Rabbit Hole of Chaos
A rabbit hole of chaos…it seems I've jumped willing into one and am thinking that wasn't a good idea. I'm referring to Schwarz. I accepted Crawford's offer years ago so I could have a roof over my head and food to eat. Little did I know what I was really getting myself into. I honestly think that I would rather have died out on the streets than be subjected to this. Things haven't been the greatest since that night at the sea. It's been only a month since it happened but it seems like it only happened last week or so.
We lost Crawford. He hadn't even told us that he'd seen his own death. Without him, everything fell a part. Because we killed of Estet, we're not trusted by our previous employers and hope of gaining new ones is a failed chance. We're betrayers…Taketori, Estet, and many others but of not high importance. With Crawford, his words alone shattered doubts within those who hired us. Somehow, I can't really see us working at normal work places.
Farfarello and Schuldich were arguing again. I didn't want to hear them anymore so I left. I know they don't care…even though it's raining and I'm chilled to the bone. A hug my legs tighter against my chest. I'm sitting in a bus shelter. I couldn't run any more so I decided to sit here. My bangs cling to my face and it annoys me but I'd rather not move. I bow my head so it rests on my knees and my eyes slide shut.
Schwarz was like a family to me. Schuldich often made fun of me for thinking that way. He said he would ship me off to Weiss if I wanted a family. But I know he feels the same. Even Farfarello. It's mainly because Schwarz was all we've had for a very long time. We've lived together, worked together…we've always done everything together. Now, it just hurts to see and know that one of us is gone. It doesn't seem fair when compared to Weiss. They're Talentless and they all survived. It's not fair.
I clench my eyes tighter.
My head hurts when I wake up and I feel hot as if I were burning. My eyes slide open and stare at familiar walls. I glance towards Schuldich who has fallen asleep in the chair next to the bed. I slowly sit up, not wanting to wake him. I reach out and feel a piece of his hair. As I thought, it's wet. Did he run outside without an umbrella to look for me? But why? My fingers ghost over his cheek.
"Am I that fascinating?" I quickly take my hand back as if I had been scalded.
"You're awake?" The glare I fix him with doesn't quite work right since I'm not feeling that great.
His blue eyes open slowly to gaze at me.
"How long did it take you to find me?"
"Does it matter?" The voice comes from the doorway.
It's Farfarello's voice. I glance towards him and shake my head. He walks towards the bed and sits on the edge by my feet. His clothes are soaked. They were both looking for me.
Maybe…this won't be so bad after all.