Country Boy
Once I saw you
I fell in love
with your even flow style
that drives me wild
you are so alive
I can't seem to
get you
off of my mind
I asked myself
why go back to the past?
knowing that we
could have a blast
I've been with many different men
black
white
to Indian
but I've never had a dude like you
your name is Jeffrey
and I want you to want me
In the oceans or over seas
on the porch
or even in the garden
I want you...
Inside me
so I can release what's killing me.
"Whatcha doin'?" Jeff asked walking up behind Kaitlyn.
"Writing a poem."
"Can I read it?" Jeff asked looking over Kaitlyn's shoulder.
"Sure, I mean it is about you anyway." Kaitlyn said handing Jeff the piece of butterfly decorated sationary.
"On the porch? I think we can arrange that, how about tonight?" Jeff asked once he finished.
"Shut-up! What do you think, is it any good?"
"Hell yeah it's good, It's about me isn't it?"
"You are so conceited." Kaitlyn laughed.
"I'm conceited, I gotta reason." Jeff sang.
"Do not sing that god awful song." Kaitlyn protested as she covered her ears with her hands.
"But seriously, baby, this is really good."
"Yeah it's one of my favorites. Do you like the name?"
"Country Boy, that's me to the core." Jeff smiled as he kissed the top of Kaitlyn's head.
"I have some others, want to read them? I trust that you'll give me your honest opinion about them, won't you?"
"Of course I will, If any of them stick I'll be sure to let you know, cuz that's how I roll." Jeff joked.
"You are so crazy." Kaitlyn said pulling more sheets of stationary out of the nightstand. "Here read this one first, I call it Your Spanish Eyes." Kaitlyn said handing Jeff the papers.
you're larger than life
but I want it that way
when you show me
the meaning of being lonely
I told myself
It's got to be you
because our love is true
and I need you tonight
but when we fight
I say, "I don't want you back"
but you know it's not true
because I don't want to lose you now
you're the one and only for me
can I comeback to your heart?
before I fall apart
from gazing into your spanish eyes
which drive me insane
you know no one else comes close to you
I won't complain
because you make me feel like a star
you are my man and...
the perfect fan
without you I am incomplete
but together we are one.
"This one is beautiful." Jeff said looking down at Kaitlyn.
"Really?"
"I told you I'd be honest didn't I?"
"Yeah you did."
"And I am being honest. This is a really beautiful poem."
"Thank-you, baby. I think you're going to really agree with the next one." Kailtyn laughed as Jeff started reading the next poem.
"It's entitled, Self Portrait." Kaitlyn told him.
I AM...
One tough Cookie
Bizzare
Loony
Defensive
A Head Case
Short
A Wild Child
I AM...
ME!
"Ain't that the truth!" Jeff exclaimed.
"Hey!"
"Only joking, honey. I loved this one too."
"You promise?"
"Yes, of course I do."
"I have some that aren't all lovey dovey."
"You do? Can I read those too?"
"Ummm...ok, but what if I read them to you? Give them a more dramatic effect."
"Alright, I'm all ears." Jeff said sitting down on Kaitlyn's bed.
"These are some of the poems I worte before I found you." Kaitlyn told him.
"Before you found me?"
"Yeah, when I was in my "bad" place."
"Oh, ok. Now I really can't wait to hear them." Jeff smiled.
"I bet you are. If It's not too much to ask, will you let me read all of them first then you can tell me what you think."
"I can do that."
Great, this one I call, 5 Senses Of Pain.
It hurts to touch, it leaves bruises and blisters for days...
weeks...
months...
and yes...sometimes even years
It feels like the flesh is being ripped right off your bones
It taste bitter
Rancid even
Like swallowing vinegar
Or sucking on a lemon wedge
It smells terrible...
horrible...
revolting
It burns the hairs in my nose
So bad that it begins to run
It looks like hell
Disgustingly ugly
Boring
It's no Picaso
That's for damn sure
When it's victorious
It screams like a banshee
Gladly letting the world know it has come out on top
But
When it is defeated
It barely whispers a word
for it knows that it has been conqured.
"This next one I actually wrote one night as I sat and listened to my Nirvana CD it actually contains the titles to the songs on that CD, I call it...NIRVANA! great title, eh?" Kaitlyn joked before she started reading.
You know you're right
Even when you're wrong
I just wanna talk ...
About a girl
Who called your phone
You told me you were your father's son
But were raised up more of a man
But the silver you bring home
Ain't enough to pay the phone...bill
You say you ain't cheatin'
But you smell like teen spirit
You know I don't wear that Shit!
But you say, "Baby, I swear it."
When you moved here
I told you
Come as you are
But I should have told you...
Leave the lithium behind
You used to be a flower in bloom
Rising up from a heart-shaped box
Sippin' on some good ole pennyroyal tea
You have the ability to rape me with your words
And although I'm not dumb
I except all apologies
And even though I ask you to leave
I will always love you
Because to me
You are the man...
Who sold the world!
"Ok I have two more. This one is called, Ten Days."
Ten days without you
One letter a day I sent
No reply
Ten more days and still no you
Ten more letters all at once
No reply, no answer, no response
Tears sting my eyes
As I cry
Ten minutes of sniffling
And I begin to wonder
Why am I torturing myself?
What did I do wrong?
Maybe it wasn't me at all
Where did you go wrong?
Ten days of waiting
Still no letter in the mailbox...FUCK IT!
Ten days of mourning your ass is over
I'll find someone who appreciates me
...and all TEN of my wonderful personalities!
"And my last "great work" I like to call Breaking the Habit." Kaitlyn told Jeff. "Yes, I did this one the same way I did Nirvana." Kaitlyn said answering Jeff's unasked question.
I thought we were meant to be
And that we were moving forward
But you told me don't stay
I need to be by myself
To find somewhere I belong
Now I find myself lying from you
Trying not to hit the floor
Making it easier to run
You made me faint the first time I saw you
Not giving me time to figure out
If what we had was true
Now I'm breaking the habit
But I'm doing it from the inside
Since nobody's listening
To my emotion filled ranting session
Leaving me feeling both numb...and dumb.
"Now, Mr. Hardy, tell me what you think."
"Well, Miss Ryan. I think those are some pretty personal emotions that you just shared with me."
"Yeah but are they any good?"
"No, they're better than good."
"Really, cuz there is this poetry contest that I was going to enter, but was scared that my stuff sucked."
"Enter the contest Kaitlyn."
"I don't know..."
"You asked for my honest opinion, and I honestly think you should enter this poetry contest and blow everyone else out of the water."
"I don't know about blowing anyone out of the water, but I am going to enter. First prize is five hundred dollars, second is three hundred and third is one fifty."
"That's great, we could really use that extra five hundred you're going to win." Jeff said kissing Kaitlyn playfully.
"Don't count on that money, Jeff, I'll be lucky to even get an honorable mention."
"You got to stop putting yourself down like that. You are so good at everything you do, and sometimes it feels like Me and Elyssa are the only ones that realize that, I'm gonna need for you to start realizing it, too do you hear me?" Jeff said sternly.
"Yes Sir."
"So now what's gonna happen when you enter this contest?"
"I'm gonna win." Kaitlyn said.
"I can't hear you."
"I'm gonna win." Kaitlyn said with a little more energy.
"I still didn't hear you."
"I'M GONNA WIN!" Kaitlyn shouted.
"That's my girl. So why don't we go out for a very early celebration."
"Sounds like a plan." Kailtlyn smiled as Jeff got up to leave the room. "Hey, Jeff."
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for believeing in me, it means a lot to me."
"Yeah, well you mean a lot to me." Jeff said before walking out the door.
A/N- - -It's been forever, but there is good news...I just saved a bunch of money by switching to Geico...LOL J/K. Seriously the good news is that the semester is finally over so no more school until August, that give me tons of free time and that means more time to sit my azz at this computer and write, so hopefully there will be tons of updates in the near future... YAY! Thanks for all of you who are still around your support and loyalty mean EVERYTHING to me! I mean it you guys are the best! Oh BTW ALL and I do mean ALL of the poems in this chapter are MINEZ! I know they aren't the greatest but they are MINE so please please please no one take them and try to pass them off as your own, that would really SUCK! seeing that they are all in my Portfolio that I worked really hard on, so no stealing or borrowing w/o permission as some like to refer to it as.
Sayonara
Alexis