Disclaimer - The wonderful characters belong to Rob Thomas/CW/UPN The title of the chapter belongs to Joss Whedon, or whoever owns the rights to Buffy the Vampire Slayer now days.

When they arrived outside of Veronica's apartment complex Logan got out first and walked over to her side and helped her get out of the car. Rather than the broken crying girl she was before on the roof she seemed to be just a hollowed out empty girl. It was though she had cried all of herself out, all of her thoughts, all of her emotions everything that made her Veronica. She was just blank now. Logan didn't like this, It was scaring him. this is not Veronica he thought as they walked up to her apartment. When they got to her door she was hesitant.

"Logan maybe you were right, I don't think I can go in there" she said as she started to cry again.

Logan took her into his arms once again and he kissed the top of her head

"Veronica, if you don't want to go in there you don't have to. If you don't think you are ready or you can't handle it then don't go in there"

"I want to go in but I don't want it to be empty I want to see my dad in there I want to curl up in his lap I want to tell him that..." Her words became too slurred with tears for him to understand what she was saying after that. Not that it mattered there was nothing he could have said that would have made her feel any better. All he could do was hold her as she sobbed into his shirt soaking it with her tears. He wasn't sure how long they stood there outside the door until she stopped crying and put on her brave face again. She was putting the key in the lock when her tears started to fall all over again.

"Logan..."

"Shhhh its okay, I got it" he said very gently. He took the key from her and put it back in the lock and opened the door very slowly in case she changed her mind about going in.

She didn't take more than three steps inside when she fell to the floor crying and pounding her tiny fists on the tile mumbling something Logan couldn't quite hear. He laid down on the floor next to her and pulled her close to him.

"Veronica, stop it you're going to hurt yourself"

"I don't care" she said in between sobs

"I care" he replied and took her hands into his "come on lets get you off the floor." He picked her up and carried her over to the couch and sat on the floor next to where her head was her hands still in his.

"No, up here, hold me?" she said in a very broken voice that made her impossible to refuse, not that he would have anyway.

"Okay" He had to contain a smile. It wasn't like he was happy that Keith was dead, but he was thrilled that Veronica is letting him be the one who is there for her. She sat up and made room for him on the couch and almost immediately after he sat down she was on his lap and sobbing into his shirt once again.

"Veronica, let me get you something..." Logan said. It was almost unbearable seeing her like this he was desperate to find some way to help ease the pain.

"Like what?"

"Well are you like hungry? Or thirsty? If I run you some bath water will you not drown? I could turn the TV or Radio on. I don't know whatever you want I'll make it happen."

"Logan I didn't have you stay with me to cater to me I just don't want to be alone. What you are doing right now. This is... Perfect."

"But when my mom..." He paused for a minute, it was still hard for him to say commited suicide especially now after seeing another person he cared about jump."...you did so much more for me. You wasted your time tracking down credit cards and camping out in hotel lobbies, if it wasn't for you I don't think..."

Veronica cut him off "Logan, it wasn't a waste of time. I was happy to do it. I still remembered being your friend and I cared about you. I really liked your mom" The last words came out in almost a whisper she felt strange talking about Lynn Echolls around Logan. She knew he was really touchy on the subject and she didn't want to bring up bad memories.

"Thank you Veronica." Suddenly he got an idea "When I was little and I was sad or scared my mom would always hold me in her lap and sing to me until I fell asleep."

Logan shifted around so that Veronica was laying down across his lap and he was holding her upper half and he sang to her well more like hummed. It worked, after about twenty minutes later Veronica was asleep. Logan started to think about everything that has happened. About Lilly, his parents, Felix getting stabbed, the bus crash, Cassidy. All these events that has shaped their lives are nothing but tramatic. Why can't he think of a time when things in Neptune were good and happy? Sure things were better before his father killed his girlfriend. But those days weren't all happy either. All these thoughts were starting to make Logan sleepy he wasn't able to deal with this stuff any more tonight he was just starting to doze off when his cell phone rang. He didn't want the noise to wake up Veronica but he couldn't grab the phone without waking her up either.

"Daddy..." Veronica mumbled in her sleep, starting to move around.

The phone kept on ringing and Logan was going to kill whoever is calling if they wake her up.

Suddenly she snapped awake and called out for her dad. When she looked up and saw Logan and remembered everything she burst into tears for what seemed like the millionth time tonight.

"Veronica I'm so sorry, I'm such an idiot I should have turned it off" he said reaching the phone out of his pocket. He put it on silent and threw it on the coffee table without even bothering to see who it was that was calling him.

There was no way they are more important than Veronica. He thought.

"It okay, you should answer it."

"No, you come first, I deal with everyone else later" Logan said, tightening his hold on Veronica

The blinky lights on the phone didn't stop so Veronica picked it up. Logan had no idea who was calling so many times but the look in Veronica's eyes told him it was nobody good.

"You're still seeing Kendall?"

"What? No, I haven't talked to her since... that morning when you showed up at my hotel room"

"Then why is she calling you Logan?" She said sounding both angry and hurt.

"I have no idea, look I told her after you left that I couldn't see her anymore because I was in love with you." When he said this his eyes shifted towards the floor.

"Okay, I believe you. See what she wants." She said and then kissed him on the cheek.

Logan turned bright red, its not like hes never been kissed by Veronica before but its been so long he almost forgot what its like. How everything in the world suddenly just isn't there anymore and its only him and Veronica. Even small kisses on the cheek were worth more than gold to him.

"Logan, the phone?"

"Oh, yeah I'll get it" but it had already stopped ringing. She must have decided to give up because there was a voice mail. When he heard what it said he actually had a smile on his face.

"finally something good happened tonight."

"What are you talking about"

"Kendall was in my dad's hotel room, she said she was taking a shower and when she came out she found him dead in the living room, shot in the head"

"Logan... how can you say thats a good thing?"

"How? Veronica our fathers were nothing alike I have nothing to mourn for. this is the man that forced my mom off that bridge, When I was growing up he would... he had sex with my girlfriend, then murdered her, he tried to kill you and your dad. I hate him I'm glad he is dead."

"Logan stop it."

"Veronica I mean it, after I found out that he killed Lilly and stuffed you in that refridgerator I wanted to kill him myself. I hate that he hurt you Veronica I'm so sorry for everything that he..."

Veronica cut him off "Damnit don't you apologize for him Logan, you didn't do anything you're not him. None of it was your fault."

He has needed to hear those words for a very long time. For a whole year he has been wondering if Lilly would still be alive if he had done things differently. If he had been a better boyfriend maybe she would have settled down maybe she would have loved him enough not to have sex with his father. But if Veronica said it wasn't his fault then it wasn't. Logan learned long ago that Veronica Mars is never wrong.

"I miss Lilly" Veronica said crying harder

"I miss her too" He replied.

"You think her and my dad are up in heaven having a good time?" Veronica asked in a voice that broke his heart.

"Knowing Lilly they are having a great time." Logan said with a smile on his face. It used to hurt to think about Lilly being dead especially after he found out his own father had been the one who had murdered her. Now he thought of her murder as her escaping Neptune and becoming an angel. He'll always love and miss her but she was better off where she was then in Neptune.

"Thinking that he is there with Lilly makes me feel a little better"

"Lilly loved your dad, I bet she greeted him at the gates with her classic Lilly smile"

"She sure did have a beautiful smile." Veronica said closing her eyes.

"You look tired" Logan remarked full of concern for Veronica.

"I'm exausted" She replied.

"You should lay back down and get some rest its been an awful night" He said stating the obvious. He pulled her down onto his lap and stroked her hair until her tears finally stopped and she fell into a deep sleep. Logan lifted her up and carried her to her bedroom and covered her up.

"Goodnight, I love you Veronica" he whispered and kissed her on her forehead. Even if she couldn't hear him say that it was important to him that he tell her that he loves her. He sat there on her bed and watched her sleep until he too felt the strong need to get some sleep. He wanted to stay there by her but he thought he should sleep on the couch. He looked at Veronica sleeping one more time and decided that he was going to do whatever he had to do to get her back. They always tried to tear each other down but when they really needed someone they always found comfort in each other. That has to be enough to us to make it work he thought.