Chapter 12

I Am Sending You A Message

Disclaim:Whatever at this point…you guys know, and I'm waisting my time…

A/N: Okay, so this is where the last year is going to pick up. Tommy's going to start getting in deeper with feelings, and how everything happened…Jen and TJ really won't have much incorporation until the second-last chapter….remember, this story is about Tommy telling the story as if he's explaining it in a book,…he isn't actually telling Jen and Tom…yet…

So, after the honeymoon, a great one I might add…We headed home. The first week or so was great. We got along…well, like newlyweds. And of course since we'd already lived together, there wasn't any drama about a messy house, except for all the gifts we'd been given that were strewn about the house. But then something truly amazing happened...

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Flashback

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Tommy sat in the studio, working with "Never Far Behind" while Jude fiddled with her guitar. Kwest sat talking to Tommy about what had happened during the 2 weeks they'd been gone, knowing full well that Jude couldn't hear a thing they were saying.

"Dude, come on….A guy's gotta know these things….Is she better than her sister?"

"KWEST!" Tommy's face turned bright red as he turned away from the laptop he was mixing the song on, and looked Kwest square in the eye.

"Well, is she?"

"Uh, I'm gonna plead the fifth, because one, That's information I'm keeping to myself, and two, Sadie and never were….together, like that…"
"Dude, are you serious?"
"Might've been different if I didn't have Jude on my mind 24/7, but I did, and that kinda killed any bit of a flame or spark that Sadie and I had…Ya know?"

"Uh…sure…"
"And that's all the information you're getting out of me…what happened during those 2 weeks is staying between me and Jude…Don't think there's anything you can do to get info out of me."
"Okay…but I have 1 more question, and you HAVE to answer it…"
"Fine…what?" Tommy exhaled hard, making it evident that he was annoyed.
"On a scale of one to ten?" Kwest's eyes were pleading.

"Honestly?" Tommy bent his head in farther, making it even more obvious that he was trying to be secretive. "On a scale of one to ten….Infinity…. And I stand by that…."

Kwest looked at Tommy wide-eyed, and Tommy nodded.

"Dude…it's not about how good someone is in bed…skill doesn't make you great…It's knowing that you love that person, and that there is nothing that you could do to ever make yourself love someone even half as much…that's what makes it so amazing…Knowing that they're your world…"

Kwest nodded, sitting back in his chair, as Tommy looked up to see Jude trying to balance her guitar on her lap while texting with Sadie.

"Can you stop talking to your groupies on MY crackberry long enough to record a descent song that I can send out?" Jude chuckled at the fact that he'd quoted her.

"Screw you…I'm talking to Sadie…and you two were so busy whispering back and forth these past 5 minutes that you haven't finished mixing the song….Once you're done mixing, I'll give you a song that's single-worthy."

Tommy did as he was told and Jude smiled to herself. They'd agreed that when ever they were at the studio, they would treat each other as if they weren't married, and were just Producer and Artist. Anger was left at home, and so were any fights that they would have. This caused Jude to have a lot of control over things. He would say something about her not working, and she'd mouth off. And she enjoyed it, because she knew he'd make her pay for it later….

She turned her thoughts back to the message Sadie had just sent her.

"Fine, I can see I won't get anything out of you, but is he the best you've been with?"

Jude shook her head and laughed.

"He's the ONLY guy I've ever been with Sades…." 'except….No,…you don't need to think about him right now…not with the news you got yesterday….He's out of your life now, and he can't hurt you…'

A smile returned to Jude's face when she glanced up and caught Tommy quickly glancing up. They both smiled to themselves, but Jude noticed another message from Sadie.

"So, when are you gonna tell him about lil Tommy Q Jr.?"

"Uh, Sadie, there won't be a lil tommy q jr…I mean, there will be, but there's no way I'm naming him lil tq jr."

"We'll just see about that, now won't we…"

"I guess we will"

Tommy spoke over the intercom.

"Okay, girl, you ready to lay down a song that I can work with?"

She nodded, and finished up her conversation with Sadie, before setting the blackberry Tommy had given her as a wedding gift, into her guitar case.

She began to strum a few chords….

"It's called Edge Of Eternity…

"Destiny cannot be shaken
Fate will send us where we need to be
Many turns our love has taken
But in the end you're standing here with me
Now it's a long road to forever
But together I know we'll find a way

Now we're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standin' hand in hand
Nothing will break our love
I'll cherish you each day 'til I die
For all eternity you and I

My heart's filled with such emotion
You're the reason for the air I breathe
I pledge to you all my devotion
Until death do part you away from me
I've never been so close to heaven
As the moment when I looked into your eyes

We're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standin' hand in hand
Nothing will break our love
I'll cherish you each day 'til I die
For all eternity you and I

And baby together (and baby together)
There is so much we have yet to see
And now and forever (now and forever)
I pray you'll always be here with me
Eternally

We're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I
We're standin' hand in hand
For all eternity
ooo ooo
For all eternity"

Kwest looked back and forth between the two, and shook his head. Tommy sat with a large smile on his face, knowing the song was about him, and Jude, too, was smiling, but for different reasons that she planned on explaining to Tommy while playing this song for him later tonight….

"Okay, girl, I think we're good…"

Jude set her guitar on its holder, and then came out of the studio, and Tommy handed her a burned CD to give to Georgia.

"Uh, actually, I need you to burn off another one…For a friend…she wants to play it for someone special tonight…"

He looked up at her, and smiled, shaking his head. "You're too much girl…"

"Isn't that why you married me?"

He smiled, and gently pulled on a strand of her hair, down to him, and gave her a light

kiss, aware that there was a likely audience outside the door.

"See you later?"

"Totally…Call if you'll be late….I made plans for lunch…"

"Okay…" Kwest turned back to sound board, and switched files on the computer, walking into the studio.

"Ready to go man?" Tommy sat down at the piano, and adjusted the microphone for him to be able to record, and then pulled the headphones on.

"Ready when you are, man." Kwest gave him the signal, as he began.

"Because You Live"

"Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live"

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Jude sat down at the island in the middle of their apartment. She hadn't even figured out what she was going to say to him,…she just knew that no matter what, the words 'I'm pregnant' were going to come out of her mouth no matter what she thought of his answer…

Just as she threw something in the trash can, the door opened. She turned to see Tommy, and quickly turning on the CD player.

"Have fun today?"

"Yeah…is that your new song playing?"

"Maybe….I told you…I can be mischievious… You should know that by now…"

She smiled as he pulled his jacket off, and walked around to the fridge. When he didn't find anything, he turned back to her, as the both leaned equally across the island, and he grabbed the side of her arm, pulling her into a kiss.

"Thank you, Mrs. Quincy…"

"No problem, Mr. Quincy……" She took a deep breath, but they both spoke at the same time.

"Look, I need to tell you something…You first…" They both laughed, and then

Tommy kissed the tip of her nose.

"You first, Tommy.."

"Okay….I was talking with G, and she thinks we should maybe consider putting a break-up song on the album…just to give it edge…Ya know…I told her I'd have to okay it with you first…"

"I think it's a great idea…it would give the album edge…and not be all about you being in love with me, or you apologizing to me…"

"Yeah…that's why I was late…Kwest and I already did a rough sketch of the song…"

He pulled a piece of paper from his pocket with his free hand, and showed it to her.

"So beautiful, and merciful, it took me down? Too little and too late, see now I know your kind?...Hmmm…No, I'm kidding Quincy…it'd be a great single…"

"That's what I thought…" She set the paper on the counter, and looked up at him.

"Look…there's something I have to talk to you about….about us and our future…"

"Okay….Girl, you know if anything's wrong, you can tell me…"

'Girl…ugh…why is this so hard…okay, Harrison, just say it…'

"What would you think of having a baby?"

"Right now?" Tommy pulled back a little, but still kept his hand on the side of her arm.

"Yeah…" She bit the inside of her lip, trying not to show she was nervous to hear his answer.

"I'd say big mistake…with our careers and all…but if it came down to it, and you walked in the door later tonight, and told me you were pregnant, I'd be happier than I've ever been in my life…if it's meant to happen, it will…"

Jude smiled, and kissed him…Her heart had sunk only seconds earlier, but now it had melted.

"Tommy…I have to tell you something…"

"What?" She bit her lip, and he knew she was nervous now. She knew she had to tell him, but this was sudden.

Now we're standin' on the edge
Edge of the eternity you and I...

"I…."


We're standin' hand in hand
Nothing will break our love...

"I found out yesterday…"

I'll cherish you each day 'til I die
For all eternity you and I…

"What is it, babe?...You know you can tell me anything…"

And baby together (and baby together)
There is so much we have yet to see

"I'm…" She took another deep breath, and Tommy stared at her, concerned. When her eyes adverted to looking at the counter, Tommy lifted her chin up and she looked at him.

"Don't hide anything from me…it's okay…You don't have to….No matter what it is…"

She opened her mouth to speak, and said it slowly, barely in more than a whisper.

"I'm 4 weeks pregnant…"

She held her breath, waiting for his response.

"I…Oh my god! We're having a baby!"

A large smile spread across his face as she nodded.

He came around the island and hugged her tightly. She smiled, glad she hadn't backed out. He hugged her tightly, and then kissed her neck. "I love you…"….

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Flashback Ends

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Sure, everything was great then, but I was about to make the biggest ass of myself, ever…And trust me, I had to do major begging and groveling to gain her trust and respect back after that one…It taught me then that this was just the beginning of a very bumpy, sensitive, rocky road…And the hard part was just beginning…

A/N: I think I might get another chapter up tomorrow morning, cuz I'll be home all alone, so look for it… I'm off to bed…These damn cramps are driving me nuts…anyway, leave me a review, and I'll love you forever…lol…