Please Don't Tell Her

Summary: What if, instead of Lorelai seeking comfort from Chris, Luke is the one who goes to find comfort, and then tries to make it right.

Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my pretty new computer, and that isn't fully paid for yet, so in fact I own nothing.

Rating: Teen.

Luke hung up the phone after trying too explaining his actions to Anna. Not only had he managed to ruin things with Lorelai, anger Rory, he had managed hurt Anna in the process. He had tried to explain that it wasn't intentional, and that he never meant for it to happen.

Luke was in a different place; he had never messed up so much as right now. He didn't know where to go, and he had no one left. He was sure that Liz would finally get her time to say the words he had said a million times to her before. 'I told you so.'

He had a few scattered friends he had met through his life, and he stayed in touch with some, but Lorelai had been his life for so long, even before she knew about his feelings. Luke had trapped himself, with no way to claw himself out. The only person he could think to call was his nephew. But he felt bad about dragging Jess back into this world.

Jess had managed to set everything right again, making himself into the man Luke had known he would be. And it was definitely not fair to ruin all of that, by forcing the very demons in his past, in his face once more.

Luke sat on his bed and really thought about the last happy moment he truly had. A pure moment, full of the promise of tomorrow, and no regrets, no concessions, Just pure unadulterated joy to be there at that moment. He had a lot of regrets, and a lot of lost time.

But he knew that it was the first time he kissed Lorelai. He didn't know how she felt; he just needed to kiss her. He had many torturous dreams of doing just that, and here he got to do it for real, and he felt like some stupid kid at that moment.

And before he knew it she was kissing him, and then of course a naked Kirk had to ruin it, and they got pretty close, but never did they have that kind of moment again. It was always missing something. Not that any moment with Lorelai was usually full of craziness and love. Well it used to be filled with that, and now it was nothing. Thanks to him.

So he did another cowardly act and he picked up the phone and dialed his nephew's New Philadelphia number. 'Hey Jess, it's Luke.'

Meanwhile Lorelai sat on her daughters couch and tried to laugh as the three stooges fooled around. Normally she would be laughing so much tears would fall down her face, but now, after the events in the last twenty four hours, not even the stooges could make her laugh. Her face hurt from the fake smiling she had done since her daughter came back after talking to Luke.

She had acted like she was hurt but not quite as devastated as she was at that moment. Her heart was truly breaking, and she had no one to blame but herself, and of course the cheater in this. Luke. She found herself hating herself, for worrying if he was ok. Luke wasn't a cheater; he wasn't the type of person to betray someone he loves, so it made her worry that if he in fact ever loved her. Could it all be in her head? The whole thing, a magnificent ruse to convince her that she wasn't so alone in the world?

But that couldn't be, Luke and her had perfect moments, brief but perfect moments in time, and no one can fake that. It was just impossible. Wasn't it? Maybe it was all just there in the moment, and she never was supposed to keep hold onto it.

Lorelai sighed and looked out of the window and wished that things could go back to normal. But that was something Lorelei didn't even remember anymore. Was her normal, alone watching other people find that thing she had yearned for?

She looked down at her finger, the one adorned with a beautiful ring that once meant the world to her. She considered taking it off, but then that would mean that it had happened. She had once again lost it, so close to it actually happening for her.

Lorelai sighed and looked down at the ring again, and she glared. 'Stop mocking me.' She whispered.

Luke grunted when the phone rang at three in the morning. He almost didn't answer it. 'Lo?' Luke muttered, his mind fuzzy with sleep. It didn't last that long however, he hardly said anything as the person spoke to him. When he hung up, his feelings this morning, was nothing until now. He picked up the phone and sighed. Hoping that he could get through.

'I need you to help me.' He said desperately. 'I know, please? It's April.'

Author's Note:

Hey guys, all your support is awesome. I will try to update quite a bit before I leave for England next Wednesday.. here is the new playlist.

Chapter 4: Rest of my Life by Rilo Kiley (one of the best bands out there right now.)

Chapter 5: Beautiful Goodbye by Amanda Marshall. Amazing Canadian singer.

Chapter 6: Emotional (until the crickets guide you back) Rilo kiley.. are you even shocked?

Hope you guys like this. I finally figured out what I want to happen. Yay me. I had to sit and watch the whole fifth season. The first few episodes were amazing weren't they?