-1Chapter 5: If I Just Breathe
A/N: Anddddd here's chapter five. This song is 'Breathe' by Michelle Branch. I know, I'm going crazy with the Michelle Branch songs, but oh well!
Disclaimer: I don't own the song, singer or the main characters. I do own the policemen in this chapter though.
Chapter Summary: The gunman is revealed. Meanwhile, what's London having second thoughts about?
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I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
And it's keeping you away
"You found out who shot Cody?" Asked an astounded London. They were still in Cody's hospital room, standing in front of a policeman. The cop had just told them the good news.
"Yes ma'am," the man replied, tilting his hat.
"How'd you do that?" Cody asked. The man, who'd introduced himself as Officer Harris, looked as though he'd been kicked.
"Well...uh...he confessed to the crime. Came in to the precinct yesterday. He's been charged with attempted murder. He'll be put away for quite a while," he replied.
"So, who is it?" London asked, her hand now covering her mouth, which had dropped open minutes earlier.
"We've identified him as Lucas Morrison," he stated. London's eyes could have been mistaken for saucers at this point.
"Luke?" She said in a barely perceptible whisper.
"Yeah. He said he knew both of you. We also identified the girl. Her name is Brianna Campbell," Officer Harris told them, now twisting his hat around in his hands.
"Why would he confess?" Cody asked, now angry.
"He said he wanted both of you to know who did this to Mr. Martin," he replied. Cody's fists were clenched. He was going to go find Luke and strangle him. Yeah, that's it.
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
Cause I don't wanna waste another moment
Saying things we never meant to say
"No Cody," London said soothingly, on the ride home.
"You condone what he did?" Cody asked her, perplexedly.
"Of course not! But if you kill him, you'll end up in prison. You think I want that?" She asked, trying to calm him down. Cody took a couple of deep breaths, trying to compose himself.
"Your right. I should just calm down," He said more to himself then to London. He was quiet for a few seconds.
"But I just want to run him over. Then back up and do it again!" He exclaimed to her. She gave an annoyed sigh. She realized it was pointless to try to calm him down. He was going to go on about it forever. Not that she didn't blame him. She was furious about it too. She just didn't want him to do something stupid. Get himself into trouble, you know? Cody threw her a sideways glance.
"I'm sorry," he told her softly.
"For what?" She responded, sipping on a vanilla milkshake.
"For putting you through all this," he answered, taking her hand.
"What are you talking about? Compared to what your going through, It's nothing," she replied.
"I love you," he said.
"I love you too," she responded, bequeathing him a warm smile.
And I take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I've been waiting for a chance
To let you in
The ride home seemed like it was taking forever. Although, it gave London some time to perceive everything that had happened. She felt like crying, remembering that fateful night. She found it weird how, even after everything Cody had been through in the last couple of days, he was only worried about how she was doing. Guess that's what love is. Cody was wonderful to her. She trusted him wholly. And while she felt superb about it, it scared her sometimes. He scared her sometimes. She'd never felt so strongly or truly about anyone before. Her sentiment had gone crazy long ago. It all started with him. It all ended with him. She didn't know how to handle it.
If I just breathe
Every little space between
I know
Everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
And what if she ever lost him? She'd never be able to function without him. She had come so close to losing him just days before. The thought sent her over the edge on the inside. Her soul quivered at the concept of having to live with him gone. It would be too much to bear. And there she was again. Thinking only of herself. But she couldn't help but be selfish when it came to his life. He had her feet planted firmly on the ground. He was her protector and the love of her life. But she wondered sometimes...
Well, the talks are overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real
What had she ever done to help him? He had made such an impact on her life, teaching her, and loving her. But had she even done that for him? She couldn't remember a time when she had done something so spectacular, or memorable for him. Of course, he always went around bragging to everyone about her. But for what? Did she even deserve Cody in her life? She'd always thought that loving him was enough. But maybe she had been wrong all along.
And I give you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I've been waiting 'til I see it
In your eyes
When they finally arrived at the hotel, London was still lost deep inside of her brain. These were the thoughts that often haunted her. But still, she appreciated the long, reflective ride. As she collected Cody's belongings and carried them up to suite 2330, she spoke a word to no one about the silent argument she'd just had inside of her own head. Not even Maddie. She and Cody unpacked his things in complete silence. He could walk a bit better now.
"Is everything okay?" He asked her, grabbing her arm when they'd finished. She gave him a fake smile.
"Everything's fine," she lied, in her normal peppy voice.
"Your lying," he said with a sigh, seeing through her untruth. She gave a small sigh.
"I was just thinking," she said, as if it were no big deal.
"Uh oh," he said, sitting down beside her on the bed.
"Why do you say it like that?" She asked, a little insulted.
"Because when you "think" you question your whole existence," he admitted, making air quotes around the word 'think'. She looked hurt at this comment. He gave her a look as though to tell her to stop denying it.
"Okay, fine. Maybe I do that. It's not my fault though. It's my brain's fault," she stated, crossing her arms.
If I just breathe
Every little space between
I know
Everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
"Well, what was your brain thinking about?" Cody laughed, putting both of his arms around her.
"Lot's of things," she mused, a slight frown appearing on her normally perky and spirited face.
"Talk to me London. What were you thinking about?" He asked, nuzzling the side of her face.
"Well, you know how you always say I saved your life in a way? I don't see where you got that. I don't see how I help you in any way. I don't even see how I deserve you," she explained, a few tears falling without restraint. He wiped them away and looked solemnly at her for a moment.
"London, listen to me. I don't want you to ever feel that way. You deserve the world, but can you settle for me?" He asked, a small smile emerging on his face. She smiled and closed her eyes tightly.
"I always have and I always will," she sobbed freely.
Breathe
So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you'll hear me
Do you hear me
London could have sworn that she felt Cody crying too, as they clung to each other for about an hour.
"Dinner!" They heard Carey yell from the kitchen. They both glanced at the door of the bedroom and looked back at each other.
"Will you feed me again?" He asked her with a chuckle, wiping a tear from her cheek.
"I think it's your turn to feed me," London pouted in a teasing way. They laughed for a few seconds afterwards.
"I think I'm gonna take a shower first. Go ahead and eat," she told him, pressing a soft kiss to his cheek. He watched her walk towards the bathroom.
If I just breathe
Every little space between
I know
Everything is alright
Breathe
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
"I think I'll wait for you," he said to thin air, seeing as how she'd already gone into the bathroom and closed the door. He smiled slightly, and laid back on the bed, wandering into a short dreamless nap.
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
A/N: Okay...Well, the real drama doesn't start 'til later, just to let you know. Just about everyone will be involved in that. Well, Ciao!