DISCLAIMER: I'm in negotiations with fox and josh Schwartz but there isn't a close deal yet.
Here s the second part and the last chapter of this story, there isn't any dialogue its more of how they feel, and its like a few months after summer stopped hanging out with them just like that everybody continued living. I know at the beginning was lousy but hey at least it fits the title, now it may not be that great now but I cant help it but feel proud, after all I did this and some people thought it wasn't that bad and other even thought it was good, I'm not being cocky but some stuff weren't that bad, at least for me but this is like my baby and you know how even if you suck your mom tells you, you did great well that's what happens to me, that what moms do!
now a some things i wanna clear up, yes there is gonna be a sequel i had alredy mention since the beginning that at least two parts there were going to be, the third depends on the response i get but mostly on what happens on real life since this is a real story translated into an oc fic.
now to luke i´m glad you thougth it was fine and even if it seems to be hard to take the story further i think i can do it, i said it from the beginning this is nothing, the real thing its about tocome, now just one more thing are you a girl or a guy lol i´m just curious.
also some poeple mentioned that they should stop denieng their feelings, at this part of the story i dont think that is happening yet, i think mostly they havent realise what they feel or there wasnt a chance for real feelings to actually develop, so you cant denie what you dont feel.
Enjoy and leave a thought, you know the second part is coming and I have a lot of ideas but haven't started yet maybe there's some ideas you have we could work out if there is please tell me!
Also I'm going on vacations for a week to the beach, mazatlan to be exact so I will not post until I get back. (sorry for the long AN but I cant keep my mouth shut)
That's what summer does, she hates it but she cant help it, and its not all her fault either, sometimes there's no reason, there's no explanation at least not at that exact moment, in this life it's all new its all unexpected and its all mystery even it is really all the same, most of all that happens we never know why.. But there are a few that make sense with time, some which when in a time made you cry, now they make you who you are, truth to be told…
she doesn't care anymore, what's done is done, she can't change the past and she has no interest in it, all she can do is learn from what she's lived and do better next time.
And even though now she can't care less about Seth Cohen and after having a great friendship something went wrong and summer and Marissa started to grow apart, she doest regret what happened because….
A year ago she went trough a lot of stuff, she had a lot of family problems and a lot of issues to face, and it was good to have for a while a distraction, Seth and Marissa, also Ryan, were there in a lot of good times, she laugh a lot with them and even if things didn't worked out it was fun for a while, now all she can do its remember the good times and hope for some more to come in the future.
Life goes on no matter what and you have to move with it or you're screwed, now summer is in high school and met new people, good friends and is making memories, at the end that's all life's about, having a good time living it and then a blast remembering it.
Her life is going good, she's having a good time, it isn't great but it isn't bad, she's just living it because she has to, she dreams on being older so she can move out, she wants to get away from all she knows she wants to go to a place where everything's new and she can built the life she's always dreamed of.
She thinks she'll be happy then, she thinks she'll have what here she cant find even if she doesn't yet knows what that is, but maybe if she looks closely she'll find out that what can change her life and make her happy its right here so close to her but she cant see it, she doesn't know it yet, ..she's about to find out.
Seth Cohen has been trough a lot in the past months, he doesn't do good in school not because he Is stupid because he is really smart, he just doesn't seem to find in school what he wants even if he doesn't exactly know what that is, he loves soccer and he's good at it, he wants it to be his life. So in school things are going bad, they wanted to kick him out but they will give him a chance, his mother decided to change him to another school because she knew he didn't wanted to be there what was the point in that?
He was moved to where Anna was, they started to hang out more than they used to, and that wasn't bad, they had a good time, Seth was starting to get closer and closer to her, after all she had been with him for a while so she deserved his trust...right?
It was all going good, school was working out, and he was behaving like he should always had, he respected his girlfriend and didn't flirted around, his feelings where growing deep.
They would spend all day together from morning to night, Anna was kind of jealous so he's eyes were always on her, they would try to go out but after half an hour they would be back all time in his bedroom just making out. His mother would tell him it's not gonna last, you're just keeping company to each other and one day you're gonna realise that it isn't healthy the relationship you have.
They did everything together and it felt right, Seth Cohen was glad things were working out, but for Anna other story was, she enjoyed being with him but not as much as she'd like to, it was more like friendship what they had.
If it had happened before she would have been the happiest person alive but it took him a while to figure out the way he had to act.
They had been together for two years now and only at this point things were going right.
She hadn't realised that she wasn't happy and when Seth finally decided to come closer he actually pushed her away, she felt weird because it wasn't the same, he had changed and she wasn't ready to deal with the new Seth, the old Anna would want the new Seth but he wasnt there yet, and the new Seth wanted the old Anna wanst there anymore, you don't always get what you want, they could have had something great but they missed their chance,She couldn't really understand why she felt that way but she couldn't help it, it just wasn't the same, it wasnt what she wanted, what she needed or what made her happy.
maybe a while ago but not now, not anymore.
Days passed by, months and even a year and Seth Cohen and summer Roberts got away from each other more and more, before the camp, they wouldn't speak to each other but they would wave at each other or occasionally share a smile, during the camp they were best friends, soul mates even,(without even knowing it)after the camp they would hang out together because they had friends in common but it wasn't the same anymore.
Now they were two strangers with no interest at all in each other trapped in the same world. They would pass next to each other almost bumping and never by any chance their eyes would meet, they didnt ignore eachother not even that because that would mean they still cared, it was like they didnt know each other like they never did.
And about summer and Marissa it was mostly the same the only difference was that even if Seth and summer acted as if they didn't know each other, they had seen each other around and summer knew almost everything that went on in Seth's life, not because she cared but because he was Seth Cohen Mr. popular, its like with Britney, you know all that's going on in her life not because you care but because you cant not know when that's all you hear.
And with Marissa it was completely different summer hadn't seen or heard anything about Marissa in a while almost a year now, she didn't really cared either because Marissa was no longer part of her life but she wouldn't mind hearing from her.
But still summer's life is now far far away from Marissa's, now she's just a girl she met, at least that's what summer thinks and how she feels but if something can be said about summer, it is that she is the most unpredictable person alive, she always do things you werent expecting and that was the beauty about her, when you think you´ve figure her out the slightest detail or lack of it could change everything and what happend with seth cohen was a proof of that.
Its funny how things change and we don't even notice, one day you wake up your name is Seth Cohen you are the most popular kid in school thanks to your looks, you have the hottest girlfriend and still the freedom to experience, then you went to a camp expecting to spend your last weekend bored but to your surprised it wasn't like that, you got to meet this awesome girl who made you feel like no one else ever had, but the time wasn't right and things didn't go far, and even if yet you cant figure out what it was and if you wanted it togo farit was all so special and still you soon forgot about it , she was still part of your life because she became friends with your cousin and you kept hanging out for a while but soon the teenage hormones took over and all that special bond was replaced for hot ass girl.
Special unique girl in the past was buried, you were send to high school and the fun started, you kept your life apart from the girl once took your sleep away, your thoughtswere replaced by the girl that took your innocence away and showed you what pain was like.
Yes that bitch, you dated for two years and a half , ok Seth Cohen wasn't a saint but he never cheated, he did loved her
for gods sake she took two years of my life! I spend all my time with her; she was part of my life!
Didn't it meant anything to her, all those times we shared if not as a couple as friends, how could she? And why did it have to be that way?
Never mind the face that you put on
In front of me
and never mind the pain
You've put me...Through
Look what you did
is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me
Never mind the trip that you've been on
or so it seems
never mind the lies that you told, my tears
Look what you did
is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
was meant for me
3 DOORS DOWN- IT'S NOT ME
Anna just decided Seth wasn't good enough anymore they were growing up and the most popular guy was nothing compared to what she could find out there, and as muchseth wanted to blame iton her he couldnt, he knew he was an ass,he didnt didntthink of himself as a victim but on topof all thathe would never forget the ache in his heart, he didnt hated her, he hatedthe way she acted, he kept some kindof mixed feelings towards her, hewould never look at her the way he used to, hecould never be anything with her anymore, hewanted nothing to do with herbut deep down new it did him more good than bad becase thatchanged him, itmade himgrow up, it was like if some big hands grabed him by the arms and shaked him really hard and telling him "wake up" over and over again.
Seth Cohen arrived to his girlfriend's house, to spend the day with her like he always had, but to his surprise she was with another guy, she didn't even bother to explain she just kicked him out and chose him over Seth.
and it didnt hurt because of anna it was more like, why when he was the biggest ass alive she always stayed by his side and when he finally became worth of her she just bailed.
Why does it happens that when you finally allow yourself to be there, to be counted on, when you finally get involved everything fails, when you finally decide to take the chance its too late..
The truth is it hurl like hell, But he's not gonna die, she was just a girl and other he can find
Maybe he's better off, who knows what life may bring, new life, new love.
But maybe you don't need to start over, all you need is to accept what you once denied, old feelings may return but not the old you.
Once I heard "i can't go back because i was a different person then"
i cant think of other words that will make more sense to me right now. After all I've been trough, all that has passed, all i want is to forget the past and only share the good it has done on me but I'm so confused i don't know what would that be.
I've tried so hard to change who I am, without realising I already have, I'm not the same but I'm not as different as I thought I'll be after all this time.
It's hard to think than just a year ago, last summer felt like a whole life when this summer was pretty light.
All i know is that I'm at a time in my life where i´m sick of thinking, of crying and being dramatic, all i wanna do right know its have fun, be happy .. enjoy! from this moment on thats all that matters now i believe that life is as complicated as you make it.
All that happened before it matters because it made me who I am but other than that the past is past and all I'm concerned it's what my life can be.
That's what summer Roberts thought when school was about to start, a new beginning to make things right.
But why do always when people wants to change, they talk about a "new start" and a "new life" we only got one life and we only get one start, when we are born both of them are done, you can never start over, and you cant forget your past, if you wanna change, nothing would matter if you move to other place, everything would be the same but in a different place, you realise you've changed when you get to live the same stuff twice but you do it in a different way the second time.
Not everyone has the chance to do it, but Seth and summer they werent as done as the thought they were, life its pretty weird and poeple of your past can easly come back just like that and they can be something completely different from what they were and yet deep down the same. it all depends of what i have no idea and i may never have, when you are face with thereaction of you actions all that matters its the way you handle it.
"When life gives you a second chance, you can't afford to make the same mistakes again"
Back then Seth needed to grow up and summer well she wasn't ready either, now they've grow and changed will that be enough or it really wasn't meant to be,some things are just too much to take and you just cant deal.
The truth is we live the same stuff over and over again, life is like a big book full of different stories that follow the same path, and if you were to compare them you would be amaze of how we live the same old stuff the thing its that some decide to live it a different way next time while others are stuck in the same routine for the rest of their life's, some are able to change the way they are living right away, to others it takes time, and some never get the chance… but opportunities present itself over and over again maybe in different ways the thing is that if you're not ready to deal you won't even notice, it all lies In the way you look at it, you can either have the glass half full or half empty.
But this time, even if it seemed the same, it was different, why? Because they were different, summer thought it was over, if it didn't worked out the first time then it wasn't meant to be, Seth couldn't even comprehend what had happened so he didn't really know anything, he wasn't able to realise the great thing that laid in front of him, so both of them thought (by different reasons) keep the memory and move on, but sometimes when you think you're done, you haven't even started yet, maybe it wasn't the end of a lousy story, maybe it was the lousy beginning of a great story.
Ok this is it, the first part its done and even thought it may be little confusing things would clear up with time or you´ll get even more confused i dont really know my self anymore. The second part would be name "it could have been great" look for it, I think ss fans are going to be more pleased with that than with this one, believe me I am a ss fan too but sometimes there's more going on than what we see on TV, seth and summer are an amazing couple but that's not enough you cant pretend things don't happen, but I don't know, please tell me what you thought of the first part and like I've always said, suggestion are welcome!
tell me what you think…. Did it suck? Or did you like it?