Rating: T
Warnings: Nothing really
Words: 3,771
Take it Away
A/N: I DO NOT own Naruto or any of its characters.
The sound of a vase breaking rang in my ears, all I could think about was not again. I remove my face from my pillow chilly visible tears run down my face. I sniff thinking about my parents. This is all too much. My room is dark, the moon isn't even out tonight, I can just sit in the dark listening to them argue. My green eyes are puffy from the tears that I've spilt. I am now sixteen and still under the training of Tsunade-sama. I stand up letting my pillow fall to the floor.
I'm wearing my pajama shorts and tank top; my long legs showed off. I hear shouts come from my parents bedroom. They're probably fighting about me again or something that isn't important. All I know is that I've had enough. I open my bedroom door and run down the hall to the front door swinging it open. I run outside slamming the door, making sure they know I left.
I start running down the street only in my slippers. My heart beating in my chest like someone hit me hard where my heart is. I hear thunder and rain starts to pour, but I don't stop running. I feel my tears roll down my cheeks. I haven't cried this much since Sasuke-kun left.
My eyes widened. Sasuke-kun. That name makes my heart hurt worse. He left to be with the Sound and still he hasn't returned and it's been almost three years. Well we haven't heard anything about Orochimaru or any of his subordinates; Naruto kicked the crap out of the girly womanly man who made our teammate turn against us. I rub my eyes as I slow down a bit.
Sasuke-kun, I still love that lug and how do I get repaid or treated well he wants to kill every ninja in Konoha, well I believe he does I mean he's with the enemy.
The streetlights are the only thing leading my way; I don't even know where I'm going. The lights seem to be calling out to me to head this way…telling me to keep going, don't look behind. The pain inside burns like a fire on a log in a storm. I stop running and start to walk.
I reach outside of Konoha right before the gate. My short bubble-gum colored hair sticks to my face, framing my cheeks and eyes; nearly shadowing over them. I look down at the wet grass as the rain showers on me. I turn and look in the entrance of Konoha, biting down on my lip; taking in deep heavy breaths.
This pain inside is so unreal; it causes me to break at the mire thought of Uchiha Sasuke or anything that reminds me of him. I look up to the deep dark sky, rain washing my face. My eyes are blank; I feel no emotion in me it feels…good.
Kami I hate this! I growl out in frustration. "Take it all away! Take it! Take it dammit! I can't take it any longer!" I shout grabbing my head and pulling my hair. This pain, it's unbearable, I never wanted it like this. Is this what it's like to love someone who has no feelings in return?
The hot wet trail of tears makes its course down my face again. I shake my head not able to take this pressure. I think it's the pain of losing and finally understanding that I will never have what I wanted, I understand that…it's like I cracked.
I groan and shake my head. "Kami please!" I scream as the rain comes down harder than before. It's chilly touch makes me shiver, I bite down on my lip and wrap my arms around myself; my sharp nails racing down each of my arms. 'This pain…I don't want it.' I repeat in my head. I want love…I want to be loved…my parents are too busy with their problems, so they don't pay attention to me.
I look up at the dark sky. Dark…yeah Sasuke-kun. Dark was a way to describe him, he had no pain like this, he wasn't weak and let it consume him, but then again he was coldhearted and didn't care about anything, even if he said 'I don't want another important person to me dying' or whatever it was.
"KAMI TAKE IT AWAY!" I shout at the top of my lungs, crying as I feel it still there. "Sasuke-kun," I mumbled under my breath almost too scared to let his name leave my lips. I sniff wiping my eyes once more.
My clothes are sticking to me like my hair. I begin to shake uncontrollably. Damn my emotions. Lightening strikes as the thunder roars, I feel the pain growing. Thinking about the former raven-haired teammate of mine brings more pain, more heartache. I bite down on my lip, blood entering my mouth; I bit down too hard. Blood oozes down the side of my mouth. "Take it, take it, please I beg you," I whisper hugging myself close.
There is no one here for me…I'm alone. Naruto is too wrapped up in Hinata, which is good for him, he needed someone, and it's helped him a lot. Ino is also busy in her boy life with her boyfriend…Shikamaru. Lee is there to help, but I told him to find himself a nice girl, he's trying. The others really don't care; well I can't say that about TenTen, but her and Neji need to start talking about them…it'd be better.
This rain…it's like an angel, it's calming me down a bit but the pain…the stupid pain won't leave. I place my hand above my heart. This is his fault…that damn Uchiha. I glare up at the sky as it roars. "Shut up!" I cover my ears. "Shut up, shut up," I whimper.
How could I be so weak? I can't even control my emotions, it hurts, it hurts like hell. Like a fire burning inside me, eating me away. How? How could something effect me like this? Why? Why me?
I want it to rain, to continue to never stop. I want these small drops to wash away my pain and fear, everything that I hold up in my body that is killing me. I don't want to breathe, I don't want to live, this pain…I can't stand it! I start to cry again, whimpering under my breath. "Go away!" I shake my head viciously over and over again. " I don't want this…it's too much!"
My heart pounds harder, like a hammer jamming a nail into a wall. I know how I feel this flame burn in me. I want to run till I end up…somewhere…somewhere safe, warm, relaxing. I smile at that thought, clam, relaxing, and peaceful it sounds so wonderful.
I haven't really been happy since he left me there that night. I haven't had a real smile; they've all been fake. I haven't cried till now, it had been since the day we saw him, but he left and I broke so easily. What would he think of me? I growl. Why should I care, he's the one that betrayed us! The one who tried killing his 'best friend'! He's selfish, coldhearted, stubborn…but…I love him. I still love Uchiha Sasuke.
Now who sounds stubborn, not giving up on a childhood crush? My heart thuds and I groan. Tears of pain roll down my face, I'm hurt, crushed, shattered. I really am nothing anymore…just a stone that has my moments where I break down and cry for him. I've begun to shut people out of my life, push them away, I'm bitter, and I hate everything. I almost sound like him, but try as I might…I am still too kind-hearted to be like Sasuke-kun.
Something in my stomach makes me even more upset. I have this feeling…I can't describe it. DAMMIT! "WHY ME! HUH! WHAT DID I DO!" I bellow squeezing my eyes shut. I open my eyes in shock and mumble, "all I did was love him. He didn't have to be so cruel." I look at the ground sniffing. I smirk. "Look at yourself, pitiful, you should be ashamed."
No wonder why he thought I was annoying. I sigh and bite down my lip, swallowing dry blood on accident. I look up my emotions shining in my eyes; this is how I will live. In hate, disgusted with myself? No…no way. Sasuke-kun is the one to blame. I hug myself tighter as the rain starts to take its toll. Rain on me, please just rain on me. I can't bare this any longer.
I break; a thousand or so tears run down my face, a thick line of liquid like a waterfall shimmers and reflects. Uchiha Sasuke, it's because of you. I wipe my eyes as the tears continue. He loves destroying people, in the outside and in the inside. That bastard!
To think I would forgive him, I don't know if I should. He's never going to return anyway. Why would he, he made it pretty clear on the night that he left that it was all a new beginning, we would all go separate ways from then on. Dummy.
There's this emotion, burning inside me, I feel my stress leaving…just a little though. I sigh trying my hardest to relax. The cold climate soothes me at this moment, everything just leaves my mind, and still I hardly can breathe.
"Sakura?"
My mind races, I now have lost my mind. I'm hearing things again; it must be the storm calling out to me or something in my head is. I look at my hands; they're shaking.
"Sakura."
My eyes widened as chills go up my spine. It was so close…it was almost real. Yeah right, wake up Sakura you're dreaming again. I look up at the sky. "Damn you…I've finally almost get peace and now I lose my mind," I hiss shaking my head trying to get rid of those thoughts.
"Dammit Sakura turn your ass around."
My heart stops as I slowly turn to look behind me, then the pain returns. Tears form in my eyes as I scowl at the figure I would never imagine would be standing in front of me this day. The lightening flashes and my eyes widened again, it is him. He's taller than me, he's muscular, longer hair that spiked out more in the back, but at the time all I saw was his dark eyes, those dark eyes of his, that caught my breath. Only he had those eyes, I knew no one else that did. So after all these years he's returned.
I feel myself becoming bitter as I want to say something cold and almost heartless, but I can't, I don't think I can. I try. "You got some nerve showing your face here again," I spit those words from my tongue like everything about him disgusted me.
He looks at me with those same emotionless eyes, the same damn eyes that I tried so hard to get to. The way they look at me makes me almost melt, how, how does he do it? Kami, please!'
I don't wait for him to say anything; well he most likely isn't going to. "Why the hell are you here anyway? The Sound is your home now," I remark trying to sound as cold as he was when he left, when nothing mattered. Nothing my ass, it was something.
"It isn't and never was," he replies darkly, so dark that it feels like he could have stabbed me right there, he had no care in the world.
"Sold yourself to the devil yet?" I question, I am being more mean than I ever was, but this guy…he's a traitor. He deserves it right?
"I have no need for that anymore," he answers.
I'm shocked; I'm getting him to speak. "What about your brother, you wanted to kill him right?"
"It's been done," he smirks, no not that smirk.
It's been done, Itachi was defeated and…Sasuke didn't let Orochimaru take his body? Whoa everything was a big U-turn, I can't believe what I'm hearing, is this some kind of joke? Haha lets all kid around with Sakura. I glare at him. "Why are you here? No one wants you…go back to where you belong."
"Last time I checked I can return if I damn please…"
I cut him off, "yeah and when you return you get a punishment, it's not like you to show your face to anyone here anymore, Uchiha." I do not dare to say his name, I'd end up saying Sasuke-kun and I'd start to cry.
"Bring on the damn punishment," he says with out a care in the world. That's something like him to do.
Dammit the pain, I feel my fire inside burst. Why? Why is it always around him? "You should go, you're a S ranked missing Nin…I don't think it's wise for you to be here…not anymore," I say calmly looking at the ground. This guy always has this effect on me, even if I hate it…but then I love it as well, I don't know I'm so confused. "Go back…before anyone catches you here, I won't say a word."
He has the same expression. "What the hell are you doing out here anyway?" he asked dryly.
"Like you care," I bark at him nearly biting his head off. How I would like to destroy a Sasuke plushy or doll. "I told you I won't say a word, Tsunade-sama, Naruto, or anyone else won't know, just leave…you've already destroyed too many things here already." I look at him. "Go."
He crosses his arms over his chest and looks at the Konoha entrance. "Do you think I'd walk all the way here just to walk all the way back, I didn't just come here to chat."
'That bastard!' my inner self screams. I feel fire burning in my eyes; rage builds up inside me. I am close enough to slap his face…that would be nice. "Go back to the Sound."
He still is looking at the entrance. "It isn't like you to give up so easily," he looks at me. "You've become weaker."
What?
SLAP!
I bring my hand back to me after slapping his face. "You got some nerve to say something like that. For your damn information I am a better ninja since you left. It's none of your business."
He glares at me. I don't think he liked the fact that I slapped him. Well he had it coming. I feel fear build up in me as he walks closer. I take a step back; he takes a step forward. "That was a brave, but stupid move."
I gulp; yeah I just realized that. He grabs my wrist and I can't help but fear what is going to happen next. He pulls me roughly in front of him, not letting go of my wrist. I let out a squeal of complete shock. He's gonna kill me, he's gonna. I look at the ground, my life ends here, well at least I got a good slap in. I know that I've improved, but I am nothing compared to him…never was, but now he's stronger than ever.
"Do it," I mumble under my breath, calm as much as I can handle, trying to hide my fear. I really hope he does this fast…and makes it painless. 'What the hell are you saying! You're a ninja! Show him what you're made off!' Stupid inner self, what would she know. I can't take him on as hard as I tried. There's nothing I can do but wait. I'm still waiting.
His hand removes from my wrist. Okay, so now he's gonna. I squeeze my eyes shut. "Make it quick," I say almost begging. 'We're not beggars! What are you doing baka!' I have no point on fighting dammit, so shut up.
I'm pressed against him, his hand on my back. Okay…now I'm freaked out. What is he thinking? 'Uhhh….wow.' Uh wow is right, what is he planning?
"I'm not going to kill you even if you are annoying," he mumbles.
"Was that suppose to be some kind of compliment or some kind of rude insult? I'm a little confused here. Why aren't you going to kill me?" I question in confusion.
"I came here for my punishment, I'm not going to run away, I have no reason to, Konoha is the only place I could go. I'll take whatever they decide, I'm staying here," he replies with no emotion in his voice as usual.
I start to wiggle against his hold. No, no he can't stay any longer; I'll melt like putty in the palm of his hands. No way will I let that happen, he's got to go. I struggle some more and he keeps me in place.
"Dammit Sakura, hold still," he demands coldly.
I shake my head. "Please go!" I beg moving about some more. "Please? That's all I ask."
"What are you scared of?" he asked, his voice is dark, and it almost sounds like he's disappointed. Why would that be?
"Dammit Sasuke-kun, let me go," I plead. I sniff, I'm crying, I knew that if I said his name I would. Curse it!
He presses me closer. "Hold still."
He's getting annoyed. I can tell. I pound on his chest. "Why don't you go? I don't want you here, they could kill you."
"Stop acting so childish, I didn't come here to be yelled at," he snaps glaring down at me as I look up at him.
I wipe my eyes, I guess I could listen, only for a little bit. I start to relax; this was either going to be a bad idea or a good one. "Okay…I'm listening." He lets go and I back up.
"First off, I felt like coming here," he starts, "I'm not going to kill you because it would be a waste of my time." My eye twitches, that little, he continues, "I could care less about the stupid punishment, I want it over with." He looks down at me. "And what were you afraid of?"
I'm calmer now then I was in the beginning. "You…my stupid emotions, and myself" I answer. "Why shouldn't I freak out if someone betrayed the village and appeared out of nowhere three or so years later?"
"You thought I was going to hurt you?"
"Why wouldn't you? You were going to kill Naruto and the others right?" I question; he looks like he's thinking. I look at him, something popping into my head.
"That's true," he mumbles. He looks at me. "What?" He notices my stares.
I blush. "Well…you completed your goal…I just thought of that. You must feel great getting your revenge."
He shrugs. "It was great in the beginning, it's old news now."
I nod. I wonder how long ago it was since he killed Itachi, how long he's been traveling, and if Orochimaru let him leave or if Sasuke left while 'the snake' was fighting Naruto a few months ago. So he could have been.
"And my goal isn't completed yet," he states as he yawns. "Are we just going to stand out here?"
I look at him. "You're serious? You're going back in there?"
He looks at me, annoyed. "I just said I was," he mumbles. He took a step forward. "Not like I care or anything, but is there any changes?"
I can almost smile. I shrug. "You could say that. Naruto got a girlfriend, but is still annoying."
"That moron?" Sasuke questioned.
I nod. "Yeah Hyuuga Hinata. Kakashi's the same as usual and you were replaced by this guy name Sai, you know him of course."
We start walking toward the entrance. He looks at me as I talk about what has all happened. "Ino started dating Shikamaru, but I know you really don't care about that. Tsunade-sama is still Tsunade-sama. Is that what you meant?"
"What about you?" he asks.
"Well there really isn't anything to say. The past years I've been trained under Tsunade-sama, that's all that I can think of," I state. My life is really boring. "I plan on being a Medic Nin." I look at him, I guess I feel like talking more. "My parents have been fighting so I really don't like going home. I've been avoiding everyone else. I still reject Lee-san, but he's looking for a girl of his own. I think that's it." Tears form in my eyes and all I think about is why are they.
An eyebrow raises on his face. "You okay?"
I gulp and swallow biting down on my lip. I shake my head and launch my arms around him as tears run down like a river. "Sasuke-kun," I cry.
He stands there, I'm guessing he doesn't care. One of his arms wraps around my neck and brings me closer to him. I'm almost on my tiptoes; he rests his head on my shoulder. "Sakura." My eyes widened. I tighten my grip. "It wasn't really worth it," he mumbles. "What's done is done."
"Sasuke-kun?" I question. Is he okay? "I'll stay by your side during your trial." He doesn't say anything. "I meant it…I still love you Sasuke-kun, I'll stay there, if you let me."
He moves away his arms returning to his sides. He looks down at me, I swear he can see right through me. I gulp and close my eyes as he inches closer. I feel his lips crush down on mine. It feels like he's devouring my soul, Kami how I've missed him. My hands go to his face as I kiss him back. Every single emotion inside me bursts. I'm smiling inside and out, my first kiss was with Uchiha Sasuke! Wait…what? Sasuke-kun is kissing me!
'Ha I told you!'
'Told me what? You never said anything about him kissing me.'
His lips leave mine and I want to protest, but this is still the same Sasuke even if he was a tad different. 'He didn't have to stop though.' I open my eyes and stare into his dark ones. "Sure."
I smile. He wants me by his side even if he doesn't say it or admit to himself I can tell he does. All of a sudden the rain stops, it's weird how things work like that. I link my arm with his. He looks down at me and shakes his head. I close my eyes and smile, I won't be lonely anymore, he returned!
That's it for this one-shot! It's pretty long but I couldn't stop, I was so interested. Tell me how I did please. Sorry I haven't updated in a while.
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