Chapter 3

As Ryan sat on the plane he watched all the other people board. Kirsten being Kirsten had booked him first class the row directly too his left had a couple that couldn't be much older than him they both seemed really excited that they were going on a trip, all he could here was, "how much fun they were going to have and how they couldn't wait".

All the talk of fun made Ryan sick.

Ryan kept fidgeting with his seatbelt he thought he was all clear and that he would have two seats to himself to take a nap. The sooner he got there and spoke with Summer the sooner he could continue on with his non-existence. Just as the stewardess was about to close the door a very attractive women entered the plain she must have been in her mid to late twenties sandy blonde hair green eyes.

"Oh this is me" she stood there looking at Ryan's coat he looked at her and she smiled at him Ryan grabbed his jacket off of her seat and turned to look back out the window " I hate flying" the women had mentioned to Ryan. Ryan gave his familiar grin and nodded his head then went back to looking out the window. "My names Rachel, so are you flying for business or pleasure?" Ryan looked back at her and very quietly "look I'm sure you're a really nice person and all I'm just not a real talker!" Rachel had bit of a surprised look on her face but she quickly shrugged it off you could tell she was a very upbeat person. "So are you having a bad day?" Ryan just shoots her a look and as he starts to speak "Look I'm pretty much terrified of flying and talking helps me relax!" Ryan takes in what she had just said. "My names Ryan, Ryan Atwood" he reaches out to shake her hand.

Rachel and Ryan spend most of the flight talking about themselves. Rachel had been visiting a prospect for a new club she was considering opening. Turns out her family own several high-end nightclubs mainly near major colleges!

So what brings you out east? Ryan thinks about Seth and Summer for a moment considering his options, "I have a friend going to brown!" Rachel "would that be a girlfriend?" Ryan can tell she's sizing him up. Yes it's a girl but we are just friends! The two share a glance. I've never had a friend fly all the away across the country just to visit me, She must be really special to you! She's my brothers girlfriend um ex well he asked me to visit her for him! Wow you must owe him pretty big to go this far for him?

Ryan looks at Rachel and realizes she's going to keep probing him on the subject. "Look my brother burned down a building a few months back, and then we lost one of our friends in a car accident, Seth that's my brother ended up having probation which didn't allow him to leave the state the friend that died was Marisa she was best friends with Seth's girlfriend Summer who is going to Brown it seems there having a falling out because she sent him a letter saying it's over and since he can't leave the state here I am!

Rachel takes all this in for a moment "wow I guess you have had a bad year?" Ryan yeah I guess things are just a par for the life I've had! Rachel feels bad for pushing the issue now "Ryan look I'm sorry if I pushed!" It's not your fault I guess, I don't know how this whole thing is going to turn out. "See I was driving the car that wrecked and Summer gave me a hug before she left but I could tell she blamed me for what happened."

If she is your friend Ryan she won't blame you! Those words didn't make Ryan feel any better about the situation seeing Summer would just defeat the whole reason Ryan was hiding in the pool house guilt, Guilt for killing Marisa, Guilt for destroying so many peoples lives and just guilt for still being alive.

Over the intercom the pilot announces the weather conditions and informs them to fasten their seatbelts to prepare for landing.

Well Ryan I hope all goes well for you and I'm sure once you see Summer you'll realize it's all in your head. I'm not sure about that Rachel! Well if you need a friend or someone to talk with here's my card you can normally find me there every night just ask for Rachel. Thanks, but I don't plan on being here very long. Well you know where to find me if you need anything. Ryan and Rachel share a hug in the airport and just like that she's gone.

Ryan opts to take a cab he hasn't been much of a driver since the whole accident Ryan decides to check into the hotel before going to visit Summer being on a plain for almost 8 hours is no way to spend the day.

Ryan steps out of the shower, he wipes the steam of the mirror as he stands there for a moment looking at his shoulder where he has a large scar from the accident he tilts his head to the left and can still see the scar on his head. Ryan walks into his Room and sits down on the chair next to the desk he runs his hands through his hair, tracing his finger over his scar on his head he is clearly starting to breath heavy as you see a tear fall from his eye.

A/N

I know my grammar sucks I have decided to keep this as my format I will try and get better hope you enjoyed this chapter.

I haven't decided what to do with this story yet as far as couples and pairings so for now I'm just going to focus on the pain.

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