Sawyer stood up and began to walk back to his tent. He sighed and kicked a tree that stood between him and the path back. He looked up, realizing that he had been there alone for almost half a day and he didn't remember any specific thoughts that had run through his head.

Just her. Her with him. His fingers dug at his pant legs.

He didn't deserve her. He was never there for her. He didn't even pick up on the signs that she was pregnant. He was becoming more like the man everyone seemed to think Sawyer would be in a realationship. Sawyer growled.

"I'd be with her. I wouldn't be running around, dissapearing durring the day. It's like all he ever cared about was getting her. And now that he has her..." Sawyer wiped away angry tears. "He doesn't even seem to appriciate her."

Sawyer shook his head and proceded to walk down the path to the beach. Trying as hard as he could to push all thoughts of Jack with her out of his mind. He couldn't go back to the beach looking depressed. He couldn't let anyone see how it upset him.

It wouldn't have been even half as bad if he had found out differently.

---flashback to the island.---

Sawyer saw Kate in her tent and walked towards her smiling.

"Morning Freckles." Kate sighed and turned to him. She had her toy plane in her hand. He looked down at it. "Playing plane this early already?" Kate shook her head.

"Sawyer... you should go." Kate bit her lip, turning back around.

"What?" Sawyer stepped forward. He was confused. She didn't usually shut him out like this. He hadn't even really said anything that bad yet. They had been getting so much closer recently. He had even tried to comfort her when they got back to the beach after Jack walked away.

"Sawyer... just go." She turned back around, looking into his eyes pleadingly. "I can't be around you anymore."

"Why?" Sawyer didn't even try to come up with something witty. He needed to know why she was suddenly so cold towards him. She shook her head.

"I don't think Jack would like seeing us together." Sawyer scoffed.

"Sorry Sweetcheeks but... since when does it matter what Jack-o thinks?" Sawyer crossed his arms, getting ticked off. Kate turned around to face him, looking appologetic.

"He... uh... It matters now." Kate shook her head, walking past him out of her tent. Sawyer wasn't satisfied with that answer. He spun around and grabbed her arm, spinning her around to face him again.

"'Scuse me Freckles? I think I just heard you wrong." Kate shook her head.

"I can't be seen with you. He's a very jealous guy and I don't want to mess things up with him." Kate avoided eye contact with him.

"Of course. Wouldn't want to mess things up with our little Doctor boyfriend would we?" Sawyer noticed Kate's eyes grew glassy.

"No. That's exactly what I'm saying." That hit him like a ton of bricks. He felt like all the air had been squeezed out of him and he closed his eyes. "Sawyer..." When he opened his eyes, he shoved her arm away, sending her away from him. "Sawyer..."

"Go." He shook his head, looking at the plane in her hand. "Go on, go run to your little hero." Kate crossed her arms and nodded.

"So I guess you know I can't see you anymore?" Sawyer looked up at her.

"Doctor's orders?" He noticed that her eyes focused more on her shoes then. Yep, this was Jack's idea. He didn't want them to see eachother anymore.

"I'm moving to the caves." Kate's voice was quiet and soft. Sawyer swallowed hard, then looked up at her.

"Alright then. Don't keep Doc boy waiting. Would hate for you to mess things up with him." His gaze grew even colder. "Would hate for you to go and try to be somethin you're not." Kate turned around and walked off quickly then, no more good-byes.

Sawyer turned around, looking at her empty tent. He sat down on the sand and put a hand on his head.

---Back to Normal Time.---

Sawyer turned a corner and groaned. Before him, stood a person he had no intrest in seeing. He was willing to walk by without a word.

"Hey Sawyer." The uncomfortable greeting from the other man's mouth was an unwelcome gesture.

"Afternoon Doc." Sawyer grumbled. "Where you been?" Jack shook his head.

"Around." Jack looked at Sawyer and crossed his arms.

"Where's Kate?" Sawyer said, his voice full of contempt. He knew all too well that the man before him didn't have a clue as to where Kate was.

"I dunno. The caves probably." Sawyer rolled his eyes. "Not that it's really any of your business."

"What?" Sawyer didn't feel like getting into it with the doctor, he didn't feel like talking about her, but he couldn't help it.

"Well, if she was with you she would still be clinging to the past." Jack shook his head. "She's letting go. Did ya know that she got rid of the plane?" Sawyer looked up.

"That your idea?" Sawyer's voice was dripping with hatred.

"She has to let go Sawyer. All the memories... all the self-loathing... it's not healthy." Sawyer shook his head.

"But being transformed overnight is?" He stepped forward. "What have you been doing?"

"Excuse me?" Sawyer shook his head.

"You're going to hurt her if you keep this up Jack." Sawyer let his voice drop to a low, threatening whisper. "And when you do... I'm coming after you." Sawyer pushed past Jack, then turned around again. "So stop what you're doing if you wanna live." With that, Sawyer walked off.

"I can't anymore." Jack paused. "It's like a drug..."

---

Sawyer walked back to his tent. He collapsed onto his makeshift bed and sighed.

"Kate..." He reached a hand under his pillow and pulled out a small object. Spinning the toy plane in his hand, he sighed.