I used to be. You met some of that person the day you and I first met. Truth be known, I wasn't really trying to kill you that day. I just wanted to scare you into letting the jewel go, but you didn't. You stood up to me without a weapon or anything and you weren't scared of me. That meant so much to me. The time when we fought the Thunder Brothers and I thought that you had died and were going to leave me. I couldn't bare it. I couldn't bare being alone without you. The world seemed so lonely at that moment, just as it did when I thought that I was going to lose you to that stupid dreamscape."
Kagome couldn't believe her ears. Inuyasha had never spoken so many words before. Maybe she was dreaming.
"I guess what I am trying to say is that, Kagome, I do have feelings for you. I admit that at first I was confused. I thought that I loved Kikiyo, but after talking to Miroku, I realize that it was not love at all."
Kagome gathered up her courage to open her eyes and saw Inuyasha staring at the blanket as she had a moment before.
"With Kikiyo, I thought that I was in love because she was the first woman to ever pay attention to me and that wanted to talk to me and spend time with me. Sure there were other girls who liked me I'm sure, but when they found out that I was a demon, their fear and rejection from others if they dated me kicked in and they always shut me out."
"With Kikiyo, I thought it was love but it was infatuation. I wasn't really in love with her and I sometimes wonder if she was really in love with me or if she was in love with the ideal of never having to protect the jewel again and living a normal life. I sometimes wonder if the jewel would have made me become a full human or would it have backfired?"
He then looked from the blanket to Kagome and it was then that she saw all of his feelings, his deepest emotions right there on his face for all to see. He had shown her this side of him before especially when it was just he and her, in the beginning. He kept it more concealed now since Miroku and Sango had joined their group.
"I guess what I am trying to say Kagome is that, I don't ever want you to think that there is no place for you in my life. You are the reason that I am here today. If it wasn't for you, I would still be asleep on that tree and I would have never known what it was like to have true friends, to feel wanted, needed, appreciated, loved."
Kagome smiled slightly. She felt as if there were some unspoken words between them. Something that Inuyasha wanted to say but did not. Kagome broke eye contact again and looked down.
"Inuyasha, I.I ummm. I am the one who was stupid enough to think that a mere love potion could alter my feelings for you. I thought that if I stop loving you so much, that it would not hurt so damn much when I saw the two of you together. Every time that I saw you with her, I felt this pain in my chest, in my heart. It is strange how loving someone so much could take on physical pain as well."
Inuyasha placed his claws in Kagome's hair and stroked it gently while she confessed her love for him. He wanted to pull her to him then and bury his face in her hair and smother his senses in her scent.
"A lot of times, I wonder if these are truly my feelings or if they are hers. I used to ask myself that if I am truly Kikiyo reincarnated then why would you chose to be with a barely there ghost form of myself. I ask myself that if Kikiyo is truly Kikiyo, then she would not have gone to hell if she was so good. If she was so good, then she would not wish to take you there as well."
"Inuyasha, no matter how much you hurt me, or how mad I am at you. Even if you had tried to kill me, which I know that you would never do, I would never want to end your life. I would die first."
Kagome stopped to gather enough of her courage before she continued. She felt tears come back again and swallowed again to try to get rid of them.
She then looked up into Inuyasha's eyes and smiled.
It was the most beautiful smile that Inuyasha had ever seen. It was bright and beautiful like her.
"I love you Inuyasha. I love you and I am also in love with you. I don't know how it happened. I just woke up one day and realized that I loved you and that I was in love with you. You are the most handsome man/demon that I have ever met and every time I look into your eyes I am completely lost. I have stared at you so many times that your image is emblazed forever in my mind. I love everything about you. Your voice, your eyes, your smile, your hands, your hair, your ears, your name, your scent. I love everything about you as well as your demon side and your human side. I love them both, because that is who you are. I love Inuyasha."
Inuyasha felt tears weld up in his own eyes. He pulled Kagome to him and carefully hugged her close to him careful not to hurt her and placed his face into her hair and breathed in her scent deeply. What was it about this girl/woman who had stolen his heart? She had told him that she was in love with him. With HIM! No one had ever been in love with him. Of course his mother loved him, but not the way that Kagome did. Kagome loved him as a mate would and also loved him as a friend. Inuyasha had never felt such relief but at the same time such regret. Once they headed back to his world, his time, he would have to treat her the same way he did before. Could he do that knowing what he did now. He always knew that she had some feelings for him, maybe like a crush, but never this magnitude.
Should he come right out and tell her how much he loved her or should he wait? He was about to tell her earlier, but chickened out. Maybe he should wait.
Kagome smiled to herself as Inuyasha held her within his arms. She was in heaven. He smelled wild and free and she lay contently in his arms. She knew that he was trying to say that he loved her before but stopped. He would tell her someday, right? * * * * * * * *
Ok guys. Let me know what you think. I promise in the next chapter there will be a little action going on. Kagome and Inuyasha are really going to get into some HUGE arguments and fights and there is going to be a lot of misunderstandings, but that is what makes drama so great, oui? If there are any mistakes let me know.
Thanks Guys!
Shady
Chapter 4 * * *
It was late in the evening when Kagome had awoken to find Inuyasha sleeping peacefully on the side of her as they both lay in her bed. She did not even remember being placed there. Inuyasha had tucked her in while his arm lay across her waist. He was sleeping so peacefully. She could not ever remember him sleeping so peacefully except the time that she had first laid eyes on him. But he was under a spell then, so technically this was the first time that she had ever seen him sleep peaceful.
She took this time to truly study him. When she had tried to study him before he would always notice her staring at him and she would quickly look away, blushing profusely. But now he was so close to her. So close that she wanted to reach out and trace the outline of his lips with her own. So close that she wanted to place kisses on his beautiful closed amber eyes. So close that she wanted to show him just how much she truly loved him.
She felt her heart beat rapidly in her chest at the prospect of doing exactly that when his eyes came open suddenly and locked with her own. She was so startled that she wanted to look away but could not. He held her captive in his golden glaze and no matter how much she tried to look off she could not.
Inuyasha had known the moment that Kagome had woken up. His ears were attuned to her heartbeat or any changes in it. He had heard her heart speed up and knew that she was awake. He let her study him for awhile. He always felt her studying him. He would not let her study him for too long because it did things to him. Things that made him want to claim her for his own right then and there. His only defense would be to yell at her and make her mad.
He would have let her continue to stare but her heart beat begun to beat more rapidly and her scent changed. It was then that he had to stop her. When her scent changed Kagome smelt like heaven. His demon side only wanted to ravish her until she was unconsciousness, but his human side made him wait until she was ready. Wait until the jewel was completed and Naraku was destroyed.
Inuyasha opened his eyes to make a gruff remark to her when he was captured in the bluish gray depths. He could not look away and any words that he wished to say died in his throat before they could reach his lips. Kagome's eyes shown with so much love, desire and something much more. Was that fear he saw in her depths as well? Was she afraid that she had fallen in love with someone who did not return her love?
Kagome finally had enough strength to break free and look away. Usually Inuyasha would yell at her for staring at him but he did not. Instead he just looked at her in a way that he had never done before. It scared her at first. Was that love she saw in his depths? Did he think she was Kikiyo?
Kagome swallowed the lump in her throat and stared at the pink blanket that covered her bed. She didn't have enough courage to look back at Inuyasha.
"Kagome, we have to talk?"
Kagome closed her eyes and sighed. She did not want to discuss the reason why she took the potion from the witch. Not know. Not with him so close.
"Do we have to talk about that right now?" She asked still staring at the blanket unable to meet his eyes.
"Yes," he said with no more than a whisper.
"Ok," she said on the verge of tears.
Inuyasha smelled salt water and knew that she was crying. Should they talk about this right now? He hated to see her cry. He hated to see any woman cry, but they needed to discuss what happened.
"Kagome, look at me."
She shook her head as tears rolled down her cheek in the opposite direction since her head rested on the pillow and landed on the covers.
Inuyasha placed a clawed hand on her chin careful not to scratch her as he lifted her face up to his.
Kagome closed her eyes, afraid to face him. Afraid to hear what he would say. Afraid to see the pity in his eyes as she had once before. Her mind flashed back to the day in which she had come across him and Kikiyo in the forest and the pity look that he had given her which let her know that he and she could never be.
She remembered the way in which her heart broke and how it hurt like hell. She had never hurt so much before. It felt like someone was squeezing her heart the pain was so unbearable. Every time that they would come across Kikiyo, she would feel an excruciating pain in her chest.
"Kagome?" Inuyasha asked again when she would still not open her eyes.
He sighed then and decided that he would do all of the talking and when she was ready she would answer him.
"Kagome, I know why you took the potion from that witch. I also know that I am responsible for that. It was your feelings for me that caused you to do so and it was your feelings for me that almost. that almost killed you. I wish that I could leave you here, in your world, but to be truthful Kagome the time that I tried to keep you here by placing that tree in the well, I thought about you every day and every night. My heart felt as if it was shot through with an arrow again. I need you. I need your friendship and your strength." Kagome held her breathe as Inuyasha continued. She still would not open up eyes afraid that she was dreaming. Was Inuyasha really saying all this to her?
"Kagome, I am so different from the person that I used to be. You met some of that person the day you and I first met. Truth be known, I wasn't really trying to kill you that day. I just wanted to scare you into letting the jewel go, but you didn't. You stood up to me without a weapon or anything and you weren't scared of me. That meant so much to me. The time when we fought the Thunder Brothers and I thought that you had died and were going to leave me. I couldn't bare it. I couldn't bare being alone without you. The world seemed so lonely at that moment, just as it did when I thought that I was going to lose you to that stupid dreamscape."
Kagome couldn't believe her ears. Inuyasha had never spoken so many words before. Maybe she was dreaming.
"I guess what I am trying to say is that, Kagome, I do have feelings for you. I admit that at first I was confused. I thought that I loved Kikiyo, but after talking to Miroku, I realize that it was not love at all."
Kagome gathered up her courage to open her eyes and saw Inuyasha staring at the blanket as she had a moment before.
"With Kikiyo, I thought that I was in love because she was the first woman to ever pay attention to me and that wanted to talk to me and spend time with me. Sure there were other girls who liked me I'm sure, but when they found out that I was a demon, their fear and rejection from others if they dated me kicked in and they always shut me out."
"With Kikiyo, I thought it was love but it was infatuation. I wasn't really in love with her and I sometimes wonder if she was really in love with me or if she was in love with the ideal of never having to protect the jewel again and living a normal life. I sometimes wonder if the jewel would have made me become a full human or would it have backfired?"
He then looked from the blanket to Kagome and it was then that she saw all of his feelings, his deepest emotions right there on his face for all to see. He had shown her this side of him before especially when it was just he and her, in the beginning. He kept it more concealed now since Miroku and Sango had joined their group.
"I guess what I am trying to say Kagome is that, I don't ever want you to think that there is no place for you in my life. You are the reason that I am here today. If it wasn't for you, I would still be asleep on that tree and I would have never known what it was like to have true friends, to feel wanted, needed, appreciated, loved."
Kagome smiled slightly. She felt as if there were some unspoken words between them. Something that Inuyasha wanted to say but did not. Kagome broke eye contact again and looked down.
"Inuyasha, I.I ummm. I am the one who was stupid enough to think that a mere love potion could alter my feelings for you. I thought that if I stop loving you so much, that it would not hurt so damn much when I saw the two of you together. Every time that I saw you with her, I felt this pain in my chest, in my heart. It is strange how loving someone so much could take on physical pain as well."
Inuyasha placed his claws in Kagome's hair and stroked it gently while she confessed her love for him. He wanted to pull her to him then and bury his face in her hair and smother his senses in her scent.
"A lot of times, I wonder if these are truly my feelings or if they are hers. I used to ask myself that if I am truly Kikiyo reincarnated then why would you chose to be with a barely there ghost form of myself. I ask myself that if Kikiyo is truly Kikiyo, then she would not have gone to hell if she was so good. If she was so good, then she would not wish to take you there as well."
"Inuyasha, no matter how much you hurt me, or how mad I am at you. Even if you had tried to kill me, which I know that you would never do, I would never want to end your life. I would die first."
Kagome stopped to gather enough of her courage before she continued. She felt tears come back again and swallowed again to try to get rid of them.
She then looked up into Inuyasha's eyes and smiled.
It was the most beautiful smile that Inuyasha had ever seen. It was bright and beautiful like her.
"I love you Inuyasha. I love you and I am also in love with you. I don't know how it happened. I just woke up one day and realized that I loved you and that I was in love with you. You are the most handsome man/demon that I have ever met and every time I look into your eyes I am completely lost. I have stared at you so many times that your image is emblazed forever in my mind. I love everything about you. Your voice, your eyes, your smile, your hands, your hair, your ears, your name, your scent. I love everything about you as well as your demon side and your human side. I love them both, because that is who you are. I love Inuyasha."
Inuyasha felt tears weld up in his own eyes. He pulled Kagome to him and carefully hugged her close to him careful not to hurt her and placed his face into her hair and breathed in her scent deeply. What was it about this girl/woman who had stolen his heart? She had told him that she was in love with him. With HIM! No one had ever been in love with him. Of course his mother loved him, but not the way that Kagome did. Kagome loved him as a mate would and also loved him as a friend. Inuyasha had never felt such relief but at the same time such regret. Once they headed back to his world, his time, he would have to treat her the same way he did before. Could he do that knowing what he did now. He always knew that she had some feelings for him, maybe like a crush, but never this magnitude.
Should he come right out and tell her how much he loved her or should he wait? He was about to tell her earlier, but chickened out. Maybe he should wait.
Kagome smiled to herself as Inuyasha held her within his arms. She was in heaven. He smelled wild and free and she lay contently in his arms. She knew that he was trying to say that he loved her before but stopped. He would tell her someday, right? * * * * * * * *
Ok guys. Let me know what you think. I promise in the next chapter there will be a little action going on. Kagome and Inuyasha are really going to get into some HUGE arguments and fights and there is going to be a lot of misunderstandings, but that is what makes drama so great, oui? If there are any mistakes let me know.
Thanks Guys!
Shady