The next morning………

Inuyasha: Kikyo………….hey sexy can you get up for a minute I have to get up and get ready to go find a job.

I rolled over and I found myself in my bed under the covers and Inuyasha got up and I watched him get ready for work he closed the door to take a shower and changed but after that he opened the door and I watched him as he shaved, brush his teeth and hair, and I just sat there and watched him staring at his deep brown eyes and his brown hair, he finished when he put his cologne on god that smell no one had that smell but him it was so nice and smelled do good he always had the same one since he was in the ninth grade and I bout died when he began to wear it because it smelled so good! He came over and kissed me on my forehead.

Inuyasha: Call me if you need me ok? I won't tell the other about you crying last night ok.
Me: TKagomek you Inuyasha………

Inuyasha: Not at all…….

He began to walked off and then stopped and looked at me I was staring at the picture of us six at my sweet sixteenth birthday picture that was on my moms side of the bed.

Inuyasha: Hey Kikyo….

Me: Yeah Inuyasha.

I didn't turn to him because I knew he wasn't going to say anything but I knew what he wanted to say to me……….. "I love you"

Inuyasha: ………………….Bye………..I…………………I'll see you later.

Me: Yeah bye, see you later.

I looked at the picture again, and then I remember that on that day was the day I was still going with Inuyasha and before Sesshomaru came to our school and two months before mom died and four months before Inuyasha left and five months before me and Sesshomaru began to go out.

I could hear Inuyasha move around the room but a stayed looking at the picture. Inuyasha kept moving around and I didn't know why and then it just stopped and then I heard the front door open and then shut, and a few seconds later I could hear him lock the door. I rolled over and saw covers threw over and his pillow on the side of the bed and then my door wide open as I saw the clock, it was 8 in the morning. I looked out the door and saw Kirara and Shippo, they were putting there stuff by the door and Kirara walked into my room and sat on my bed beside.

Kirara: You ok?

Me: I'm still tired but yea I'm ok, how was the sex?

Kirara: We didn't do it yet we just ha d a wonderful dinner a walk on the beach and then came home and now we are leaving and I won't see you till tomorrow night ok call me if you need me ok, and tell Sango the same ok?

Me: Ok have a great time ok…..

Kirara: o0o I will I'm with Shippo………..gosh it feels nice to say that again, I'm with Shippo.

She had a great big smile on her face when she said that. I never had seen her smile like that in such a long time.

Kirara: Well were leaving ok……..

Me: Ok talk to ya soon, I want full detail when you get back, ok?

Kirara: Always see you later bye

Me: Bye

I watched them leave and lock the door again and I fell back asleep.

Hours later…………

Sango: Stop Miroku! Come on I want it please!

I looked at the clock and it was noon time and I still felt tired.

Miroku: Fine here………

Sango: HA! And tKagomek you!

Miroku: HA!

Sango: Ok now try to take it see what you get come on I dare you…………………….HA!

Miroku: OWW!

Sango: That's what you get! And what!
Miroku: ok you win gee.

Sango: YES!

I rolled over and faced the picture of all of us and I heard someone walk in and then lay down but I didn't know who I rolled over and there was Sango.

Sango: Good morning star shine the earth says hello! You need to get up if you want to go to work they want you there by 2! So come on sleepy head! What happened last night anyway?

Me: Nothing, we went back to friends.

Miroku: DO WHAT! Wait I just didn't hear what I heard did I?
Sango: Why?

Me: Well I said something like does this feel weird to you and he was like yeah and I was like yeah and then he goes well maybe we should just be friends if you want to……

Sango: AND YOU AGREED!
Me: Yeah I did.

I got up from my bed and went to my closet as Miroku stood by the door and Sango sat up on my bed.

Sango: SO I don't get it what is going on now we came in and ya'll were in the bed together so ya know I thought ya'll ya know.

Me: Sango we slept together with out having sex with each other many times Sango.

Sango: o0o well then…………what happened when ya'll came home?

Me: We came home laid down on my bed and I was lying on his chest and I fell asleep and that's all that happened.

Sango: Well then………..

I picked out some of my clothes and was now in the shower yelling from the shower as Sango sat on my bed. I came out of the bathroom and then Sango had my shoes and my purse.

Me: Thanks I'm going to go in early ok? I'll talk to you later ok! O0o and Kirara said to call her if you need her!
Sango: Ok talk to you later! Bye!
I went out the house and went onto work and all I had to do today was file papers and then I could go home after helping with paper work. It was 7 before I got out; I picked up my cell and called Sango.

Sango: Hey sissy what up?

Me: Nothing I just got off work…….you want me to get something?

Sango: Well I'm going over to my moms to show her Miroku so we are eating over there you want to come?
Me: No I'm ok tell your mom I said hi thought I'll talk to you later ok……….

Sango: Ok talk to you later bye.

Me: Bye

I pulled into pizza hut and my cell rang again.

Me: Hello?
Inuyasha: Hey Sexy what's up?
Me: I'm bout to go eat you?

Inuyasha: Sitting in pizza hut.

Me: I'm at pizza hut…..

Inuyasha: Well come on and have a seat with me

Me: Ok where are you at?

Inuyasha: well come in and I'll tell you.

I walked in and he saw me and stood up, I smiled and walked down to him to the corner table and sat in front of him.

Me: Gosh…….so how was the job finding going?

Inuyasha: Ok I went in for three interviews and now I'm waiting ok call backs.

Me: GREAT! What did you pick?
Inuyasha: Ok there's one down at this coffee shop I'm sure you hear of it it's called Café' Blues.

Me: Yeah! I go in for coffee for the office everyday.

Inuyasha: They said I can go as manager but they can't do that until I learn the rope and like everyone else I have to work my way up but they said that I had more experience than everyone else they have working for them and that they will defiantly call me back, the next was at this surf store but all they said was that I was good at cashing. The last was at a restaurant and they liked me but they still wanted to see others so yeah.

Me: That's awesome!

The waiter a guy took my drink and by that time the pizza came out.

Inuyasha: Well how is it?

Me: It's always awesome!

Inuyasha laughed and then sat back in his seat and watched me eat but after a while I stopped and looked at him.

Me: Are you ok?
Inuyasha: Yeah why?
Me: You are staring at me there has to be something on your mind.

Inuyasha: No nothing.

That was the last straw with him I wasn't going to give him anymore time on telling me what he had to say, if he wanted to tell me he could tell me.

Inuyasha: So………..hey why not we go on a road trip!

Me: What do you mean?
Inuyasha: Why don't we go out into the country for the weekend all six of us…………come on…………..it'll give the couples time alone because we can just sleep in a tents and out in the woods.

Me: Why not just go to like a lake house or something.

Inuyasha: How? We don't have the money……….

It got quite for a moment and then I looked at Inuyasha trying to get him to think my idea.

Inuyasha: NO WAY! I'm not doing that!

Me: Come on Inuyasha please! For me!

Inuyasha looked at me and thought for a moment: Ok………..I'll ask them.

His grandparents owned a lake house out in the country they owned five houses across the nations in fact and they just loved Inuyasha because he was the only grandchild.

Inuyasha got on his cell phone and was talking to them as I finished the pizza off.

Inuyasha: I love you too tell pops I said tKagomek you and I love him too ok bye.

Inuyasha looked at me in smiles.

Inuyasha: Ok they are leaving the lake house tomorrow but they'll be back at the end of the month because they are going to Paris. They said that I can have it till then so when are we leaving.

Me: Well everyone has to take off work so………..I know I can work something out with my boss since I havn't took a day off in two years.

Inuyasha: What about your parent's funerals?

Me: I was off work when we scheduled it so I was back to work the next day.

Inuyasha: that had to be tough.

Me: I needed the money either that or if I had school I just didn't go.

Inuyasha: o0o……………

Me: Do you ever think about your mom?

Inuyasha also lost his mom but he was only 8 when it happened he didn't understand at all of what was going on. Inuyasha only knew his mom for sometime since she was in jail for leaving him at home for two days alone. His died before he was born because of a car accident so if anyone knew how I felt it was Inuyasha. His mom came back from jail when he was 5; he lived with his grandparents before and after she died. She died from an overdose on pills, she died in Inuyasha's grandma's arms after Inuyasha called saying that momma wouldn't get up for work and didn't move when he screamed her name.

I could tell Inuyasha didn't want to go there he had this very sad look on his face, no one ever said anything to him about his parents since it has been so long.

Inuyasha: What is there to say? She's dead now……………….has been for a long time now.

Me: I just wanted to know if you missed her?

Inuyasha: Yes I do I only saw her for three years before she died living me when I was 1 on my own with nothing but a bag of chips and lemonade to go on for two days Kikyo what else am I suppose to do? I lived with my grandparents that I love more than ever for paying me to go to college and saying that I don't have to ever work and I get everything when they die. What else do you want me to say about her? How she done drugs, pills, or drank until she couldn't see me cry in my crib? What?

Me: I didn't mean for you to say all of that……….

Inuyasha: I'm going home I'll see you when I get there………….

He pulled out 50 dollars and sat it on the table and then walked away, I waited until he was out the restaurant until I walked out, I got into my car and just cried because of how he looked when he said all of that, it looked like he could have cried right there in front of me.

I went on home and just sat in the tub for the longest time until I heard the door and then Sango's voice.

Sango: WHERE ARE YOU!

Me: I'm in the bath tub taking a bubble bath.

Sango: Inuyasha called me said he was at the grave yard and since you weren't answering your cell he wanted me to tell you that he said he won't be home till late so when you hear something its him.

Me: ok………………….

Sango: What happened?

Me: I was trying to talk to him but one thing lead to another and it ended up with him almost in tears and then me walking out to my car and crying.

Sango: Kagome what is going on with you? You havn't talked to anyone at all since the whole thing with Sesshomaru………………….how are you feeling?

I could tell that she was sitting down by the door talking to me since she didn't go away I got out the bath tub and changed into my pj's and then opened the door and there was Sango looking up at me from the left side of the door.

I was brushed my teeth and then lay down on my bed as she sat beside leaning against the wall.

Me: I hate living here with all the memories and stuff I cried on Inuyasha last night he said he wasn't going to tell anyone about it but I cried myself to sleep laying on him. That was the first time I cried because I was upset about everything.

Sango: I cried last night too only I was sitting at the table crying. I left everything to be here my mom, dad, step dad. Since graduation I didn't think my parents would take me when they moved but I didn't have anywhere else to go too, so I left everything and now I have to find my own way.

Miroku: You stopped crying when I came up in the room.

Sango: I hate when I cry in front of you.

Miroku: Why?

Sango: I don't know I just do.

Miroku kisses her on her lips and they left the room after giving me hugs. They turned off the light and I was out until I heard them laughing and then my door open again and someone get in and then I could feel him over me.

Me: What Inuyasha?

Inuyasha: I'm sorry for the way I acted. You were just asking me one thing I'm sorry, I just don't talk about my mom a lot that's all I didn't know how to act or what to say I just didn't know.

Me: Well Inuyasha you think it's easy for me to talk about me mom or dad?

Inuyasha: That's why I don't talk to you about it.

Me: But Inuyasha if it was just you I would be ok……………

Inuyasha: Why?
Me: Because you understand me!

Inuyasha: I understand you……..

Me: YES!

I turned off the light it felt weird since I knew what he wanted to say but I was going to leave it at that I wasn't going to say it and neither was he……….but will he never tell me?

Next morning

I was the first to get up since I didn't really go to sleep since older brother was coming home today. Most of the night I just sat there on the back porch just thinking for the longest time of everything that had happened and what I was going to next. It was 6 before I went to sleep and I woke up again at 8 still no one was awake and then I just got up and made breakfast until Sango showed up and made breakfast then sat across from me.

Sango: Did you sleep at all?

Me: No………….I couldn't sleep.

Sango: You could have came and woke me up I would have stayed up with you.

Me: No, it's ok.

Sango: you think Myoga will be ok seeing us living here.

Me: No one took his room he should be fine with it.

Sango: What is wrong Kagome?

Me: I don't want to have all of this on me anymore…………….hopefully Myoga being the oldest will take most of this off of me. I have to pay bills I can't even go to college, I don't want to live in this house anymore it holds to many memories about my parents and it hurts me so staying here just isn't helping me. Sesshomaru's gone there nothing left for me in this town.

Sango took a bite of her toast and then looked at me by this time I was fixing my coffee cup and then sat back down.

Sango: Look I know this is hard for you but you have to go in there and you know you have me, Kirara, Shippo, Inuyasha, and Miroku. All here for you, we've been waiting on you to say that something's not right or to help you but you havn't said anything so we are all like ok maybe she is doing ok on her own.

Me: No I'm not and yes I need help with these bills I don't want to spend anymore of my parents money and I want to be able to go to college and quite my job and just work part time or not work at all and I want my brother to come back and stay for once in his life instead of just leaving us every time something goes wrong because as soon as we found out mom was dieing he left that day, and then he was coming back until dad got sick and then died he hasn't came back yet and now he wants to come back. After all this time he wants to come back.

I heard a familiar voice come from the living room.

Myoga: Yes I want to come home I want to sleep in my bed and I'm not leaving no more.

I got up and ran and jumped onto my brother as he gave me a big hug.

Me: MYOGA!

Sango came over and jumped on him too, and then Kirara came running out her room and jumped on him too.

Myoga: I'm not leaving this time I'm staying I had my fun!

Me: You BETTER I can't take this anymore!
Myoga: Can't a 23 year-old come home and help his little sister out?

Me: Of course!

Myoga: Ok now who all is living here?

Me: Just the five of us Miroku lives somewhere else but I mean he hasn't been there in a while so I guess his living here now.

Myoga looked at me and smiled I knew that he was ok with it.

Myoga: No one took my room did they?

Me: Nope it's still the same it's always been.

He picked up his bags and then threw them in his room and then came back and sat down on the couch and then looked around. Sango and Kirara joined him on the couch as I sat back on the lounge chair, we just acted like it was the old days which I wish we still had but that ended when Kirara had to go to work.

Kirara: I'll be back around noon to go to the cabin ok…………..bye!

Me and Sango: Bye!

Myoga: Ok well I'm going to go around town and see what all had changed see ya'll later.

Sango: ok bye.

Me: bye see you later.

Shippo came out of Kirara's bed room and he looked rough.

Me: What happened to you?

Shippo: nothing? I always look like this when I sleep well.

Sango looked at me and we just laughed.

Sango: that had to be some good sleeping!

Shippo: Ya'll need to get out the gutter.

Me: Just can't you keep putting us back in it.

Sango busted out laughing and then she got up and went into her room and shut the door behind her, Shippo walked into the kitchen and ate a fix a bowl of cereal and then sat on the couch.

Shippo: Ok so…………..what are we watching today?

I keep flipping through channels.

Shippo: Can you settle on one channel come on this is Kirara all over again.

Me: Just for that…………nope.

He put his bowl on the table and then went over to the chair and then was looking for the remote.

Shippo: Ok where is it? It's still changing channels.

I smiled and then he sat on me!

Me: SHIPPO! GET OFF!

Shippo: Nope sorry not until you give me that remote nope.

Me: HELP!

Miroku peeped out the door and then I could hear him laugh.

Shippo: Come on give me the remote.

He jumped up and down and because I was sitting Indian style that just didn't help at all. So I took my Hands and rocked back and then threw him off.

Me: HA!

Shippo Flew to the other end of the room and then I showed him the remote and stuck out my tongue.

Shippo: Ha ha ha very funny. Ok you win!

Me: TKagomek you!

Shippo went past me while I was flipping the channels and snatched the remote.

Me: HOW RUDE!
Shippo laughed: That's what you get!

Me: Ok wait till I tell Kirara.

Shippo: No you'll forget by then.

Me: Yeah she won't let you have the remote in her room why don't you watch TV in there?

Shippo: Can't find the remote and her TV dials don't work so you find me here.

I laughed while Miroku and Sango joined us and sat down on the love seat.

Sango: HE got the remote.

Me: Yeah only after I threw him across the floor!

Shippo: He I let you do that I could have just let you sit there and flip thought channels all day long.

Sango: well then that wouldn't be any fun then.

Me: Nope I guess not.

There was this long silence until I got up and walked into my room to wake Inuyasha up. He looked so cute when he was asleep. I put kneeled down to the bed and put my head to the pillow with him.

I whispered: Inuyasha……………….

He opened up one eye: What?

Me: Can you get up?

Inuyasha rose up from the bed I didn't realize that he had no shirt on but it was nice to see his eight packs again since last summer when we all went to the beach. He laid back down and then pulled me onto the bed with him.

Me: Jack's back his out though……………

Inuyasha: Are we carrying him too?

Me: No he'll stay here well just say that it was planned before we got his letter.

Inuyasha: He could come you know its no trouble at all.

Me: I know but I mean I just want him to get straight here before going again.

Inuyasha: Yeah I know what you mean.

I looked at him and his eyes were glaring down at me he leaned in to kiss me and then I turned my head. Even though I wanted to kiss him so badly I couldn't not unless he told me how he felt there was no way I'm going to kiss him and he not say he loves me. I turned back as he let go of me, he went into the bathroom and shut the door I could hear the bath water running.

Sango: Hey Kagome, when are we leaving?
Me: Well…………………..HEY SHIPPO!
Shippo: YEAH!
Me: Did Kirara back already?

Shippo: YEP ME AND HER BOTH!
Me: I guess when she gets here.

Sango: ok good I'm ready to leave this town!

Me: You and me both.

She left from the door, I went and pulled out my suit case, we were staying there until Wednesday, I packed all my cloths just when Inuyasha came out of the shower all dressed in a regular t-shirt, blue jeans, and shoes. I went into the bathroom and got all my make-up, shampoo and everything into the different case.

Me: I'm done.

Inuyasha: What are you wearing there?
I looked into my closet and went into the bathroom and changed by the time I got out Inuyasha was packed and he looked at me, I was wearing just my regular blue jeans, with a regular shirt but the way he was looking at me just said it all he loved it, I had to go back into my suit case to put on my make-up and everything but about 30 minutes later everyone was packed. I think everyone thought I was asleep even though I was just pretending and I could hear there whole conversation while laying down on the couch with Inuyasha on the end where my feet were and Sango packing some food, and Miroku helping her, and Shippo was locking windows shut so no one could get in just in case Myoga didn't come back for a couple of days.

Miroku: Ok you sure she is asleep?
Inuyasha pushed me and I just didn't move.

Inuyasha: Yep she's out cold.

Miroku: Ok I think that this would be a great chance you to tell her Inuyasha.

Sango: Please Inuyasha! I see the way you look at her just tell her what is so hard about it?

Shippo: Yeah come on, I heard about ya'll were close to going out what happened?

Inuyasha: It felt weird to her so I just agreed with her even though I didn't want to……….

Sango: Inuyasha when she says that your suppose to not agree with her that's telling her that you don't like her like that!

Inuyasha: Well I didn't know that it meant that!
Sango: You have known her just about as long as I have just about only by like what three years.

Miroku: Inuyasha come on man and we all know she still has feelings for you! You can tell it!

Sango: I could see it ever since ya'll break up I could tell it even when she was going out with Sesshomaru and got married to him! She wants you to love her back Inuyasha!

I could feel the wind could from down where me feet were and then a big thunk!

Inuyasha: Why did you do that for?

Sango: Because you're being a big butt! And you can't even see that she still loves you!
Inuyasha: Really than why hasn't she told me that?

Sango: INUYASHA! She let you come live with her, sleep in her bed with her share her old parent's bed room with her, and then she cries on you! ATLEAST SHE SHOWS IT! You don't!
Miroku: Sango, baby come here before you knock him out……..

I could hear her swing away in the other direction at this point I wanted to pretend that I was waking up but I couldn't do that it would be too of course plus by now Sango might have figured out that I'm fake sleeping.

Shippo: How do you feel about her anyway man?

Inuyasha: I can't explain it……………………..its like every time I hear her voice, or her smile, or I think of her, my heart don't skip once but twice.

Miroku: DANG! That's deep!
Sango: WELL TELL HER THAT!
Ok at this point I wanted to wake up and just kiss Inuyasha but he didn't say it to me he was just explaining it to Shippo! I'll have to tKagomek him later! To pull off that they were being loud I rolled over instead of facing everyone I had my face under a pillow.

Inuyasha: OK let's be quite so she doesn't wake up and we can finish this conversation.

Shippo: Ok how about this if you don't tell her by the time we get back here I'm telling her!

Sango: ME TOO!
Miroku: Baby……

Sango: o0o sorry……

Miroku: Me too, I can't stand to see both of ya'll like this especially Kagome she's taken all of us in, and we help her its time that she gets someone she deserves.

Inuyasha: What if I mess it up?

Sango: You can't Inuyasha she loves you too much……..

Inuyasha: Did she tell you that?

Sango: No but actions speak louder than words………………

It was quite by this time and then I could hear the door open.

Kirara: She' finally went to sleep didn't her………..Sango what happened? You seem tense.

Sango: Dumb Butt won't tell Kagome!

Kirara: Inuyasha comes on tell her! She loves you I can tell!
Inuyasha: Ok how many people in this room can tell that she loves me?

I just wanted to wake up and see how many there Hand up and just laugh had but I didn't.

Inuyasha: Ok everyone fine fine fine.

Miroku: And if he doesn't tell her by the time we get back from the trip we all are telling her.

Kirara: Awesome!

Inuyasha: Ok settled can we get her up and leave now.

Sango: Let her sleep while we load up ok so she can stay up while we are traveling.

I could hear moving around so this time I really did go to sleep and it was a really quick nap because Kirara came to wake me up. Well more like she sat on top of me.

Kirara: Come on! Time to wake up!

Me: You're killing me!

Kirara: Only way to wake you up come on let go to the lake house!
It was the most quite drive to anywhere we ever had! There was normally barley anyone being quiet and in the SUV that Miroku borrowed it was me in the passenger seat, Inuyasha driving, Kirara and Shippo behind us, and then Sango and Miroku behind them. We kept on the radio and that was about the only thing that would say anything, I put my head against the window and just watched the tree go by. We finally got there around 4, we unpacked without a word. There were just enough rooms where I and Inuyasha didn't have to sleep in the same bed or room.

Miroku: HEY INUYASHA Where does this path lead too?
Inuyasha: o0o to tiny island down in the middle of the lake if you go you can make it there just in time to see the sun set on foot but if you go on the golf cart you can be there in about 15 or 20 minutes.

Miroku: Sango you want to go on the golf cart to watch the sun set?

Sango: Yeah!

Sango walked by my room and I walked outside onto the side porch where you could see the wide river that they had right beside then I went down from the porch and sat on the dock they had into the river I sat there until I heard Shippo and Kirara I turned and found them outside on the porch sitting together talking softly to each other. Shippo whispering into her ear and she would answer bad in a soft whispering voice. I watched them until they kissed and then I turned around and watched the sun set. Sango and Miroku came back from the island by the time some of the stars were out. I still just sat there not even thinking about anything just looking at the scenery it was perfect how everything was just right there, the mountains, the river, the fields, his grandparents were the last house built and were at the end of the area where there was no more houses from where they were, they were built in the corner and at the very back.

Inuyasha: You going to eat with us?

Me: Yeah in a minute though.

He sat beside be on the edge of the dock.

Inuyasha: How do you like it here?

Me: It's perfect; I would live here if I could.

Inuyasha: I used to live here when we moved.

Me: Yeah I know how was it?
Inuyasha: Busy during summer and winter but I mean in spring and fall was the best times.

Me: I bet, no one came up here and only the people that lived here would be here.

Inuyasha: Yep and during the winter and summer my grandmas would go off somewhere with me and we would let someone rent it until we came back.

Me: Must have been wonderful.

Inuyasha: Yeah I guess, if you like traveling a lot.

Me: Yeah I bet you hated it.

Inuyasha: Yeah because we had to move everything that we owned out into the storage area and then pack and then go and then when we get back all the furniture pictures and everything had to come back in.

Me: I think I'm going to go eat, you want to come?
Inuyasha: I'll be there in a minute.

Me: Well want me to stay here with you?
Inuyasha: No its ok go eat…..

I walked half way to the porch until I turned around and Inuyasha was sitting there with his head down, I turned back and walked up the stairs and opened the door into the kitchen.

Sango: Well about time you came back in.

Miroku: Pizza just got here I didn't know that came all the way out here!
They were all sitting at the table passing pizza and soda, napkins, plates, pizza boxes, everything, I sat at the end where Sango and Kirara were.

Kirara: Ok so what are we doing Tomorrow I want to go and swim out in the river do you think its ok?

Shippo: I'll join in with that.

Miroku: Me too but then I want to go finishing later just the guys no girls.

Sango: o0o so you don't want to see me?

Miroku: Of course baby but you know we have to do something with Inuyasha so he don't feel left out.

Me: Ok then so what are us girls going to do while there fishing?
We all looked at each other: SHOPPING!

Inuyasha imitated us as he came in: SHOPPING!

Me: You ok Inuyasha?

Inuyasha sat on the other end where the guys where and then looked at me: Yeah I'm fine I was just playing around that's all.

Kirara: Inuyasha it is ok to go swimming out in that river right?
Inuyasha: Yeah it is.

Sango: Ok so I guess its settled swim in the hottest part of the day and then ya'll can go fishing either in the morning or after we swim, and after we swim we'll go shopping.

Me: OK any one opposes?

No one said anything.

Kirara: Ok its settled.

Miroku: OK I think we should go fishing in the morning were its nice and cool.

Inuyasha: Yeah that is the nicest time so we don't have to fish in the dark.

Shippo: I'm good with that.

Kirara: ok, now what else is there to do here Inuyasha?
Inuyasha: Golf, walk, run, swim, fish, shop, star gaze, air balloon,

Sango: I want to do that! Please baby with you!
Miroku: I don't know…………….

Inuyasha: Sky diving, water rafting, hiking, you can go swim in the local pool area and then there's an ice cream shop.

Sango: Did you do all of those when you lived here?
Inuyasha: All but air ballooning because that's for couples only and rafting because when I lived here you had to have a group of five or more but I only had three friends here.

Me: Why not we go rafting the day before we leave?

Sango: ok………..that sounds cool.

Miroku: Well I'm done eating I'm going to take a shower ok Sango?

Sango: Ok

Inuyasha barley ate and he went up stairs without a word.

Kirara: Shippo can we go outside on to there hammock?
Shippo: Yeah, come on I'll get a blanket too.

Sango: Have fun you two!

Me: Don't let those mosquitoes bite you!

Sango: I guess it's just me and you left to clean this up huh?

Me: Yep might as well get started.

Sango: Well let Shippo and Kirara clean it tomorrow and then Miroku and Inuyasha.

Me: Yep

We took the plate and threw them away it was easy cleaning up since we ate all the pizzas and we only use paper plates and plastic drinks.

Miroku came down with just his pj pants on, and Sango was all over him with his six pack.

Sango: See you in the morning Kagome ok?

Me: Ok

Miroku led Sango up stairs, and I was once left alone, I sat on the counter looking out the window until Inuyasha came down stairs.

Inuyasha: o0o I thought you would have been to sleep by now.

Me: I'm not tired.

Inuyasha: Your gonna do an all nighter again?

Me: I guess unless I get tired.

Inuyasha: Want some company.

I smiled at him: Yeah

Inuyasha: Come on I want to show you something………

He took me by my Hand and led me up stairs until we got to his old room and he pulled down another flight of stairs.

Inuyasha: Be careful coming up ok?

Me: Ok

He let me go first, as I went up I began to see stars, I went onto the flat surface that was a small part of the roof that was never done.

Inuyasha: This is where no could find me, you're the first to be up here.

Me: And girlfriends?

Inuyasha: Nope she wasn't good enough she always had a guy on the phone that she was talking too.

Me: Gosh did you break it off or….

Inuyasha: She did, with one of those guys she was talking too and then two weeks later she came back and I didn't want her no more. I gave that girl everything cloths, shoes, jewelry, I was even planning to buy her a car, we never ate at the house we always went to a fancy expensive place she was very high maintains, and I loved her………….a lot but she was always on that cell phone every time we came back to my house or hers the only time she would put the phone off was when it was an anniversary. We went out for about a close to a year.

Me: Had to be tough when she broke it off.

Inuyasha: Yeah it was this was the only place I had that she didn't know where to find me she kept coming after me for about a month and then she faced the facts and never came back she even moved.

He put his Hand on mine I didn't pull away I laid back onto the hard surface and just looked at the sky thinking when he was going to tell me maybe he will tonight right now…….I looked at him and he was looking at me I smiled at him as he smiled back.

Me: What?

Inuyasha: Nothing………….

OK he just needs to tell me! It that so hard! Just say Kikyo I love you! I always had! You never let me! Come on just say those words and I'll be so happy! Come on! Say it!

Inuyasha: You know what Sexy?

Great my nick name: What Hottie?

Inuyasha: You know did had no idea that we would ever see each other again after graduation.

Me: Yeah we will we always will there no way in the universe that we would see each other ever again I'm sure we will always see each other.

Inuyasha: Well with that said I wanted to tell you something but you can't tell the others ok?

Me: Ok

Maybe this was it maybe that's how he wanted to start it I really hope he tells me now.

Inuyasha: I'm thinking of going to a university out of state like in Florida or New York something I got excepted into those universities but I wanted to make sure that it was gonna be ok with you.

I think my heart sank when he told me that I didn't want him to go who would let me cry with out saying a word, who would be that one that I meet up with because everyone else is on a date, who will protect me if Sesshomaru comes back? Why did he have to leave knowing that it would kill me inside, there was a sharp hit in my stomach and I just wanted to cry right there but maybe this is what he wanted maybe it would be ok I mean we have the rest of the summer (which was only three more weeks) Maybe its best that he did go maybe we will find each other down a different path, I tried to think of all the good things instead of the bad but still my heart just sank to the bottom of my stomach and was hurting me so much to the point that I just felt dead knowing that if he did that we may never see each other again.

Me: GREAT! That's wonderful! You'll be able to get your degree at such a great place like that. Yeah I'll help you pack when do you leave? Have you even signed up?

Inuyasha: Yeah I got in to it too there are waiting to see what I do but if I send that papers in I have to leave by the end of the summer. And I won't be back for four years. Maybe even longer depended on if I try for my masters. But I really want to do this; I just wanted to make sure that you weren't going to miss me, or if you thought what I thought that we would never see each other again.

At this point I couldn't feel my heart beat I wanted to tell him YOU IDOIT I WILL MISS YOU AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! PLEASE JUST STAY HERE! But it's what he really wants to do. I felt like crying but I didn't even though I could feel my eyes begin to tear up I turned and looked in the other direction as a tear came streaming down my face, I quickly whipped it and then looked up at the sky it was bitch black and only star shined up the black sky.

Inuyasha: So you'll help me pack and get ready? Cuz I have to pack everything that I have here and then everything I have at your house.

Me: Of course I'll help you know I will.

Inuyasha got up: Imma go tell everyone else ok?

Me: ok….

Inuyasha: Stay up here as long as you want just when you come down where the ladder is to get up here you have to push it down with you foot and then it'll let you out ok?

Me: Ok

I watched him leave and waited to here the sound of the ladder going back up before I began to ball. I didn't want him to go I didn't want him to leave me here with no one, he was the closest guy I ever had a very close relationship with even after dating I didn't want to lose that because in my mind I knew that he wasn't coming back I knew that he wouldn't want to come back he would want to stay in Florida or New York to become an excellent accountant and there he would find the one he was suppose to be with and would get married and have kids before moving back and by then I would still be single and no family left no one here to stay here with me and we wouldn't ever find each other ever again. Then again in my heart I wanted to go down stairs and tell him not to leave and to stay here and that I loved him so much to let him leave me again. I wanted to tell him how much I missed him being my boyfriend and how much I will miss him if he goes and that he should stay here with the rest of us.

I don't know how long I cried but it had to be a really long time because when I went down from the stairs Inuyasha was asleep in his bed and so was everyone else I just crawled up in my bed and tried to go to sleep but I couldn't, I decided that I would just go down stairs and get some ice cream and watch TV until I fall asleep on the couch. I crept my way down stairs since I was the last room on the left across from Inuyasha's, I went down the stairs with out a sound and there outside was Kirara and Shippo asleep in the hammock with two blankets one on the bottom of them and then on of top of them and a pillow under Shippo's head as Kirara slept on his chest. I opened the fridge and found cookie dough ice cream I walked into the living room and there was Sango and Miroku asleep on the couch, I guess I'm gonna have to eat in here. I ate alone for a while until I heard someone coming down stairs.

Inuyasha: Still up? You look like you've been crying what's wrong?

Me: Nothing I'm fine I just had something in my eye.

Inuyasha walked up right to me since I was sitting on the counter and he put his arms around me I did the same and I cried again.

Inuyasha: You don't want me to go do you?

Me: No I don't………you're the only one that can last a night up with me and see me a complete mess and just let me cry with out a word said to me why do you have to go, I don't want you too I want you to stay here so I can see you everyday and not have to worry about a thing because the truth is………………..

I stopped there I didn't want to go any farther.

Inuyasha: The truth is?

Me: I want you here…………………..

Inuyasha put his arms around me once again.

Inuyasha: Babe I can't stay here you know that if I to teach I need the best there is not anything less, and I'm going to miss you everyday and think of you every time I'm with someone or in class or on the road every second that I'm on this earth I'm going to think about you.

I kissed Inuyasha on the cheek and cried a little more on him I didn't want him to go but his right he need better than the best and the best wasn't here. I took a deep breathe as he whipped my tears then he picked me him and carried me up stairs to his bed and threw me onto the bed and I bounced right back up at him.

Me: I didn't think that would have happened.

Inuyasha got into the blankets as I did the same he laid down on my lower stomach and we had to have talked for hours and when we feel asleep he was holding me as I had him at his chest.

6 a.m. the next day…………………………..

Miroku: Inuyasha! Get up let's go fishing!

Inuyasha moved his arms from the side of me I woke up and I was facing the window on my side as he had me in his arms. But now there was only one arm around me.

Inuyasha: why? What?

Miroku: Remember fishing come on man let's go! I'm not staying here all day long! Shippo's not coming I have to have you come I have to have someone to talk too!
Inuyasha: Why isn't Shippo coming?

Miroku: Because he wants to spend time with Kirara come on don't say no now come on if you come we can get him to come.

Inuyasha rolled back and saw that I was up he kiss me on my should then my neck then my cheek. He got up and I rolled over.

Miroku: I didn't know you were there! I thought you were in your bed Kagome? What up? Sango's down stairs up if you want to go talk to her she's cooking breakfast she might need some help while we get ready to leave.

Me: Ok tell her I'll be down there to help in a minute.

Inuyasha had his shirt off trying to change shirts I sat and watched him then I got up and went into my room, I got out my bathing suit and laid it on my bed then went into the bathroom to brush my hair and teeth.

Inuyasha whispered into the room: Kikyo…………..hey sexy you in here?
I whispered back from the bathroom: Yeah I'm in here…….

Inuyasha walked into the bathroom and put his arms around my waist and pushed me close to him and smiled me smiled back and he leaned in to kiss me but I pulled back and he let me go. I went back to brushing my hair and he just sat and watched me.

Inuyasha: Why won't you kiss me?

Me: Because the day I kiss you is the day you realize that I still love you, and you have told me that you still do love me.

I walked out the room and left him in the bathroom, I ran down the stairs and helped Sango with breakfast she was fixing sausage as I made to biscuits.

Me: Inuyasha wanted to kiss me again today; I pulled back and told him that I won't ever kiss him until he realizes that I still love him and when he has told me that he still loves me.

Sango smiled at me: I heard ya'll were together in his bed I figured you would have kissed him by now? But I bet he gets the message now!

Me: Yeah no matter how bad I want to kiss him and love him I can't………….

Sango: Maybe you need to tell him first?
Me: I think what I said up stairs got it through his head…………..I don't want him to leave either.

Sango: I won't be long and he'll be right back here with us again you know Shippo has to leave again to go beach to college so now its just me, you, Kirara, and Miroku but Shippo is moving back by the end of the first semester so he can be with Kirara, he told Kirara that last night before they went to sleep.

I looked out the window and Shippo had Kirara in the water swimming in her cloths and she was smiling and laughing as they kissed.

Me: You can tell that there the one for each other.

Sango: Yep his got the money and she has him wrapped around her finger and yet she don't ask for anything to for him to move her and he does that he pays her things that she don't even ask for she just looks at it I'm sure by the time they get in the middle of there second year in college they'll get engage and then by the first year getting out of college they'll move in together and by the end of the second year out of college they'll be married.

Me: You know it, I've never seen her act so happy so……..

Sango: In love?

Me: Yeah before its weird but you just know there meant to be together…………just like you and Miroku.

Sango: Why do you think that?

Me: Because both of ya'll support each other ya'll talk like I never seen you talk before and when you walk into a room he is the first to smile in the biggest smile there is and when you hear his voice you smile and look around the room for him, I know, I've seen ya'll and ya'll just kiss and all ya'll need is an I love you from each other and you can go all day in smiles.

Sango: you know it gurlie, I just wish you and Inuyasha would get past this weird stage I never say him act the way he does when your around he just get all in smiles and laughs and he could be having the worst day of his life and all you have to say is hi on the phone and his day turns around.

Me: Yeah, really? I never noticed that?

Kirara: Another thing both of you have in common ya'll both don't know what you do to each other.

She came in from being wet and her and Shippo ran up stairs to take a shower and change.

Miroku: Ok Inuyasha's coming now we just have to get Shippo and we'll be good to go and leave ya'll in this house to party with out us.

He walked be hind Sango and put his arms around her and laid his head over her shoulder and watched her cook.

Miroku: I love you

Sango turned and looked at him: I love you too.

I watched them until they got close to kissing then I left change into my bathing suit. I walked into my room and Inuyasha was still sitting in the bathroom I walked in he ha his head down I pulled his head up and his eyes were just the saddest I ever saw them before.

Me: What's wrong?

Inuyasha: Nothing here you need to us the bath room to change.

I stopped him at the door and put my arms on his shoulders.

Me: There's something wrong what is it? Tell me…………………you can tell me anything Inuyasha, you know that…….

Inuyasha: I'm waiting for the perfect time to tell you this, just know that, I don't want you to hurt knowing that I don't love you just know I'm waiting for the perfect time.

I looked at him, kissed him of the cheek as he did the same to me.

Me: Anytime is the perfect time Inuyasha, you don't need to make it perfect you don't need to do anything……………..I love…………………

He let go and walked out. He didn't want me to say it knowing that he wasn't going to say it back. I sat down onto the floor of the door way and just looked out the window it was raining.

Sango walked into my room and sat beside me: You ok? It's raining so they can't go fishing because if the water rises in the river it's all over for them so they are waiting for it to pass by. What's going on…………….

Me: He won't tell me he loves me and I can't tell him because he won't let me finish it, and his waiting for the perfect time to do say it so………………I told him anytime is the perfect time and I got to the I love and he walked off and you find me here.

Sango: You want to eat up here?
Me: Yeah I'll wait until they leave to go and eat.

Sango: No us girls will eat in here and talk ok just stay here we'll be up here as soon as the boys get there plates. It didn't take them long but I fixed the bed to we could eat on it and they had gravy, sausage, and biscuits with outrange juice.

Kirara: That's wrong that he doesn't want to tell you……………..

Me: Yeah I guess I'll never hear him say it again……………

Sango: Plus his leavening so it's going to be hard on him not talking to you or sleeping by your side at night.

Kirara: Yeah it's weird that he and Shippo are leaving on the same day to go back to college; we'll be love sick together.

Me: But mine will be longer his coming back down to be here with you, you should be jumping up and down.

Kirara: Still one day with out him will seem like for ever.

Sango: Yeah I guess we all will have to help out now that we are going to college.

Me: Yeah I still have to sign into the college and get my books and make my schedule and everything gosh there just so much to do in such a little bit of time.

Kirara: How about let's just enjoy our time here this may be the last time to spend anytime together since we'll be back to work and college and then making our own plans.

Me: It will be different.

Kirara: Yep. You know it.

Miroku knocked on the door: Ummmm Baby can you come here right quick.

Sango got up and followed Miroku.

Kirara: What is that all about?

Me: I don't know.
Sango rushed back up in here and whisper into Kirara's ear.

Kirara: o0o I can't miss this!

She ran off and Sango sat beside me.

Sango: We'll be right be we had to go argue with Inuyasha right quick.

I watched her leave and then I went down the hall way to the edge of the step to listen to them.

Kirara: PERFECT TIMEING! Bull! You need to tell her you're killing her!

Inuyasha: She knows so there no reason to tell her anything.

Sango: SHE HASN"T HEARD IT FROM YOU! SHE MAY KNOW IT BUT SHE"S NEVER GONNA KNOW FOR SURE UNTIL YOU TELL HER!

Shippo: Have you seen her face! She dieing up there in her room and you can't tell her just three words that mean the world to her! Come on if you don't tell her your gonna lose her.

Inuyasha: I'm going to lose her anyway when I leave!

Kirara: Then don't!

Inuyasha: I can't!

I stood up and took the first step down the stairs and everyone looked up at me.

Me: Ok look his leaving to go to college! Even if I have to drive him there! If he doesn't want to say it to me then just drop it! Gosh you think my best friends would have told me ya'll were fighting about this all the time gosh how many times have you fought about this? You know what no just don't tell me! Now just stay down here all of you and argue a little bit more while I go where ya'll can't find me!

Inuyasha looked at me and he knew where I was going. I ran to slam my door then went into his room and softly shut the door I could hear someone coming up the stairs but I pulled the stairs down ran up them and shut them by the time I heard them call me name I walked up even more and then forgot that it was raining but I didn't care I continued going up there I sat in the rain just laying there letting the rain fall on me at least no one could tell I was crying in the rain. I could hear the ladder slide down then slide shut.

I looked over and there was Inuyasha he came and sat beside me.

He took a deep breathe.

Me: Don't say anything and just listen just one second.

I stood up: I don't care if you don't tell me that you love me but you know what I don't care I know you love me! I just want to hear it from you to know that it's true! Yes I'm going to hate you leaving for college but if you don't get your degree then I don't know what you're going to do. Now I might cry when you leave and I might think of you every second you're gone! I might not sleep at all because you're not beside but you know what its all those little things that I do to show you and you still don't pick it up but that's what you do when you love some one! I LOVE YOU! I always have and always will! I might not be the one for you but I love you so much that as long as you're alive I'm ok with you having someone else because I know you happy! I love you!

He touched my face and then he kissed me no second thoughts I didn't pull back I was tired of not kissing him! I got closer to him while we were kissing I took his shirt off as he laid me down and then we continued to kiss I put my arms around him and held me and kissed me. We stopped and just looked at each other rain still falling from the sky.

Inuyasha: Kikyo every time I hear you I look around the room every time I see you my heart don't skip once but twice every time I am laying beside you I know that you are the one for me! Not a day goes by that I have been waiting to the perfect moment to tell you this and your right anytime is the perfect moment! Kikyo! With all my heart and every breathe I take and every moment I think of you and hold you in my arms, I LOVE YOU!

I kissed him and then smiled as I touched his face and he smiled back: This is the perfect moment………

The rain stopped when I said that but I didn't notice until we stopped kissing and smiling at each other. We laid there kissing until we got dry from the sun.

Inuyasha: I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you so much I don't want you to feel that way ever again I love you, so much………

Me: I love you too and I won't have to ever feel that way ever again as long as I'm with you.

We somehow made it down stairs and took a shower and then slept in his bed all at same time. I could feel him kissing me softly on the back of my shoulder then the back of my neck. He touched my leg and ran up softly with it trying to get me to wake up. I rolled over and looked at him, then shut my eyes again. He kissed me on my lips softly; I woke up and then smiled at him.

Me: Cheater you know who to get me up.

Inuyasha: I guess we have to get dress and go see what everyone else is doing?

Me: What time is it?
Inuyasha: 5:02

Me: Gosh we spent plenty of time together.

I rolled onto him and kissed him softly back and he smiled back at me.

Inuyasha: I don't want to move from here.

Me: Why?

Inuyasha: You…………this……………us………………….

I smiled and then got up and put on one of his shirts and then turned on his TV as he put on a pair of pj pants and lay down as I join him. But we didn't watch TV he just looked at each other. Then someone knocked on the door and I ran off to the bathroom with my cloths as he got the door.

Inuyasha: Yeah………….

Sango: Can I come in?

Inuyasha: Yeah…….

Sango: So did you talk to her?
Inuyasha: Yeah she's in the bathroom taking a shower now she'll tell you all about it I'm sure.

I began to run some water as I stayed by the door to hear there conversation.

Sango: Someone happened your smiling like never before. Come on spill!

Inuyasha: I'll let her tell you all about that.

Sango: Hey! Kagome!

I stopped the water: Yeah!

Sango: Come outside with us when you get out of the shower ok………

Me: Ok!

Sango: Feeling better?

Me: Yeah a lot better now!
Sango: get up and get dressed on come on!

Inuyasha: Ok give me a minute.

I turned on the shower and walked back out to the bed. That Inuyasha was changing the sheets now.

Me: Care to join?

Inuyasha dropped what he was doing and walked up to me and kissed me leading back into the shower. We managed to get dressed and I lead him outside holding his Hand. Kirara and Shippo was swimming and Miroku and Sango where sitting on the steps. Inuyasha pulled me back against him holding me just to see if anyone would turn around plus he just wanted to hold me and kiss my neck.

Inuyasha whispered: I love you.

I looked back him and whispered: I love you too.

We kissed and then turned to look at everyone who was now looking at us in shock Even Kirara got out the water along with Shippo everyone just stopped and was in complete shock.

Sango and Kirara: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Miroku and Shippo: FINALLY!

They got up and we all sat down at the table at the edge of the porch talking.

Miroku: So this is what we get for not going fishing? It's totally worth it!

Sango: Awww baby that's so sweet.

Miroku: Baby being with you is all I need.

Kirara: So now that we have like three more days here what do we do?

Sango and Me: PARTY!

They all laughed.

Sango: Come on, Inuyasha I know you know someone here that can get us some whine coolers or whine or something.

Inuyasha got up and went inside.

Sango: What did I say?

Miroku: Might be going to call someone you never know.

Kirara: Maybe Kagome go check on him.

Shippo: Yeah that's a good idea he won't get mad at you or yell at you if ya know he is mad.

I got up slowly and walked into the kitchen he wasn't there I walked up stairs into his room and he wasn't there I went back down stairs, there I found an open door under the stairs I went into it the lights were on so I continued down, it was a whine sealer. I heard some noise to the left of me I walked to the row beside me and there was Inuyasha he looked up at me.

Inuyasha: I think this would be the best whine to drink so far its 60 years old.

He held it out to me as I took it.

Me: I think we will need more than one, everyone thought you got mad or something.

Inuyasha: No I just knew the perfect place to find whine, I didn't get upset we were suppose to do so many things today and I'm not letting this one slide.

Me: Yeah hey what about this one.

Inuyasha: Its only 50 years old.

Me: Still I like it its blue and shaped like at oval.

Inuyasha looked at me and then looked at the bottle: Ok this one and then that's it well be good to go.

Me: Yeah…so are there anymore room you didn't tell us about?

Inuyasha: Yeah but I'm not telling you'll have to find it out for yourself.

I smiled then looked back at him he was looking at me in a romantic way I loved it! My heart began to bound once again but I knew that this wasn't going to last much longer seeing him look at me like this and kissing him and having him come find me in the rain. My happy face went to sadness but I didn't notice until I looked up at him, he had a worry face on him.

Inuyasha: What is wrong?

I smiled at him: Nothing comes on let's go back up and get this party started.

He followed me back up stairs and turned on the stereo everyone came in and we began to drink and dance and just have fun. The four days were full of love and understanding and more partying. I didn't want it to end in fact no one wanted it too but on the last day we were here we packed and cleaned up. We decided not to leave till night time came. But also on that day I had no idea that I would have a serious conversation with Inuyasha. It was when the sun was just beginning to set, when he wanted to talk to me outside. I remember him holding me for the last time.

Inuyasha: Listen, I don't know when I'm coming back to be with you for the rest of my life but I don't want you to wait on me.

I looked up at him I knew he was being serious by the look on his face.

Me: We are going to have to end this aren't we…………

Inuyasha: I'm afraid so.

I let go over him and walked two feet at the end of the porch, I shook my head then turned around to see the Inuyasha had his head down.

Me: So you want to end this now before we get too ahead of ourselves or when you get on the road to leave or plan what ever you pick. Because I know I can't do this if we are talking right now about this. No fine end it……………….END IT RIGHT NOW!

Inuyasha: I don't want to loss our friendship.

Me: Inuyasha, I can't be your friend knowing that I love you so much! I can't no, it'll kill me knowing I have to do this again for the second time no we might as well end it all together……..

Inuyasha walked closers to me: I can't do that……..

Inuyasha whipped a tear but I Held my face I didn't even know I was crying, I felt my heart sink to the bottom again.

Me: Well you're going to have too……..

I walked away toward the river and just stood there crying I didn't want to walk into the house and everyone ask me all sorts of questions, I decided that I just walk away or not talk when someone asked what was wrong with me and Inuyasha, I didn't want to answer them when I felt this bad for letting him just come in and pick me up again just to drop me in five days. I whipped my tears and walked back in the house, with a smile on my face knowing that I didn't want to smile I just wanted to go home and go to sleep in my bed and cry for hours and hours.

Sango: Ok let's load up people! If we want to get home early come on! Who's driving?

Inuyasha: I'll drive………

Sango: Ok then it's just the way we came here right?

Inuyasha: Right………

I walked up stairs I didn't want to hear his voice let alone sit in a BMW in the passenger seat for 3 hours with him beside me. I went to the bathroom and locked the door. Gosh I need to get it together so what if we don't ever get back together I can live with that I lived with it for years………

Sango: Hey Kagome! We are ready to leave come on.

I took a deep breathe and held back my tears so I could talk right: Ok just give me a sec.

Sango: ok hurry we want to get something to eat.

Me: Ok I'll be down there in a minute.

I dried my tears but I heard someone come in my room.

Inuyasha: Kagome…………….

Me: What do you want?
Inuyasha: Can I talk to you?

Me: No why not just leave ok………….

Inuyasha: ………….but…………..

Me: But nothing I ended it! What else is there to say? You want me to kiss you on the drive home that's not a no but a hell no!

Inuyasha: I'm sure you don't want to tell anyone but why not end it when I leave………

Me: No! It's over now! I can't still go with you knowing the day you leave its all over!

Kirara: What is going on? Inuyasha what's wrong with you?

I opened the door with no tears in my eyes but in Inuyasha's, I looked at him and then at Kirara.

Me: Everything's fine when we are leaving?
Kirara looked at us in a weird way she knew something wasn't right: Come ya'll two let go everyone in the car ready to leave.

Inuyasha turned to face me so Kirara wouldn't see tears in his eyes: Ok………give us five minutes.

She left and I could feel tears fall from my eyes.

Inuyasha: Please………..

He walked to me and I walked back.

Me: No, let just get through the rest of the day I'm done.

I rushed out of my room and walked downstairs as I whipped my tears and walked straight to the car and opened the car and jumped in.

Sango whispered in my ear: Is everything alright?

Me: Yeah fine just fine.

Inuyasha walked slowly out locked the door and walked into the car and we were off back home. It had to be the worst drive of my life, I really just wanted to cry and ask why we had to end it when he left? Why couldn't we just go on? I turned to see everyone was asleep at 10 just an hour from home everyone was asleep but Inuyasha and me.

Inuyasha: Can you please talk to me if nothing………

I stayed quite for a moment: Why do you want to end it when you go off?

Inuyasha: Because I know that it will kill us and I know I won't be back for god knows when it just seemed like the right thing we can go on with our lives.

Me: Does it look like I can live with out you?

Inuyasha: That's why I wanted to keep in touch because I know I can't live without you.

Me: Then why break up come on Inuyasha just answer that.

Inuyasha: I did…….

Me: Do you not want to be together? Do you just want to see my cry fine you know what I'll cry yeah let me tell ya I've been holding back tears since I been in the freaking car!

Because I yelled Miroku woke up.

Miroku: Why are ya'll yelling.

Me: I thought we had to turn left but I was wrong sorry.

I kept facing forward because I was crying.

Miroku: o0o………ok……….

We waited ten minutes before talking again just to make sure Miroku was back to sleep.

Inuyasha: I don't know what to say…….

Me: Believe me you said it all, you don't want to be with me, you want to have a college girl as a girlfriend as a wife, as a best friend, Inuyasha I can't be a friend anymore ok, because I have feelings that want something that need to have you but you just don't see that do you?

Inuyasha: You're the only one that knows everything about me you can't ruin this….

Me: Watch me…………I can go days with out talking Inuyasha, you can sleep on the floor because I don't want you to sleep beside me, we can go on and on with this lists of things, I can say that we just broke up and that's the end of it all. How everyone would take this I don't know but I know how I will.

Tears stopped coming and I got really pissed, I wanted to hit something so bad.

Inuyasha: Look I want you to still be my best friend ok you have to come around sometime. Its better to be friends and know whets going on in each other's life's then not and worry about each other all the time about what we are doing and then we go around asking everyone else what's going on and then they ask why not just call her? And what do I say?

Me: You say that when you broke up with me I didn't want to be friends because I couldn't be a friend knowing that you and I both need to take a chance together but YOU DON"T REALIZE THAT DO YOU!

By now everyone was up when I said that.

Sango: What is going on!

Inuyasha: I almost hit that car but Kagome………

Me: Oo0 just stop it Inuyasha just tells them how you just broke up with me! How I don't want to be friends with you! How you didn't want to be with me when you went off to college go ahead just explain it to them!

I just let the tears fall after that I knew no one would mess with me if they knew I was pissed and very sad and depressed.

Kirara broke the silence: INUYASHA! WHY! You wait this long to go with her and you just end it in less than a week!

Inuyasha: I wanted to go tell I left but………

Miroku: Man that's just messed up and you know it!

Sango: You know what pull over! Miroku seat up there.

Me: NO!

Shippo: You know that if I can live with being away from Kirara you can live with being away from Kagome.

Inuyasha: Shippo it's different you're going to be with her at the end of the first semester! I'll be gone for four to six years! I can't do that to her!

Me: WATCH THE ROAD!

Inuyasha swerved to the right just in time so he didn't hit the car in front of us.

Sango: PULL OVER BEFORE YOU GET US ALL KILLED!
Inuyasha: We're fine!

It was quite until I said something to Inuyasha.

Me: Now see look everyone knows now.

Inuyasha: No one needed to know.

Me: THEY WERE GOING TO FIND OUT ANYWAY!

Inuyasha: again NO ONE NEEDED TO KNOW!

Me: YES THEY DID THEY ARE OUT BEST FRIENDS INUYASHA! GOD! DO YOU EVEN THINK THAT YOU SHOULD TAKE ALL THEY SAY INTO YOUR HEAD FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE!

Every just watched as me and Inuyasha began to argue.

Inuyasha: YES I DO I TAKE ALL OF IT EVERY TIME THEY TALK ABOUT YOU AND ME!

Me: Yeah right!

Inuyasha: What is that suppose to mean?

Me: IT MEANS THAT IF YOU WOULD HAVE TOOKEN IT IN SOONER I WOULDN'T HAVE MARRIED SESSHOMARU I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO LIVE WITH HIM AND BE TORCHERED I WOULD HAVE HAD YOU FOR ALMOST THREE YEARS! YES I COUNTED EVERYTIME YOU GO SOMEHWERE I WANT TO BREAK IT OFF WITH ME WHEN YOU MOVED YOU BROKE IT OFF AND NOW IT'S WHEN YOU ARE LEAVING FOR COLLEGE! Inuyasha I can't be played like this I need someone that is willing to hold on to carry on because I know I can be with you until the world ends but you havn't realize that yet have you?

Every stayed quite the rest of the way home, I kept my head on the window of the passenger window crying every now and then until I fell asleep.