I know the last chapter was short you guys, but please bare with me. I haven't got all day to write fictions. I do wish sometimes I did. I honestly love writing.
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of the characters associated with the series.
Chapter 12: Regrets
Inuyasha jumped out the other side of the well with Kagome. They had dropped the twins off with Sango in their rush. They couldn't bring the twins to the modern hospital. People would see their ears. Inuyasha had a hat to cover his own, but they had forgotten to grab the twins cover ups.
Inuyasha slammed the door down and knew he'd be in trouble for that later, but for now he was to worried about Kagome and his pup to care.
"Soshi! Mrs. Higurashi!" Inuyasha looked around for them with the moaning Kagome in his arms.
"Inuyasha.." She grabbed his arm and squeezed it to try and release some of the pain from her aching form. She was more worried about her unborn child than anything.
"Hold on Kagome.. we'll get you help." He whispered trying to sooth her pain. He would do anything, as long as nothing happened to Kagome or the pup.
"Inuyasha is everything alright?" Mrs. Higurashi walked in with a cup ok coffee. Her eyes widened as soon as she saw Inuyasha's expression and Kagome's face. The cup dropped and the sound of breaking glass could be heard.
Mrs. Higurashi ran to her daughter and son in law.
"Oh my god. What happened to her?" She looked at Inuyasha in question and than down at her daughter in worry.
"We have to get her help. Something's run with the p.. baby and her.. I don't know." Inuyasha was frantic and sorrow-filled.
"Akira?" Soshi came running in when he heard the glass shattering and smelt pain from his daughter. "What's wrong with her?" Soshi ran over to them.
"She needs help!" Inuyasha yelled angrily. There was no time for questions now. Questions came later. For now Kagome needed help.
"Right, come right this way." Akira led Inuyasha to the car. Him and Kagome got in the back of the mini-van while her and Soshi got in the front.
Mrs. Higurashi wasted no time speeding down the road. Almost hitting a few cars a couple times. Sirens were heard and the car was stopped by a policeman.
"What's going on!" Inuyasha asked.
"Don't worry Inuyasha. This will only take a moment." Akira turned to him and then to her window she rolled it down as the police officer stood there.
"Ma'm do you have any idea exactly how fast you were going?"
"Sir, please allow us to go. My daughter is in need of hospital care immediately. She's pregnant and something's wrong with her baby." The police officer's eyes changed to understanding. He looked at the back to see a man holding a moaning woman.
"Yes, of course." The policeman walked away and allowed them to go.
Mrs. Higurashi quickly continued her speeding to the hospital and skillfully parked in seconds. They all rushed out of the car and into the emergency room. Inuyasha was carrying Kagome.
"Excuse me!" Akira quickly explained the situation to a nurse.
Kagome's breathing was ragged. The pain was unbearable. She felt like she was having children all over again. 'Please.. I'll do anything.. just don't let it be a miscarriage.' Kagome felt herself begin to cry. Prayers never helped in this kind of situation. Nothing could help. She should have been easier on herself. She should have took into consideration that she actually was pregnant and needed to be more careful.
Kagome heard the sound of many voices and rushing doctors. The only actually comfort she had from it at the moment was her mate, Inuyasha. He was holding her close, like he would long ago when she was injured, or sick, or he was just trying to save her. He was holding her like back than when they were searching for jewel shards and hunting Naraku. Back before they were together, before the twins, before the stress. For a fleeting moment she wished things could be back that way. She never really admitted it, but she loved the adventure. The traveling.. the old times.
More tears fell from Kagome's eyes, but not from her physical pain, because she missed it. She missed how things used to be. She missed back than. She felt herself being moved from Inuyasha arms. She whimpered a little as the warmth left her and was replaced with the feeling of a mattress beneath her. She blacked out.
Inuyasha could only watch as they took Kagome away and into the emergency room.
"Where are they taking her?" Inuyasha asked Mrs. Higurashi when she appeared beside him. She gave him a sad smile and placed her hand on his shoulder.
"They are going to see what's wrong and hopefully fix the problem. They'll let you see her as soon as they're done." She walked over and took a seat next to Soshi.
Inuyasha could remove his eyes from the doors they had taken Kagome through. He stared thoughts running through his mind. He could distantly hear laughing in his mind. The laughing of Umi and Uchuu playing.. no third child. He could hear Kagome taking to them and telling them it was time for dinner, a foreign sadness in her tone. He could hear her repeating how much she loved him over and over. Him and Umi and Uchuu, but no third.
"Kagome.." Inuyasha looked down.
"Inuyasha.. you should take a seat. They'll be a while." Mrs. Higurashi suggested. Inuyasha did as he was told and sat across from Soshi and Akira refusing to meet their gaze. He could feel their eyes burning into him as they stared. Normally he would be annoyed, but at the moment he didn't care.
Soshi watched his son in law carefully. The boy.. no man he had once sought to kill. Inuyasha was sitting there with sorrow and worry. Soshi understood that Inuyasha did truly love Kagome and he knew Inuyasha was also very worried about what could be going on with the pup.
Inuyasha stared at the ground. The reflection of the overhead lights was on the white tile floor. Inuyasha was occupying himself by counting the specks of dirt that appeared on the once spotless tile. He could find nothing else to try and keep his mind off things. He had a horrible feeling inside him. He couldn't bare the loss of a pup. An innocent child not even able to take it's first breath yet. His and Kagome's guiltless child.
Inuyasha knew Kagome and the pup were the last two people who would need to be punished by the gods. They had done nothing wrong. They were two innocuous souls. He wondered.. could it be the gods were trying to punish him.. for all of his sins and wrong doings?
Inuyasha bit his lip trying not to cry at the thought of losing any of his loved ones. He wouldn't be able to bare it. He had lost to much in his life already.
Soshi shifted no longer able to bare the sorrowful gaze of Inuyasha. He wrapped his arm around Akira to comfort her. He leaned her head against his shoulder and then placed his head atop hers.
"It'll be alright." He mumbled to her. "Kagome is a strong girl. She'll make it through this." Akira nodded. She began to cry into Soshi.
Inuyasha looked up at the crying woman. Kagome's mother. He watched Soshi comfort her and it reminded him of all the times he comforted Kagome when she was sad.
He held his head. Everything led back to Kagome. He couldn't stop thinking about her and her pain-filled expression only moments ago. He couldn't ignore the feeling in his gut that something was wrong with his pup. Worst of all he couldn't ignore the feeling that it was his fault, all of it.
"Mr. Higurashi!" A male voice called. Soshi looked up. He realized the doctor was calling Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha." Soshi began. Inuyasha looked at him. "The doctor wants to speak with us." He stood up with Akira. Inuyasha nodded and stood up as well. They walked over to the doctor.
The doctor's expression immediately gave Soshi and Akira a horrible feeling. Inuyasha on the other hand wasn't used to this kind of thing and had no idea what the expression meant.
"Mr. Higurashi." The doctor looked to Inuyasha. Inuyasha waited patiently. "You're wife is in trouble."
"What's wrong with her!" Inuyasha asked quickly. '
"She's having some difficulty with her child. This problem is caused often. It seems she has been put under some serious stress.."
"Stress caused this than?" Inuyasha's frown deepened. That was why he had the feeling it was his fault, because it was. He had caused her all the stress. He should have known.
"I'm afraid the child may not survive this."
"And Kagome?" Akira quickly asked.
"She will hopefully be fine. We'll need some more testing. It may take a while. You are free to leave or stay."
"Is.." Inuyasha's voice was really shaky. "Is there a chance both of them will be alright?"
"I.." The doctor looked away. Even he couldn't meet the eyes of the sad man. "It would be very rare, I'm afraid. In one out of thirty cases both survive." He explained. It's was Inuyasha turn to look away.
"So.." 'Like always the odds are against me.' A grief-stricken sigh escaped Inuyasha's, now dry mouth. He turned away from the doctor and everyone else. He couldn't bare to face them.
He could hear footsteps beneath his hat. The doctor was leaving and heading to go check on Kagome.
Inuyasha moved and sat back in his seat looking at the ground.
"Inuyasha." He heard a voice call out to him. The voice had anger and anguish in it. He looked up to meet the beholder of the voice. "You did this. Stress, eh?" Soshi said with pure rage. "I should have never trusted her in your hands."
"Shut up!" Inuyasha stood quickly and held his fist and claws to Soshi. Akira became afraid they would fight. "You don't know about anything that happened so keep your mouth shut!" Inuyasha slammed his fist hard and fast across Soshi's face.
Soshi went slamming to the ground, his mouth now covered it his own blood.
"Soshi!" Akira rushed to the side of her fiancé. She looked to Inuyasha. He was glaring down at Soshi.
"Get up!" Inuyasha said and picked up Soshi by the collar.
"Inuyasha stop this." Mrs. Higurashi yelled.
"You wanted to fight me! Do it!" Inuyasha bit out as he let go of Soshi and awaited a battle. Soshi gave him a pitiful glance.
"You are only angry because you know this is your fault. You got Kagome pregnant and caused her all this stress, and now look at what happened." Soshi looked sadder now. Inuyasha glared for a moment longer, until he was no longer able to sustain the glower. He knelt on the ground feeling suddenly weak.
Inuyasha's hand went and rested on his forehead as he stared at the ground. His shoulder shook violently as though he was crying. Though, he wasn't.
"I know.." Inuyasha said low with complete angst in his tone. "I know. It is all my fault. I should have never left her while I went to save Miroku.. I shouldn't have gotten her pregnant. I shouldn't have gotten her as a mate... she would have been better of with out me. She would have been better off here.. in her own time with her own people. I'm... sorry..." Inuyasha slammed his fist into the ground, causing it to crack a little.
Soshi and Akira were a little stunned by his confession, but through his words they felt his pain.
"Inuyasha." Mrs. Higurashi stood knelt beside him and placed her hand on his shoulder again. "I understand that this is hard for you and Kagome as well, but do not regret any of this. It is all fate and can't be changed. Understand Kagome chose this as well. She has chosen to be with you. Remember that. She has excepted having your children and she loves you."
"But.. no.." Inuyasha looked at her. "Look at this. Everyone regrets."
"I know that Inuyasha, but you should not regret your love."
"I.." Inuyasha found he had no words to speak for a long time. "But she would have been better off.."
"No!" Mrs. Higurashi's hand tightened around his shoulder. "She could never be better off with anyone, but you. Can't you see? She loves you. She trusts you. Not many men can be loved and trusted. You are rare Inuyasha. Kagome could never love someone more than you, even if she had never met you. You complete her. If she never knew you she would never be complete. Destiny brought you two together and destiny will hold you there."
Inuyasha nodded in understanding. He got up from the floor and sat in his chair. He would be there all night if he had to. Hell, he would be there forever.
Later
Already it seemed like hours. The hospital lights were dim and no one except Inuyasha, Soshi, and Akira were left in that particular waiting room.
Inuyasha sat full of worry, while Mrs. Higurashi and Soshi were dozed off against one another.
This wasn't the time for sleep and he was angry that they had fallen asleep. Inuyasha had decided that he could bring himself to except that fact that he would only have two children for now. It would be hard to get over the loss of one, but him and Kagome could do it. He knew that much.
Inuyasha leaned back in his chair. His bottom was hurting as he sat very uncomfortable in the chair. His mind was more focused on his family than his bottom though.
He wondered if Umi and Uchuu were alright. They were probably crying their little eyes out as they awaited their parents. Inuyasha knew they understood something was wrong with Kagome. Since they were half dog demon they had the instincts to know.
"Mr. Higurashi." A voice called. The same voice of the doctor from earlier. Inuyasha stood quickly. He felt a sting in his heart as he realized he would have to face the loss.
"Inuyasha, call me Inuyasha." Inuyasha corrected coming forward.
"You are able to see your wife now if you wish."
"Is she alright? The baby?" Inuyasha asked. The doctor frowned.
"It's best if you talk with her about that. She's sleeping now. She's been through a difficult night." Inuyasha nodded at the doctors words.
"Where is she?"
"Come with me." The doctor began to walk to where the rooms were. Inuyasha glanced back at Soshi and Akira and decided they would eventually find out.
Inuyasha followed the doctor down the hall way. There were rooms on both sides of the walls. It was sort of confusing. The only way to identify the rooms was by the numbers above them
"Here's the room she's staying in." The doctor well-versed. Inuyasha nodded. "It's number 121. Remember that."
"I will."
"Alright than. I need to check up on some other patients. I wish you and your wife well." The doctor walked off.
Inuyasha hesitated as his hand went to touch the door knob. It felt cold. 'Cold.' Inuyasha thought to himself. That was how he felt all over. He slowly turned the knob on the door and entered the dark room. The room was like the room him and Kagome had stayed in so long ago. When the man had crashed into them on purpose for revenge. (A/N: That happens in chapters 13-14 of An Unbreakable love.)
Just like last time the moon was the only light in the room, which glowed blue. Just like last time Kagome was hurt, but unlike last time their child wasn't as well.
Inuyasha knew from Kagome's breathing that was indeed awake. He could smell her tears.
"Kagome?" Inuyasha approached slowly and came to the side of her bed.
"Inuyasha." Kagome broke into a fit of tears. He wrapped his arms around her.
"I'm sorry." Inuyasha apologized as he wrapped his arms around her carefully not to hurt her farther. "It's my fault. I shouldn't have put you under so much stress."
"Inuyasha, why are you apologizing?" Kagome pulled away and looked him in the eyes. He frowned and looked away, unable to look her in the eyes.
"For.. for.."
"No." Kagome placed her hand on his arms gently. "There is nothing to apologize for." She smiled. "I'm not crying because I'm sad Inuyasha." She let a little giggle out. "I'm crying out of joy." Inuyasha gave her a look of disbelief. "It's alright. The baby is fine. It was just a false alarm."
Well this chapter was pretty long. I hope it makes up for the length of the chapter before this. These fictions have not been very detail. I know. Forgive me. My newer fictions are. Such as 'Adoration and Fidelity'. That one is packed with detail.