Without Haru is...without light. There's just nothing left, there's no one there in the pitch black when I wake up from nightmares. No one to hold my hand and tell me that everything's going to be alright, because it isn't. And the worst thing is, it's all my fault. I can't tell anymore, if it's guilt or loneliness eating away inside of me, or if it's just the realization that I'm not needed.
"We don't need you."
That's what she said...Mama, don't go, I cried for so long, But not anymore. Without Haru is without strength, but I won't give up. I can't.
It's dark...
It's getting darker...and I'm scared
Rin, left. Sure it's as simple as that, but I wish it wasn't. I still love her, and yeah, it IS as simple as that. I remember when she used to cry after nightmares and I'd hold her, sometimes I wonder if she still cries at night, all alone, and the very thought of it makes me want to break something. I broke the mirror today, smashed it, just like she smashed my hearts, a thousand tiny pieces, reflecting me back at myself. All I could see was that stupid ushi the family talk about. Stupid to love her, to hurt her, to let her go. I black out, and I hit whatever I can, later I throw up just thinking about her, I need her, it's so hard to just breathe.