Madam Pomfrey had let Remus leave just as dinner rolled around. Remus had packed all this things and left gratefully. He walked slowly towards the common room still thinking of what had happened between Sirius and himself. He wondered why Sirius seemed so distant all of a sudden. It didn't matter though – all he knew was that what happened between them must have been a dream – or a cruel joke. Remus bumped into someone as he walked. "Sorry."

"It's alright. Will we see you at dinner?" James smiled as he put a hand on his friends shoulder.

Remus looked up and smiled into kind eyes. "Yeah, I'm just going to go put this stuff away, save me a seat?"

"Sure. See you soon." James waved as he walked past his friend.

Remus didn't want to go eat anything he wasn't hungry. Remus made his way to the common room and walked towards the stairs. He walked slowly up the stairs, only to have his knees give away and fall. Strong arms caught him. He hadn't noticed that anyone was coming up behind him. 'I suppose I'm still really weak...' he smiled as he turned to look at his savior.

The person's face was in the shadows, but he recognized the smile right away. His heart fell, as did the corners of his lips. "Thanks Sirius."

"Yeah... you're alright?"

Remus nodded and turned around. "Fine."

"Are you going to be at dinner?" Sirius smiled as he stepped up beside his friend, ready to catch him again if he should fall.

"Yeah, James is saving me a seat." Remus was slightly annoyed with the fact that Sirius was walking beside him up to the dorms.

"Oh... Alright." Sirius ran a nervous hand through his hair and spoke quietly. "Listen... I'm sorry about how I acted when I saw you at lunch."

Remus kept his eyes to the ground as he laid his clothing on his bed. "Yeah."

Sirius came up beside him and took his hand. Remus tried to yank it away, but Sirius's grip was too strong. "I mean it Remy."

Remus turned to look at him. The fading sunlight shone on his pale face, his amber eyes glittered. "It's alright Sirius." He offered a small smile before trying to turn again. Sirius's caught his lips and his body was suddenly being held in a tight embrace. Unawares, Remus fell into the kiss and welcomed the embrace. He opened his lips slightly and allowed Sirius's tongue to caress his. Remus's knees gave away suddenly without his knowledge. Sirius ended the kiss and held onto his friend.

"Remy?" He shook his friend gently. "Remy are you okay?"

Remus opened his eyes and looked around the room. He regained his footing and shook his head; his hair flew gently around his delicate face. He ran his hand though his hair and smiled up at Sirius. "Yeah..." Remus backed up and sat on his bed. "Yeah... I'm fine." Remus tried to ignore the growing pain in his back.

Sirius knelt on the ground before his friend and put his hands on his own knees. "I have to tell you something..."

Remus suddenly felt numb. "...Uh-huh..."

"Today in Divination... Trelawny told me that something horrible would happen to the one I loved, and that I would be powerless to stop it."

"Really..."

"I think she meant you, Remy."

Remus shook his head and smiled sadly. "But... you don't love me, Sirius."

Sirius looked up at Remus and shook his head, narrowing his eyes. "What?"

"You don't love me."

"How can you say something like that? I've just kissed you."

"I know... but if you loved me – you would have said it back when I was in the infirmary instead of leaving me alone." Remus stood up and took his cane in his hand. He walked through the door not letting Sirius say another word. He walked slowly down the stairs and as he got to the entrance of the common room, wiped his eyes with his cloaks sleeve. 'I have to let him go...' Remus looked at the ground as he walked, with tears streaming down his cheeks. 'I have to let him go...'

Sirius sat alone in the room looking blankly at the place that Remus was sitting just moments before. Sirius took in a sharp breath and breathed quickly. "...Remus..." He stood and marched towards the door. He ran down the staircase and saw the portrait close. He rushed towards the portrait and pushed it open. He watched Remus walk away from him. "REMUS!"

Remus stopped and turned his head slightly to the left. He watched Sirius come up beside him. He looked up into his beautiful eyes and said nothing.

"Remus... you can't leave like that."

"Can't I?"

"No... you can't. I didn't get to tell you..."

"Tell me what?" Remus looked down at Sirius's trembling hands. He ached to take Sirius's hands in his and stop the shaking. He resisted the urge and instead, crossed his arms.

"Tell you that I love you."

Remus smiled and looked up, shaking his head. "Do you really? Or are you just saying that to keep me from leaving you."

"I'm saying it because I mean it, Remus." Sirius was taken aback by Remus's response. He had never known him to be cruel in that way.

"Then why didn't you say it back in the infirmary, Sirius Black."

Sirius furrowed his eyebrows. Remus had never used his last name when he spoke with him. In the seven years they knew eachother – Remus had never said it once. "I don't know... because-"

"Because you don't love me. Maybe you thought I was kidding when I said it to you that night, but I wasn't Sirius. I've loved you since fourth year. I've loved you so deeply – that it made me get sick when you were upset. It made me want to kill whoever made you cry because they hurt you." Remus let the tears fall down his cheeks. "I would die for you, Sirius. I would do anything for you, as long as you were happy." Remus shook his head and looked down at the ground. Watching his tears fall from his face and splatter to the ground.

Sirius stood in silence as he watched Remus cry. He had no idea that Remus felt that strongly for him. He had no words to describe the way he felt at that moment – nothing he could say would match to what Remus had just revealed. "Remy... I meant it when I told you I loved you." He looked up into Sirius's eyes. "I was scared in the infirmary. I didn't know what I felt was real. I thought it was all a dream because I had been longing for it for so long, and now I finally had it. Remus..."

"Hey! You two weren't at dinner! Where-" James stopped instantly when he saw that Remus had been crying. He looked from Sirius to Remus, and back again. "What did you do to him Sirius?"

Sirius looked slowly over at James. He looked into James's eyes before his gaze traveled back to Remus. His heart began to pound as he placed his hand on Remus's damp cheek and pulled him into a gentle kiss. Sirius's lips lingered millimeters away from Remus's as he took in his warm, sweet breath. Sirius closed his lips and opened his eyes. He looked into Remus's puffy golden eyes and smiled softly before he turned to walk away. Remus took in a quivering breath and watched Sirius' back. He felt his knee grow weaker and shifted his weight. He slowly ran his tongue across his lower lip and sucked it in.

James stood in silence as people began to walk by. He moved to walk towards Remus, but was stopped when Lily took his hand. He stopped and looked into her bright green eyes. When he looked up again, Remus was gone. "Remus..."

"Remus? My name is Lily, James." She smiled as she began to walk.

"No... he's gone."

She stopped and looked at him. "Gone?"

"Yeah... he was just right there." James pointed to the spot that Remus had been standing with a puzzled look on his face. Lily turned to look at the place where James was pointing. She looked back up at James when she saw no one.

"So he walked away, James... Lets go." She tugged on his hand as she walked.

"Yeah... Okay..." James followed her and stole one quick look over his shoulder where he had seen his friends kiss.

Two weeks had passed since the full moon, and Remus was lying in bed when he heard Sirius come into the dorm. At that moment, Remus remembered that he was lying in his boxers because he had been so hot. His body was covered in a light sheen of sweat. Sirius walked slowly towards him and sat on the bed. The weight of Sirius sitting beside him caused his body to fall slightly towards him. Sirius looked down and his eyes traveled down Remus's body, and stopped slightly as he reached Remus' crotch. He quickly looked up and smiled at Remus. He hadn't noticed that Sirius was checking him out.

"Hey."

Remus looked over at his friend and smiled. "Hey." Remus moved to sit up and Sirius pushed him down again with a sturdy hand on his damp chest.

"Stay still."

Remus cocked an eyebrow and his lips curled into a half smile. "Why?" Sirius trailed his hand down Remus's abdomen and stopped at his waistband. Remus looked down at his hand and then back at Sirius. "You can't want to-"

Sirius smiled and removed his hand. He felt the heat from Remus's body. "Of course not. I just want to touch you." Sirius got up and pulled the curtains around Remus's bed shut.

Remus tilted his head to the side. "What for?"

"Remember when you told me that you didn't want me to become one of the people who never touched you?"

Remus sat up and nodded. "Yeah... but Sirius-"

"Shh..." He moved and sat down close to Remus. "Lay down." Remus nodded and lay back down again. Sirius muttered a protection spell, so that no one would hear them.

"A protection spell? Sirius-"

"Just be quiet – I don't want us to be interrupted."

Remus nodded his head again. He suddenly felt very unprotected even though there was a spell protecting them. Sirius placed his hand on Remus's face and over his eyes. "Close your eyes."

Remus did as he was told. Sirius moved his hand away from his eyes and trailed it down his cheek. He placed his other hand on Remus' other cheek. He slowly moved his hands through Remus's hair. "Breath." Remus nodded and parted his lips taking in a breath of air. Sirius delighted in the changing color in his cheeks.

He smiled as he moved his hands down across Remus's shoulders, and down his arms. He found Remus's hands and turned them so that his palms were facing up. He lightly trailed his fingers across each of Remus's and smiled. Sirius ran his hands along the length of his boyfriend's arms and back to his shoulders. He placed a slight amount of pressure on his shoulders and felt a crack coming from Remus's back.

"Oooh..." Remus moaned in pleasure, still keeping his eyes closed. "That felt nice."

Sirius chuckled and let his hands glide over Remus's chest, and down his abdomen. He let his hands hover slightly over Remus's skin, so that only the delicate hairs on his body would be stimulated. He delighted when he saw Remus's skin rise with goose bumps. Sirius leant down, kissed Remus's stomach, and smiled when he heard Remus take in a sharp breath of surprise. He looked up and noticed that Remus still had his eyes closed. Sirius changed his position and straddled Remus.

"What are you doing?" Remus opened his eyes when he felt the familiar weight on his hips.

Sirius smiled, leant forward, and kissed Remus's pink lips. He felt Remus encircle his abdomen with his arms and deepen the kiss. Remus's arms traveled down Sirius's back and found the hem of his shirt. He pulled the shirt off his boyfriend with great ease, and ran his hands along his muscular tanned back, still kissing Sirius.

Sirius stopped the kiss and smiled. "Not now, Remy... not here."

"Ooh..." Remus closed his eyes, sighed as Sirius moved off from overtop of him, and watched Sirius sit beside him. "Not now...?"

Sirius leaned in and kissed Remus's collarbone. "Not now." He lay down beside Remus and took his thin, toned body in his arms.

"Then why did you-"

"Because I can."

Remus grunted and wiggled out of Sirius's arms and sat up. "That's not fair."

"I know... but it keeps you wanting me."

"I've wanted you for years Siri... why do you have to keep teasing me?"

Sirius sat up and smiled as he kissed Remus's shoulder. "I don't know. I suppose I like to watch you squirm."

Remus turned and looked at Sirius. "You like to watch me squirm?"

"Sure do."

Remus smiled and quickly turned around pushing Sirius onto his back. Remus quickly straddled Sirius and pinned his arms down. Remus may have appeared to be weak, but he was the complete opposite. Remus smiled as Sirius struggled to move underneath him, and only tightened his legs around Sirius's hips. Remus bent down and kissed Sirius's collarbone. He then moved his focus, and sucked on Sirius's neck, producing a hickey. All the while, Remus was slightly moving his hips and smiled to himself when he felt Sirius harden underneath him. Remus brought his lips up to Sirius's and kissed him deeply. He explored Sirius's mouth with his tongue and allowed Sirius to do the same to him.

Remus smiled and broke the kiss, breathing into Sirius's ear. "Not now, Siri." Sirius panted and smiled against the golden hair that had fallen in his face.

"That's not fair..."

Remus smiled and sat up. "I know... but it keeps you wanting me." Remus gave Sirius 'the look', and dismounted him. He lay down beside him smiling.

"Now I know how you feel... I need to stop doing that."

Remus delighted at the way that Sirius had responded to his actions and nodded his head. He smiled as Sirius slid an arm underneath his neck and moved closer to him. Their skin was touching, and it sent shivers down Remus's back. Remus shifted onto his side and put his arm around Sirius's waist.

"Remus?"

"Yeah?"

"Are you okay?"

"What do you mean? I'm fine." Remus turned his head and looked into Sirius's eyes.

"I mean... you seem so weak sometimes."

Remus looked down again and snuggled his head into the crook of Sirius's shoulder. "I'm alright... I just haven't really recovered from the last transformation..."

"It's been two weeks, usually you're fine in a few days. Why is it taking so long this time?"

"I don't know... maybe its just becoming too much for me to handle anymore or something." Remus traced the outline of Sirius's bottom rib with his finger. "I've talked to Dumbledore, and he said he didn't know why it was taking so long, and Madame Pomfrey doesn't seem to know why either."

"That's not comforting."

"I know... but they're looking into it. They're trying to find a reason – just like I am. None of us have found anything yet."

"You'll be okay though, right?"

Remus smiled and kissed Sirius. He didn't answer, as he didn't know. He hoped that Sirius wouldn't press the matter any longer, and grabbed the blanket beside him and threw it over the both of them. "I love you, Siri."

Sirius smiled. "I love you too."

Remus closed his eyes and sighed, trying to ignore the dull pain in his lower back.