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The plot is my only possession.

I looked towards the man. His beautiful features magnifying in the sun. I loved how the wind blows past his hair and makes it flutter ever so slightly. I watched him as he laughed at something I didn't see; when he smiled it lighted up my whole world. He suddenly looked in my direction and I quickly turn away, feeling myself grow warm.

I heard him snort making me die inside. Why didn't he love me the way I do? Why didn't he feel the same way? I wished he could because then he would make me just that much happier. Everyone always thought I was some hyper-active idiot who couldn't keep her mouth shut, but really on the inside.. I don't feeling like that at all. Inside I felt so lonely and depressed, I could actually feel myself breaking.. it's scary.

And there he goes.
Blowing me off, once again. I asked him if we could talk and he said he was "busy." He didn't even look at me when I spoke! Did he hate me that much? I really hoped not. I mean.. couldn't he even see? Couldn't he tell? Could anyone actually be that clueless? It was pissing me off.. I hated how he was making me feel.

Pop's started to sense something fishy going on with me. He asked me today if anything's wrong or if something's happening with me but I just walked away. I really couldn't deal with anyone right now.

My head was aching and I couldn't stand all the people's faces. All freakin' happy and smiling and laughing; I want to punch them out. Damn them all.. living all happy. Damn them all to the farplane!

I'm walking to my room and I feel a full throttle headache coming on. I sway a bit and lean onto the side where the wall is; I really need support.. where in Spira is Yunie or Paine? I sigh and slump down to the floor, hearing my breath get heavy and quick. No.. I wince as my heart beat starts to slow down, Please, no.. I blink hard and feel salty tears start running down my cheeks.

I close my eyes and force a happy smile on my face, I would hate if they found me with a miserable face. I sigh a bit as my body starts to feel weak and go numb. 'I love you..' I whisper silently as an image of Gippal appears in my head.

'RIKKU!'

Was that real? No way.. It can't be him.. No way.. The smile fades from my lips. Why is my mind playing such cruel tricks on me? I feel myself get picked up by strong hands; I try opening my eyes to see but they just won't obey.

'Ri-Rikku..?'

The tears start up again. It can't be him! Rikku.. this is a dream..

'Rikku!'

I slowly force open my eyes and I see the man's face. The man I've known since forever. The guy who I've loved since we first met. The guy who would be my first and last love. The guy who would be the one holding me in his arms when I leave. For good.

I close my eyes once again. I can't stand to look at his face. The face that made me smile but now makes me cry. Why now? When he's seeing me so vulnerable? When.. I'm dying? I feel him touch my face and wipe my tears away. I want him to leave me alone.. being nice now? How dare he! I breathe loudly once more as I feel everything start to slip away.

'Rikku, don't leave me! Rikku? Don't leave! Please! CID, ANYONE, HELP!'

Goodbye, cruel world..