Punkette in Love with the Punk
Chapter 8
DISclaimer: I do not own the Inuyasha Characters but do own this story so if you want to write one based on this please ask and I would be more than ecstatic to negotiate!
The soothing sound of water coming from the fountain in front of the bench she was sitting on didn't seem to comfort her violently shaking body. Dry tears were on her red and black spotted face and red puffy eyes. She had been sitting there for about ten minutes...waiting.
Finally, there was a few snapping of small twigs and dry leaves from the path leading to her. Her head snapped over in that direction and every muscle weakly tensed as much as it could in her current condition. She relaxed when it was the person she wanted.
She jumped up and nearly limped to him. He caught her as she tripped with her last couple of steps. She just clung in his warm embrace. There was the only place she felt warm and safe. "K-Kagome... H-how dare he do this to you again. Are you alright? He didn't break anything did he?"
"N-no...I don't think so. Just really shaken and bruised. I got to get out of there"
"Leave...with me...We can go to Takyo like you always wanted and-"
"Hojo You know I can't. He'll find us... and I couldn't leave my mother there to die. I couldn't do it. Not to mention bringing you into this anymore than you already are. It's not fair for you to do that and leave your friends and family" Tears of frustration built up as she spoke.
Hojo's eyes went from rage to worry. He walked over to the bench putting his face in his hands. Kagome walked over to him and sat by him. He turned to her and wrapped his arm gently around her and sat back in the bench while she laid her head on his warm chest, his scent calming her down.
He sighed, staring up at the stars. "What can I do to get you out of all this, I'll do anything."
She looked up at him to see that he shifted his sights on to her. She could tell he was serious in every word. She moved her head up to his and fell into a passionate kiss with him. But it was cut short.
A crack was heard behind them in the trees. Both of their heads snapped in that direction. A figure was standing close to them but it was too dark to see anything else. A click was sounded and next a crack of a shot in their direction. Hojo screamed in pain as he fell to the ground. He was hit. Kagome dropped to the ground, trying to cover herself and Hojo. The person ran away right away.
Kagome got up and looked at where the wound was. She gasped as she discovered it right near his heart. "Hojo! Hojo, hold on, hold on...I'm calling help" She dialed as quickly as her shaken fingers could. And screamed into the phone for help to come. Tears started to stream out of her eyes as she saw Hojo spitting up blood trying to breathe.
He looked up at Kagome. She dropped the phone and grabbed his hand. "Hojo hold on. Help is coming. Just hold on." A teardrop started to fall down her cheek.
"K-Kag-gome, I-I L-lo-ve y-yo-ou." Kagome screamed in pain as she watched her love die right in front of her. "HOJO!"
Kagome gasped as she sat straight up in her bed and started to cry. That painful memory she tried to hide all came back to her in a rush of constant reminding. Guilt and pain overflowed through her. Tears came out unstoppable as old wounds reopened.
After a while of trying to calm down, she finally controlled the tears but the pain was all still there. She went into deep depression. Her fingers itched to cut. To just cut the pain out of her. She went to a drawer and pulled out a pocket knife. She backed into the corner of her room and slid to the ground.
She took the knife to the old cut she had done the past day. She dug in clenching her jaw to hold the scream. Tears ran down her face as pictures of that night popped into her head and kept coming, overriding the self-inflicted pain. She cut a new area desperately trying to cover that pain. Cutting over and over again. She finally stopped and sat there slowly loosing consciousness as she put the towel over all her badly bleeding cuts. She finally drifted off...
A knock... no pounding on the door slowly brought Kagome into realization. Kagome looked around and down at her covered arm. Another pound came. "Kagome, let me in, wake up! Kagome"
Kagome quickly got up and ran to the door unlocking it and opening it a little as to only stick her head out the door.
"What the hell took so long... Kagome are you ok?" Sango started to stare at her.
"Yeah, why do you ask?" Kagome tried to keep her cool in front of Sango, "Why are you looking at me that way?"
"You look like you went through hell and back. Were you up all night?" Sango inspected Kagome's face. Kagome sighed.
"Just rough sleeping, don't worry about it. I'll be out in a bit." Kagome shut the door. She sluggishly went to her closet and grabbed a long sleeve tee and a pair stretch jeans. There was nothing on the tee but she needed it to hide what she had done. The wounds were too freash to cover them with foundation and there was to many to just cover with a wristband. Good thing the weather had cooled a little as to not have her sweating like a pig in front of everyone.
She took her brush by her nightstand and quickly brushed through her hair and put it in a messy bun, fixed her make up and walked out of the room. Sango had already left, and wrote a note telling her she had to meet up with someone before school so she had gone. Kagome sighed. At least she wouldn't have to confront her quite yet at what happened.
Kagome grabbed her books, stuffed them in her book and went out the door. She didn't feel like eating. She actually felt like puking. Her stomach ached and turned, and it didn't help with her emotions right now. She slowly walked into the school building putting on a cover up show. Showing the face of boredom. It actually worked alright because she looked like she didn't get sleep at all.
She walked down the main hall to get to her locker. To get to it she had to pass a face that she didn't want to see at this present moment. She neared his locker hoping he was gone already, but to no hope. He was there, leaning on his locker with his arms crossed, looking all tough. He spotted Kagome and progressed to her, walking by her side. "Hey, can we talk?" Kind of shocking coming from him, but Kagome wasn't in the mood to talk much.
She sighed, "What?" Still trying to show the boredom in her face. She kept walking toward her locker. Why are these halls so damn long? To her seemed too long. Inuyasha grabbed her left arm, which, luckily wasn't her freshly mutilated one, and pulled her in the direction of the doors leading to the outside. It all happened so quickly for her to fight it, not to mention she was too weak to even fight it.
When they went out the doors the bell rang. No one was left outside...they were alone. He pulled her toward a huge tree that held a good amount of shade. That's when he let go of her. She decided to lean on the tree, her arms crossed, with her mutilated arm covered by her left arm. She looked at Inuyasha who seemed very lost in thought and had a trace of what looked like doubt in his eyes.
"What is it?" Kagome gave him a questioning look. She really didn't want to be there at that moment in time. He looked at her his eyes bore into hers, almost as if he was deciding something. He progressed to her until there was almost no closer he could get to her, and the whole time his eyes searched hers. When he stopped, Kagome couldn't look into his eyes anymore and turned away.
She sighed, "Look I don't have time for this-" She was starting to turn to leave and get around him but was cut off and stopped right away by Inuyasha's strong arms hitting the tree, blocking her from leaving. It kind of shocked her but she just looked up at Inuyasha questioningly.
"Kagome, the point of a gang is to be close to them and knowing everything about them to make them stronger...to help." His golden amber eyes bored into Kagome's chocolate ones.
"What's your point-"
"Do you think I'm blind, Kagome? You never mention anything from your past and you act like your hiding something." He was started to raise his voice, getting angry, but so was she.
" So what if I am? Why does it matter, the past is the past, it's meant to be left behind." Her eyes clouded as she pictured her past, trying to do as her words advised.
Inuyaha sighed, "Kagome, Kouga is the leader of the biggest gang in California. You were part of it weren't you?"
"Why the hell does that matter?"
"It just does, so listen. Did you two ever date?"
Kagome sighed, "So we did, not long that's for sure."
"How long ago?" Kagome got confused at that question. It made her quite irritated.
"Why the hell does that matter? I dated him a long time ago and never again, ok?"
"A year ago, there was a murder..." Kagome nearly choked and all her muscles tensed. "A murder of A Hojo Dijuban. The same one you mentioned last night. He was shot and Kouga and his girlfriend were rumored to have done it. Assuming that girlfriend is you." He stopped momentarily to evaluate her face. She looked stuck in the past.
"You don't know-"
"Did Hojo rape you? Is that what happened? He did that to you then you and Kouga killed him for it? Tell me, Kagome did you murder-" Inuyasha's face filled with mixed emotions and hope his accusations was what really happened, but he was cut off by a hysteric Kagome.
"You know NOTHING of what happened that night. I wasn't raped, and I wasn't with Kouga at that time. You really want to know the truth.. huh.. I met him there because I had been BEATEN again by my so called father and he was there to talk to me. Next thing I know we hear a crack behind us and BOOM he was gone. Is that what you wanted to know. Know you know. One of the missing pieces of Kagome's secret past. Congratulations!" Kagome pushed her way through when she had the chance. Since the story shocked Inuyasha, his guard was down for a second.
When realization came back to Inuyasha he took the chance to pull her back. He turned and grabbed her right arm to stop her. She stopped and screamed in pain and pulled her arm back toward her and took one last look at him before she took off. "Kagome, Kagome come back-" He sighed. It was too late, she was gone. "Stupid, stupid!" He punched the tree, which did more damage on his hand.
He looked at it and shook it. It didn't help his anger. How could I have been so stupid? Now she probably hates me...Now what? Go after her stupid. And that's what he did. She must have gone home. Thats where he started off to.
Kagome ran into the house and into the bathroom. There was nothing else she wanted to do at that time than to just cut away her life. She grabbed the razor and cut and cut and cut viciously over and over again. After she had done all the damage she couldn't hold the razor anymore and it dropped to the ground. She had a weird feeling rushing over her. The pain hurt so bad nothing hurt at all.
She starred at the door while sitting on the floor with only the wall for support. The last things she heard was the door opening and someone yelling her name. She then saw Inuyasha in the doorway. His face filled with worry and horror. She then drifted into blackness as she heard footsteps rushing toward her.
Just pure darkness and silence.
Inuyasha opened the door to Kagome and Sango's dorm, "Kagome!" He looked around and saw the bathroom door open. It was never just left open. He ran to the bathroom door and what he saw horrified him.
There was Kagome, slumped on the ground, blood all over her arms and the floor. He looked at her and she looked up at him before she slipped into unconsciousness. He ran toward her and grabbed his phone, dialing 911. "Hey I need help right away.." He gave information quickly and slurred a little.
He looked around and saw a couple of towels. He grabbed them quickly and covered her wounds which were still bleeding. He had never felt this nervous in his life. "Kagome, stay with me. Come on wake up Damn it!"
He could finally hear the sirens coming. Within a minute doctors were there and putting her in a stretcher. They were putting her in the ambulance vehicle, when Inuyasha noticed everyone in the school starting to gather around the ambulance.
They were about to shut the door when Inuyasha jumped in next to her. "Hey you can't be in here, you'll have to -"
"She's my girlfriend." The doctor sighed and then agreed. He got in and shut the door behind him. About five minutes passed before they reached the hospital. As they took her in the emergency room, Inuyasha was told to stay out of the room. He started to pace back and forth, his nerves were shot.
He jumped when he heard his cell phone ring. Looking at the caller ID, it was Miroku. He answered it and told them to get to the hospital as soon as possible. He sighed and sat down on one of the uncomfortable waiting seats across from the emergency room Kagome was in and put his head in his shaking hands.
About 15 minutes later, Miroku and Sango came running down the hall. "Inuyasha, what happened?" Inuyasha looked up to them with sorrowful eyes.
"I-I confronted her, i-it's all my fault." He was trying to tell them but his guiltwas overpowering. "If I didn't- she wouldn't-this wouldn't have-I'm so stupid!" Miroku sat by Inuyasha while Sango comforted Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha calm down. You're not making any sense right now. Now relax a little and tell us what happened." Inuyasha took a deep breath and told them what happened. After that they were silent for a little while. More like three hours.
They were still waiting for Kagome to get out. Inuyasha was pacing back and forth, while Sango and Miroku were leaning on each other watching Inuyasha pace. They both looked at him worriedly. "Inuyasha, you can't take the blame for this. All we can do is-"
"Is hope that I didn't kill her."
"Inuyasha you didn't-" Miroku tried.
"I may not have actually cut her but I drove her to it. What kind of friend am I? None of this would have happened if I had Kept my mouth shut and not brought it up, but what did I do? I may have killed her-"
"Inuyasha, sit down and relax, we know you care too much about her to actually take this lightly. All we can hope is that she is safe. You didn't do this, her past did. Alright?" Inuyasha sighed and sat down.
"But I brought her past back." He whispered. He felt a huge mix of emotions. Some that he couldn't explain, and some of guilt and worry. He wasn't the only one. He could tell Sango and Miroku were very worried too.
After about another hour, the doctor finally came out, exhausted. Inuyasha jumped up and Sango and Miroku soon followed. "How is she? Is she alright?"
"She'll be fine. She lost a lot of blood. Some old wounds were opened too. She must have been doing it for awhile. Lucky you found her when you did, or she would've died."
"Can we see her?" Sango asked.
The doctor sighed, "I really shouldn't let you but I'll let you since she'll soon wake up. She's not looking very good but her arms are wrapped up in a cast from her elbow to before her wrist because she needs fluids and nutrients to get her blood back better. Go on in."
When they went in their hearts just dropped. Kagome's weak body was laying there with tubes everywhere. One in her nose, in her wrist with fluids running into her and stuff used to wrap her and clean her and resuscitate her. Cloths with blood over it were on the side and stuff for stitches left over there.
The three grabbed a chair that were in the corner of the room and brought it up to Kagome. Inuyasha grabbed her hand and looked at her with guilt streaming through him. "Kagome, I'm so sorry. Please just wake up." After that he set her hand down and they sat there in silence. Taking everything in.
Hours had passed and It was about 12:00 in the morning. Miroku and Sango were sitting by each other on one side of Kagome and Inuyasha was sitting on the other side of her. Kagome's pale face looked more receptive to the pain.
Finally, Kagome sat straight up, the little blood she had made her really dizzy as she did it. She woke up and was frantic. Sango and Miroku jumped as well as Inuyasha. Kagome looked around frantically. "Kagome-" Inuyasha went towards her bed. He gently grabbed her shoulders and laid her back down.
"N-no. I wanna die. I wanna die, please give me something." Kagome went into hysterics. Trying to weakly fight Inuyasha off with her hands in a fist, hitting him. Inuyasha grabbed both Kagome's wrists and pinned them to the bed near her head. He looked at Sango and Miroku, who took the que to leave them alone, and left.
Inuyasha turned his attention back to Kagome hysterically going on about nothing to live for anymore. After failed attempts to calm her down there was only one other thing to do. He just took the chance to kiss her and hard at first to get her to stop talking about wanting to die.
After a few weak attempts to get him of, she relaxed and kissed him back, tears streaming down her pale cheeks. Inuyasha lightened the pressure of the kiss and it turned passionate. Without realizing what he was doing, his hands moved from her wrists up to her hands and interwinded them together. She closed her fingers as in openly showing the same feelings. But neither knew what they meant.
All the confusion slowly went away as the kiss passionately deepened. At that moment everything just went away.
After a few minutes they parted for air. Breathing heavily they both just looked into each others eyes. Confusion was in both their eyes. Inuyasha then laid his head by her ear. Their hands were in the same position as they were when they were kissing.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you like this. I thought I lost you. Will you forgive me for being so damn stupid?" He said the words in light whispers in her ear with sincerity. Kagome's heart dropped.
They stayed silent for a minute.
"It hurts...knowing that I have to live with his death... and no one wanted to believe it wasn't me...they kept pointing fingers..." Inuyasha stayed silent and listened, "The only one who would believe me was Kouga...he comforted me...in a way. Then people...people accused me of cheating on him...I would never do that...I didn't even find help in my own home...My father just kept beating me every night... That's when my mother secretly sent me here for my safety...a new life...I haven't heard from her since..." Kagome's shaky voice made her stop from going on further. Tears were streaming down her face uncontrollably. Inuyasha just sat there, giving her the long desired comfort she desperately needed.
A while passed as they stayed that way. Kagome had finally stopped crying and fell asleep soon after that. Inuyasha decided to get out of that position and let her sleep. When he got up he looked up at the clock. It was 3 AM. There was no way he was leaving for home. He was exhausted, but tried to stay awake by Kagome's bed. His attempts didn't last very long as he rested his head in his arms, which on the bed and drifted off.
"Inuyasha...Inuyasha wake up." Sango was shaking Inuyasha in attempt to wake him up. He opened his eyes slowly and tiredly. It took a minute to calculate his surroundings. When he did his head snapped up and looked at Kagome. She was still sleeping.
He then relaxed a little and looked over at Sango and Miroku. Miroku looked at his friend in inspection, "You look like crap, man. You should go home and get some rest."
"No I'm not leaving." He rubbed his face, trying to wake himself up. He had checked the time and it was 8.
"Nonsense." He sighed and gave Inuyasha his bag. "I figured you wouldn't leave." Inside the bag was a pair of clothes. Inuyasha got up from his chair and said he was going to the bathroom to change and get a coffee. After he left Kagome started to wake. She looked over to where Inuyasha was and he wasn't there. She looked up and saw Sango and Miroku. She smirked slightly, "Hey, what's up?"
"Thank God you're alright. How are you feeling." Sango asked.
"Stupid. Hurt." Kagome's face fell. "What's going to happen to me? They're not taking me to a rehab are they?" Sango's face fell.
"I don't know."
"Let's just be thankful everything is alright. That you're alright." Miroku said, trying to break the tension. Just then, the same doctor who talked to them last night walked in.
"Hello, how are you feeling now Kagome?" He started to get things out of the cupboard across the room.
"Better." She was quiet. The doctor asked Sango and Miroku to leave the room for a while while he did his routine check up.
He sat down in the seat next to her bed. "Kagome-"
"Look it was a misteak, and I'm sorry. Just please don't send me to a rehab center." Kagome gave her best pleading look.
"Kagome this wasn't just a one time thing."
"I know but I've learned my lesson and it won't happen again, promise."
He sighed, "You know, you do have people who love you a lot." Kagome stayed silent, listening. "Your two friends, and that boyfriend of yours that stayed here all night with you."
"Wait, what boyfriend?"
He gave her a confused look, "That white hair boy that came with you in the ambulance."
"Oh, him. He's not my boyfriend." He seemed to think on it.
"Well, between you and me, that's not what he said." He got up while giving her a smile and turned toward the door. He stopped before opening it. "I won't put you through rehab this time, but if it happens again then I'll have no other choice. And...don't forget what I said." Then he left leaving Kagome very confused.
She wasn't there by herself very long to think about it because Inuyasha walked through the door carrying a cup of coffee and a different pair of clothes. He paused only a second when he saw she was awake before he continued on and sat back in his seat.
"So, I saw the doctor leave the room. Are you going to get out soon?" He took a drink of the coffee. Kagome giggled a little at the sight. He looked at her suspiciously, "What?"
"Yeah, you look real tough with coffee." He grunted. "I'm not sure. I think sometime today or tomorrow." She sighed.
"Then what did you and deputy doc talk about?" Kagome sat up in her bed and looked at Inuyasha. She thought about asking him about it but choose not to mention it...yet.
"I don't have to go to go to a rehab." Inuyasha's head snapped up.
"What? Kagome you need help. You almost killed yourself." Inuyasha got upand looked her in the eye.
"Look there is more reason than one I can't go."
"Like what?" Inuyasha was pissed. She needed help.
"Like my information!" Kagome snapped at him. He looked at her confused, "My father would get a hold of that information and know exactly where I am. That's the last thing I need." She looked down at her hands. Memories of being beaten repeatedly. Her body tensed at the memory. Then the memory of the last time she saw her mother.
All those made believe stories she made in her mind to make it seem better were all lost. All this time she made up, in her mind of a different life then what she had. Nothing would ever be the same. She had to face everything in her past.
Kagome was suddenly snapped out of her thoughts by a strong hand on her shoulder. She looked up at Inuyasha who gave her a look of worry. "I lost you there." Kagome sighed.
"I can fight it. I'd rather fight everyday with the blades then see my father ever again." She looked up at Inuyasha who nodded. He took her in his arms.
"Don't worry, It's all over now." He whispered in her ear. Kagome was kind of confused by the embrace, but if felt comforting. She slowly started to fall into it when the door opened. Inuyasha and Kagome jumped and quickly separated.
Sango and Miroku walked in with sacks of Wac Donalds. "Guess what? We talked to the doc and your homefree in two hours." Sango said. They didn't even seem to notice the awkward moment. Miroku took out the burgers and fries. They ate and Talked like nothing had happened.
Two hours later, Kagome got the casts off and got let go. Miroku drove his Hybrid car with Sango in the front seat and Inuyasha at a side window in back and Kagome in the other window seat. They would glance at each other every so often and quickly turn away.
After a while, they finally reached Sango and Kagome's dorm. It was only 6:00, so they decided to rent a freaky movie and ordered Pizza. Kagome felt kind of uncomfortable around them after what happened. She felt she didn't deserve them around. She'd never forgive herself for pulling them into this, and had a bad feeling that this was only the beginning of it all.
END OF CHAPTER
Inusapphrine:I am VERY sorry for the long wait, but I had a really hard time writing this chapter. It was really hard for me so please go easy if any flaming. The next chapter is done and will be up soon. After I get reviews on this chapter...so REVIEW! lol