Disclaimer: I do not own anything RENT, all belongs to Jonathan Larson.
Here Goes…
Roger looked out the window solemnly, trying not to break. No one, No one sees Roger Davis weak.
Joanne and Mark came back after a moment each holding a glass tumbler which looked like it had scotch and two ice cubes in it. Mimi looked at Roger, her eyes pleaded for him to open up.
Collins was the first to speak. "Ok guys" he said softly. "Now, continue."
Maureen exhaled and said "Well, after I found that out, I panicked. A baby! Roger and I could barely take care of ourselves. He wasn't on heroin yet, but we still lived in the fast lane. We both had careers to think about, and we both were immature and naïve. I knew neither of us could handle a child so I-"
"YOU KILLED OUR BABY! MY CHILD!" said Roger all of a sudden. He sprang out of the chair with a fire in his eyes.
"Roger, you knew we couldn't handle this! You knew!" said Maureen fiercely but didn't get the chance to finish.
"You didn't even tell me until after you did it! A child, something I've always wanted. It might not have been at the right time, or the right place, or with the right person, but they weren't a mistake. No child is. It might have given me something to live for Maureen, did you ever think of that? Would I have shot myself up with drugs or date someone as selfish and destructive as April if I did have something to live for! Now I can never have children again!" he said. "And to top it off, I had to have a child with you! That's what I resent. I'll never have a family now! All because you didn't want baby weight on you because you were an "actress" and actresses can't be fat, can they?" Roger continued.
"You think I had an abortion because I didn't want to get fat? How dare you! Do you know how it felt for me? Put yourself in someone else's shoes for once damn it! All you do is cry "woe is me"! Were you the one that carried the child, had it growing inside of you! Did you have to sit in that cold doctor's office and make this decision, no! You would have done the heroin and April anyway because that's who you are! You blame everyone and everything else for your problems! I'm sorry that I remind you of your past, but what do you want me to do, kill myself off like April did!" Maureen said angrily.
Everyone winced, expecting Roger to lash out. Instead he ran out of the loft and searched his pockets. He found his spare key to Mimi's apartment and went inside. Even though Mimi had been clean for months, he knew she kept a syringe she forgot to throw out somewhere. After looking everywhere he found one in her wooden jewelry box. After pocketing it he made sure he had some cash on him then left through the fire escape so no one could see him. Today The Man would have a reunion with an old customer.