A/N: I had a sudden spark of inspiration when I was reading one of my other stories posted on this site. And I have made it so this story is based loosely on my other fic, "My Best Friend's Wedding" To explain the what Harm had said in an earlier chapter about him and Mac. To understand, plase check out the story. It's said, but says a lot.

For disclaimers see chapter one.

Read on!

Harm drummed his fingers on the steering wheel as he rode to the gym after another exhausting day of work. The Army Navy game was just two weeks away and Harm knew he didn't have his team together yet. Yes, they knew the plays and worked relatively well together, but something deep inside of Harm told his that those young men didn't really understand what Harm was sent here to do. Taking a quick glance at the picture of his children that was dangling from his rear view mirror, Harm knew he would much rather be home with his wife and kids then be here. But the Admiral gave him this job for a reason; and he'd be damned if he was going to pull out now. Grabbing his gear, he headed into the gym for another grueling night of work.

Sam Weston aka Speed walked into practice fifteen minutes late and as moody as hell. Harm sent him of running around the track the minute Sam started mouthing off. Rubbing the temple he kept one eye on the drills that the other boys were running and kept one eye on Speed.

Josh had mentioned that he had been given the nick name speed, because he was fast and light on his feet. But Harm saw something else when he looked at the young man. Though he couldn't put his finger on exactly what he knew that something was wrong with the kid. He took a moment to look over his file and was surprised at what he found.

Sam Weston was a fifteen year old with a lot of problems. As the youngest in the group Josh and the other boys looked out for him, but what bothered Harm was the shot paragraph about Sam's home life. Sam's mother was a nurse working at a MASH unit in Iraq, and his father was in between jobs, constantly in and out of drug rehab. Whenever Sam was removed from his home he would be moved from foster home to foster home.

As Harm watched Speed run, he saw the anger filter out of the boy with every step he took. He knew that with the destructive behavior that Speed was showing, he must have been between homes again. And while Harm knew he couldn't do anything thing about that at the moment, he knew that maybe with time, maybe he could get Speed to open up to him.

He ended the practice early and was headed to his car when he got the distress call from Mattie.

"She went into labor Harm!"

Harm gripped the steering wheel harder and took a deep breath. "Mattie, no, it's too early. She has four more weeks to go!"

"We're on our way to the hospital; Jen was here…she's staying with Tyler. Harm, hurry!"

"I'm on my way sweetie, just hang on okay? I'll be there as soon as I can."

The drive to the hospital was almost to long for Harm who had broken every speed limit there was to get to the hospital. And as he ran up the stairs to the right floor, he was greeted my Mattie who was pale and shaking.

"God, Harm," she said hugging him. "They rushed her right into to sugary. They wouldn't tell me what was going on-"

"What happened Mattie? Tell me what's going on!"

"I was putting Tyler down to bed," she sobbed, "and I heard this scream. I rushed to the bed room to find her on the floor…there was blood everywhere. Harm, I'm so scared!" she sobbed again falling into his arms.

Harm comforted Mattie as best he could, but he looked at the nurse's desk longingly. What he really wanted to do was make his presence known and check on his wife. After Mattie had settled down some he made a quick phone call for reinforcements and went to the nurses station.

The doctor came out a few minutes later and took him back to see his wife.

"I'm afraid Mr. Rabb that your wife's condition isn't good. She bled heavily during the C-section. We've done all that we could, but despite our best efforts…"

"What are you saying doctor?" Harm asked his voice in a near whisper.

The doctor sighed and wiped his hands on his blood stained shirt, the same shirt Harm noticed with horror that was covered in his wife's blood. "that you and your daughter should probably go say your goodbyes."

The words were like Daggers to Harm's heart. He fell to his knees that refused to support him any longer. The doctor went on to explain what had happened when they preformed the C-section, and that the baby was doing just fine, but Harm's didn't hear a word of it. His wife was lying in the next room dying.

He let Mattie go in there first alone, as she had requested. Although Mattie had put on a brave face, he knew inside she was struggling to hold up that façade as he was.

She had come out ten minutes later looking worse then she had going in. Giving Harm a brief hug she returned to the waiting room.

Harm had steeped through the door and while his eyes were focused solely on his wife, his other senses seemed to go into over drive. He could hear the rhythmic beeping of the many machines that she was hooked up to, and the quiet shuffles of the nurse who was standing off to the side keeping an eye on the monitors. The nurse seemed to shrink back into the wall, to give the couple a bit of privacy. The brightness of the florescent lights overhead nearly blinded Harm as he stumbled his way over to his wife.

"It's okay," he said soothingly as he brushed back her hair with shaky fingers. Nearly choking he pushed back a sob and kissed her fingers. "It's okay, I'm here, you can hold on now."

She smiled up at him, and cupped his face in her hands. Her voice was weak but she smiled despite of the immense pain she was in, and harm couldn't have loved her any more for it.

"It'll be okay Harm, you'll see. Just be a good dad, and take care of our kids. I love you so much Harm."

"Savannah," he choked, "please…please don't leave me. I don't know how. I don't know how to do this without you."

She smiled up at him, with one of her famous all knowing smiles and shook her head. "Yes you do Harm, go on with your life…help those kids of yours, and tell our babies that I love them," she said.

And just like that…she was gone.

As he stumbled out of the room, long after the doctor pronounced her he was met by another nurse holding a clipboard. She gave her condolences before asking him gently.

"Sir, your daughter…what is her name?"

Harm looked over at his daughter, in the arms of another woman that he had loved, comforting Mattie as much as she possibly could and turned his attention back to the nurse.

"Savannah," he whispered and took one last look at the woman holding his daughter.

"Savannah Rose Rabb."

TBC…

Okay, wow. This just suddenly came to me. I had no intention of killing off harm's wife. But here's how I saw the whole mess I had gotten myself into. A: I kept Harm's wife a mystery, thus leaving room for everybody to share there opinion, which isn't a bad thing, but then it made me second guess myself and put off who I was originally going to put as his wife. By putting in an original character, I let it be known that Harm can find love outside the job, and that he found someone that he loves with his whole heart. We'll learn more about Savannah in the chapters to come. B: By doing this, I've taken the focus off of my original story plan, which was suppose to be about Harm and the boys, but once this settles down a bit, then the big stuff will be happening.

Thanks for hanging in there with me guys, and hold on, this story isn't over yet. Maybe Harm will find true love again before the story is over.

Reviews:

DutchJAGfan, Lynnp, and scottiedog: LOL, I though flying sparks between Mattie and Josh would raise some eyebrows, glad to see that the response to it was good. Don't give up on Mac just yet.

Corinne: I'm probably thinking that you just found this story and thought well damn, three and a half years and she just updated! Yeah, that would piss me off to, but it's not the case in this story. I had not abandoned it, after writing the first chap, I hit a major writer's block and handed the story over to someone else who wrote a second chap, but then abandoned it. I've tried countless times to get in touch with her and when I couldn't I took the story back over. I promise, it won't bee another three years before this story gets finished. I promise.

Ciara, Charmed-angel4, Myla, Trey Rabb, and britt: Glad to see that all of the HM shippers have made there presence known. Mac wasn't Harm's wife, but don't give up home just yet…

michelle UK: A part of me really wanted to do something different, hence my original character. We'll be learning more about who she was and how she became a part of Harm's life later on. Thanks for the review.

harmless128: Yeah, I was surprised to as to how many anti shipper people there are out there. But don't worry shipper fan. Things might turn out well in the end…you just never know. Thanks for the review and the name suggestion.

Syrae: Yeah I know what you mean, but isn't the important thing is that they've patched things up in the end? Love isn't all about smooth sailing…hmm that's an idea for a fic, but anyways, the focus of this story has changed a bit from what I originally thought, but Harm's love life, with his recently deceased wife and with Mac has and will be changing. Your point is a valid one and will be addressed in time.

Virago500: Thanks for the review. What can I say? Shit happens. Harm and Mac have there ups and downs. If Mac threw Webb in Harm's face, then he did the same with Renee. It's been like good days and bad days with those two, and it frustrated to no end. I too, thought that after Paraguay that Harm and Mac were done with the way she left it. And it made me want to smack her. But Harm sowed her that he cannot be pushed away. Their lives are intertwined. And although I cannot rewrite the show, I will try to "fix" what had happened with them after Paraguay. Remember what Harm had said in earlier chapters? And how I had referenced this story with another story of mine? Everything will hopefully come together in the end. I ended up discarding Jen as harm's wife, but don't give up she is an important part of Harm and Mattie's life, and will continue to be so, especially with what just happened. And as for the others you suggested, well…you'll just have to wait and see who pops up in this story.