Title: After SG1
Author: Tu
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own SG1
Author's Notes: Yes, I AM EVIL! I know. Angst Alert! Hankies may be needed.
Daniel, Daniel, can you hear me?" a voice asked.
"Cassie?" He moaned.
"She's…she's okay, Daniel. Come on, we've got to get you to the infirmary." Sam said, he voice full of fear.
Daniel looked down. Blood covered him. He could see the wound in his abdomen. He tried to move. Pain shot up and down his back.
He screamed.
"Daniel, stop! Please don't move." Sam cried out.
"Oh, god, it hurts. It hurts." Daniel cried.
"I know, Daniel," Sam cried, tears running down her face," I know."
Daniel passed out as he saw the medics running up the ramp to him.
He awoke with a start. Looking up at the ceiling he tried to figure out which bed he was in. it didn't work.
"Daniel?"
He turned toward the voice. The oxygen mask blocked part of his view. A fuzzy person was by his bed. A hand gave him his glasses. Catherine was sitting by his bed. She looked as if she hadn't slept in days. She was crying and squeezing his hand.
"Your awake." She said bursting into more tears.
"Catherine, what's wrong He's not…." A voice called into the room.
"No, General Hammond. He's awake."
General Hammond came into view" Welcome, back son. You gave us quite a scare." He looked tiered as well.
Daniel knew something was wrong. He tried to take the oxygen mask off.
"Leave it on son. You need it." General Hammond said pulling his hand away.
"Cathrine, your still here? General…Daniel, your awake!" Janet cried rushing up to him. She gently hugged him. As she straightened, she burst into tears. "Oh, Daniel…"
"What? What's wrong? Is he awake?" a nervous Jack asked.
Daniel looked at the door. Jack, Sam, and Teal'c slowly filled in and gathered around his bed. There was something…different about them. Everyone looked as if they need to sleep.
"Daniel,…"Sam sobbed as she gently hugged him.
"It is good to see you again, DanielJackson." Teal'c said clamping his shoulder softly.
"Space Monkey, I swear you're trying to kill me." Jack said as he hugged him.
Daniel gave Jack a look. Jack couldn't look him in the eyes. Daniel knew something was wrong. He grabbed Janet's clipboard and pen and wrote one word. Turning it around he showed them.
CASSIE?
They all looked at each other.
"Danny…" Jack started. He sighed as he tried to find the words. Daniel deserved to know. No matter what it would do to him." Daniel, you've been in a coma for a month. Janet moved you here to the Air Force Hospital. You took a horrible staff blast to the back."
Daniel pointed to the clipboard.
"Cassie…Cassie's fine." Jack said not looking at him.
Daniel quickly wrote and spun the board around.
BULLSHIT! If she's fine why can't you look me in the eyes when you're talking to me?" Daniel, Cassie," Janet started then choked back a sob.
"Sam wrapped her arm around her friend and finished for her." Daniel, when you got hit you took most of the blast. When you came out of the Gate, you twisted your body so you would take the blow from hitting the ramp. When you hit the ramp you bounced then sidled down it. When you bounced, Cassie flew out of your arms and hit one of the rails."
Daniel wrote: Where is she?
"Son, she's at home. She broke two of her vertebrae." General Hammond said.
Daniel stared at them. He blinked back tears and wrote: Can she walk?
"We don't know yet, Daniel…" Janet said.
Violently he pointed at the words.
"It's unlikely…that she'll walk again at this point." Janet said tears running down her face.
Daniel turned and looked out the window. Everyone exchanged worried looks.
Daniel, it wasn't.." Sam started.
Daniel turned and looked at them. They saw the look on his face. A look they had rarely seen. He wrote: Wasn't WHAT! My FAULT? Who's stupid idea was the trip? Who talked Janet and the General into letting her go? Who filled her head with all the crap about gods and digs and history?
Daniel threw the clipboard across the room and turned toward the window. He heard them leave sometime later.
One Year Later.
He came when he knew they'd all be gone. He quickly cleared out his office and locker. He had it all in the truck and ready to go. He picked up an envelope from the front seat. At the first gate he finished his 'mission'.
"Airman."
"Yes, Dr. Jackson?'
"Could you see that General Hammond gets this?"
"Yes, Sir."
Daniel drove away and didn't look back. The calls began to come, as he loaded the last of his apartment into the moving truck. He let the machine get them.
BEEP"Daniel, it's Janet. Call me. We need to talk, please".
BEEP
"Daniel, it's Sam. Pick up the phone. Please don't do this."
BEEP"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING? PICK UP THE GOD DAMN PHONE DANIEL!"
He sat down at his computer and began to type.
Dear friends,
I can no longer help you. In fact, you don't need my help. I'm more of a burden then help. I have resigned from the Stargate program, as you now know. I'm leaving Colorado. I have been offered and have accepted a teaching position. Where it is doe not matter. When I am ready, I will tell you. I know you say what happened wasn't my fault. You may tell yourselves that, but I cannot. For me it will always be my fault.
Your friend,
Daniel Jackson.
He emailed the letter to them. Then he packed his computer and left. Left the SGC behind him.
TBC.One more Chapter to go.