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Chapter Four: His Biggest Mistake

Peyton's tears slowly stopped and Lucas kissed the top of her forehead, "It's okay, Peyt."

Peyton started to shake her head, "No, Luke it's not. It's not okay, because I am alone. You're with Brooke, and I'm alone," she said as Lucas looked at her, eyes filled with concern.

"I'm sorry, Peyton..."

Peyton shook her head, "Its not your fault, Lucas. Maybe it's me, maybe I push people away or maybe I'm ugly. You know, maybe people think I'm weird or something because I draw and I've lost two moms. Maybe, just maybe, people wont give me chance because I had problems and turned to drugs and maybe-"

Lucas jumeped, "What? Hold on a second, first of all you are not ugly Peyton, you're very... attractive and your art is amazing, its beautiful and meaningful and so full of emotion, whether it be pain or happiness. But, drugs, Peyton? Why?"

Peyton looked down embarassed, "Luke, dont act like you didnt know..."

Lucas sighed, "Well, I did, a little. But what was I suppose to do? I tried to help you, but you were in no position to let me be that guy for you that time."

Peyton thought back, almost smiling "But you were, werent you? Because you called Jake..."

Lucas shook his head, "No, dont bring that up, not again."

Peyton looked confused, "What?"

Lucas let out a loud sigh, "That... that was when, I knew I had lost you to Jake."

Peyton opened her mouth but no words came out, she didnt know what to say.

"And that, Peyton, is when I started realizing I didnt want to be alone. That was when I saw what I needed to do in order to not be alone, that was when I started chasing after Brooke."

Peyton smiled, "You never really lost me, Lucas. But you and Nikki, I mean it just hurt-"

Lucas shook his head, "Please, Peyton. I really do not want to relive that. Its something I have to live with everyday, the fact that I hurt you, I hate it. I dont like to think of that, ever. It was the biggest mistake I have ever made."

Peyton sighed, "Mistakes, huh? Brooke said that you told her that me and you were a mistake."

This time, Lucas was speechless. "I'm sorry, I didnt mean it. She was just asking me because of my-" Lucas stopped, realizing he couldnt tell her the real reason, his box of Peyton andtheir memories together.

"Because of your what...?" Peyton asked.

"Nothing," Lucas sighed, "But I couldnt say that we werent a mistake, because then she would never be with me, I wasnt thinking, Peyton. The only thing I was really thinking about was that you were never coming back to me."

"Lucas, are you saying that, the only reason you started to date Brooke, was because you thought you had lost me to Jake?" She asked.

Lucas opened his mouth to begin to answer.

"And be honest with me, please. I just need to know," Peyton said.

"Honestly, yes." Peyton's jaw dropped as Lucas continued, "You were the first girl I've ever loved, I wasnt ready loose you, wasnt ready to loose that feeling. I thought you had found it again in Jake, so I tried to find it again too."

Peyton's eyes were stinging as she tried desperately to hold back the tears, "And did you? Did you find it with Brooke?"