Chapter 13

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Some Things Are Better Left Unsaid

Disclaimer/whatever: Screw it…ya know I own nothing…

A/N: Okay, so I came up with the master plan to how the story's going to end, and I was all smiles when I did…It'll be happy, but there will be a MAJOR tissue warning when the chapter starts…trust me, I want it to be perfect, and I know it's gonna make even me cry while I'm working on it!

So, as I said, that was the second greatest day of my life, but I was about to make the biggest ass of myself ever, and trust me when I say, I did some major begging and groveling...This wasn't like the time that girl had kissed me in the bar during our bachelor/bachelorette party... This was a LOT worse than that…It all started where everything started…At the studio…

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Flashback

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Jude sat down in the sound-booth, waiting with Tommy for Kwest so they could lay down Tommy's new single, "Let You Go"….It was supposed to give the album "edge"… 'Yeah…and then people will just think that Tommy is following in his old Boyz Attack! Footsteps….but she did agree that it was better than just having a bunch of songs on there about how he was sorry for something he'd done to her, or how much he loved her….But they'd had a fight earlier that day…a bad one…and Jude was only there, because she'd had a meeting with Georgia, and Sadie wanted her to stick around to 'hang out' (Meaning she'd sit there bored, and angry at Tommy while watching him record while Sadie pretended to be interested in the conversation while actually talking to people on her blackberry.…except for the occasional times when she'd have to get up and puke out the stomach acid in her stomach, considering there was nothing else in there but water…

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Flashback

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Tommy sat in the sound-booth with Kwest, waiting for Jude to return from hospitality. She'd been having morning sickness, and felt the need to have some coffee, so the boys sat and talked while they waited.

"So…has it dawned on you yet that you're going to be bouncing a baby on you knee in t-minus 8 months?"

"God no…Between you and me, I'm scared to death…I told her the other day, that having a baby right now would be a big mistake…"

"T!"

"THEN, I followed that and explained that but if she came home one day and told me that she was pregnant I'd be happy…I love her and all… but I'm scared as hell…"

"Oh….Well, Tom…if you're scared, you should be telling Jude this…"

"Do you know what my wife would say if I told my month-long PREGNANT, wife that I didn't want a baby with her….Can you even begin to CONVEY what that would make you feel like?"

"Well, Tom…you can't just keep those feelings from her if that's how you really feel…it'd be better than walking out on her 2 weeks before she's supposed to deliver, and then all of a sudden you leave, and she delivers, and you miss the biggest moment of your life…I mean, come on Tom…"

"I would never do that to Jude…I'm just….not sure….if I'm ready to have a baby yet…"

They both heard a glass crash to the floor, and looked up to see Jude in the door way and tears in her eyes.

"Jude, baby, no…"

She gave him a disbelieving look, and then turned out of the studio, and ran out.

"Did, I'm soooo sorry…"

"Thanks, a lot, Kwest…..Good luck explaining to my wife when I tell her that it's your fault…oh, but wait…she's gonna blame me, cause I'm the one who said it! Damn you!"

Tommy rushed out of the studio, and dashed to his Viper. He drove all over town looking for Jude, and then eventually found himself at the only place where she could possibly be….Sadie and Liam's place…

'God, am I in for it…' He walked up to the doorstep, and knocked. Not long after, Liam answered the door.

"Mr. Quincy….Looking for Jude?" Tommy nodded, knowing he was dead.

Liam opened the door a little further to show Sadie and Jude on the couch. When Jude turned and saw him, she jumped up and grabbed her purse.


"Get away from me…" She was no longer hurt or angered….she was livid.

"Jude, please, let's talk about this…I'm sorry about what you over heard…."

"Really, Quincy? Are you? We're married for a month, and then I tell you I'm pregnant, and behind my back, you go and tell your so-called bestfriend that you don't WANT to have a baby with me!"

"That is NOT what I said! I said I don't know if I'm ready to have a baby right NOW! God, JUDE! We just got married!"

"Calm down, Tommy…"

Liam and Sadie stood off to the side near the staircase, watching just incase things got out of hand…

"Yeah, Tom, cause you wanted to! Last I checked, it was you who proposed! And you were the one who wanted to get married so quickly! GOD! I mean, what did I do? Other than love you?"

"Nothing girl! You did nothing! I just want to talk to you civilly, without worrying that 5 seconds later, you're going to rip my head off for trying to apologize!"

"You know what, Tom, I'm really not in the mood for this…I things to do, like schedule appointments to check on the health of OUR baby…you know, things a parent SHOULD be doing!"

"Jude!"

"No, THOMAS JOHNATHAN QUINCY! If you so feel the need to talk to me, we can do it after you're done at the studio! I'll be stuck there anyway…"

She stormed out of the house in tears, and Liam spoke.

"Aren't you going to go after her?"

Tommy and Sadie both spoke. "ARE YOU CRAZY!"

"What?"

"She's never called me by my full name before….when she calls me Tom, I know she's angry…when she calls me Thomas, she Pissed…but when she uses my full name, She's livid…If I go after her, I guarantee you I'll have a knife in my chest…Even if she's holding my hand on the way to the hospital 2 minutes later…"

"Well you better come up with something good….She's out for blood, and anyone that gets in her wrath has already set the date for their execution…"

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Tommy walked into G Major, wiping the final tears from his face as he walked into the studio. He looked at Kwest who sat at the sound booth.


"Look man, I'm sorry about earlier…I shouldn't have pushed you…"

"You're right…you shouldn't have…but you did, and that's okay…Now I just have to get my wife to not want to kill me…"

"You okay, T? You look like you've been crying…"

"Yeah….I have…but that doesn't matter right now….I wrote a new song….I know she'll be here in a little bit, so I wanna wait for her to record…I have 2 different songs instead of the other one…we can't do that today."

"Whatever you say, man…"

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Flashback Ends

Jude sat in her chair, pulling at a loose thread on her tattered jean skirt. She'd soaked her other clothes with tears, so she'd changed her outfit, which now consisted of her jean skirt, wife beater that said "Boyz Attacker" on the front of it, covered by deep green jacket that laced up the back. She had her legs curled under her, and listened as Tommy played keys on the grand piano in side the studio. Secretly, she wanted to go in, and forgive him for what he'd said…she knew he hadn't meant for her to hear it, and that he loved her. But the other part of her was deeply hurt, and needed to hear a song that he'd written, telling her that he was genuinely sorry for what he'd said.

Kwest walked back in the room, and spoke into the microphone.

"Great man…keys are great….You ready to lay it down?"

Tommy opened his eyes, still soaking the words he'd come up with.

"Uh yeah…" He stood and walked over to the microphone, pulling the headphones over his ears. He took a quick glance at Jude, before beginning.

"Resolution"

"mmm…

Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by your moment's grace again
There's so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything's so undefined
I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
And learning how to love again
And all I want is something real
That I can feel

Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be

'Cause here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just wanna be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

My resolution
(Ooh oh oh)"

He opened his eyes, as a few tears slipped down his cheek, but he was afraid to look up and see Jude's expression.


Jude sat in her chair, also crying and afraid to look up. At the same moment, all of a sudden, the two looked up. She jumped from her chair, and he pulled the headphones off. They met each other halfway at the door, and he hugged her tightly. "I'm so sorry girl…I never meant to hurt you…never…."

She pulled away and nodded, telling him it was okay.

"Uh…that was great man…You ready to lay down the other one you brought in?"

"Yeah…" He handed Kwest a CD, and he took it, confused.

"I already laid down the piano chords…."

"Okay,…then lets lay it down…"

Tommy nodded and then walked back into the studio. He winked at Jude, smiling as the music started. Sadie, who'd walked back in the room from talking to her husband, asked Jude what was with the sudden mood change, but Jude just shushed her, as Tommy began to sing.

"Apology"

"Close to you, so far away,
A rented room, an empty space,
Sirens bleeding through the open door,
Movie scene in black and white,
The snow falls down alone tonight.
No one's ever felt like this before.

What went wrong with you and me?
This is my apology.
'Cause even when I fall asleep, you stay with me,
You stay with me.

Stuck inside a broken frame,
Watching as seasons change,
Hoping time will finally set me free,
Suddenly, you're standing there,
A crowded street, a lonely stare,
A thousand miles of traffic in between.

What went wrong with you and me?
This is my apology.
From the moment that I leave, you stay with me,
You stay with me.

Every letter that you wrote stays with me,
And every promise that I broke, stays with me,
And everything that's left inside, stays with me,
It stays with me.

Close to you, so far away,
A rented room, an empty space,
Sirens bleeding through the open door,
Movie scene in black and white,
The snow falls down alone tonight.
No one's ever felt like this before."

Tommy opened her eyes to see Jude with tears in her eyes. This time he was confused.

"God, man….You trying to rip our hearts out in here?...That's gonna put all of America in tears if that ends up as your single…"


Tommy smiled, and walked out of the sound-booth. He walked over to Jude, as Kwest walked out and took the mixed CDs to Georgia.

"So this means I'm forgiven?"

"Of course…."


She smiled and kissed him until Liam stood at the door.

"Aham…"

They pulled away from each other, and turned to their boss.

"Oh, don't mind me, I'm just here to take my wife home…" They smiled, and Jude nuzzled her head in Tommy's chest, as he wrapped his arms around her waist.

"Speaking of which, we should get you home….You've been on your feet practically all day, and you got a whole what, 4 hours of sleep last night?"

"Eww, you guys…not necessary!"

"No, she was up puking her stomach out last night…trust me, it wasn't a pretty sight… I begged her to just stay home in bed…."

"Maybe you should have…all of this drama could've been avoided…."

"Yeah, maybe…"

"Why don't you two take the next week or so off, because from the looks of you right now, you're not going to get better anytime soon…Come in when she's feeling better…"

Tommy felt Jude's hot head against his chest.

"Yeah…we need to get you home, babe…you're burnin' up…"

"Try an ice bath…call us if it gets worse…"

"Yeah….I will…"

Tommy picked a falling asleep Jude into his arms bridal style, and carried her out of the building after they said their goodbyes, and Liam made sure everyone knew they might not be in for a while.

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Tommy laid Jude in bed and pulled her shoes and socks off. Following that, he helped her remove her jeans, and T-Shirt. While he rummaged through the closet to find something to wear for the next day, she removed her bra, and grabbed Tommy's discarded wife beater off the floor, and pulled it on, smelling his scent all around her. She smiled, and curled up in the blanket, waiting for him to return to the room. After about 5 minutes later, he came out of the closet with an extra blanket.


"Baby, could you turn the fan on?" She opened her eyes as he nodded.

"I went to search for clothes tomorrow, and then realized I didn't need any because I don't have to work….I'll just run around in shorts, and pamper you…" He smiled, laying out the extra blanket, and then crawled into bed on his side.


She laid her hot head on his chest, and he played with her hair.

"Hey, baby?" Jude barely spoke in a whisper.

"Yeah, Hun?"

"I know it's only, like 7:30, and all but will you stay with me…I mean at-least until I fall asleep…"

"Sure, Hun….I'll stay with you all night…No matter what…"

She smiled and nuzzled her head further (if that's possible) into his chest, and he wrapped his arms tightly around her. Not long after, she dozed off, dreaming of what life would be like after they had the baby.

Not realizing how tired he was himself, Tommy dozed off not long after, and dreamed of the same thing…..

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Flashback Ends

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Too bad that dream was just a dream…She was supposed to be here and do this with me…I kept to my word though, and I stayed with them…I never left them…Sure, it was hard at times…I'll admit sometimes it was downright scary…what do you tell an 11 year old the first time she gets her period, and her mother's dead…What was I supposed to know about it? I mean, I'm no girl, and I was only married to one for a year…

But anyway…In the end, our love got us through it all…

A/N: Okay, so originally I was going to do "Soundtrack To Your Life" by Ashley Parker Angel, but instead, I settled on Apology, because he IS apologizing to her, plus, I want to save STYL for a later date…I have something better planed for it…Anyway, I need to hit the hay…Hope you guys liked it…leave some for me!