Starts screaming like Ritzu I am so sorry! I know I haven't updated in a while but I've had school and really bad writer's block and I apologize if the last chapter was really confusing and I'M SORRY!

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"We're all born not knowing why we live, we just have to find that out along the way." – Tohru

Kisa paced nervously outside the hospital room. She knew it was her fault for Tohru to have to be rushed to the hospital. She knew she wasn't supposed to get that close to a boy. The whole show had been a complete disaster. Now, Tohru was blind again and she couldn't walk again. She was right back where she started from, and Kisa felt that it was all her fault. Hiro and Haru tried to comfort her, but to no avail.

The door opened, and Kisa turned to see Hatori standing in the doorway.

"How is she? Is she going to be okay?" Kisa asked hesitantly.

Hatori nodded.

"What about the baby?"

"We're not sure yet. If the baby is all right, it will most likely be born deformed. Most babies can't live through a trample like that without being deformed." Hatori said looking over his clipboard.

"I was wondering…would it be okay if I talked to Tohru for a little while?" Kisa asked.

Hatori glanced up. "Yes it's fine. Shigure's in there with her."

Kisa nodded before entering her room.

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Kisa saw Shigure sitting down beside Tohru. Kisa stood there for a few moments, feeling awkward by standing there.

Shigure glanced up. "She'll be fine. A nurse is going to bring in an ultrasound shortly to see how the baby's doing."

Kisa nodded before sitting down on the other side of Tohru.

There was a long moment of silence, before Kisa spoke again.

"I…I met Tohru's mom."

Shigure looked up, surprised. "You did? When?"

"Well, I didn't meet her face to face. I remember one time I was sleeping over your house and I couldn't sleep. I asked Tohru if I could watch one of her movies that she had up in her room, and she said it was fine. I found one that sounded cute and I put it in. It turned out to be an old home video of Tohru and her mom on her thirteenth birthday. After watching that movie, I felt as if I knew her mom forever. It makes me very sad to think that Tohru is in the same hospital that her mom died in. I can't even imagine the pain she must've gone through that night. They really clicked." Kisa said quietly.

Sheigure smiled. "Their relationship sure beats our family by a mile, right?"

Kisa smiled back and nodded.

Just then a nurse walked in.

"I hope you're all ready to see the baby. With any luck she should be just fine." The nurse said smiling at them.

They nodded eagerly.

Soon the ultrasound was finished, and the nurse found that there didn't seem to be any deformations of the baby. For now, anyway.

"You must be the proud father." The nurse said cheerfully.

Shigure blushed. "I…we….we're not…yeah." He said, finally giving in.

"Oh you must be so happy!' The nurse said excitedly.

"Oh yeah." Shigure replied.

Kisa looked at Shigure with the biggest smile, knowing well that Shigure did wish he was the proud father.

Of course, no one even realized that Tohru was aware of this conversation, which brought back unfortunate memories.

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"Hey babe, ready to take a ride with me?" Jake asked pulling alongside the curb.

Tohru turned to him angrily. "Jake, for the thousandth time I don't want to see you anymore. Will you just leave me alone?" She snapped before quickening her pace.

Jake grew angry and began to follow. Finally he pulled up a few feet ahead of her and climbed out of the car.

"Jake! Don't…" Tohru exclaimed as he dragged her into the car.

"I gave you what you wanted and you think you can just dump me? I don't think so!" He snapped.

"I never wanted a child! I was hoping on waiting a few years before settling down and having a family! Besides, I would never have you help me raise our kid anyway!"

This remark earned a slap in the face, and Tohru remained stunned the whole way down.

When Jake pulled to a stop, Tohru saw they were in front of an abandoned shack. She groaned inwardly. Jake had taken her here a couple of times, this was mostly where he'd get stoned or drunk. There were no windows, and the place was always pitch black. Tohru tried to avoid the place as much as possible.

Jake grabbed her wrist and dragged her out of the car.

"Jake? What are you doing?" Tohru asked nervously.

"I'm teaching you a lesson, that's what I'm doing!" Jake snapped pulling her into the shack.

Tohru stared wide-eyed as he took out some chemicals, that he usually got high with, and began mixing them together.

"That'll teach you to mess with me." He hissed dangerously before slamming the door and driving off.

"Jake! Wait! Don't leave me in here!" Tohru screamed. All ready the fumes were beginning to choke her. Jake really was sick.

After that, everything was a blank, when she woke up she found herself outside of the shack.

She panted and looked around trying to figure out how she was going to get home.

For some reason, a flashback of her mom popped into her head. It was the night that she had died…

"Tohru, I want you to know that you have to be strong in life. Even if the most cruel person does something so terrible, you have to keep fighting. If any person threatens you, you have to keep moving forward. There are a lot of cruel people in this world Tohru, but eventually you'll find that special someone that will make everything worth while. That person will stand by your side and defend you until the end. Always remember that we are never alone."

At the time, her mom had been hallucinating, and spewing out nonsense. She had always kept that speech inside of her though, it seemed to be her last words that actually made any sense. Whenever Jake raped her, or abused her, she always thought of those words. It helped her to get through everything, and it helped her to grow strong, and to help get away.

Of course, she would also think of Yuki or Kyo as being that special someone, until that night. Thinking those words over, she thought of Shigure instead. She didn't even know why, but she headed home anyway once she was able to stand on her own.

Something told her that she would forever be known as Jake's toy no matter what happened…

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Her eyes slowly fluttered open at the remembrance of that disturbing memory. The first thing she saw was complete darkness. As her senses grew more accostumed, she could sense another person in the room beside her bed.

She stared at that spot for a while, although she couldn't see anything, she realized that the presence could only be Shigure, and she sensed that it was just him.

She thought back for a time. She knew that her unborn child would need a fatherly figure, and no way would it ever be Jake. She knew what her child needed. She needed someone who would always love her, and take care of her, and to take some responsibility for the child. This person had to make her laugh, and dry her tears. Although Tohru would like it to be Yuki or Kyo, she knew that would probably not be the case. Both of them weren't much of fatherly figures yet. Yuki still had school, and the student council, and Kyo was still rough around the edges. No, she needed someone who was older, more mature.

Tohru knew the reason of why she was alive. It was to raise this baby. She knew that she couldn't do it alone. She needed help, for she still had school herself, and she had her blindness back again, which was a sure sign that it was meant for her to be blind forever.

Tohru fumbled around on the bed for a while, before reaching over, until she felt a hand. She squeezed it.

"…Shigure…?" She asked timidly. Obviously he must have been sleeping, because she felt him jolt awake.

"Tohru? What's the matter? Are you crying?" She felt his concern in his voice and gave out a shuddering breath.

"When the baby is born…I need you to do me a favor…"

"Yes, what is it?" Shigure asked, squeezing her hand.

"Well what with school, and my blindness and all, I'll need some help with the new baby and everything and…" She trailed off again.

"Yes?" Shigure asked impatiently.

"I…I want you to be the father!" Tohru exclaimed.

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Finally! I finished! Sorry if it was a little over dramatic at some parts, but I thought this was the perfect time for Tohru to decide who would be the substitution for Jake. I thought it might also help to hear Kyoko's strong words of wisdom, although that part with the home video was a little random, but still, it's something right? Anyway I hope you enjoyed it so please review!