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James awoke to a sharp prodding in his middle, he gave an exasperated groan and swung his arm about blindly, obviously attempting to smack the culprit.
"Come on…." Peter's voice was timid and he sounded worried.
"What?" James moaned, wincing slightly as he raised his head to get a better look at Peter.
"James, we've been sleeping for…well a long time," Peter squeaked, wringing his hands together nervously.
James swore under his breath and pressed a hand to his forehead before heaving himself out of the warmth of his bead. "What do you mean? Can we still make it to breakfast?"
"I'd be surprised if we can still make it to dinner." Peter cried, "James, we slept for most of our classes, someone's bound to know…."
"Peter, calm down, no one's going to find out," James said consolingly, although worry was beginning to take residence where Peter and poked James.
"I don't know…." Peter said uncertainly, bouncing from foot to foot.
"No one will," James confirmed, getting to his feet and wincing again at the increasing pain.
"Are you hurt?" Peter asked, striding over to get a better look at James.
"He was pretty riled last night," James admitted, "I'm fine, though. I just hope Remus is doing okay."
"Let's get up," Peter said, more urgently this time.
James nodded his agreement and crossed over to his wardrobe before flinging it open and revealing a pair of robes. "No one's going to find out." He said again, having noticed Peter's nervous dance that was steadily increasing speed. "We've done this for years, why are you suddenly all nervous now?"
"Someone might of seen my belly!" He croaked, patting his middle worriedly.
James attempted to suppress a smile, but to know avail, so instead he settled for burying his face in his robes.
"Or yours, or Sirius'…." He continued, "We're getting really tall and such, I'm not sure its as safe anymore."
"Are you saying we stop and let Remus face the full moons on his own?" James asked sternly.
"No…no…of course not, we just better be more careful…and now that we slept the whole day, some one's bound to get curious." Peter said.
"Peter…just relax, I know you tend to worry yourself, but really, it's unnecessary this time." James said, pulling on a pair of pants and swinging his cloak over him.
"I suppose…." Peter said, still not looking entirely convinced.
"Come on," James said suddenly, "We have a bear to wake up."
Peter grinned and strode over to Sirius' bed with James.
A little while later, the three boys were sprinting down the staircase, bumping into walls and each other as they went.
"We messed up bad!" Sirius cried as they exited the portrait hole, "We agreed from the moment we started this that we'd get up and get ready for class so people wouldn't get suspicious…"
"I know," James agreed as they flew down the empty corridors. "But if it wasn't for Peter we would have still been sleeping and probably missed dinner, too."
"Yeah, but Peter doesn't need to-" James hissed 'shh,' Sirius lowered his voice, "-…doesn't need to 'run around' as much as us."
"I know," Peter admitted, "But I run, too!"
Sirius grumbled something quite inaudible before they reached the Great Hall. "What are we going to say to people?" He asked suddenly.
James paused before speaking, "Nothing, just say we got a late start…. I doubt anyone's going to ask us."
The other boys nodded and with one last uncertain glance, they crossed the threshold into the Great Hall.
Several people averted their eyes to look at them as they entered and when they finally found their seats at the Gryffindor table they breathed sighs of relief.
"Sirius…Sirius!" Sara hissed from across the table. Sirius gulped and turned to face her before replying in a small voice. "Yes?"
"Where were you?" She asked, and many people at the table turned to look at him.
He shrugged. "Bit of a late start."
Lily snorted into her pumpkin juice.
Sirius looked at her with an arched eyebrow, "Yes, Lils-ka-boo?" And when she continued to look innocent he continued, "Is there something you'd like to share with the rest of us?"
"No…." She paused, "But there's something you do."
Peter spat out a bit of chicken and James thumped him on the back.
"What are you talking about?" Sirius asked smoothly.
She just stared at him for a while before shaking her head, "I'm sure you'd appreciate it if I didn't shout it across the whole Gryffindor table."
Several people groaned at their lack of information but stopped abruptly at the look Sirius gave them.
Everyone reluctantly returned to their meals while Peter, James, and Sirius talked in hushed voices.
"Do you reckon she knows?" Sirius asked, his cool demeanor gone the second everyone was back to their meals and they were out of earshot.
"No, no…" James said, obviously trying to sound as if he wasn't worried but failing miserably. "Oh no, what if she does!" He wailed. Sirius made a hissing noise and James lowered his voice so low that Sirius and Peter had to lean closer to James to hear. "I don't think she does, but just act as though its no big deal…that way maybe she'll think she was completely wrong."
Peter was sitting silently the whole time, stone still and a light shade of green. "You don't me not to worry…" He said, staring off into space, "You told me I worry too much, but I was right…she does know!"
James swung his head to face him, "No, Wormtail, she doesn't know-"
"How can you be sure?" Peter asked, finally wrenching his eyes from mid air to stare at James worriedly.
James took a deep breath, "I know she doesn't because…well put it this way, it took us almost a year to figure it out and he's our bloody roommate, so Lily probably never will…."
"That was the stupidest thing I have ever heard," Sirius moaned, "James…for one thing, it took us not even a year, so don't you think seven will be enough for her to figure it out? Secondly, she's really smart…and well…we haven't been that secretive."
"What do you mean we haven't been that secretive!" Peter wailed, jumping a few inches and bumping the table so his pumpkin juice tipped and splattered across the table.
"Nice Wormtail," James muttered as Peter jumped out of the way of his juice, "C'mon, it's not safe to talk in here…let's go."
They nodded and stood up before departing, trying their best to ignore the curious stares.
"How haven't we been secretive?" Peter screeched, rounding on Sirius as soon as they had entered the empty corridor.
"One, we just left the Great Hall during dinner, something we rarely due, and we've done it the past two days when people have mentioned the full moon, two, we bale out on everything on the night of a full moon…it doesn't take a genius to look at a moon chart…and three, what had us finding out Remus' secret, he gets pale and peaky on the night of a full moon and comes back days later all scratched up and battered looking…" He trailed off, his voice have gotten quieter with every word and now dieing off completely.
Peter let out a high pitched squeak of fright and wrung his hands together nervously.
"Relax Wormtail, even if Lily does know its okay…because its just Lily, and we only need to tell her not to tell anyone…I don't think she would've anyway…."
"Prongs, love has blinded you! We can just assume she won't tell anyone, sure she's a great girl but you never know if someone could have slipped veritaserum in her drink…."
"We're saying this like she already knows…why are we saying this like she already knows!" Peter cried anxiously.
"We have to prepare for the worse," Sirius said firmly, "If she does know, I wonder how Remus is going to take it."
"He'll probably go nutters…be worried that she'll tell Katherine…he really should, you know? They're becoming really close." James said slowly.
"They are," Sirius agreed. "Hey…don't you have quidditch tonight?"
"Oh Merlin…." James croaked, rubbing his sore limbs gingerly, "Sara's a slave driver, that can't be good for my muscles."
"Or lack thereof."
"Stuff it Padfoot!" James cried to a snickering Sirius, "I'm just saying that I'm already sore, and knowing Sara she won't do anything to help that."
"That's part of her charm," Sirius said dreamily.
"Then love has blinded you," James grumbled, walking back to the common room with a snickering Sirius, who were both pushing a terrified Peter ahead of them.
Around seven James was following Sara and Katherine out of the portrait hole.
"I thought we'd try a whole load of new stuff…." Sara said enthusiastically.
"Oh joy…." Katherine mumbled quietly.
"What was that?" Sara snapped.
Katherine giggled, "Nothing."
Sara still looked unconvinced but plowed on nonetheless. "I thought we'd try some new plays…play to our beater's new strength…"
She continued on about plays and moves until they reached the quidditch pitch.
"Okay everyone," Sara said loudly once everyone gathered around her, brooms in hand. "I'd like to continue the play we started last time…but I thought we'd add some new moves to it…."
A hour and a half later the quidditch team were making there way back to the changing rooms.
"Good practice!" Sara said proudly, thumping everyone on the back, "Really good, we'll be ready for our first match against Hufflepuff."
James showered quickly and threw on some robes before making his way back up to the castle.
"What's your hurry, James?" Katherine panted, scrambling to keep up with him.
"I still have patrol tonight," James informed her, quickening his pace.
"Oh man…." Katherine said sympathetically, "It's going to be a long night for you, huh?"
He nodded before breaking out into a run.
"Hey…Lily…." James said, breathing hard as he and Katherine reached the portrait of the Fat Lady where Lily was pacing, looking slightly impatient.
"I'll see you later," Katherine said, panting as she entered the common room.
"Sorry…quidditch practice went late," James said, recovering from his sprint to the castle.
"It's fine, James," Lily said her best to avert her eyes from a drop of water that had fallen off his hair and was now traveling down his neck.
He ran a hand through his went hair and Lily felt her stomach clench tightly. Feeling slightly ashamed at herself, she turned her hand and stared at the floor instead.
"What did you…mean when you said that…thing at dinner?" James asked suddenly, yet his voice sounded tense.
"Oh, that," Lily said, looking up to face him.
"Yeah," James said, "You sounded like you thought we were up to no good or something…."
"I don't know what you were doing," Lily admitted, "But…I think I know what Remus was."
James stopped dead in his tracks, "What are you talking about Lily?" He asked, his voice cracking.
"James…when you told me Remus' mother was sick again, I thought why doesn't he just stay with her? I mean, she sounds like she's on her death bed-"
"You don't know what you're talking about," James interrupted.
"So…" Lily continued, "I thought, why would he go just once a month? What's once a month?"
"Lily…he goes once a month because that's all his mother will allow, she says he needs to go back to school and get an education…."
"And then it struck me…" Lily said as if James hadn't said anything at all, "Remus is…a...well, he's a-"
"Look! WRONG-DOERS!" James bellowed, interrupting Lily, his face flushed, as he pointed to two fifth year strolling down the hall.
"Dude…what are you talking about?" The boy asked.
"You are out of bed!" James shrieked, pointing an accusing finger at him.
"It's not curfew yet…we still have ten minutes," The girl said, looking worried.
"AND!" James continued, desperate for an excuse to stop Lily finishing whatever she had to say, "You, young man are with your bonny lass!"
"Bonny lass?" The girl repeated, looking slightly affronted.
"Man…she's my sister…." The boy said, staring at James as if he were about to attack at any second.
"Excuses…excuses…." James continued with a small tut-tut.
"James!" Lily said, looking startled. "She is his sister, remember at the prefect meeting?"
James looked from the boy to the girl, his eyes narrowed, his heart thumping loudly. Did she know about Remus?
"Well…we'll be on our way…." The girl said, taking a tentative step backwards.
"Oh no you don't!" James growled, "If I ever catch you two again-"
"We weren't doing anything!" The boy said, sounding exasperated.
James cleared his throat and glanced from side to side.
"You two are free to go," Lily said gently.
The boy looked at James once more before turning around and stalking away, his sister scrambling behind, every once in a while looking over her shoulder with wide eyes.
"James…." Lily groaned, burying her face in her hands.
"What?" James asked, trying to keep her away from the topic he so dreaded.
"I see what you're doing," She said, emerging from her hands and eyeing him with a suspicious expression.
"I'm not doing a thing!" James said in what he hoped was a firm, defiant voice.
"Oh James…you're such a good friend…I'm so sorry…." She trailed off, her eyes becoming glossy.
"Woah woah…why are you sorry?" James asked, startled.
"I-I…I know and I'm not supposed too…." She stopped talking and mumbled "I'm so sorry." Under her breath.
"Lily, you don't know anything your not supposed to." James said.
"Oh come off it James!" She cried, before lowering her voice, "I know what he is…Remus…he's a-a werewolf."
James took a sharp intake of breath, his feet planted firmly to the ground, "No he's not…I don't know what you're talking about…."
Lily's face fell and she crumpled to the ground. "It was his secret…I'm so nosy, James! I shouldn't have been poking around in affairs I don't belong in."
"Lily-"
"Don't even bother telling me he's not…I know he is." Lily said quietly.
James sat down next to her. He let out the breath he seemed to have been holding for an eternity. "Oh man…." He sighed, running a hand through is hair.
"I'm so sorry!" She cried, her voice wavering.
"You didn't do anything wrong," James said, trying to console her.
"What are you talking about?" She wailed, "Oh, James, is it terrible for him?" Her voice was quieter this time and she was looking up at him, her eyes sparkling with tears.
He paused, "Yeah, it is. He doesn't want anyone to know, it's not safe for him, or anyone for that matter."
Lily let out a muffled cry, the tears securely in her eyes, willing herself to not let them fall. "I shouldn't know…now it's not a secret anymore."
Before James could think about what he was doing he draped his arm around her shoulders, pulling her close.
"Lily, don't blame yourself for anything," James said softly.
"I feel so horrible for him…he's the sweetest person I've ever met and…oh how could this happen to him?" She asked.
"I don't know," James admitted, "I don't know why these things happen."
"How long?" She asked quietly, "Has he been one?"
"I'm not sure I'm the one to tell you," James said softly, "You should talk to him…but don't get offended if he doesn't talk to you right away, he didn't even talk to us."
Lily nodded, pressing her palms against her eyes, she looked up at James once more, seeming to be having a little war inside her head, before she rested her head on James' shoulder.
"Can I ask you something?" James asked suddenly.
Lily nodded, lifting her head up from his shoulder. He's going to ask again! Excitement flared up inside her.
"Will you promise…really promise me…." He gulped, "That you won't tell anyone."
Lily tried to hide her disappointment. "Who would I tell?"
"I don't know, I know you won't anyways but please, for Remus…don't even mention anything of the sort…especially to Katherine." There was pleading in his voice.
Lily swallowed, "Of course."
"Promise?"
"I promise." She confirmed.
"Thank-you." James said quietly, removing his arm from her shoulder and heaving himself off the ground.
"Katherine really likes him, you know." Lily said quietly, looking up at James tall form.
"Yeah, well Remus really likes her, too." James said, stuffing his hands in his pockets and gazing at Lily intently.
"And…" Lily gulped loudly before continuing, "I think that if I figured it out it'll only be a matter of time before she does…and I know Kath, really well and she'd like to be told by Remus himself then figuring it out on her own."
James nodded, "I've tried to tell him that he should tell her but he keeps saying its not serious enough…he has no idea how hard he's falling for her."
"They're perfect together," Lily noted before following James' lead and pushing herself off the ground to face him.
"I think patrol's almost over…I don't know how much patrolling we actually did but…." He trailed off, and grinned.
"Yeah well, we need to talk about this." Lily said, beginning to walk back to the common room, James at her side.
"We did," James agreed, "You're a really good friend, Lily…to everyone."
Lily blushed slightly but smiled, "Thanks James, you are too…I still can't believe you're the same little boy that used to hex everybody who got in your way."
"Yeah, sometimes I can't believe it either," James agreed.
"But I'm glad you did, James," Lily said softly.
They walked in silence for a while and Lily could feel the disappointment plummeting through her yet again. He did mean it when he said he had given up on me….
They reached the portrait hole and James and Lily clambered through after giving the password.
"Good-night, Lily," James said.
"Good-night," Lily repeated, watching James ascend the stairs, but this time with a longing she didn't bother to shove away, because she knew it was here to stay.
The next morning dawned with a cool, crisp breeze among the grounds. James was awake, his head in his palms, his mind a mass of swirling thoughts.
"Hi J-J-James…." Peter greeted with a shuddering yawn, sitting up in bed and shoving the covers off of him.
"Hey," James said weakly, his hands pressing firmly against his forehead.
"Ready to wake Sirius up?" Peter asked, and when James' eyes didn't glow with a sudden excitement, he didn't nod his head vigorously or even look at him…Peter knew immediately something was up. "What is it?"
James took a deep breath and shook his head. "We need to wake up Sirius for this one, Wormtail."
Peter nodded, trying frantically to keep calm.
James brought up his hand and brought it down with a thump on Sirius' back.
Sirius stirred before sitting up with a start, staring around angrily, his eyes narrowed unpleasantly.
"Why didn't we think of that before?" Peter asked James out of the corner of his mouth.
"WHO DID THAT? Can't you ever wake me up the normal way? I was bloody sleeping you bloody fool!" Sirius cried, staring at Peter and James murderously.
"That's why," James murmured to Peter.
"Padfoot stop grumbling and focus," James said sitting on the end of Sirius' bed, Peter soon joining the two boys but looking timidly at the raging Sirius.
"What is it?" Sirius growled.
James ran a hand through his hair, "Listen…both of you…we-we were right…about before."
There was silence, James opened his mouth to spell it out to them before Peter beat him to it.
"SHE KNOWS!" He bellowed, leaping up from the bed suddenly. "I KNEW IT! THIS IS TERRIBLE…SOON THE WHOLE SCHOOL WILL KNOW AND-"
"I know alright?" James said blankly, a sheet of iciness behind his words. "But there's nothing we can do about it. We just need to be more careful about our excuses that's all…."
"You honestly believe she's not going to tell anyone?" Peter cried.
"Yes I do!" James said defiantly, "She won't…I know for a fact she won't-"
"Yes but how can we be so sure?" Peter asked frantically.
"She won't." Sirius confirmed, who had remained silent the whole time since his rampage about being awoken the normal way.
"Thank-you," James said desperately.
"I'm just worried about Remus." Sirius continued. "How's he going to take this? I mean…us knowing…yeah that's fine, but now Lily? It's only a matter of time before more people find out."
"I know," James agreed, "We'll tell him when he comes back."
Classes seemed to drag on forever, James, Sirius, and Peter stealing anxious glances at each other. More and more eyes wandered to the outside grounds which were becoming steadily frostier.
"Very well, finish the essay I assigned on Monday and please continue studying. You can never study too much for your N.E.W.T.S are arriving sooner than you know…." Professor McGonagall's voice was lost in the uproar that followed the bell, students fumbled for their belongings and crossed to the door, breathing sighs of relief that this was the last class of the day.
"I don't know how much more of that I can take," Sirius groaned, hitching his book bag more securely on his shoulder, "It's N.E.W.T.S this and N.E.W.T.S that."
"Maybe because they're coming up…the teachers are just trying to help us get prepared…." Lily pointed out as they exited the classroom.
"Oh Lils-ka-boo-" Lily gave a huffy breath but said nothing, "-You have so many things to learn…."
"I'm sure," Lily said, rolling her eyes to the ceiling.
"Is Remus still with his Mum?" Katherine asked from behind them.
"Yeah," Sirius said, "He might be back tomorrow."
"Well that's good, I really hope she's alright." Katherine said sympathetically.
At nine o'clock in the common room, students sat lounging about on the chairs, some sat on the very edge of their seat, hunched over a sheet of parchment, their quill scribbling furiously.
Lily rolled up her foot long essay for McGonagall and stuffed it in her book bag. She stood up and flipped her hair out of her eyes before checking her watch.
"Hey Lily!" James called, hopping down the stairs leading up to the boys common room.
"Hey!" She replied, smiling at the sight of him.
"Are you ready for patrol?" He asked.
"Yeah, just let me run this up to my dorm." She said, already taking off for the stairs.
James nodded and flopped down in an empty chair.
Moments later Lily returned and looking at James expectantly. "Well? Shall we go?"
"Yes ma'am," James grinned, leaping up from his chair and following her out of the common room.
They emerged into the empty hallway and began their patrol duty. After about fifteen minutes, James caught sight of the two fifth year students he had stopped yesterday and blushed. Lily looked at him and smirked.
"What's so funny?" James asked, looking at her withed raised eyebrows.
"Your face," She said, looking at his flushed, and slightly bewildered face. James looked rather offended, "Not like that, James!" She added hurriedly.
"So my face isn't funny?" He said.
"No, it's booootiful." She said, putting extra emphasis on beautiful and looking up at him before winking.
"Aw Lilster you make me blush…." James said, grinning.
Lily smiled and continued walking. "So…the next Hogesmeade weekend is this weekend, right?"
"Yeah, that's what we agreed on, did you put it up on the notice board?"
"Yeah I did…I was just making sure…." She turned a dark she of red and suddenly became interested in the floor.
"Okay…." James said uncertainly.
"I suppose you're going with Sirius?" She asked, her eyes still glued to the floor.
"No, no…Sirius is going with Sara," James said.
"Ooh…." She turned an even darker shade of red and bit her lower lip nervously.
They continued walking, Lily growing redder with every step they took and James looking at her curiously. What's she on about? Surely she already knew the Hogesmeade weekend…and what was that statement about going with Sirius? Since when did she care who I went with? And then it struck him, he had been so blinded by trying to move foreword he had forgotten that the future might have Lily in it.
"Lily..." He began, as he stopped walking.
"Yes?" Lily asked, stopping with him.
"Would you…" He glanced at her eyes which were still staring at the floor. He reached out a palm and tipped her chin up to look at him, she blushed an even deeper shade of crimson as she looked into his eyes. He cleared his throat, "Would you like to go to Hogesmeade with me this weekend?"
Lily's face broke out into a beaming smile, "Yes, James, I would love too."
His face fell and he removed his hand from her chin, "Oh…I understand…I just thought…well, maybe next time or-"
"James?" Lily asked curiously, "I said yes."
He looked up again before grinning slightly. "Oh…you did, didn't you?"
"I did." She confirmed.
He smiled a full, broad smile and nodded, "Great…thanks Lily."
"Thank-you for asking," She said, her deep red color beginning to ebb away.
They resumed their patrolling for a while, James thinking hard, the thing that he had wanted since first year was finally happening and yet he couldn't believe it was. He turned to Lily suddenly.
"Hey…Lily?"
"Mmm?" She asked, looking up at him, a smile still firmly in face.
"You're booootiful."
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A/N: They finally are going on a date! I'll probably have it be next chapter or the one after that, but i have alot of other stuff i want to get in. I've been reading my story and have found that i'm such a sap...haha but now itll more realistic and humorous. I really hope you liked this chapter! Like i said i'll try to update in the next week or so...maybe sooner? Thanks so much and love you all, Lilly