I thought and rethought this one so many times over... Oh, and, last chapter's end note, that was acually for this chapter (oops) well, the part about the songs at least. This chapter feels better when you're listening to "Hate me," at least.

Demmy: Hate me and Calling you belong to Blue October. Kingdom hearts and all of it's characters do NOT belong to Xemnas... they belong to Square and Disney.

Graduation was in June.

The apartment was packed up when Roxas arrived, not having to unlock the door.

"Axel? Hey, Axel, where are you!" His blue eyes searched on tiptoe over the boxes to see the head of red locks across the room, hunched over. "Axel?"

"Hey, you made it." came the saddened laugh. "I was afraid that you wouldn't." There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain "Sorry I didn't tell you sooner, I was afraid you'd worry about me." his smile was that sad faked one. No, not completely faked. There was happiness in remembering, Roxas cared. An ounce of peace is all I want for you.

"But.. What are you doing? You always said that you'd never leave here, no matter what!" There's something I can't quite explain "That you care- I'll miss you, though..." The blond stuttered, unable to find the right words."Yo- you can't just LEAVE me here, can you?" I'm so in love with you.

Axel frowned, rather shamefully. And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? "Things came up, there's something I have to do. But I'll be back." He smiled. "You can't keep me away for too long. Roxas..." His mint eyes pleaded. "Hey, it'll be ok! It's just for a little."

"But it's long enough for you to move out!" He pouted.

'Come on, Roxas, no clue faces now, please...' Axel grit his teeth to keep his resolve. "I can't keep this apartment when I'm out of town. Listen, it'll only take a month or two, then I'll be back!"

"But how will we stay in touch?" So expect me to be calling you to see if you're okay when I'm not around. Asking if you love me. "What if you meet a cute girl and decide never to come back?"

Axel scoffed. "Girls are crazy. Especially the cute ones. They think they can get anything they want. Don't worry so much." Regret bit his stomach. Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you. "I told you that before, didn't I?"

"Yeah, you've told me that girls are crazy."

"No... not that." His mint eyes hit the floor.

"Then what?"

Axel choked on his laugh. "It's... I'll just be waiting to see you again." You never doubted my warped opinions. "Stay cute until then, ok?"

Roxas shook his head out of stubbornness. "But where are you going, and don't change the subject!" He felt his own throat and chest grow heavy. "Where are you going that's more important than..."

"Don't worry, you have your group of friends. You seem happy enough with them."

"B-but!" I thought that the world had lost it's sway. "They're not the same! I've known them for so long... they're still my best friends, but..." Then I fell in love with you, and you took that away. "This is different than that." You take away the old, show me the new. And I feel like I can fly when I stand next to you.

"You're so spoiled." Axel laughed.

The boy flinched, knowing it was true. "It's just that-"

The smile hushed him. "I know what you're talking about. Just trust me, it'll be ok." Axel stepped across the room, over boxes, and took Roxas in his arms. "Summer always goes by fast, and I'll be back."

"You still didn't tell me where you're going. You changed the subject... again."

"I know, I'm sly like that." He nuzzled the boy's hair lovingly. "Hey, hey, don't cry..." He whispered.

Roxas clutched the front of his shirt and shook his head, fighting when Axel took his chin and tilted it up.

"You're making this harder than it has to be." There was a bit of badly hidden shock in the green eyes as he gazed down. "And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave. Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made. And like a baby boy I never was a man, until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand. And then I fell down yelling 'Make it go away!' Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be. And then you whispered..."

"How can you do this to me?" Roxas finished, feeling the bond.

Axel nodded. "See, we're starting to finish each other's sentences. Another good reason for me to go for a while." He smirked. "I... have some thinking to do. And I need to do it alone. I just need to figure something out. To find something."

"And you still won't tell me what it is." His smallish companion pouted.

Axel leaned forward, so that the tip of his nose rested on the tip of Roxas'. "That's because I don't know yet, that's why I'm going to find it."

"Well, find it fast."

They savored the night together, warm against one another. Axel caught in the crisp childish eyes, Roxas caught in strong gentle arms. The boys held each other tightly, as if they refused to ever let go.

If you're sleeping are you dreaming
If your dreaming are you dreaming of me?

When Roxas awoke shivering, sore, and sleep-seeking the next morning, he was alone.

In case nobody has notice, Blue October is supposed to be kinda symbollic of their 'relationship.' Oh, and, Roxas kinda just lost his viginity... Yeah. I scrambled the two earlier mentioned songs up in this chapter. The two songs share the same last verse almost exactly. Read the lyrics on to see what I mean. I can't find that version on the music videos...