Lilian pulled up into the hospital parking lot, running for the front desk. She found his room number and waiting in the elevator for what seemed like eternity. The steel doors slid open and she found his room quickly. She opened the door slowly and peaked inside. Randy appeared to be asleep. She put her stuff down on the chair and walked over to the bed. She crawled on the bed in the empty space next to his body. Outside it was dark so the only light was a lamp on a table next to the bed. She pressed her hand to his face, feeling down his jaw. His eyes blinked open and he barely managed out a smile. Every day is a new day. I'm thankful for every breath I take. He brought his hand up, placing it over hers.
"I'm so sorry, Lilian." He spoke softly. I won't take you for granted, so I learn from my mistakes. "I was such an ass."
She sniffed, a few tears rolled down her face. "Don't be." Sometimes it's best to let go whatever happens in this lifetime.
"I know how much tonight meant to you and I ruined it." So I trust in love, so I trust in love. You have given me peace of mind. "I watched you sing when I was there. I know that probably doesn't mean a thing to you, but I did watch. You looked so beautiful on that stage. That's what you're meant to do, I hope you know that." I feel so alive for the very first time and I can't deny you. I feel so alive.
She shook her head, a smile creeping up her lips. "It doesn't matter. Are you okay?" For the very first time and I think I can fly. "What happened?"
"I saw you singing and I knew I had to be there. I knew it before. I didn't feel right there at Dave's with all those guys. I left. I didn't even look before I ran the red light. I didn't care actually. I just wanted to be there with you and now look at me." Sunshine upon my face, a new song for me to sing. "I've messed this night up for you in so many ways."
"Randy, don't talk like that. I just want to know you'll be okay."
He reached up to touch her face. "I'm fine, I'll be fine." Tell the world how I feel inside, even though it might cost me everything. "You are everything to me. I will do anything to make it up to you, if I can."
"You already did," she said with a smile. I can never turn my back away. Now that I've seen you, now that I've seen you, I can never walk away. "I understand that sometimes you just want to be with the guys. Sometimes though, I wish you and I could just spend some time together."
He nodded. "I understand that. I know now that I do need to spend time with you. Everything isn't all about me. I could wake up tomorrow and you'd just be gone. I could never be able to hold you or tell you I love you, anything like that."
She didn't say anything, just smiled. Leaning forward, she laid her cheek on his chest while he stroked her hair.
"You were an asshole. A big one," she laughed and rolled over on her stomach. "But you're also the hottest asshole."
"Hey now, I'm not one anymore."
"Oh please, Orton, you can be one when you want and you know it."
"Yeah, I guess, but don't you think I've made up for it?" He looked down from the sky long enough to raise his eyebrows a couple times.