What have we done?

Disclaimer: I don't own Charmed! Sad but true.

Summary: Not knowing who Chris is, Paige casts a spell to reveal his secrets. But something goes wrong, so the CharmedOnes, Leo, Baby Wyatt and Chris end up in Chris' future. Where not everything is perfect and only more secrets are waiting for them. Can Chris keep his secret?

A/N: Okay... I know this chapter has this huge thing about Chris... but I really need this scene. Or I simply want to put all my ideas in one story – which is probably not such a good idea ...well we will see. I know the last chapter and this one probably too only cause more questions... but you will understand it at least when the story ends – well I hope so :)... And I know it's pretty unrealistic, but I want to keep Leo and the CharmedOnes a little bit stupid... sorry.

Chapter 15

"No... Mom." Lil yelled as Chris stabbed.

But Lil was faster than him. She materialized out, directly in front of Chris. Between her future mother and her cousin. The athamate was in her stomach. Chris looked shocked at her, but she tried to smile at him.

"It's okay." she whispered.

He immediately pulled the athamate out of her and dropped the knife. He was himself again, Lil could see that, but then she collapsed into Phoebe's arms.

"Oh my god." Phoebe whispered. The rest of the family was rushing over to them now – waking up from the shock.

"Lil." Pee yelled and she was the first one who reached her cousin. She pulled Lil away from Phoebe and the rest of the family immediately gathered around them.

"Hey. What the hell are you doing for stupid things." Pee said with tears in her eyes.

"Better the present changes than the past, right." Lil said but already had problems to breath.

"Hey Melinda, sweety. Everything is going to be okay." Jason promised his daughter. He was holding one of her hands.

"You poisoned the athamate?" Kyle asked shocked as he examined the wound.

"I was evil, remember." Pee said back angrily.

"Let me heal." Leo said and after he earned a glare from Kyle, he finally nodded and stepped aside.

Leo bend over Lil and placed his hands over the wound.

"Lil... I need you to breath calmly." Leo told her, but she only breath twice till she finally got unconscious.

"Hurry." Jason said in panic.

"What is taking so long?" Richard asked nervously.

"The poison is strong." Leo just answered and focused more. "Come on Lil..." he mumbled.

And finally the wound began to close and Lil opened her eyes.

"Hey." Jason said and stroked her hair.

But Lil only smiled for a second. She freed herself from the others and jumped up.

"Chris?" Lil asked and that was when the others noticed that he hadn't been around them. "Where is the athamate?" Lil asked in panic.

"Lil what..." Pee asked confused.

"His eyes... the look." Lil only whispered. Then she saw Chris sitting in the corner, with a dizzy look.

"Oh no. Not again." Lil said and wanted to run to Chris as Phoebe grabbed her arm... still looking shocked. "What?" Lil hissed.

"Did you just say Mom?" Phoebe asked softly.
Lil sighed... "Not now... please." she whispered with tears in her eyes. She looked for help and saw the desperate looks of the others that the truth was coming out slowly – but surely.

She finally freed herself from Phoebe – not answering her question – and ran over to Chris, only to be thrown back by this protection shield. She landed a few meters away.

"What the hell?" Pee said and helped Lil. "Chris..." Pee added. But then she saw his look too and it made her shiver. She had seen this look only once... and it wasn't peachy at all.

"The athamate..." she mumbled as she saw it in Chris' hand.

"What the hell is going on now?" Richard asked.

Kyle by now had realized what was happening too. "Not again... damn it." he said loud and the adults looked at him strange.

"What is happening?" Future Leo asked and wanted to go to Chris.

"Don't... only if you want to be thrown away." Lil said.

"Chris hasn't got a force field." Leo said.

"Well in this state, he has." Lil said back.

"Chris please listen to me. It wasn't your fault, okay. I am fine. Nothing happened to me!" Lil tried to get Chris' attention. "Chris please... put the athamate away!"

"Seriously... what is going on... what state are you talking about?" Richard tried to understand. He could see that something bad was happening here, but he didn't understand it...

"Remember Chris' 14th birthday? When you couldn't enter the house for three days? Well Chris blamed himself for what happened... and he kind of tried to ..." Lil tried to explain, but couldn't tell the end and so Kyle ended it. "... kill himself." he mumbled.

"What?" the adults from this time were all alert.

"But... you never..." Jason said and looked at Chris, who was kind of playing with the athamate.

"You should have told me." Leo said angrily.

"Oh yes? Well first of all he made us promise that we wouldn't tell and you were all friendly with Wyatt after a few weeks." Pee said cold.

"Chris... put the athamate away." Richard said to Chris now firmly.

"I don't think he can hear you... well at least it had been like that the last time. I guess the blood of a family member on his hands, must have bought back bad memories." Lil said.

"How did you get him out of there the last time." Jason asked.

"That's the problem... we didn't." Lil said, half laughing half crying. This was just too typical. If it was about bad luck – this family was probably the winner.

"His brother did... and we don't even know how." Pee said cold. Leo looked at her shocked.

"I guess that was the last good thing he did." Kyle added.

"Do you want to show us that you can give and take?" Lil said, although she knew that he could probably not hear them.

"What did his brother do the last time?" Leo asked urgently.

"He got through the forcefield. I found Chris, after I got out of my dizziness... and you can believe me I screamed. He had already cut his wrist and there was so much blood...We used our powers together to get through, but nothing worked. Then he went away... he wanted to check something and when he came back, he got through Chris' shield and healed Chris." Lil said.

"And you don't ..." Richard asked.

"No. Not an idea... but after that his change started. Maybe a pact with a demon? We don't know." Kyle said.

"There has got to be a way." Leo said and shot electricity out of his hands, but the shield simply absorbed the power.

"Can you do that too?" Piper whispered to her Leo, but he didn't answer. They all had kept quiet, because they thought that this wasn't their business and they couldn't do a thing anyway. But the fact that Richard and Jason, who was probably Lil's father, who was Phoebe's daughter were involved, made a little different.

"We could really need a little help here." Lil said to the ceiling, hoping somebody would hear her. She was actually lucky, that Chris hadn't cut himself yet.

She remembered last time so clearly, although she hadn't spoken about it to anyone.

It had been Chris' birthday. The party hadn't started yet and the men were out to get some stuff when the demons attacked.

"Wyatt. Take your little brother and your cousins to the basement… Now!" Piper yelled to her oldest son as she let the next demon explode, who simply reformed again the next second.

The children who wanted to help their parents to fight the demons refused to follow their orders, so the CharmedOnes had no other choice then to back away and push the children into the direction of the basement.

"This is not a game, damn it… Wyatt. I need you to bring them down. Now. Everything is going to be fine, but they are our concern. Now go!" Piper said angrily and pushed Chris – who just used his telekinese powers to throw a demon against the wall – in Wyatt's arms and he had no other choice then to pull him and his other cousins into the basement… "Mom… no!" Chris yelled…

The next thing they heard was an explosion and after that there had been only silence. Not a noise.

They waited a second, but then they simply couldn't stay hidden any longer.

Wyatt opened the door, everybody was ready to attack... but there was nothing to attack. Everything was dead. The living room looked like a bomb had exploded – which probably had also happened.

Only ash piles reminded of the demons. But there were also three bodies.

One in the conservatory, one in the living room and on in the kitchen.

The fife children immediately ran to their mothers.

"Mom?" They all asked.

"Mommy?" Lil asked her mother, who was lying in the conservatory, but when she didn't answer she started to cry. Bending over her mother and she let her tears flow.

Pee meanwhile was shacking her mother. "Mom... wake up, please." Kyle finally managed to pull her away a little bit and they both cried in each others arms. "You have to heal her." Pee whispered. "It's too late..." he whispered in tears. "It's too late."

Wyatt was the first one, who reached his mother in the living room, he searched for her pulse, but couldn't find one. Then he tried to heal her, but no expected glow appeared.

"Why isn't it working?" Chris asked, who was standing next to him.

"She is dead..." Wyatt whispered in shock. He looked around for his cousins and saw all of them crying and he knew now that the CharmedOnes were dead. He looked up to Chris, who was looking at his mothers body.

"No..." he shook his head. "It's just a dream." he whispered.

"Chris..." Wyatt said sad. His brother backed away from his mother, till he reached the wall. There he went down to his knees, closing his eyes and tears were streaming down.

Wyatt rushed over to him and hugged him tight. "I am here. I won't leave you. I won't let you alone. I promise." Wyatt whispered in his brother's ear and rocked him gently.

The cousins didn't notice that somehow with their grieve they had created a protection shield around the manor. Nobody was able to get in or out... the husbands had felt the loss of their wives, even Jason, who wasn't even a magical being. But they were not sure of the situation of their children and tried desperately to get in, but they were way to powerful. It didn't even allow them to see through the windows.

The shock had also caused that all fife children got in some kind of a paralysis. They weren't aware of what was happening around them or what was even happening to their siblings or cousins. Each one of them grieved on their own.

When Lil, after three days, finally awoke of her state, she was weak and still had the need to cry, but she hadn't got the power any longer. She stood up, numb, looking for her cousin.

She saw that Kyle and Pee seemed to be awaken already – nevertheless still sitting there, but they all were not really in the mood to talk or anything. She searched for Wyatt and Chris, but both were not in sight. So she went upstairs. She wasn't really sure why she was doing it, it was just the feeling that something wasn't right.

She opened the door of Chris' room but nobody was there. The same was with Wyatt's room. She hesitated, but finally with trembling fingers she opened the door of Piper and Leo's room and was thrown against the opposite wall. She looked up confused and saw with shock the blood. And Chris lying on the floor, the other hand still holding the athamate. And she screamed, in shock and fear...

The others immediately appeared, they knew something bad was happening and they were not ready to lose another family member. They were all still kids... and nearly panicked as they saw Chris lying there... but they had seen a lot for their age... so they did what their instinct told them. Kyle first pulled Lil away and let Pee take care of her and then he and Wyatt tried to get in the room, but where thrown back, just like Lil before. Both tried now to attack the shield and after Pee could calm down Lil they both helped. But they couldn't get through. Wyatt even tried to use his shield against Chris' , but it didn't help either. They all could feel that Chris was still alive. They were all connected somehow – they knew that there was still hope, but time was running out.

"Wait here. Keep trying." Wyatt suddenly said and orbed out. The others didn't think long and kept on using their powers. They felt dizzy for a few seconds before Wyatt orbed back in, but didn't really bother.

"Stay back." Wyatt ordered.

"What are you doing?" Pee asked him.

"Trust me." Wyatt only said and the others steeped aside.

He concentrated and with a move of his hand Chris' shield exploded. Wyatt immediately rushed over to his little brother and healed his wrist.

"Never do this again. You scared the crape out of Lil... and you scared me to hell." Wyatt said with tears in his eyes but Chris was only looking at him with this odd look. The look of guilt and desperation. The look of somebody who had lost something really precious. And the look of somebody who doesn't want to live any longer.

"It was my fault. She wanted to protect me... and she had been so worried about me the whole time. I distracted her..." Chris whispered.

"I have never heard of such a selfish person." Wyatt said angrily, still holding Chris in his arms.

"You always think of yourself. She was a witch, she was only doing her job... you think you are the only one who is suffering? You are not and killing yourself doesn't really help us either. Ever thought about us? Me, Lil, Kyle, Pee or Dad. Ever thought how we might feel, when you are gone too? Mom gave her life for us. She died to protect us, never forget that. She wanted us to live, that's why she send us to the basement. Maybe you should think about that. Take the present she gave you and use it." Wyatt said calm.

After that Wyatt waved his hand above Chris, using his powers to calm him down – fade his memories. He never wanted to see this look again, never.

"Chris put the athamate away, for gods sake. It's just a memory. Nothing happened to Lil!" Pee yelled once again...

But Chris didn't hear her, he only saw his mother's dead body and he saw all the blood and it was on his hands and then he saw Lil – dead... till suddenly there was a light.

"Christopher... Chris. It's okay." A voice said softly.

He looked up and he saw somebody smiling at him, what he thought would never happen again.

"It's okay sweety. Put the athamate away." Piper Halliwell said to her son.

She stepped over to him and opened his hand which was holding the athamate and put it on the floor. He just looked at her. It was like a miracle. She smiled.

"My poor baby. You went through so much..." she said and sat down next to him and took him in his arm. "You have to know that I am very proud of you." she said and Chris lay back in her arms. He smelt her scent and it remembered him of his childhood, of all the good times. It was so got to just relax to be able to relay on somebody else and to feel safe.

After a moment of simply savor the moment, Piper began to talk again. "You know that it wasn't your fault, right? It never has been. It was time for me to die that day, nothing could have prevented it, nothing. Do you understand." Piper asked and Chris nodded.

"But you and your brother made my life the best it could have been." Piper said and smiled and Chris looked up to her and smiled back.

"I love you Chris... and don't be so harsh on your brother... I love you both." Piper said and kissed him on his forehead and then she vanished in golden light.

The others outside the barrier didn't see what happened. They only saw that Chris suddenly dropped the athamate and that his shield slowly vanished...

But his three cousins actually didn't care at the moment, because their attention was distracted by something unbelievable. They saw their mothers smiling at them.

"Mommy?" Lil asked and tears began to flow.

"It's okay baby... I am here." Future Phoebe said smiling and she hugged her daughter.

"How...?" Lil whispered confused.

"The final battle is going to start soon. Be prepared to use all your powers..." Future Phoebe said to Lil and Lil looked back at her shocked and she shook her head.

"It's okay. Whenever you are ready. It's your own decision... Whatever happens. I am proud of you, sweetheart. And I will always be there for you." Phoebe promised her daughter, kissed her on the forehead and vanished in golden light.

"Mom?" Both twins said unbelieving as they saw their mother standing there. After she had died they all had tried to contact their mothers, but they never appeared. This was like a miracle.

"Hey. Missed me?" Future Paige said with tears in her eyes. Both kids embraced their mother happily.

"Like hell." Pee said.

"I missed you too. I mean talking to you. I had always an eye on you two." Paige said after a moment and then she especially focused on her daughter for a second, who looked away. "You both are amazing. Never forget that I am proud of you. Always." Paige said.

"Even if we would join Wyatt's army?" Pee said sarcastically.

"Prudence!" Kyle said shocked. He didn't understand her attitude at all. They saw their mother after such a long time and she was so... aggressive.

Paige smirked for a second but became serious again. "Even then." she said.

"How comes that you are here now?" Kyle suddenly asked.

"Blame myself... But I can't stay... I love you!" Paige said and she stroked the hair of each of her children. "I love you." She repeated softly and vanished in golden light!

"Mom?" All three cousins whispered at the same time and looked around. Only to realize that they were still in the room and that the Charmed Ones and Past Leo were looking at Chris, who had dropped the athamate. They had been totally oblivious about what had happened.

But they also saw their fathers and Future Leo. Who were looking quiet unbelieving and the children knew that they saw the same thing as they had a few seconds before. But they got back in the reality soon.

"Mom?" Chris whispered as he got aware of his surrounding.

"What just happened... oh my god Chris." Pee said and ran over to him, to hug him.

"Are you okay." Lil asked quietly. She was still dizzy from the short reunion with her mother.

"I think so..." Chris said ... "Oh my god, are you okay?" He suddenly asked Lil. Because the thing last he remembered before he saw his mother was himself stabbing Lil.

"Yes... you idiot. You scared me..." Lil said, now fully aware of everything again.

"Sorry..." Chris said.

"It wasn't your fault." Lil said and helped him to his feet.

"Okay... what is happening here?" Phoebe suddenly asked. "I want answers." she said angrily.

Everybody looked at her.

"Are you my daughter?" Phoebe asked Lil and looked her into the eyes. Chris looked shocked to Phoebe and gave Richard a questioning look. "Oh my god... of course, how couldn't I have seen it." Phoebe whispered. She saw herself in the girl... "Oh my god..." Phoebe said and hugged Lil, who was pretty helpless and not really in the mood, as she had seen her real mom just a few seconds okay.

After a few seconds, she pushed Phoebe away.

"Stop it okay. You are not my mother." Lil said, but then she saw Phoebe's hurt look and Lil' sighed. "Well not really." she added and couldn't believe what she said.

"Lil!" Jason said unbelieving.

Phoebe looked at Jason. "You are her father." She noticed with a smile and then she looked at her going to be daughter.

"You are so beautiful..." Phoebe said proudly. "Lil... short form for Melinda?" She asked and Lil nodded – she had given up.

"Wow, so I am your aunt? That's cool." Paige said.

"We need a lot of memory dust." Pee said with a sigh.

Before the others could comment on this Chris changed the topic. He really couldn't need more revelations, although he didn't even understand yet why Phoebe knew about Lil.

"What happened to us?" Chris asked Richard. "And what kind of spell did you use?" he added.

"Your brother casted a blood spell. He let his blood in all of you dominate and somehow lured it on his side. Leo warned us that this might happen and we prepared some potions." Richard explained. Chris focused on his uncle, he didn't want to look at his father.

"But Jason hasn't got magical powers!" Chris said confused.

"Well the main magic came from the potion. And he is Lil's father. His blood is the other part in her. It was more luck than knowledge." Richard admitted.

Chris nodded but then he stopped for a second. Oh god, he had totally forgotten it. Wyatt had casted the spell before he could think it clear... but know it was pretty much obvious.

"Damn it!" Chris cursed and the others looked at him confused.

"Chris what...?" Kyle asked.

Chris began to laugh quietly. "All this for your entertainment or what? This was your master-plan? Pretty lame I have to admit." Chris said.

"Okay now he is really crazy." Paige whispered.

"Chris?" Pee asked confused.

"He is not crazy. Not at all. He is clever – although it took a while." a voice suddenly said and everybody from this time immediately recognized it and they all somehow shivered...

"Who..?" Piper asked and turned around to look where the voice came from. But there was nobody. But then there was suddenly a movement and a man came out. A man who wasn't much older than Chris. He wore a black t-shirt and had curled blond hair.

-to be continued -

A/N: I had really problems with the end of this chapter. Things needed to be explained and I needed the revelation... but I am not so proud of the end here. But I like flashback ;) ... But you should decide yourself. Please review!