chp 10

I've been looking in the mirror for so long.
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side.
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter.
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together.
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces.

Kagome looked around, her arrows almost gone, so many demons came after her. She tried to stay strong, stay liek her reflection...Kikyo. That's who she had to become, the perfect virgin priestess. She had to be her greatest enemy, her greatest fear.

She didn't want that in a million years...

If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

She felt her whole self die inside, she figured it would be best if she just didn't feel anymore. Maybe it would hurt less, if she just stopped loving, just stopped caring...

Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever.
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better.

How was she supposed to ever get over love though. How could she live with the fact that she would probably never see him again? How could her soul survive with knowing that she could have been loved, and she just gave it away...

I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love.

She knew Kikyo would be happy, that she'd make him fall in love with her. She would live the life she deserved to lead, and Kagome had the heart to give it to her. She couldn't feel any anger, or revenge, or hatred...

She just felt...dead...

So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe-
I breathe no more. - Evanescence: Breathe no More...

So she decided, that was how life was meant to be...

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Inuyasha watched as Kikyo smiled, and held his hand. They walked together down a long winding road. It bordered on a

river of crystal blue, shinning fish danced like jewels in the clear water. It made him think of how the light reflected in Kagome's hair, shinning with a thousand different colors against her raven black hair.

Kagome...

Even as he stood here with Kikyo's hand in his, with the chance of a life time to fall in love with a beautiful woman who loved him deeply, he couldn't stop thinking about the girl with the loud obnoxious mouth who still had a hold on his heart. How she challenged him, and put him in a position he had never been in before. How could he say good-bye to Kikyo though. She had always been his dearest friend, his best companion. How could he deny her happiness after all she had done for him.

But how could he deny Kagome the love he so desperately wanted to give her. He couldn't deny it anymore, that he loved her. He had loved her from the moment he had scared her when she first arrived. Whe he stared at her peculiar outfit, and watched her from a distance. How he so obviously tried to play hard to get and easy to get a the same time.

But Kikyo loved him to, and he did like her alot back. But she was so plain, and so predictable. She was kind though, and more loving and gentle than anyone besides his own mother. But even during battle, she never was anything but strong and brave. He wanted someone to protect, someone who needed him for more than just love.

Maybe it was how Kagome seemed so innocent, seemed so helpless...but also at the same time seemed so fiery and full of life. He never wanted to see anyone else touch her, ever harm her. He wanted to love her...

But she left him, she scorned him...

Yet he still wanted to love her...

He looked at Kikyo, her smile more radient than anything most men have or will ever see, but it was nothing in comparison to how Kagome wrinkled her nose at him when she was angry, or how her nostrils flared when she yelled. How unbelievabley child-like she was, yet how wise and knowledgeful she could be.

Compared to her Kikyo was no comparison. But how could he abandon Kikyo? She was still important to him, he couldn't just discard her like she was trash! But a lone part of his heart told him if he did, he could be with Kagome...

And he knew it was probably right...

"Inuyasha..."

He looked at Kikyo, his eyes glazed over in deep thought,"Yes..."

"Are you worried about Kagome too?"

He looked at her, worried that she could read his thoughts,"Yes I am..."

"I think we need to go find her..."

He shok his head,"Kagome can take care of herself, and the jewel, if thats what your worried about."

"No, I'm worried about her, one quiver of arrows only lasts so long..."

"And with the jewel, demons are coming after her left and right..."

"Exactly..."

She really did look worried, but Inuyasha couldn't bring himself to feel worried for her. She left by choice, they had no right to tell her what to do. Even if he wanted her back, he couldn't make himself go look for her. It needed to be her desison to come back, not his.

But that didn't mean he couldn't at least visit her...

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Kagome walked into a village, much like her own. She walked around, looking at the similarities...

Then she stated to notice the villagers looking at her strangly, as if she had done something magical. One of the women ran to the richest looking house, and then came out with an important looking man. Kagome looked at him, and he looked at her...

"Are ye truely a priestess," his eyes held a certain hopefulness she couldn't understand.

"Um, well yes and no..."

"What does ye know how to do..."

"I can do a few small spells and shoot sacred arrows."

"Will ye help us?"

She looked at him as if he were crazy, and nodded her head,"If its in my power, sure."

"We will supply you with enough arrows for the battle and for afterwards too, and you will be handsomly rewarded."

"Arrows and a reward," She thought about it, this could be a good buisness,"Ok I'll do what ever I can."

"Thank ye priestess! We are in your greatest debt..."

She bowed to him,"No the pleasure to help you, is all mine..."

He explained to her that a demon plagued the village, and that every night after sunset it would rampage through the village and destroy all the temples and surrounding buildings. He led her to a section of the village that was merely rubble now form the demon. She widened her eyes, her huge heart feeling so sorry for these people,"No charge is required, by the way."

"Please do not pitty us dear priestess, we are not unfortunate compared to some. We are not uncapable of paying ye, and insist on doing so..."

"But..."

"Please, let us show ye how grateful we are..."

"Ok..."

She felt bad on the inside, but these peope really wanted to pay her. And she did need the money...

I guess this works out on all sides.

She waited on the end of the forest, near where the man had predicted the demon would strike next. Kagome sat down, and waited patiently for the demon. She knelt down beside a tree, dreaming of a certain hanyou...and their hot and dreamy night. How her body begged for him now, and she dared to dream about their night together.

How she loved him, how her heart ached with him not being here. She dared to want to be able to love him, to be his...

But how could she be, she'd given him up to Kikyo. She couldn't take the desision back now, besides he probably hated her guts now. After she just uped and left him, threatening him, and totally killing his heart...

How could he still want her? How could she still want him?

Suddenly she felt something dark and mysterious come this way, her senses were on high. She notched her arrow, holding it in front of her. She heard something coming this way, and she saw something running towards her in the distance. She aimed and shot the arrow, direct hit...

She ran to see her kill, finding a large snake demon with a dead twitching body. She heard the villagers cheer behind her, and she raised her eyebrow. Was this it...

The old man ran up to her again,"Thank ye priestess, your aim is head on..."

"Thank you, but was that really the demon?"

"Yes, it has plagues our village for many a years now."

She couldn't believe these people were really that helpless. She watched the man take a bag from behind his back,"This is your reward fine priestess."

She opened the bag to find at least 5000 yen! She looked at him,"I can't accept this much, I've done so little..."

"Please priestess, ye have done so much for this village by slaining that demon, it is a token of out deepest apprieciation."

She bowed,"Thank you..."'

After a proper faewell, he turned to walk away, her heart burning right now. She waved good-bye to the villagers, and returned her thoughts to Inuyasha...

Inuyasha...

Even if a demon was after her, she couldn't stop thinking about him. She was so tired, so sleepy. She needed to rest before continueing on. She sat agaisnt the back of a tree, letting her tired body gain some much needed rest. She closed her eyes letting herself drift into an uneasy sleep...

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Its a little short, and also kinda...boring...

But it was needed for Inuyasha's thoughts! Can't you see now what he wants!

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