-1A/N: Yeehaw! Ride 'em cowboy! Oh, uh ahem. Excuse me for my redneck outburst. My bizzad. Anyways. Here's chapter two. This song is 'This is Your Life' by Switchfoot. I know, I just put the first chapter up today, but I felt like updating again!
Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the people in this. I'm not that creative.
Chapter Summary: While Carey's in a frenzy about wedding plans, London ruminates her life and her decisions.
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London gave a great sigh as she watched Carey running around the suite. It was the morning after they'd arrived back in Boston, and Maddie and Zack's news had Carey going out of her mind. Their wedding was a year from then, but Carey seemed to think they wouldn't have enough time to prepare for it. She was robotically calling florist's and churches, catering companies and wedding planners. London watched with an amused smile as Cody emerged from the bedroom.
"Good morning," she greeted him, through sipping her coffee. He planted a quick kiss on her cheek and turned around to watch his mother's crazy conduct.
"She at it again?" He asked her, shaking his head.
"Yep," she replied. It didn't bother her in the slightest. She knew it was because Carey loved Zack and Maddie with all her heart. She wished her parents would have reacted that way when she told them big news. Her mom had passed away two years earlier, from liver cysts. She reflected on it sadly for a few minutes, as she watched Cody's mother.
Yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
Yesterday is a promise that you've broken
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
"You okay?" Cody asked her, putting a shielding arm around her.
"Uh, yeah," she began, getting up and grabbing her purse.
"I'm just gonna go to the store really quick," she finished.
"You want me to come with you?" He replied, troubled over her sudden change in posture.
"Um, no. I'll be back soon," she said, throwing him a fake smile, and chastely kissing him before walking out the door. Okay, so she lied. She wasn't okay nor was she really going to the store. She decided to go to the park to clear her head.
This is your life
And today is all you've got now
And
And today is all you'll ever have
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
London sucked in the fresh scent of summer as she paced slowly to the little bridge overlooking the creak. She pushed her legs in between the pillars, and dangled them over the fast flowing water. Her dark hair fluttered aimlessly around her face in the summer breeze as the ever-powerful sun shined down, reflecting off of the water. She'd learned to appreciate these things a bit more, as she had grown more mature through her years. Ah, her years. There's a road she didn't particularly want to stroll down today. Anytime she thought about her past, she thought about her mother, and the poor relationship they had. She avoided thinking about it whenever she could, but it was no use. Once it flared up in the back of her mind, she just let the tears flow freely. And they did so, dripping into the current of the creak below her.
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Is it everything you dreamed
That it would be
When the world was younger
And you had everything to lose
Everyone had regrets, but London was one to harp about them. She certainly didn't regret any part of her life that had anything to do with Cody, mostly just her parents. She blamed them for bringing her up with no sense of moral responsibility or knowledge that would help her in the world. She blamed them for trying to buy her affections instead of trying to be real parents who cared for her. She blamed them for abandoning her to go on an extravagant vacation, or a Caribbean cruise, when she needed them. She blamed them for making her blame them for everything. The only sense of herself she had was the love she felt for Cody and his family. She also blamed her mother for making it so hard for her to establish a relationship with her. She'd never forget the phone call she'd received informing her that her mother had passed away.
Yesterday is a kid in the corner
Yesterday is dead and over
Flashback
London sighed deeply as she watched the fading sights of Boston flash by her. She was taking a private jet to California where, she had been notified, her mother was hospitalized. There were several cysts in her liver and they were severe. Her liver function was currently compromised. Cody shifted in the seat next to her as her cell phone began ringing incessantly. She quickly picked it up only to find that her mom had died before she got there. She felt tears well up in her eyes as she remembered the last thing her mother said to her. 'See ya, kid.' That was all she got. Her mom was going to a spa in California and that was all her mother said to her when she left. No hug, no reassurance that she would be back soon, nothing. In fact, she never even heard when her mother would be back. She buried her now tear-stained face into Cody's shoulder, and sobbed for hours. Now, she never would come back.
End Flashback
Yeah, that was a day she'd never forget.
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be
This is your life
Is it everything you dreamed that it would be
When the world was younger
And you had everything to lose
"There you are," London heard a voice behind her call out. It belonged to an out-of-breath Cody. His voice was barely audible over the ripples of the bustling water.
"Interesting store. Never been to one like this before," he joked. She smiled.
"Just needed to clear my head, I guess," she replied, her voice cracking slightly because of her tears earlier.
"You've been crying. What's the matter?" He asked her, his caring nature taking over.
"Do you think I'm a bad person?" She asked him out of the blue. He looked bowled over. He wasn't really expecting that.
"Of course not. Why would you ask me that?" He was slightly confused at this point. She was being secretive and mysterious. When she acted this way, there was something wrong.
"I didn't make it to see my mom before she died. I don't think I made much of an effort," she admitted, sadly. He was dazed. She barely ever talked about her mom.
"You tried as hard as you could. It's not like she ever made it easy for you," Cody said, a little angrier then he meant it to sound. She wavered slightly.
"I guess our strained bond wasn't exactly a secret," London guessed, embarrassedly. Cody took a hold of her hand and kissed it softly.
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
(Don't close your eyes)
Don't close your eyes
Don't close your eyes
What would her life be like in ten years? She often wondered if she would turn out like her mother. She would fight like hell to prevent that. It would be over her dead body that she ever wound up hating someone she loved so deeply. That had happened to her parents' marriage. She would have to start believing that she wasn't her mother. She was her own person. No thanks to her parents. That was why she owed Cody her life. He taught her to be independent. He taught her how to live her life the way she wanted to, and not how everyone else wanted her to live it. He showed her how love was supposed to be. Eternal, and not over after eight years. She would be forever grateful to him.
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
London glanced around the emptying park and noticed that it was almost 12:30 pm. She'd been there for almost four hours. She noticed she had her head resting against Cody's shoulder automatically. He didn't seem to realize how late it was. She picked her head up slowly, and realized how hungry she was. Cody must have heard her stomach growl, because he laughed and said,
"You ready for breakfast, growly?" She giggled in return and followed him home. To their home.
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Are you who you wanna be?
This is your life
Is it everything you dreamed that it would be?
When the world was younger
And you had everything to lose
You had everything to lose
A/N: Alrighty then. I've got nothing to say now other then I hope you enjoyed that! Oh, and I made that a bit longer! Ciao!