What if…?

(Sigh) I'm so sorry guys, I'm so stuck with Suikoden V right now! But aside from that, Enjoy the chapter! Um.emotional scenes in the chapter too!

Chapter 19: Panic and Fear

"Let's go, you're right." Riou said to Nanami.

I covered my mouth with a shaking hand. It can't be, they're leaving the Alliance Army for good! No they just can't all they been through, why? I have to stop them, but how? Nanami peered over me, I closed me eyes. I tried not to move or look like I was awake the whole time.

"I wonder if Noria will forgive us." She whispered to her brother.

Riou sighed, "I have no clue."

Okay, this is how far they can go! I thought as I flung the blanket over me and sat up. "I'm not letting you go!"

Nanami gasped, "N-Noria! You were…awake?"

"Of course I was. Now…about you running off," I stared at the two.

Riou got closer to me, "I'm sorry Noria…but,"

"H-Hey, why are you getting so close?" I asked all of a sudden.

He looked at me sadly, "…Forgive us."

My eyes widened and with that I felt a punch go right through my stomach. With blurry vision, I couldn't see them. Darkness surrounded me. I feel onto the floor.

Then, I was left there.

It felt like it only been five seconds. In reality, it has been the whole night. How did I know this? I had a fever. Someone is shaking me to wake up. Oh yeah, where was I again? Oh well. Maybe I should wake up before I vomit on the person. Okay, just give me ten more seconds.

"Noria! Noria! If you don't wake up, we'll leave you with the zombies!" a voice threatened me.

Possibly a male voice most likely Viktor. Wait, it was Viktor.

I had awoken groaning. A little tense silence, then I glared at him. Then I remembered about Nanami and Riou.

"R-Riou and Nanami! Where are they!" I asked him

Viktor just threw my swords (which were already in their sheathes) onto my lap.

Viktor sighed and said, "They left at night. But right now we have to worry about getting everyone to evacuate from here. Ridley and Klaus are at the entrance, and I'm here to get you. Can you walk now?"

I got my shoes on and tried to stand up. I nodded. Viktor nodded and grabbed my wrist and we ran downstairs. I could hear screams from women and cries of children outside. I was a little bleary eyed. Viktor had a hard grip on my wrist. The fever was still running in my body, it was slowing me down fast. Again, I fell onto the ground. Unconscious, once again.

A day later…

I coughed harder. I took the little bottle and drank the water from it. My fever has gotten worse. Ridley was with me; we were looking for Riou and Nanami. We stopped by a Crom and Kyou told us that they stopped by here. Viktor said that we should head for Tigermouth, he was sure that they would be there.

And so we did. We found that the whole village was infested with Neclord's zombies, and someone else. But Viktor told Ridley and I to go ahead; we had to find the two rights away. So were at the mountains dividing Tinto and Two River territory. Ridley has gone out because he heard some noises. I took a break because my coughing became worse.

Ridley has been gone for a while. I thought. Maybe I should go and find him.

I stood up and walked towards where Ridley had gone off. I was worried if he got caught with the zombies. Then I shivered something was up. I felt someone touched my shoulder. Of course as a young female teenager, I screamed for help. But the person covered my mouth with their hand.

"Got it? I will let go if you don't scream." The person told me. He was male, I guess a little older than me. Okay way older.

(A/N: Uh. Since I can't play Suikoden 2 ever ever again, because my parents sent it to my stepbrothers overseas. I may get some events mixed up…wait does Flik show up with Shu when he slaps Riou?)

I nodded and he removed his hand away from my mouth. I turned to see Flik. Wait, why did he come? Did something happen? He shouldn't be here Ridley should be here. My gut started to get that feeling when someone's is going to tell you some bad news. I think Flik is going to do that right about now.

He looked at me, "I see you're sick with a fever. But I never thought Ridley would leave you alone for a long time." He said to himself.

I stared at him, "What do you mean?"

No, Ridley can't be. No, he can't. Ridley isn't like that! Last time I worked with him, he wouldn't…he couldn't.

Flashback…

I awoke sleepily, it was yet still early I suppose. I still headed for Great Hall; Riou told me that we needed to meet in there. I lazily opened the door and heard some familiar voices. I listened, yes I was eaves-dropping or spying...okay spying!

"Ridley I want you to go ahead to Radat, we'll follow you later on."

"Yes, Lord Shu." Ridley agreed to Shu

Then I long moment of silence, "You can come out now, whoever is there."

I could feel my inner-self screaming "NO! I got caught! NO! I'm in trouble now!"

I sighed or, "I told ya' so!"

I muttered something to myself and made myself visible to Shu and Ridley, "G'morning Shu.Ridley." I lazily waved at them. Shu sighed.

"I thought you were Chaco."

"Well now you know it's me!" I stated rather childishly, "Anyways, why we going to Radat?"

Ridley looked at me, "Harmonian reinforcements have come to aid Highland."

"How much?" I asked

"20,000 of them."

I tried to put on a surprised face on "Wow that's a lot, so got a plan Shu?" I asked once again

Shu nodded, "Ridley's unit will go ahead, while we will be behind," he looked at me, "Noria?"

I stared inattentively, "Yes, Shu?"

"We have a few soldiers up for a general and I was wondering," he paused, "since you came to the army unexpectedly, are you up to take care of your own unit."

Was this for real? But.but.I don't know anything about war. The pressure was on me. Too much pressure.

"Shu! She's just a young girl!" Ridley protested

It was true, I was about to agree until,

"Riou is young and is leading an army. Luc is only seventeen and is the general of the magic unit. Noria should be capable of taking care of her own unit."

Ridley nodded, I brighten up "What about I go with Ridley to Radat, that way we can have each other's backs."

I stared at Ridley and smiled, he looked at me back. I guess he had that 'This kid can think right' look or 'She might be scared' look. Well no one can't tell I'm just a kid.

Shu thought about it for a long time, he looked at us "Well. I think that will work," he nodded, "we have no time. Ridley, Noria will accompany you and your unit and go to Radat. We will be behind."

We north nodded, and headed down to gather the Kobold warriors. I had a feeling about those Harmonian forces, my stomach did summer sults just thinking about it! I will be with Ridley's kobold unit, I'm sure nothing will happen to me.

"I just hope nothing bad will happen." I told Ridley

"Everything bad happens in war, young one," he told me, "It's how war works."

I thought that brought me down.

Hours later…

I gulped as we neared Radat. The feeling of going into battle made me nervous. This was my first time. Of course, Ridley accompanied me. Well Shu ordered me to accompany him. That sounded a bit confusing. Well I am nervous!

(A/N: I'm sure getting rusty.)

Ridley glanced at me.

"I see you're nervous, young one." He told me.

I nodded in embarrassment, "I should. Considering I AM the youngest in the army,"

"Well, you are wrong of being the youngest. There are many others that are evolved in this younger than you. There's no need to be scared either,"

I sighed and murmured, "I hope you're right, Ridley."

End of Flashback.

"Ridley is gone." He finished.

A long silence, I stood there, it felt like I was reliving a moment I didn't want to remember. Ridley did remind of my dad, well he wasn't a fatherly-figure to me but he somewhat reminded me of my dad. Unshed tears swelled up my eyes. I had lost a good friend to me.

Flashback…

"What kind of stupid training is this? Reading a book about snow? Luc! Why you giving me stupid training methods?" I complained in a very whiny voice.

The librarian looked at me and put her index finger over her lips. I smiled nervously and nodded, she went back to work. I slumped on my chair, continued to read my book. Master Luc told me to learn more about my powers, but a book about snow? How can that help?

Snow is…blah…ice blah! I thought while reading the fine print on the book.

"Enjoying the lecture?" I saw Ridley besides looming over me.

I laughed nervously, "Well no. I was about to leave anyways!"

He sighed, "Luc, somewhat told me to see if you quit reading that book."

Me, Noria Mortea, give up on a book? Uh, well if it was a real boring one like the one Luc gave me! Oh yeah. I nodded.

"So what? He's waiting for me outside? Tell him I'm still reading it! I won't come out until I finish this chapter! Which is a hundred twelve paged long." I told Ridley.

He smiled, "I see. I guess that means you decline his offer to have lunch with him and the others?"

I gave him a hand gesture, "Y-yeah. I need to finish my training!"
A sigh was heard from him, "You should have lunch, young one. Or you won't have the energy to read the book. Anyways, I know you didn't have breakfast. So you should go and eat." He told me.

I was about to protest, but my stomach beat me to that. Ridley chuckled and I blushed. I nodded.

"I guess so. Thanks, Ridley. If my stomach didn't agree I would be skipping dinner too!" I waved at him and headed out the door.

End of Flashback

I coughed, and tears streamed down my face.

"B-But…why!" I shouted to Flik.

He lowered his head, "Noria. I'm sorry. I know you're taking this hard but. We have to take you back to Crom and you need rest."

"I knew he shouldn't have gone by himself." I muttered, I sobbed uncontrollably.

Flik sighed, "C'mon let's go. Before we end up like Ridley."

"Don't jinx it!" I blazed at him.

We headed back to Crom. But I still mourned for Ridley on the way there. But I knew something was going to happen to me when I get there. I just knew it.

Crom.

I arrived at Crom by nightfall. I rubbed my eyes, I sobbed a bit. The fever made my body all stiff and tired. Flik told me to the chief's house, and I did. He headed back to the mountains. I still thought about Ridley. When I arrived in front of the building I could hear Viktor barging through the door. He was somewhat mad at me? I think he was worried. Well I don't know. I was very deep in thought.

Viktor looked at me, "Whoa, Noria. You have puffy red eyes now. I know you're sad and all but you should get into bed at least! You still have that nasty fever." He told me.

I glared at him, "Sh-shut up! I'm okay! I'll be fine till you know it! I.I. Argh! You're so…" I went off guard when I saw an older woman leaning at the doorway.

I pointed at her, Viktor turned and laughed. The woman wore a bluish-purple cape, a white blouse and blue skirt. She had snow-white shoulder length hair and very pale skin. To me she looked like a heroine vampire lady. But I could be wrong! Oh, whom am I kidding? I was the only sick person here.
"Oh, that's Sierra the mother to all vampires. She's here to help us to take care of Neclord." He pointed out to me.

Sierra, such a pretty name. Wait, he said she was the mother to all vampires? He has to be kidding.

She looked at him with an irritated look. "I was the founder of the Blue Moon Village," she corrected him. She looked back at me, and smiled rather disturbing to me. "This must be the young new bearer of the Snowfall Rune, correct?"

My eyes were glued to her, "How did you know, you didn't even look at my hand!"

"There are rumors about you're precious little rune. Spreads quickly." She stated simply.

I narrowed my eyes, "That's a lie."

Viktor looked at us, "Well, maybe you two should go to your rooms. Oh yeah, Noria you'll be sharing with Sie- Noria?"

"Yeah. I get it. See you in the morning." I went into the building.

Sierra chuckled, "She's real interesting. I like her."

Viktor stared at her. "Just don't drink her blood okay?"

Sierra gave him her glare again, "I'm not a bloodthirsty vampire, okay?"

With that she left Viktor alone.

Inside the building…

"This is pointless. Why did I accept this stupid mission? It's pointless and stupid and…" I muttered as I heard the door open. I turned to see Sierra.

She smiled, "Hello. I see you're still awake." She passed my bed and sat onto her own.

My eyes were glued on her; something about her scared me but relaxed me at the same time. I could ask her how the heck she knew I had a true rune. Maybe she had a true rune too, oh well. Well the silence wasn't too long until she broke the ice.

"When did you receive that rune?" she asked me.

I thought for a bit and said, "When I woke up. Well I mean, this may sound crazy but…"

So I ended up telling her about how I got to this world by a stupid game. But I didn't tell her I was stuck in a game, cause I thought this is all magic. Then how I awoke in Banner Village, then how I ended up being a traveler. Of course, how I met up with Riou and the others and how I got to be in the army. Then how I got to be a general. How the Highland army captured Ridley and I. Then how I met Sasarai and when I got to use my rune. Oh oh, and when Luc trained me for about a week, which was real pointless. I still didn't know how to use this stupid rune. And yes, I did tell her about how I got here.

Sierra, who listened to every bit of it looked at me for a long time. "Well I believe you how you live in another world," I looked at her as if she was crazy, "and you carry such a burden for a young person."

My head lowered. "I'm used to it. I mean it's normal in this world…right?" I asked her.

"Eh, I guess. But you know, with that rune embedded on you right hand it will bring you trouble. Many bearers take it as a curse, some take as power. But what about you, Noria?" she asked me.

What does she mean? I don't know! How would I know, I never used it before. Like only once or twice? But yeah!

I shrugged, "Well I guess, it's to troublesome to choose. I mean…the rune talks to me." I was a bit embarrassed. Talking about my rune, why isn't it talking to me anymore?

Sierra looked like she didn't believe it. "Well, okay. Anyways, if you were wondering how I know you had one is because," she paused, "I used to have a true rune too. Until that Neclord stole it away from me! He made my friends and villagers go bloodthirsty and die."

That left me silent for a few seconds. I nodded, a yawned escaped.

"Well I guess it's bedtime for you, young one. Good night. Oh right, you still need to meet Kahn. Well that can wait, well goodnight." Sierra turned off the light and went to sleep also.

I closed my eyes, I sighed.

Hey, missed me? She asked me.

I groaned and put my pillow over my head. Damn, why the hell did I bring that up. Now the voice that annoys me too much is back. Oh well, at least someone knows I come from a planet called Earth. Um, I'll shut up now.

End of Chapter 19.

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Well, Um I didn't beat Suikoden V…YET. Actually, I never really beaten all the RPGs I played yet…well except for Suikoden II because I was so damn scared of the music coughDUGEONMUSICcough. Yeah, SO ANYWAYS. Noria is recovering from the loss of Ridley. I mean for her age, it's easy to recover on things like that right? It's real hard for adults (err…my grade six teacher) anyways. Sorry for the long wait everyone, but a new house and an old computer? Equals slower Internet…so sorry. Plus I have to share this thing with two brothers and a little sister so like…I hate being the middle child sometimes. I was trying to make this the longest chapter in the story for a while. I guess I didn't make it…I really did want this to be long. So I had idea after the Tinto mission thingie. I wanted to make our little Nori pay a little visit to Ellie and Koh, then tada! She meets Tir McDohl! Well yeah still no plot on that idea but yeah. So see you crazy cats on the next chapter!