Okay, I am SO sorry that I havent updated in sooo long. I have been on vcation and stuff.Thank you so much for all of the reviews, I enjoy getting them so much. Anyways, here is the next chapter! And I really think you all will like it. )
Chapter Six: It Was Only...
Lucas looked suprised, "What?" he asked as Peyton shook her head.
"Nothing, nevermind."
"No, Peyton, dont tell me things like that! You cant blame this all on me! I didn't pick Brooke you know, you're the one who picked Jake!"
Peyton defended herself, "And you're the one who slept with Nikki!"
Lucas scoffed, and yelled louder, "I told you to stop bringing that up, Peyton! You know how much it kills me to think about that."
Peyton laughed bitterly, "Funny, you sleep with Nikki behind my back, yet you end up being the one hurt," Peyton snapped back at him.
"You know, Peyton, if you really wanted to still be with me, you could have tried."
"Oh, no no no! Do not try to pin this one me, just because I didnt try to be with you again," Peyton softened her tone, "doesn't mean I didn't want to," Peyton said sincerely.
"So, then why, Peyton? I can't read your mind, if you don't show any interest in being with me, what so ever, how was I suppose to know that you wanted to be with me? Why didn't you tell me earlier, Peyton?" Lucas asked.
"Because, it scares me, Lucas! You scare me! I've never felt like this before, I never need anybody, but I need you! You can see right through me and know what I'm thinking and its terrifying! And just by your touch, you make me feel safe, I've never had anybody do that to me before! Even when you look at me, with those eyes, it's just amazing how intensly I care for you, Lucas, and it does scare me! I dont understand how, even when we're not together, I wanna be with you. And when I use to kiss you, it felt right. I wasnt ready for something like that, Lucas. It scares me to death, the fact that I need you. That you're always going to be there, always rescuing me from something. Theres never been anybody like you in my life, ever. And, I guess what Im trying to say is, I love you Lucas and I always will."
Peyton looked down and started to cry as Lucas walked away from the door towards her, he gently lifted her face and started to wipe the tears off her face. She still wasnt looking at him, until he wiped the last tear off her face. She looked up at him, and no longer being able to control himself, he lifted her chin and pressed his lips against hers.
He then pulled away, waiting for her reaction to see what she would say about what he just did.
Instead, she didnt say anything, and grabbed him and kissed him again, this time opening her mouth, and intensifying the kiss.
Lucas started his hands down towards the bottom of her tanktop trying to pull it over her head, but she pushed his hands back down as she continued kissing him. A few seconds later, he tried again. She released from the kiss this time and once again pushed his hands off her shirt. Lucas gave her a confused look.
"Lucas, dont give me that look. You know why we cant do that," Peyton said as she turned her back to him.
"Peyton..." he started say but she cut him off.
"Lucas! We have to stop! WHY cant we stop doing this?" Peyton said in a loud, frustrated tone as if she were yelling at herself, but directing her words towards Lucas.
"I dont know, Peyton."
Peyton scoffed, "Okay, well I'm not hurting Brooke again."
Lucas laughed, "You and Brooke? You were just saying how you all arent even friends anymore."
Peyton nodded, "I know, but its still wrong. You have a girlfriend, Lucas. It doesnt matter who it is, its just the fact that you are in a relationship with someone else, its wrong to be kissing another girl."
Lucas laughed a little again, "You are not just another girl to me. You're Peyton, you're the person who gets me most, you're always there for me, and you were the first girl I fell in love with."
"Stop! stop saying things like this to me! I cant, we cant, do this again, Lucas! Stop kissing me!"
"I CANT HELP IT, PEYTON! Besides, you didnt seem to mind, esepcially when you grabbed me and started kissing me just 5 minutes ago!" Lucas said sounding more loud than intended.
Peyton tried to defend herself, "Well you started it!"
Lucas laughed bitterly, "I told you, I cant help it, okay?"
"Why, Lucas!"
"I dont know!" He said loudly as she started to frown, he softened up his words, "Listen, Peyton, I know that its wrong, okay? I just- I just cant help it around you. I'll stop though, I really will. Or at least I will try. But right now I'm under the impression, that you still have feelings for me, am I wrong?"