Theme: Midoriko
Word Count: 181
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Miroku struggles with the reason she died.
Sometimes he wishes to turn his hand upon himself and stare into the depths of his own nothingness. He likens it to standing at the peak of a mountain and to have the wind rush around him like a whispering in his head.
Jump.
Would it feel of glorious flight as his body rushed toward the ground, arms spread wide open? He clenches his fist around the prayer beads, feeling determined not to give in.
Not yet, I want to live.
Sometimes Sango speaks of this–of the greatest of her kin who fell because they wanted to. Because they were tried of fighting and had grown tired of life. They were killed because they allowed themselves to die. He wonders if Sango fights her own demons that whisper in her ear that death would be so much easier now.
He would ask Midoriko, was it worth it? Is that why you changed your mind? But he is afraid of the answer she would give him and because of it keeps his distance from the jewel.
He's not ready to know yet.