Please Don't Tell Her
Summary: What if, instead of Lorelai seeking comfort from Chris, Luke is the one who goes to find comfort, and then tries to make it right.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my pretty new computer, and that isn't fully paid for yet, so in fact I own nothing.
Rating: Teen.
Luke drove up quietly and parked behind the diner. He would just make Lorelai think he slept at the Diner, and she wouldn't be the wiser. The whole town wouldn't know. It would be his little secret. But then he realized it was almost six in the morning, and of course people would notice, his clunky green truck driving down Main Street. Taylor would notice, Miss Patty would notice, and they would all tell Lorelai.
He had made the biggest mistake of his life, but after the last few months, he felt he deserved it. He had been the dependent, ever patient Luke Danes, and now he had blown his whole life, with one stupid action.
After he watched Lorelai walk away from him, he felt the need to drink something. Of course it was after nine o clock on a Friday, so no alcohol could be bought within thirty miles of Stars Hallow, and he figured, he might as well talk to Anna while driving out of his way to buy some beer.
He had stopped by, and she looked at him in that way, she used to. Like she got him in one quick glance. It never lasted, but it worked for him in that moment, and a beer turned into a few, and few turned into stuff that was harder. A few shots, turned into a blur of everything, and the next thing he knew he woke up in bed with his ex.
And he thought back to when he was so angry. When Lorelai had been a friend to Christopher, and it had seemed so horrible at the time. Like she betrayed him, and now sitting behind the wheel of his truck, with the smell of sex and alcohol on him, he felt the dirtiest he had in all of his life.
In that moment, he truly got what she had feared. That if the other found out, that was it. All this time and effort and small moments, and huge declarations, were all for nothing. Because they had messed up. Not even they, he had. He was the loser in this scenario.
The door squeaked as he opened it, thankful that he had decided the day before to have a slow day and not open until the afternoon. The stairs creaked underneath his boot covered feet, and with each squeak, his head throbbed, and his heart broke. He reminded himself of a philandering husband. What Lorelai probably would have had to deal with, if she had followed her parent's plan?
For the first time, he regretted that he lived surrounded by memories of his father. Because if his father was alive, he would given him that look, that made every inch of pride falter, and make him feel like he was one inch tall. He had tainted everything he worked so hard for, and he was a disappointment.
Hell even his usually screwy sister, managed to find some piece of normalcy. And so had he. No longer was he the loner of Stars Hallow. But a man who was out most weekends, whether he liked it or not. But now, when Lorelai found out about what he was really up to, he would be a loner, and worst off, he would be the man that broke that Gilmore girl.
He opened the frosted glass door, and he was surprised to find Lorelai sitting there on the couch, her face lined with running mascara and worry, and the guilt he felt as he climbed those stairs, tripled in an instant. 'Luke?' Lorelai asked.
He stepped closer and she was up in an instant. She threw herself in Luke's arms, and he felt her deathtrap grip on him and he tried not to wince at the sudden light in the apartment. And all he could think was, that he had made the biggest mistake of his life, and now he had to tell her.
'Where have you been?' Lorelai asked and he stopped, and tried to figure out what he was going to say. Every excuse escaped him in that moment. All he could think of was that she deserved to know the truth.
'Nowhere, where did you go Lorelai' he said instead and she looked at him. 'I went home and tried to figure out why you won't marry me.' She said and he sighed. He could have said something about waiting nine years for her, but at that moment, he got a one second memory of Anna and his body flush together and he blushed and mumbled something about not the right time.
Lorelai frowned, and he tried to act like there was nothing wrong. 'Luke, where were you last night?'