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Chapter 10: Is It Ever Okay

After Inuyasha finished explaining Kagome just stared off into space. She was disappointed in herself for believing Inuyasha would ever lie to her about something so important. She was a little angry he hadn't told her what was going on in the first place. It would have saved a lot of stress, of course Inuyasha probably thought the opposite.

"Why'd you come back here than?" Kagome asked. Inuyasha shifted a little and sat down beside Kagome.

"Something was wrong. I sensed your pain. What happened?" He questioned. Kagome knew what he was talking about. He was talking about the demon who had mysteriously let her go.

"A demon came by." She began. Inuyasha stiffened a little.

"What happened?"

"He let us go."

"Us?"

"Me, the twins, and Sango."

"Where did this happen?" Inuyasha demanded suspiciously. It was Kagome's turn to shift uncomfortably.

"On the way to Kaede's village."

"What the hell were you doing all the way out there! With no protection!"

"What do you expect? If you would have told me what was going on from the start none of this would have ever happened. You're not supposed to keep secrets from me. Remember? And you not saying anything gave me a lot of stress. I thought you left for good. I thought you lied about another baby not being a child!"

"You should have had more trust in me from the start. So sorry if I thought you have a little more trust in your mate."

"Trust! Don't even bring that into the conversation! I trust you with everything I am and you know it. You can't blame this on me! Plus what did you expect. A baby can change a person. I thought you were running from another responsibility."

"You know I always take on my own responsibilities! So what now you think I'm lazy?"

"You are lazy!" Kagome glared at Inuyasha. Their eyes were locked in anger and Inuyasha was growling at her.

"After all the times I saved you, you're calling me lazy and irresponsible. I was going to save Miroku alone, because I didn't want you to get hurt and this is how you thank me?"

"You were going on your own because you're stubborn." Kagome crossed her arms and Inuyasha clenched his fist closed.

"So what if I'm stubborn at least I'm not some stupid wench who thinks she knows everything! At least I'm strong, at least I'm not some retarded bitch, at least I'm not fat and ugly!" Inuyasha felt a sharp pain across his face. Kagome had slapped him. Her breathing was intense. He looked at her anger filled gaze. It was filled with.. hate." He smelt something salty and knew she crying, but masking it under rage. He glowered at her. He was surprised and a little hurt inside that she hit him physically.

"That's what you think of me, huh?" She asked in ire. "I'm just some stupid, retarded bitch, who thinks she knows everything. To top it off I'm fat and ugly." Kagome clenched her fist. "How can I ever trust you.." She looked down and than up at him again. "IF ALL YOU EVER DO IS LIE TO ME?" She stood up. "You told me... that I was beautiful and strong... more lies.." She looked at him and her expression changed to hurt. "Just like all the times you ran off to Kikyo." She walked out of the room leaving a stunned Inuyasha behind. She just had to bring Kikyo into it. Although her had to admit. She was right. He had lied to her, but not about calling her pretty, he lied when he called her ugly, when he called her a retarded wench, when he called her fat, when he called her a stupid wench. They were all lies.

Inuyasha lied down on the bed and went into one of his thinking stages.

Meanwhile

Kagome stomped down the hallway. Tears flowing, but not so fast. She held them in. 'All we ever do it argue and fight and hurt each other more... why can't we just be happy? Will we ever have out own happy ending?' She thought in sorrow. Did anybody really ever have a 'happily ever after'?

Kagome walked into the sitting room and sat in front of the fire. It was cold outside and she didn't want to get sick for her babies sake. She pulled her knees to her chest and cried. 'It's not fair. The future will never be happy, eventually I'll have to stand by and watch.. I'll have to see my family die. Sango, Miroku, their children... will all die and I'll still be here. I'll live past all my friends and family. Than I'll die, lonely, missing them all so much. Inuyasha and I will continue to fight and argue on until the day we die...' She cried some more. Had destiny really chosen this sort of fate for her? For humans and demons and living creatures. 'Why... why are we born only to suffer, only to witness death, only to hurt, only to in the end die..?' She looked up at the fire with a tear stained expression. In the fire the faces of all her friends and family smiling passed one by one. 'Eventually I will only have the memory of smiles..' The image in the fire changed to one of everyone, all the people she loved and cared about standing and smiling at her. Kagome reached her hand out towards the fire, not really noticing how close she was getting the heat. She just wanted to reach out to them and allow them to live on long.

"Owe!" Kagome pulled her hand to her chest. She had burnt it and stared back at the fire seeing the image of her family and friends getting farther away. 'Just like the center of the flames they are unreachable.' Kagome felt more tears coming on as she thought about how it would feel to lose her family and friends one by one. She would see them all grow old and die, while she would stay youthful and alive. One day her little brother would look like her older brother. Her friends would become old enough to be her grandparents friends. Her mother would become old enough to be her grandmother. Unless... 'Unless Soshi and her mate for real. If that happens Sota will live on too and I'll have them.'

Flashback

Kagome sat across from her father at the kitchen table. She was young, around three. They were all in the inu-village.

"Father momma told me you and her never really mated? Why?" Kagome asked. She of course only knew what the meaning of mating was. She didn't know about how to do it. She was to young to be learning about that kind of thing.

"You're too young to understand these thing Kagome. I haven't mated her fully because I do not wish for her to perish if I do. If I get hurt in battle, so will she."

"What if you stopped battling?" Kagome questioned. Soshi smiled down at her.

"I choose not to. If I was to fully mate her she would grow to outlive her human family and she doesn't want that. I will not make her suffer through that."

End Flashback

'So.. than he won't take her as a mate fully. I'm sure his thoughts on the subject haven't changed.' Kagome frowned. She really would be without a family.

"They're all going to die. My family, my friends.. but I'll have to live.. waiting to die and join them. Like everyone's destiny.. we will all have to die.. It is what all of our futures hold. Death and sorrow and pain. Why is everything like this? Inuyasha never even bothered to ask me if I wanted to live long..." 'But if I died that would leave Inuyasha alone.'

"Kagome.." Inuyasha stood at the doorway, having heard every word she spoke out loud. Kagome turned to him. "We can reverse it. We can find away to reverse it if you want." His voice was really hurt and he looked down. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do this. I never gave it any thought, but.." His voice was shaky as though he was about to cry. "But we don't have to be stuck in the non-breakable love anymore." Where did that leave him. He would be alone. 'That's how I was meant to be.. alone. I was born a hanyou and so my life span is greatened. To weak for a demon mate... to immortal for a human mate. My destiny is written on the stone path, and unlike demons and humans it spells out only one word... lonely.'

"Inuyasha.." Kagome looked down. She hadn't wanted him to hear that. She looked up at him again with more tears. She stood up and walked over to him. He stared at her with hurt and pain. Kagome hugged him quickly and tightly.

"I'm so sorry." He wrapped his arms around her. "I didn't think... I didn't know.. I forgot they wouldn't.."

"Stop, please." She cried. "It's not your fault. I don't want to not be your mate anymore Inuyasha. I will forever be with you... in an unbreakable love."

"Please forgive me.." He pulled her tighter. It was his fault. Not only would he be lonely, but so would Kagome. "I never wanted you to be lonely."

"No.. I'll never be lonely. As long as I have you I will not be lonely." She was swept off her feat as Inuyasha picked her up bridal style and carried her back to the room. He put her down on the bed and sat beside her. There was more privacy in the bedroom, plus the pups wouldn't have to hear what Kagome and him were talking about, even if they didn't understand.

"Kagome..." Inuyasha began in the voice the signified he had to tell her something. "I.. felt the same was as you do now when I was little and I told.. my mother. She.. she.. told me that it was alright that I could live long and she would not. She said each person and creature has their own advantage. For a human.. they can live life everyday recognizing it as beautiful, but the consequence for this is the eventual death each human must eventually face. The last breath you see is the most beautiful, because at the moment over all others you see the world in a different way a way you never could see anything else. You see your life flash before you, you see everything that is beautiful." He took a breath and continued. "For demons you can live on and see the world in which ever way you choose to see it. You can become wise and have power. The consequence for this is to see many centuries, changes, and horrors." He looked to Kagome and wrapped in arm over her shoulder. "For half demons everything is different. She told me that because I am a half demon I am lucky. She told me that because I am a half demon I get the beauty and the life." He stopped their. Kagome was surprised at how much he had opened up, but also stunned her could say something so beautiful, so right, so true.

"Inuyasha, your mother was a very wise woman."

"Yeah, she was." Inuyasha replied. He kissed the side of Kagome's head.

"I guess.. things will be okay after all."

"Huh?"

"As long as you're here Inuyasha I have someone to love, something to see as beautiful."

"Kagome.. there's nothing in the world more beautiful than you."

"Than us." Kagome turned and faced him fully. Her lips slowly closed in on his. It was a light, passion filled kiss. Inuyasha nipped her bottom lips. She allowed his tongue to enter her mouth. This kiss felt strange. It was more loving, peaceful, and enjoyable than ever before.

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Kagome cuddled close to Inuyasha.

"Inuyasha?" Kagome nuzzled his neck.

"Yeah." Came to warn reply.

"I chose this."

"Hmm?"

"I chose to be with you forever. I chose to stay your mate and I am prepared to die by your side. Don't be sorry. I chose to die by your side because I love you and if I were to die before you I would leave you all alone. If we are together, than we're not alone. If we're not alone everything is okay. Everything is alright and every single moment is beautiful."

Well I'm ending it there. Tell me what you thought of the lemon if you read it. I don't think I ever made the lemon so passionate.