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Help me so that I can give you and entertaining story!

On with the show!

Summer was about to fall asleep when Marissa came in barely making any noise and that's what got summers attention.

Usually when she came back from being with Ryan she wouldn't stop complaining about how annoying he was, asking herself and the world why he had to chase her and bother her so much.

Most of the time she was telling herself all that to stop herself from giving him a shot but tonight she wasn't she was juts numb and quiet and that was something summer wasn't expecting.

Summer: what's going on?

Marissa: god you scared me! I thought you were asleep!

Summer ignored her and when straight to the point like she usually did.

Summer: why aren't you annoying me like you always do by telling me how annoying Ryan is?

Marissa: like I said I thought you were asleep. She said in a low voice and a little annoyed while getting into bed, causing summer to move (yes they shared the bed)

Summer: yeah right like that would stop you! Come on tell me what's going on!

Marissa: its late and I'm tired you said it yourself it's the same old story, she said as she turned off the bedside lamp and laid in the bed with her back turned to summer.

Summer who was resting in her arm facing Marissa's back

Summer: come on Marissa what's going on! She said shaking Marissa

Marissa: summer just sleep! She let it out a little frustrated

Summer: hey I know you, not for a long time but I know you, specially when it comes to Ryan, I know what every single reaction caused by him means and if you aren't trying to convince yourself that he is just a immature pain in the ass! Then it's because he did something that proved you that he isn't.

Marissa: summer…

Summer: don't summer me, come on it's the first time I actually wanna hear about it and I know you wanna tell me.

Marissa stayed quiet for a while and just when summer was about to give up and go to sleep Marissa leaned her self in one arm facing summer.

Marissa: ok but this is very complicated I don't want you just to listen I want you to understand it and help me.

Summer: well I can assure I will listen, I can't assure that I'll understand but I will try but why would you ask my help its not like I know too much in that department.

Marissa: come on you know more that you think you do, seriously sum you surprise me every time you speak you have this weird combination, you are young but think like an older person, you have all this grown up ideals and you follow them but still you act like any other kid who just wants to have fun!

Summer: as much as I enjoy being flattered and told how amazing I am!

Faking that, cocky egocentric voice she always uses when talking about herself.

Marissa interrupted her

Marissa: don't get too exited

Summer smiled and told her

Summer: just tell me already

Marissa: ok here's the deal, you know I was with Ryan

Summer just nodded and Marissa continued

Marissa: well we were taking a walk and suddenly he grabbed my hand, but that's not what surprises me, it's the fact that I was kind of glad he did, and even though it didn't bothered me I wanted him to think that because I don't want anything happening between us.

Since summer didn't said a word she was trying to understand, Marissa continued

When he grabbed my hand I turned to him to tell him that he shouldn't do that, but I couldn't help it but smile, he looked so nervous, he was even scared of my reaction I could tell and when I didn't say anything his face changed from that to a very very happy one, he looked so cute!

Marissa let out a moan of desperation and frustration combined with other mixed up emotions and buried her face in the pillow.

Summer stayed quiet for a while trying to process the information and when she finally felt she got it she spoke.

Summer: ok this is what I understood, he grabbed your hand but that didn't bothered you, you were actually enjoying it, what bothered you was that you were enjoying it?

Marissa: pretty much

Summer: Men we do are complicated!

Marissa: I know it doesn't make any sense when I say it but in my head it does!

Summer: no it does makes sense, well I think it does, just answer me this

Summer: do you like him?

Marissa: we both know the answer to that, she said very frustrated and looking at summer like she had just asked the obvious question ever.

Summer: I know, just answer

Marissa: I know this is some kind of cheap physiology trick you are using

Summer: well do you want me to understand and help you

Marissa just remained quiet

Summer: that's what I thought, and it isn't cheap physiology, mocking being hurt

Marissa just rolled her eyes and summer continued

Summer: so we've established that you like him and we know he likes you and wants something serious with you, now hypothetically speaking all is in favour for you two to have a great relationship, all your family knows him, likes him, and trusts him so that wont be a problem, I've seen you guys and sometimes when you are in peace one can see you get each other, I know you can talk to him and you feel safe and comfortable when you are with him, besides he makes you laugh…a lot… am I right?

Marissa who by this point had a smile on her face nodded and spoke

Marissa: yeah you are right about all that stuff

Summer: ok, now the question is why don't you want anything happening between you guys, or better said why do you fight something between you two when we both know you want to give him a shot

Marissa: that's just the thing summer

I do want to give a shot so much that it bothers me, but more than that I want to not want to give him a shot!

Do you understand?

Summer: hold on I'm tying, geez every time I think I have the answer you go and change the question

Marissa: I know its complicated and I really whish it wouldn't be

Summer: ok you say you do want something serious with him and that's the thing that bothers you; you would want to not like him?

Marissa: yes! Again with the frustrated moan

Summer: but why?

Marissa: ok how can I put it so that it makes sense to you, she was asking herself more than summer

Before summer could say anything Marissa's face illuminated you could almost see the light bulb lighting up.

Marissa: let's put it this way, lest make the example with you and Seth

Summer: why would that example make sense to me?

Marissa ignored her and continued

Lest say Seth told you he likes you and we know you like him too, summer made a face and was about to protest when Marissa continued, hypothetically speaking summer, even though we both know it isn't hypothetically.

Summer was going to protest again but Marissa didn't let her

Marissa: don't even try to deny it

Summer: I don't like him

Marissa: yeah and I don't like Ryan

Summer: but you do! Summer said a little to frustrated

Marissa: so do you, we could go on all night long so just face it, you like my cousin

Summer: ok i won't say he isn't cute, and we've had a great time, there may be a little attraction but that's it, from that to me liking him its really different

Marissa: how it's that different, it sounds the same to me

Summer: no it isn't, when I say I like a guy its more than physical, its because I know him and like his personality as well, its serious but without feelings involved, yet, but they are starting to develop.

Marissa: and you say I'm complicated

Summer: shut up I thought we were talking about you and Ryan

Marissa: we are but I need you to feel it so that u can understand

Summer: ok ok I'll do it, let's say I like Seth and he tells me he likes me too and wants something serious with me, but he has a girlfriend?

Marissa: let's say he and Anna broke up

Summer: so he broke up with his girlfriend and goes after me and you think I'm gonna be waiting for him with arms wide open? Please

Marissa: lest just say he doesn't have a girlfriend would you give him a shot

Summer: I don't know, I cant say it'll required me to be there to know, but I think i wouldn't

Marissa: exactly! Now tell me why?

Summer: I don't know, I mean maybe some part of me would like to but I know him

We do have chemistry and its great when I'm with him, sometimes I even forget he has a girlfriend and that he is a player, but then I remember and distant myself form him.

Marissa: that exactly what happens with me and Ryan, but he doesn't have a girlfriend, he has a lot!

Summer: well yeah but that's just because he has never cared for one of then to settle down besides there are not girlfriends they are just random girls

Marissa: I know but still

Summer: I get it I really do, but I do think he really likes you and he knows that if something happens with you it's serious.

Marissa: yeah but what if even if he cares about me, he cant help it, look I really want to be with him but I don't wanna get hurt I really don't want that, I couldn't take it from him.

Summer: Marissa out of fear you may be denying your self happiness, if you have fear you aren't going to do anything, I know it's easy for me to say it, but he's been after you for what, a year already come on I think he deserves a chance, plus he may be a player but I don't see him as a cheater.

Marissa: I don't either but what if he's like Seth and has a girlfriend, doesn't cheat on her but still when she's not around behaves like if he didn't have one.

Summer: well I guess you got to take the risk and find out.

Marissa: I know, and I had already chose not to take the risk, and everything was great, then he comes and confuses me, I swear I was about to tell him I would give him a shot

Summer: and would that be so bad, what have you got to loose, its your decision, think about it and only chose when you are ready I don't want you to regret it no matter what you chose.

Marissa: but how do I chose that's the thing I don't know anymore that's why I need your help.

Summer: you just got to decide if he and what you have or may have its worth the risk.

Marissa: ugh I was afraid you'll say that! She let out a moan of frustration, desperation, annoyance and lots of other stuff.

Summer: well that's why its been said that "Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn't." Ericka Jong I think.

Marissa: why do you always have to bring your philosophy to the talk, at lest one quote.

Summer: because if I know something about life its thank to philosophy and quotes, she said while laying in bed, now I already helped you to figure it out, the rest is up to you, good night.

Marissa: I hate you when you're right

summer: the you must hate me all the time, she said faking her cocky voice and closing her eyes

Marissa: shut up! she said and close her eyes as well, but started thinking instead of sleeping

Finally after a while Marissa made a decision, one that will take a lot of will power to maintain but she knew it was the right thing to do.

OK CONGRATS IF YOU MADE IT THIS FAR, ITS KIND OF LONG BUT YOU KNOW GIRLS SIDE OF THE SITUATION IS ALWAYS MORE COMPLICATED AND THE TALKS WELL YOU KNOW IT TAKES A WHILE.

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK SO FAR.