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A/N: Hello lovely people who read this fic. This story hits really close to home so I asks that at least for Chapter 1, no flames. Please read and review :)

A Reason to Die

Kagome and Rikkou had been friends since Kagome was 14 years old in the 9th grade.
Rikkou was a year and 5 months older than her, and was the first guy to accept
her for who she was. He never judged her or called her names, he was simply her
friend, and a good one at that.

During the first three years of their friendship she fell in love with him and
boy did she fall hard. He even developed a love for her. Despite the fact that
he had a couple of girlfriends those first three years, he always came back to
her. A few months into the third year of their friendship, they decided to
become intimate. Both being virgins, they wanted to experience sex for the first
time together.

At first they decided to be bedroom buddies, it was better that way, so he got
another girlfriend. 'The Devil', as we liked to call her, was mean and harsh. In
the end, she destroyed him because she was unfaithful. Rikkou was crushed and
went to Kagome for comfort. About 4 months after the break up with the devil, he
decided to give Kagome a chance.

Their first year together was pure bliss. But after their anniversary, his
grandmother got sick. She was sick for a month, and then two days after her
birthday, she died.

Then hell started. Rikkou became mean, he lost his will to live, he pushed her
away, and he picked fights. A month later he broke up with Kagome. He said that
she needed more experience, that she was still a virgin to the world. She
pleaded with him; they talked and agreed to go back to being bedroom
buddies.

So now, six years into their friendship, they were back where they started.
Kagome looked at it like a second chance, boy was she wrong. Over the following
four years, they were on a rollercoaster ride. A lot of up, a few down and a few
loops, but they still loved one another. But one day, Kagome realized she was
lonely, that she felt hollow, that what they had just wasn't enough anymore. One
night after their weekly sessions, depression hit Kagome, hard.

"What's wrong?" Rikkou asked, annoyed.

"Well... I... this is starting to hurt," Kagome answerd quietly

"Well you're the one who wants to keep having sex with someone who doesn't want
to be with you," he scorned "It's time to move on."

"I can't, I love you so much," she said holding back tears

"You have to, I love you too but I can't keep breaking your heart. I don't want
to hurt you like this anymore. We've been beating a dead horse for 5 years and
none of this should have happened," he said as Kagome sobbed.

"I can't live without you, you're my best friend. I can't turn my back on
a ten year friendship!" She sobbed.

"I'm not your only best friend, you still have Geneyea, I'm just your
closest friend for obvious reasons." He replied.
"Please, don't do this to me, I'm not strong enough, we can work it out, you just have to try," she
said.

"Maybe-- look can we talk about this later, it's almost midnight and I have to be up at 7 for work. I'll call you tomorrow," he said.

Rikkou got up and gave Kagome a chaste kiss and walked out.

Kagome called Geneyea, sobbing. Geneyea had been friends with Kagome for 14 years; they were like sisters, inseparable-- just like her and Rikkou.

"Geneyea, he's gone and isn't coming back!" she sobbed

"What happened, Sis?" Geneyea asked concerned.

"I told him that I couldn't do this anymore and he told me to move on," Kagome said as a new wave of tears hit her.

"It's ok, you can do better. He never deserved you" Geneyea said

"But I'm not strong enough, I just want to die." She said

"No, you can't die what would Georgia do?" Geneyea asked

"Oh! My tiny--" she started sobbing all over again

Georgia was Kagome's two year old niece and Kagome is the center of the toddler's little
world. Georgia knows that Kagome is her aunt but she refuses to call her that.
To Georgia, Kagome is 'mama', she even calls her own mother mama. Kagome would
argue with her to call her auntie. Georgia's only response is always: "I know
who you are, you're mama"

Finally Kagome decided to give up

"Oh! My tiny terror" Kagome sobbed

"Yes, she would be lost without you. Who is she going to drag all over the
house to show new things to if you died? Think of the impact your death would
have on her," Geneyea said.

Kagome just sobbed harder

"Look Kags, you'll be fine. It'll hurt for a while but I promise it gets
easier. I'll call and check up on you tomorrow, Try to get some sleep" Geneyea
said.

"Ok Gen, I'll talk to you tomorrow," Kagome said, hanging up the
phone

That night for the first time, Kagome cried herself to sleep.
She slept for over twelve hours that night. She woke up the next afternoon with
red, swollen eyes, wanting to crawl under a rock and die.

Then, the phone rang.

How are you today Kags?" Geneyea asked

"A little hungry, but I don't want to eat." Kagome replied

"You have to eat, you need the energy to play with Georgia!" Geneyea
said

"I know, I'll talk to you later," Kagome said rushing her friend off the
phone

"Ok, go get something to eat," she said

"Ok, bye!" Kagome hung up the phone

Kagome said she would eat, but she didn't. Not once that entire weekend.