Chapter Five - What Can Happen, Has
He held my hand as we walked down the hall, for all the see. Even though most knew already. He had lost so many friends by becoming my lover. True his three closest hadn't left but still. I looked over at him. He looked so proud, to be holding my hand. His brown eyes were lit up from the love in them, the love toward me. We got to the room before the class started.
Usually the room is split in two. The slytherins on the right side and the gryffindors on the left side. It wasn't a big class, so I could sit next to James. If I had to sit next to Lucius I would die.
The teacher came into the class to begin the lesson. During the lesson, however, when ever the teacher would turn her back, Lucius would throw paper at me. They would say one of these three words. Slut, whore or trader. James would take the note from my hand and throw it back.
Our next class was Defense, one of my favorite classes. In the class I usual sat by Lucius in a two seated desk. But James put an end to that when I would come back with slits in my wrist, from where Lucius had cut me. He made Black and me switch places. Black at first put up a fight but soon moved to the other seat. But he found a slytherin girl, that had been placed with a gryffindor girl, who had a crush on Lucius; so he switched with her.
The class was fairly quite, and not much to do. I was taking notes when James' hand landed on my thigh. I looked at him and gave him a look to knock it off, but began to move his hand up and down my thigh. Thank Merlin we were in the back of the class and no one could see us. He continued to rib my leg, and needless to say I couldn't concentrate on the lesson.
After wards I let him have it, in a nice way. "James, I could kill you. I didn't get the notes." But he just laughed.
"I'll give them to you." Lupin said as we walked out to the court yard.
"I have never used someone else's notes before."
"Really?" James retorted. "I have never taken my own notes before."
We had a fifteen minute break before Herbology, our last class of the day. So we went out into the court yard. James, Black, Lupin and Pettigrew sat on the stone wall to the left and Lily and I sat on the ground. We could have sat on the wall but the grass was so cool and inviting. I opened my bag and got out the book, I was wanting to finish, and began reading. I caught pieces of their conversation and put in my two bits worth. But I was the first to spot Lucius and his gang, before the James or his friends did.
"I guess it is right Sev. You are beneath him." Lucius called, as his friends laughed and James noticed him.
"I want to talk to Severus before class, if that it ok with you all?" The others nodded and James helped me up from the ground and together we walked down the hill to the greenhouses. "Severus you are not beneath me."
"But I am under you when we have sex."
"That is not the same. You can be on top, but you are not beneath me." James reach to hold my hand. "I love you Severus." He paused. "Do you mind the name Sev?"
"I hate it. Lucius only calls me it when he is either raping me or degrading me." He looked into my eyes. "I love you too James, more than you will ever know."
"Then I will never call you Sev."
"You can, only not when we have sex. I might freak out and think it is Lucius." I said solemnly, with my head down.
"I promise. We have time…" He stopped and pulled me behind a couple tress. I started to speak but he got to my mouth before my words did. He sealed his lips on mine, trying to find out all the ways to kiss me. But we heard the chimes ring from the school, time for the last class.
We walked hand in hand to Greenhouses. Upon getting their we were in for a big shock.
At the beginning of the year, two months ago, we had to sign up for the feeding of the dandelions. Now let me tell you these dandelions are now regular weed, the are ferrous beats; where the flower would be there is a head of a lion. It is planted in the ground, so it can not get away. I had signed up with Lucius, and their was not way of getting out of it. So when the teacher called our names I went white as a sheet, but Lucius just smiled, his wicked smile, I knew he had plans for me. He took the bucket of raw meat, and together we walked out to the back of the greenhouse. Their were no windows out in the back. I knew that I should have argued with the teacher, it might of helped or got me sent to Dumbledore's office, either way I wouldn't be with Lucius.
I felt the binding spell come over me, same as the silencing spell on my mouth, so I couldn't speak. He turned me around and I knew what he was going to do, he was going to rape me again. I braced and when he entered I screamed but nothing came out. The pain was so bad. I just held myself together I could cry later, when I was in James' arm, in our bed.
He was still in me when the teacher called from the front of the house. "Come on boys, times a wasting."
"Should I go look?"
"No James. I don't want any other kids out." I heard the door close then Lucius came in side me. The fire was so hot, I wanted to cry, to run but I was still held by the binding spell.
Lucius came out of me and did a cleaning spell on himself. He undid the binding spell. "Put your self together." He said as he buttoned his pants and threw the meant to the plants. He hadn't even broke a sweat, but I could feel the hotness in the air. He really was as cold blooded our house animal. He smiled, picked up the empty bucket and walked back to the front of the building. I trailed a long behind him. "Don't tell Potter, or the next time will be ten times worst." I nodded.
"Mr. Snape are you feeling good? Your face is flushed." I looked over to James then to the teacher.
"No I am not feeling all that well." I was only a half lie. I felt as though I was going to retch.
"You better go the Nurse, it is probably from all the heat back there." I nodded turned and ran.