Losing My Angel Chapter 6: You Should Open Your Eyes, an instant star fanfic

Chapter 6

You Should Open Your Eyes

Disclaim Thingery…:Okay, so obviously I don't own I/S, and Invisible, the titled song in this chapter, is owned my Ashlee Simpson and Geffen Records (And whoever prints her lyrics…like I care…)lol…

A/N: You guys may notice I'm using weird chapter titles. This is because I am taking parts of lyrics for my chapter titles for instance, this chapter's title is from Ashlee Simpson's "Invisible" (And boy, the older she gets, the more she looks like Jess…)

So just incase you're wondering, here's the songs that the titles are from

1. That's something I made it...It really had no point…

2. Ashley Parker Angel-Let U Go

3. Nickleback-Far Away

4. This was another random title….

5. Beautiful Love is a song from a band called The Afters (Theme to 8th and Ocean!)

Now, onto the story!...

So, that was one of the happiest days of my life…It was a great week, and we had lots of fun…Jude was starting to feel like herself again, and we were starting to get back to where we were before the whole Jamie situation…Except for the fighting…Then again, for any healthy relationship, you have to fight sometimes…But of course, there's the old saying, that "What Goes Up, Must Eventually Come Crashing Down…"…And trust me, it did…

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Jude sat in the booth ready to work. "You ready Quincy?"

Too bad he was off in lala Jude land…

'God, she looks hot today….she just loves to tease me….ugh…Oh god, she's gonna know I'm not paying attention…'

"Hey! Wanna stop drooling long enough to get one song recorded?"
"Uh, sorry…Invisible, Take one"

He pressed record.

"Like a grain on the beach
Like a star in the sky
Far too many to count with the naked eye
They won't see you

Go ahead
Walk on by
You don't know I'm alive
Maybe one day you'll find
You should open your eyes
You don't know me

You're the one who looked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible
And you're the one who walked right through me
Now you're saying that you knew me
When I was invisible

Little things adding up
Try so hard not to rush
Giving in, letting go of the world we know
They won't see you

Force it down
Lose the taste
They all think it's a waste
We don't need to believe every word they say, no
They don't know me

It's so easy to be lost
But maybe you're not lost at all

Do you recognize me?
Do you know who I am?
Do you see me now?
Do you see me now?

"Great Jude…Now can we turn in the song so we can go to lunch?"
"Sure…Just let me tell Sadie I have to cancel with her…"
"You have plans with Sadie?"
"Well yeah….I have to give her the juicy details about the other night….plus, ever since she and Liam got married, I haven't really seen her…it sucks, too…"

"Okay….go to lunch, and then we can do dinner?"

"Uh, sure…I don't have anything planned…so why don't you drop by around…say 4?"

"Okay…." (Quick A/N: Just so you guys know... there is a major point coming in this chapter…it just takes a little build up!)

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6 Hours Later!

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Jude sat on the couch staring blankly into space, when Tommy showed up. "Hey girl….god, you look like you've seen a ghost…what's wrong?"
"I…I think…"
"What is it?...Did Sadie say something?"

"I….She lifted the stick that lay in her lap."

"What's this….." He looked at the pregnancy test, and then it him.

"You…But we…"

"I know…it hasn't been long enough…"

"So…Jamie…and You…"

"I don't know…Not for sure yet…"

Tommy's fists were clenched, as were his teeth.

"I can't do this right now…I'll talk to you tomorrow…"

"Tommy, wait!"

He stormed out of the house, and took off in the blue viper…

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Looking back, I probably shouldn't have left her there…I mean, she was in such a vulnerable state, and I just made it worse by not being there. And I'll admit it now, I felt guilty the minute I hit the highway. That's why I turned around…

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Jude sat on the couch in tears. She had an appointment in an hour, and normally she'd be getting ready, but she didn't instead, she clung to a throw pillow as her sides shook violently. She wondered if it was her that Tommy was mad at, or if it wasn't anger, but disappointment….or maybe he was mad at Jamie….or he was blaming him self… but if he was…he shouldn't. He couldn't have done anything…She was the one who told him to leave….Just then she heard someone come up on the gravel, but she didn't go to the door. Everyone who came to her apartment just walked in. The door opened, and then she heard several footsteps, followed by firm, but gentle hands leaning down and enveloping her. "I'm sorry girl…"

She looked up to see Tommy with tears in his eyes.

"I'm sorry too…Whoever you're mad at…I'm sorry…"

"I'm not mad,….I'm disappointed in myself…I should have been there that day…"

"Tommy, there's nothing you could've done….I told you to leave….what were you gonna do, hold me against a wall, and force me to forgive you while beating Jamie up? Trust me Hun…it's not possible…"

"Maybe not, but I might've tried…."

"Yeah…"

She nuzzled her head in his shoulder, taking the comfort he was offering her.

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45 Minutes Later

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"Jude Harrison?"

A nurse called her from the waiting room, and she turned to Tommy anxiously. He nodded, as they stood, and followed the nurse to an open examining room. Jude explained the situation, and how she'd taken a test that came out positive, but needed to be sure.

"Okay, then lets get that done."

About half an hour later, Jude's normal OB/GYN, Dr. Martin walked in the room. He gave both Jude and Tommy a solemn smile, and looked at her. "Well, we have the test results…" Jude and Tommy stood, and he rubbed her back. She repeated the words he'd said second before in her head 'no matter what the outcome, we'll get through this….' She clung tightly to him, as her doctor gave the results. "You'll be happy to know, the test was false…You're not pregnant…." She sighed heavily, and hugged Tommy tightly "Thank God…"

Tommy held her, as she cried softly into his shoulder, and her doctor explained after everything that happened, it wasn't unusual that this happened, or that she'd become so alarmed. Not long after, they decided to head out to dinner….

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That day was probably one of our hardest…of course it just got even more dramatic from there…I don't really think it hit us how crazy things were about to get until it was all over. She worked her butt off on her 4th album, and I got ready to work on my second. And when it comes to music, between she and I, things were never just "normal"…Then again, if you watched it from the beginning, you already knew that…

A/N: Okay, so I have to give you guys some heart breaking news…On Thursday, I'm going home. And I currently don't have a computer or the internet at home. I'll do my best to not leave you guys with a cliffy, and try to have some type of base for the story when I leave. Just know that I'm working my butt off on this thing. I love this baby as much as you do. It's my instant star baby…This is the first story I've EVER written in my LIFE that really is something that is just like, it strikes a chord in me…I guess though, if I could give you a song to listen to while reading this (I always listen to music while writing…Music is my life, next to writing and I/S.) During the past chapters I've been listening to Carrie Underwood's "I Just Can't Live a Lie" and Nickleback's "Far Away" (If you don't have the CD's you can always go to and type in the songs. I'll paste the links.)

(I just cant live a lie- http/ Away-http/ )

And lately, I've been listening to Starts with Goodbye by CU….here's the link

(Starts W/ Goodbye-http/ )

I've watched all the videos, but mostly, I just play the songs back, and listened to the song while writing. If any of you own these videos, they rock! I love all 3 of them!